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Monday, June 13, 2011

Pms is not my friend!!!! The cycle has begun and I ran to the sugar. Today could have been worse but still.... I'm tired. I feel very beaten right now. Mom had an appt. with my therapis today. She said it went well and that my therapist feels she doesn't have to come back unless there is something specific that comes up. I guess we will see. Adam seems so great. He looks like all the stress of the world has leapt off his face. I'm so happy for that. I'm so grateful we are here. I feel like rolling up in a ball and sleeping the day way. I promised a friend I would go with her to a Zumba class tonight. Maybe I will feel better after I go. Trying to be easy on myself today.

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WISEWIFE 6/14/2011 11:29AM

    The sugar is hitting you pretty hard. Be kind to yourself!

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ANNESYLVIA 6/14/2011 6:43AM

    Aah the aunt Flo emotional eating takes place. You will make it through this like you always do.

A piece of dark chocolate is a good thing. A flavored coffee with skim milk or fat free cream may also help.

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HIPPIECHIC68 6/13/2011 5:31PM easy on yourself today...I am doing the same after I left work and came home...not going to rehearsal...not going to the concert...maybe my business and all the emotions with my husband finally caught up with me...

I'm glad you all are doing so well!

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Morning friends!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

We went to see Xmen last night. How fun!!!! Great movie!!!! Kate was great and it was fun to get together with her and not be dumping all my stuff. Just having fun. We went to mass at our friends Mike church and that felt good. Did a bunch of praying for our friend who have so much going on. I felt so blessed for an amazing husband and our health. I am so thankful to God for that. It was so nice to have a pretty issueless week here. Adam is great. Josh is great. Joe is stressed about his friend of course. I will be there for him. He will speak with him today. His friend spent the day with his wife yesturday so I guess that is a good sign. He told Joe they don't have to travel to talk. Being on the phone is helpful. Josh will be doing alot of studying today. Finals. So we will be laying low. Food was great again yesturday. I feel the difference in my clothes. Yeah! I've got about a month until our vacation and I'm feeling pretty good about getting it together by then. Taking it one day at a time. Hope everyone has a great Sunday.

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HARTKITTY 6/12/2011 10:35AM

    Well done on getting close to your goals. emoticon emoticon

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HIPPIECHIC68 6/12/2011 10:30AM

    A great Sunday to you, too...I'm glad everyone is doing well and mostly that you are feeling in control..I am sure your vacation will be great! emoticon emoticon

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Feeling better today!!!!

Saturday, June 11, 2011

I went to a Zumba thon this morning! Felt really good! I danced for about an hour and a half and had about 4 different instructors taking turns doing songs. It was great to have a chance to see new instructors and how they perform her songs. It gave me more confidence with what I'm doing. This fundraiser was for cancer research and it meant alot to me to be there because of our good friend who is battling lymphoma. Joe got a call today from his best friend who lives in Syracuse. His friend is considering leaving his marriage. Sadly this has been a difficult marriage from the beginning. They have been married over 20 years and have two boys 19 and 17. So sad. We love him. Joe actually went all through school with both of them and was best man in their wedding. He was very diplomatic which I was happy. We are definitely closer to him than her but know that if they do stay together we would never want him to know exactly how we feel about her. So tomorrow Joe will travel toward Syracuse to meet him for breakfast. I will pray for our friend that God knows what is best for them and God is carrying him through all this. They are starting therapy on Monday so that is important! I will pray. We are hanging out today and going to mass at 5pm. We are going to the movies again tonight with my friend Kate to see Xmen. We loved Super 8. It was fun but scarier than I thought it was gonna be. Have a good day!

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ANNESYLVIA 6/12/2011 8:46AM

    Great job on dancing for a great cause.

It is hard when a friends marriage is in trouble. I mean when it is family you stay with the member that you are related to. But with friends that must be hard. My husband and I are going through the same thing with friends of ours. The wife and I became friends through our sons then eventually we invited our DH's to join us. DH's then became friends. Now they are separated. I believe they are trying but fear it might be too late. She wanted to fixed the marriage for years but he was indifferent seeing no problems. No that they are separated he trying real hard but she is just so exhausted from years of trying.

We had the husband and two little boys (8yo & 2yo) over for Memorial day and I still have playdates with her and our children. In fact, she and her boys are coming over on Monday after school for another playdate. We are choosing not to make a choice between them especially if they do get back together. It would be awkward if we made a choice and the other knew this. But that is just us.

Good Luck!

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KAILYNSTAR 6/11/2011 7:16PM

    It can be so hard to be diplomatic at times. I take it that your husband and you don't care too much for the wife. Too bad.

Hopefully therapy will work for them. What a shock or possible relief it would be for their children.

As for you, great that you did the Zumba thing for cancer.

Hope that you have a good weekend.

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Hi friends...

Friday, June 10, 2011

So happy its Friday! I'm feeling kinda down today. There is something about those parents at Boy Scouts that find a way of making me feel inadequate. They just do. I really don't like them. Last night I got to talk to a friend from high school whose son is pretty new to Boy Scouts. She brought me right back to school and I said some stupid things that I'm sure many others heard. I feel bad that Josh is such a great kid and I just don't feel I can deal with these parents that just are so rightious. Oh well here I am... Complaining and whining. Oh well. Today will be better. I'm going to a picninc with a friend today and will do a little Zumba tonight. I think we will be going to the movies tonight. Sorry about my debbie downer moment. Food wasn't great yesturday. Could have been worse. Today will be better.

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HARTKITTY 6/11/2011 4:49AM

    I really admire people who can be good parents like you, in the world we live in it is hard to even keep ourselves going let alone be the strength of your family. I really think you deserve a slap on the back emoticon
emoticon mother of the year.

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JOOPRINCESS 6/10/2011 1:00PM

    I took a parenting class yesterday (voluntarily, we don't beat our child...yet). har har. We were surrounded by parents who were court ordered to be there and it was hard for me to not judge them. The thing is though, is that "hurt people hurt people". I was feeling really paranoid what our child was sharing with the rest of her room down the hallway and was feeling really guilty by identifying with some character defects the instructor was talking about in general terms to the entire class. Most of the time if a parent is fluffing up their peacock feathers it's to make up for something that's going on deep down inside that they really feel inadequate about. I'm glad your day wasn't horrible food wise and that yes, today is a new day. That's the true blessing in life, isn't it? I'm glad you were able to keep your side of the street clean so you didn't need to eat crow today.

Next time just picture everyone naked and if all else fails, you can flip people off when your hands are in your pockets and they'll never know.


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KAILYNSTAR 6/10/2011 12:33PM

    It hurts to be around people that think that they are above you or righteous. They will have their judgement day.

I know about feeling inadequate. I usually feel that way all of the time in the public where the kids play sports. I try to be upbeat and the kids like me, the parents very seldom have anything to do with me. They're polite, but that's about it.

It doesn't matter most of the time. I just let the kids love me and the heck with the fuddy duddies!

Hope that you feel much better later on today.

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Thursday, June 09, 2011

So I got my mulching done. Yeah! Since January my priority has not been house maintenance or yard upkeep and just doing that made me feel like I'm kinda getting back to me. I had lunch with my friend from high school. That was hard. It's funny I live my life day by day lately with new stuff happening, dealing, moving on and not looking back. I knew I wanted her to know every step we've taken so she will understand what her position should be. What I forgot is what it would feel like to purge all those emotions and feelings of what we've been through since January. We are good now. I told her that but to relive it in one hour was mentally exhausting. She was pretty good. She wanted to know how I was doing. Which is exactly what I needed from my friend of 22 years. Mostly the people I've talked to I've focused on how Adam is doing. How Josh is doing. I couldn't even talked to my mother about how I'm doing because she couldn't handle it. So that was comforting. She did say some unconscious uneducated things. I explained in a round about way how others can say things that are uneducated and she got my points. She texted me this morning and I think we are really good. It was exhausting but had to be done. I came home and worked on my song for Zumba. It's hard! It's hard to learn a song and know the routine backwards and forwards. That is one song! I need to know 12 songs! It will happen but it will take time. Time I got! It's a great distraction. Sooooooo I went to my mother inlaws for a Pampered Chef party last night. OMG what a train wreck!!!!!! Honestly I know we all have skeletons in our closet but WOW! I won't even get into it all here! It's just tooooooo much. It's sad. I will pray for all of them. Needless to say I came home and just colapsed from all of it. This morning I woke up really dizzy. Not sure whats up. We had something at Josh's school for children chosen for student of the month since January. Josh was March :) It was so nice to have all the principles acknoledge how awesome our son is. Of course we know :) but its nice to have Josh here such positive words spoken about him. He is so strong and amazing. We are blessed. Joe and I went to breakfast and had a really nice talk. He drove me to my moms. I was still dizzy. We comisserated on the said train wreck of last night and did some shopping at Target. I'd like to work on my song again today but we will see how this dizziness holds out. We have a boy scout cookout tonight. Where they will honor my handsome son Josh once again! I don't know how we will get his head in the door tonight :). Food choices were great again yesturday! I was way to nervous at the party to eat or even drink last night. So positive effect of train wreck! Food good again today! Have a great day!

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HARTKITTY 6/10/2011 3:03AM

    It is great that when we seem the not lost and in need God sends someone who can walk with us.

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VBPARROTHEAD 6/9/2011 8:56PM

  Wow! You must be proud of your sons! How nice to have such positive things said to and about your child!

I am glad that you and your friend are good1 It is so important to have close female friends! There is nothing that can replace a good friend!

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ANNESYLVIA 6/9/2011 8:02PM

    Are you sure you are eating enough? Or maybe to much sugar?

I get vertigo when I spin around or if I am on a swing. Things changed for me when I entered my 40ies. I use to be able to do all of these things non stop with not any problems at all. But not anymore.

Can you think of what may have happen or what you ate last evening? It could be nerves too. You sounded a bit tried about the lunch conversation with HS buddy. You never know.

I hope you feel better soon.

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MRDPOLING 6/9/2011 2:46PM

    I got confused at the first part until I re-read what you wrote. You have "So I got my mulching done" and what I had read the first time was, "So I got my mustache done".

My brain hurts now. hehehehe!

Yeah sped up reply of trials is draining and to do all that at once... yikes!

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HIPPIECHIC68 6/9/2011 1:42PM

    Hope you feel better with the dizziness...take care of you, too!

I laughed about Josh's head being too big to make it through the door, lol!

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KAILYNSTAR 6/9/2011 12:47PM

    Welcome to the world of thinking up new things! You know and I know that you will get your songs into place in time.

As for your dizziness? I hope that it's not too bad. I have been given gravol to aleviate the symptoms sometimes. It might help.

Oh yeah...Make sure that you have a pin to poke on Josh if his head gets too big! emoticon

Take care of yourself.

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