Thursday, May 05, 2011
Sorry about the whining yesturday. I think those fans were blowing my sense away :) So mom brought my gown to a bridal shop who is sending it out for restoration. I feel much better about that. I think going to the therapist brought all of my feelings front and center and I just let it all go on my blog. I did cry alot at the meeting. I haven't done that in a long time. I think I have been in protect and support mode with Adam and our family I haven't been able to move along the process myself. I hate the process. I'm not very good at it. I just want to be ok and I guess that won't be ok untill I just let it happen. She keeps saying that it is a death. I understand, kinda. I guess there is stages of death. So I will work through this and pray alot and blog... alot. Most days are great . Adam is great. Joe is working through stuff now. I am here for him. I guess I just wanted her to give me tools to make it easier or quicker to process. I guess there isn't any. We had such a nice night. We went to DiBella's for subs. Yum. Came home and watched Modern Family in our tiny full size bed. Door shut so can't hear fans! So two teenagers, Joe, me and our dog all hanging out laughing our faces off. That was good. I am so blessed. So skipped the gym for subs and mind numbing TV. Gotta do it sometimes. Going to Zumba this morning with good friend. Have a healthy day friends!