Thursday, June 09, 2011
So I got my mulching done. Yeah! Since January my priority has not been house maintenance or yard upkeep and just doing that made me feel like I'm kinda getting back to me. I had lunch with my friend from high school. That was hard. It's funny I live my life day by day lately with new stuff happening, dealing, moving on and not looking back. I knew I wanted her to know every step we've taken so she will understand what her position should be. What I forgot is what it would feel like to purge all those emotions and feelings of what we've been through since January. We are good now. I told her that but to relive it in one hour was mentally exhausting. She was pretty good. She wanted to know how I was doing. Which is exactly what I needed from my friend of 22 years. Mostly the people I've talked to I've focused on how Adam is doing. How Josh is doing. I couldn't even talked to my mother about how I'm doing because she couldn't handle it. So that was comforting. She did say some unconscious uneducated things. I explained in a round about way how others can say things that are uneducated and she got my points. She texted me this morning and I think we are really good. It was exhausting but had to be done. I came home and worked on my song for Zumba. It's hard! It's hard to learn a song and know the routine backwards and forwards. That is one song! I need to know 12 songs! It will happen but it will take time. Time I got! It's a great distraction. Sooooooo I went to my mother inlaws for a Pampered Chef party last night. OMG what a train wreck!!!!!! Honestly I know we all have skeletons in our closet but WOW! I won't even get into it all here! It's just tooooooo much. It's sad. I will pray for all of them. Needless to say I came home and just colapsed from all of it. This morning I woke up really dizzy. Not sure whats up. We had something at Josh's school for children chosen for student of the month since January. Josh was March :) It was so nice to have all the principles acknoledge how awesome our son is. Of course we know :) but its nice to have Josh here such positive words spoken about him. He is so strong and amazing. We are blessed. Joe and I went to breakfast and had a really nice talk. He drove me to my moms. I was still dizzy. We comisserated on the said train wreck of last night and did some shopping at Target. I'd like to work on my song again today but we will see how this dizziness holds out. We have a boy scout cookout tonight. Where they will honor my handsome son Josh once again! I don't know how we will get his head in the door tonight :). Food choices were great again yesturday! I was way to nervous at the party to eat or even drink last night. So positive effect of train wreck! Food good again today! Have a great day!