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Thanks for the kind words.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Thanks again...I got through the rest of the day well. No more binging and a healthy dinner of roasted chicken with broccoli. I ran errands and saw my therapist. The entire hour was about Adam and the video blogs he made. We agree he shouldn't be able to use the computer until his birthday November 1st. and no Ipod either. Also, while we are away he won't be going out with friends. I don't want to worry about what he is up to while we are in Hawaii. I explained this to him and he wasn't happy but is dealing. I bought some cute shoes for our trip and Joe bought me some good sneakers as well. :) I will start packing today and that should make me feel better. I sent the director of the gym an e-mail about only taking classes for a while when we come back from my trip instead of teaching right away. I realized that was a main reason I binged. I was dreading that e-mail. I'm relieved its done and I can focus on easing my way back into my exercising when I get home. I feel much better today and I know I'm back on track. Thank you so much Sparkies!

  
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TWEETYKC00 10/12/2011 10:10PM

    It's good that you're back up and going again, now you can get back to feeling yourself. Time to break in those new shoes for the trip!

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KAILYNSTAR 10/12/2011 11:19AM

    I knew that you would smarten up fast! At least you knew what was causing you to binge in the first place.

Have a great day.

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VENISEW1 10/12/2011 9:20AM

    emoticonon finding a solution to your binge. Have a great trip if I don't speak to you before you leave emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonI love Hawaiin vacations. My favorite is Maui, what about you?

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BLACKROSE_222 10/12/2011 9:16AM

    Good for you for figuring out what caused the binge! That is great. HUGS.

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binge

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

I just binged. I haven't done that in soooo long. I got my period this morning. I just don't know. I had a fudge from yesterday, chocolate cream pie from Saturday and 3 pieces of pepperoni pizza. Ugggg...... I feel awful. I feel sick from period and overeating... Wow...I don't know what to do with myself. Wow. I'll have to move on from this. I know. I just feel sick. I feel like I've failed. One moment at a time.

  
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SHELLYKOCH1 10/11/2011 10:49PM

    Oh, Shrek. Don't worry.
Things just seem bad because it's dark and rainy
and Fiona's father hired a sleazy hitman to whack you.
- the movie Shrek 2

See things can always be worse. So you stumbled a little. We are human, imperfection is in our nature. All you can do is pick yourself up and start again tomorrow. The world will not end because of pepperoni.

The good thing is you recognized the binge. Don't beat yourself up for being human. Laugh at the fact you let a pizza set you back a bit.

Now that you've recognized the problem, stop and do something positive for YOU! Readjust your goals, take a long relaxing shower/bath, pre-plan your meals for tomorrow, anything just do something positive.

Tomorrow is your chance to redeem your self esteem. Start now and set your self up to be successful tomorrow.

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SURLYGIRL 10/11/2011 10:25PM

    OMG - The SAME thing happened to me this weekend. I ate a half bag of pretzels, 2 slices of pizza, crackers, cereal and Kashi bars. Then I got a migraine that lasted for 3 days and also got my period right in the middle of all that!

It just sucks doesn't it ? Then all that self loathing and guilt and embarrassment hits you. I have spent all day telling myself the same things I am going to tell you. It was a lapse, a flat tire on the journey we are traveling. If you get a flat tire on your car, do you abandon it and forget about the rest of the trip? NO!!! You change the tire, get back in the car and continue on your way! And that's what you and I are going to do. Let's check the oil and battery while we're at it - gas up and GO !!!

See you on the road my friend !



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TWEETYKC00 10/11/2011 8:59PM

    You are not a failure, you just had a setback, this can happen to anyone at anytime. Maybe it's a good thing that you're going to see your therapist tomorrow. If you don't feel any better about the binging by morning, maybe that is something you can talk out then if you need to. You can get right back on track after this, it is ok. I know it is bad when your TOM hits and everything can get out of whack, been there, done that. One step at a time, that is all you can do sometimes.

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MIQUEY73 10/11/2011 8:34PM

    Don't let one moment derail you. It happens to everyone. Dust yourself off and get back to your normal routine. emoticon

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KAILYNSTAR 10/11/2011 6:30PM

    Just because you messed up today, doesn't mean that you'll mess up the next day.

Tomorrow, you'll do soooo much better.
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KRISZTA11 10/11/2011 2:57PM

    Too bad - but try not to be hard on yourself.
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Nobody is perfect each and every day.

I also had a (smallish) binge yesterday, thought it was because of tiresome work, cold weather and darkness - but as you mention, period may have played a role in it...

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BLACKROSE_222 10/11/2011 11:03AM

    Try to move past it - drink lots of water, and get back to it (Now, not tomorrow) with your proper eating. It happens. Look at what caused it, and what you can learn from it for the future. emoticon

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Beautiful day

Monday, October 10, 2011

What a gorgeous Colubus Day...Adam had his therapist meeting this morning. We haven't been able to discuss it yet. We will tonight. We then went to Manchester, Vermont with my great friend Kate. It was awesome. Very high carb but worth every bite. We went to Zoey's resturant and had their awesome Granny Smith sandwich... sourdough bread with apples, ham and cheddar cheese with honey mustard...OMG....amazing. Then we drove through the scenic mountains to East Arlington's Village Peddlar with scrumptious homemade fudge. We sat by a roaring brook whle eating our treats and headed back home. Just perfect...well...Joe was at work so not quite perfect but great friend time. The boys just love her and we had a blast. Oh...by the way...Adam is dating a boy from the play. Yeah... here we go. News to come I"m sure. One day at a time here. I'm going to my therapis tomorrow. Thank God. Waiting for Joe to come home so we can get a healthy bite to eat and pick up the boys from rehearsal. The party yesterday is done...Thank God again for that. Adam enjoyed himself and that is what matters. Nothing was broken...another plus. I don't have to entertain again until Christmas...so I have that :). Hope everyone had a great holiday!

  
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BLACKROSE_222 10/11/2011 10:28AM

    Sounds like a good day, and hope that things were updated from Adam well.

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TWEETYKC00 10/10/2011 9:38PM

    What a good relaxing day, you deserve that break. I'm sure there are a million and one things to go over with your therapist and that is what your appointment is for, get it all out. Now you can take a breather in your life hopefully.

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What a fun day!

Sunday, October 09, 2011

The wedding ceremony was beautiful. So sweet. A young couple who've been together for years. Love them. The preist was so uplifting and happy. The congregation full of joy and love for such a great couple. You could actually feel it all around you. I haven't felt that at a wedding since mine 19 years ago. The love was infectious. :) Joe works with the groom and has known him for 14 years. He's sold cars to his grandfathers and parents. Wonderful sweet people who are just so positive. The reception was beautiful. Elegant but welcoming. Indulgent yet warm. Just like them. The food was amazing and the company at our table were fun and engaging. Just a great night for Joe and I. Considering I thought I'd be limping around or not even attending I felt like I was on cloud nine. :) My foot was good. I put the inserts in my dress shoes and worked to keep my stride even. Food was ok. During cocktail hour I had a cosmo...definitely more liquour than juice...low carb :). I had some sushi that had rice. One puffed quiche bite. Dinner was great. Crab cakes and salmon. Yum. Dessert.....ok not so low carb. I had half of my piece of cake and then the platter of mini pasteries came to the table....:( Our table had already left so Joe and I had the tray to ourselves...danger...danger....I had a chocolate ball and a mini canoli and 2 chocolate dipped strawberries. OK, not so great but I could've been much worse. I tried on some shorts this morning that I'll be wearing on my trip. Even though they are not the skinny ones I'd be happier in at least I have shorts that look cute. We are having Adams sixteenth birthday party with family today. Very low key but always bad foods. I will be great. I don't even want anything bad today. Thats a good start. Have a great day my friends!

  
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KAILYNSTAR 10/10/2011 4:09PM

    It's nice to go to a wedding that is comfortable to be at.

I'm glad that I wasn't there with the deserts. That would have been a catastrophe for me!



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TWEETYKC00 10/9/2011 9:20PM

    It's wonderful when two people can share their love and become one at their wedding, I'm glad you enjoyed yourself. Happy birthday to Adam!

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HARTKITTY 10/9/2011 10:44AM

    It sounds wonderful, and I am so glad that your foot is doing better. I am feeling so happy with mine now after almost a year I was even able to wear sandals to church today.

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Yay to feeling kinda normal.

Saturday, October 08, 2011

I actually have to work on walking normally after favoring my foot for a week. Thats ok though. I'm so happy that I'm going to be ok for my trip. We have a wedding today. I haven't tried my dress on yet. I'm a bit worried about how it will fit. We will see. I'm going to put the inserts in my dress shoes. Not my sexy stilletoes that I would usually wear when going to a wedding with the hubby but my funeral heels :). Comfortable and low heel. Thats ok too. I'm so happy I can even be there at this point. I will chair dance at the table :). The kids will be home cleaning for me. We are having Adams family birthday party tomorrow and alot needs to get done. Joe and I went to a local little resturant for dinner while the boys were at rehersal. I had a small house salad with balsalmic. Chicken parm with no cheese and mixed veggies instead of pasta. I shared a small piece of pecan pie with Joe. It was nice to get out and spend some time with him. Its nice to talk about our trip and not be worried about having a difficult time with my foot. I won't wear cute flip flops. I won't be surfing or paddleboarding but I will be able to walk the beach with my hubby. Adam said he didn't really want to go to the therapist Monday. He said after our talks and watching those episodes of To Catch a Predator he doesn't want to do it again. I told him it would be good to see her and catch up and work on why he did in the first place. He agreed. Have a great day!

  
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TWEETYKC00 10/8/2011 10:25PM

    Enjoy yourself, you need that break. I'm sure that even though Adam doesn't want to do that stuff on the computer now, the talk with his therapist can still do some good. I'll be keeping you all in my prayers. Hugs just for you dear.

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BLACKROSE_222 10/8/2011 12:06PM

    Yay - glad Adam is going to go. Sounds like the best thing for him. I'm also happy you are looking forward to your trip! Have fun at the wedding!

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