Monday, October 03, 2011
Sooooo bad!!!!! I called the podiatrist this morning and they can't see me until Friday. I went on to the computer to find some document for Adam and found a video Adam made about why someone would want to date him!!!!!!!!!! I feel sick. I'm so worried he posted it somewhere!!!!! I want to throw up. Then my mother picked me up for a dr. appt. and was just being really accusitory about a friend I should have over!!! R U KIDDING ME!!!!!!!!! I went off on her. I did. I blew up at her like I never have before. She wouldn't drive me home so I could take myself to the dr. so she got it with both barrels. I can't take much more. I can't exercise, I can't binge, I just don't know what to do with myself. I don't want to tell Joe about Adam while he is at work. I have to wait until he is home. My mother was crying on the way home. I apologized for some things I said but told her right now I can't handle how she is being. I still can't believe all this. I'm scared I'm losing it. I will keep blogging and hope peace will come. Crazy though my foot feels better today. I'm gonna sit here and do nothing again. Maybe that will help my foot but not my mind. I don't even have a friend I would want to call about this. Thats why I come here. Help Sparkies.