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Yay to feeling kinda normal.

Saturday, October 08, 2011

I actually have to work on walking normally after favoring my foot for a week. Thats ok though. I'm so happy that I'm going to be ok for my trip. We have a wedding today. I haven't tried my dress on yet. I'm a bit worried about how it will fit. We will see. I'm going to put the inserts in my dress shoes. Not my sexy stilletoes that I would usually wear when going to a wedding with the hubby but my funeral heels :). Comfortable and low heel. Thats ok too. I'm so happy I can even be there at this point. I will chair dance at the table :). The kids will be home cleaning for me. We are having Adams family birthday party tomorrow and alot needs to get done. Joe and I went to a local little resturant for dinner while the boys were at rehersal. I had a small house salad with balsalmic. Chicken parm with no cheese and mixed veggies instead of pasta. I shared a small piece of pecan pie with Joe. It was nice to get out and spend some time with him. Its nice to talk about our trip and not be worried about having a difficult time with my foot. I won't wear cute flip flops. I won't be surfing or paddleboarding but I will be able to walk the beach with my hubby. Adam said he didn't really want to go to the therapist Monday. He said after our talks and watching those episodes of To Catch a Predator he doesn't want to do it again. I told him it would be good to see her and catch up and work on why he did in the first place. He agreed. Have a great day!

  
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TWEETYKC00 10/8/2011 10:25PM

    Enjoy yourself, you need that break. I'm sure that even though Adam doesn't want to do that stuff on the computer now, the talk with his therapist can still do some good. I'll be keeping you all in my prayers. Hugs just for you dear.

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BLACKROSE_222 10/8/2011 12:06PM

    Yay - glad Adam is going to go. Sounds like the best thing for him. I'm also happy you are looking forward to your trip! Have fun at the wedding!

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Ok....went to the dr.

Friday, October 07, 2011

So I went to the dr. and found out the nurse whom I spoke to a week ago was completely wrong with her diagnosis...that she shouldn't even have been giving. Ugggg...I should be stretching it slowly. I should be walking on it. I bought arch supports for my sneakers and now that I'm putting the right pressure on both feet I'm feeling better. I was overcompensating for that foot for a week and was stressing the rest of my body because of it. So I will take it easy but will walk on both feet when I walk. No dancing but at least I can do some household chores and not be exhausted by the way I was walking. We will see. Thanks for being here. I know you all worry that I will over do it. I won't. I promise. I want an amazing vacation in Hawaii and I will make that happen. I'm resting now :). Adam has an appt. with his therapist on Monday. I have one with mine on Tuesday. You know me I get right on this stuff. Thanks again my friends! You are the best!

  
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HARTKITTY 10/8/2011 6:54AM

    I know how hard it is not to be able to do simple things like get a glass of water because you can't walk or have to use crutches so I am really glad that at least you can walk now. emoticon

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TWEETYKC00 10/7/2011 8:47PM

    I'm so glad that that you got your foot worked out and can at least use it now, even if it is just a little bit at a time. Now let things get under control with your therapist next week. Try to take it as easy as possible. Hugs.

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KAILYNSTAR 10/7/2011 7:12PM

    Nothing is worse than getting the wrong kind of information.

My DD1, who has a broken wrist, gets new information and ideas from each student doctor. It can be rather annoying after awhile.

Get walking a bit and get your things done slowly but surly. I'm sure that eventually, you'll be better.

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KEKEIKO 10/7/2011 3:20PM

    Glad to hear things are looking up for you. You'll be back on your feet (pun intended) in no time at all.

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Thursday.

Thursday, October 06, 2011

Thanks for checking in... I'm down today. I have a dr. appt. tomorrow morning and I want some answers. I need to figure out how I'm going to handle this trip with my foot the way it is. I feel like a mess. I need answers. Another day here. One moment at a time. Having a moment. I'm sad. Sorry for the downer.

  
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TWEETYKC00 10/6/2011 9:22PM

    You're not a downer, you just have plenty of things going that need to be dealt with. Big bear hugs.

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HIPPIECHIC68 10/6/2011 5:55PM

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JONICACALDWELL 10/6/2011 4:37PM

    emoticon emoticon No shame in feeling what you feel!

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KAILYNSTAR 10/6/2011 1:19PM

    Hey sweetie, I know that you like to keep busy, but it takes time to heal. I know from experience that sometimes, it takes longer than we like.

I'm here for you.
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HARTKITTY 10/6/2011 12:43PM

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Wenesday

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

So I sat with Adam for an hour after school watching To Catch a Predator. I show that used to be on Dateline about teens being groomed online by people who look like normal people and are psycho. Who knows if it meant anything. I took his ipod and computer time. I need to talk to my brother about how to make his phone only useable for calling Joe and I. I have a call into his therapist but haven't heard back yet. I don't trust anything he does right now. I'm going to see the podiatrist again on Friday. I hope he will tell me something that will help. I only have until next Friday and I'm not feeling confident at all about how I will be for that trip. Food has been ok. A couple extra snacks here and there. I was weighed again at the dr. Monday and I lost another pound since August :)...I guess thats better than gaining especially unable to exercise. I feel so helpless on this couch but I'm getting by. I prayed alot yesterday. I will continue that.

  
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KEKEIKO 10/5/2011 9:45PM

    Things will get better soon. Just tell yourself "this too will pass". I hope you can get back to Zumba. You were so happy when you were shaking it up. I feel you sadness now. Hang in there. emoticon

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TABBYARTS 10/5/2011 3:13PM

    HartKitty has some good suggestions. I am praying for you and Adam that he be given discernment.

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BLACKROSE_222 10/5/2011 12:28PM

    You are doing the best you can, with what you have been given. Keep resting, and try to eat as well as you can - it can only make things feel better.

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HARTKITTY 10/5/2011 11:51AM

    Hi my friend. I'm sorry you are feeling week at the moment what with Adam and your feet. I am holding you in prayer. It might be an idea to do some online research as there is a lot of advise for Gay teens and their Parents there are also sights for gay Christians. Adam is going to start looking I remember when I first realized that I was gay I felt like a child in the candy shop "so many women, so little time." so realizing that he is going to start looking it may be an idea to guide the choices of where he looks (like spark) offer healthy choices rather than allowing him to go mad at the eat- all- you- can diner

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WADINGMOOSE 10/5/2011 10:28AM

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HIPPIECHIC68 10/5/2011 9:42AM

    Sounds like you are doing all you can...hopefully Adam will be able to talk about this with his therapist and you with yours.

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Another day

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Adam came home and I showed him what I"ve found. He ended up telling me He started a blog on Utube!!!!! He showed me the 4 video posts he put on in the last 3 weeks. The first was his coming out and then he just wanted to start having followers and subscribers to his blog!!!!!!!! I watched them and didn't find anything that could show where we live. He told me the video he made that I found in the morning he never sent out because he used Josh's flip cam and couldn't figure out how to get it to the utube site. I don't believe him. I had a lengthy conversation with him about all the things that could be bad about this. I told him with everything we have supported him with this year how he could go upstairs and make these behind our backs. He told me he watched a utube clip about an 18 year old boy who posted a video blog and found a great 18 year old boy and they are dating!!!!!!!!! I told him how this could all be to get teenagers to do this and find them and attack and kill them. He ended up crying and telling me he is sorry but I just don't know. I really don't know what to do. He said he is open to seeing his therapist again. I will call her today. Joe had a talk with him last night. I think that meant nothing. Joe had a very volite relationship with is dad. So he doesn't want to allienate Adam so he doesn't try to scare him at all. I texted and talked to Mike and he is very angry at Adam. He says he is putting Adam on a different ladder than Adam was on. I asked him to talk to Adam and Joe. He said he will but last night would not be the right night for it. I feel we should be punishing him but I"m not sure what that should be. I definitely want to take his ipod away. I'm not sure exactly what else yet. Thanks for getting back to me. I'm so scared for him. For us.

  
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TWEETYKC00 10/4/2011 8:39PM

    Oh My Gosh, he posted on the internet and he is getting the idea that it might be ok to hook up that way? I really, really hope that your talk sinks in with him, anything can happen. At least he didn't post anything that could put him in any immediate danger right now. Is there anything you can do to close down his blog or account to keep things from getting any worse? I will be praying for all of you and for the situation.

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KAILYNSTAR 10/4/2011 7:07PM

    I'm relieved that Adam talked and showed you what he was doing. Now you know what his site name is and where it is. Unfortunately, he is so young and obviously doesn't understand what he is doing. Just because he wants to meet someone, that is so not the way to do it.

Therapy is a good idea. As for taking his phone, I have no ideas about that, that's because none of my kids have cell phones. (Can you believe that?)

I really hope that things will calm down and he realizes what he has done.

Hang in there and take this one day at a time.
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KEKEIKO 10/4/2011 11:26AM

    This is a lot for you as a mother to deal with now on top of what you are going through with your injury.

There's a danger for anyone posting and meeting others on line. I've tried to instill that on my teens. It's a scary world out there with all this technology available to the youth of today. It's especially unsettling for us as parents not being able to protect our children from sick predators.

On the other hand there is your son who you love dearly that is trying to fit in.

Gentle hugs from one mother to another. emoticon

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BLACKROSE_222 10/4/2011 9:45AM

    I'm so sorry. It sounds like you are doing what you can right now - definitely call his Therapist about it, and explain. It might also help if you had someone you could talk to - a Therapist, a friend who isn't involved, just another opinion and an ear to lay out the troubles too.

HUGS.

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