One day at a time has gotten us here!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Adam went to his therapist yesturday. He told me on the way that he wasn't sure he had anything to talk about. I gave him some topics he might want to discuss and he nodded. When he came out he was all smiles :). He said his therapist said that he has accomplished all he set out to do in January and they don't need to make another appt.! Of course if there is anything he needed he could call her anytime. Wow! He seems so good! Very content and just Adam! I of course will be seeing my therapist for a while :). Got some good cleaning done yesturday. I'm feeling better about that. Still fighting a stomache bug but at least I'm really not hungry :). Went to my hip hop class last night. Got some good sweating in but wasn't really into it because of my stomache issues. Oh well, I did show up. Half the battle right? Food choices were easy because stomache issues as well. I am going with my friend to my awesome Zumba class today. Have a great day my friends!

  

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KAILYNSTAR 5/10/2011 4:32PM

Great news about Adam! Hooray for him! Sorry that you're not feeling well. Hopefully soon, you will be back to your normal self and up and running. Take care of yourself. Report Inappropriate Comment

-AD-ASTRA- 5/10/2011 2:56PM

Seomtimes cleaning is very therapeutic as well! Report Inappropriate Comment

REDSHOES2011 5/10/2011 2:06PM

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MRDPOLING 5/10/2011 1:43PM

Wow! Sounds like a really good therapist who sets goals to meet and doesn't feel it needs to be drug out for years and years. Report Inappropriate Comment

HARTKITTY 5/10/2011 1:09PM

I am so pleased for you and your family Victory!!! Viva!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

CELIA1975 5/10/2011 11:15AM

One day at a time! God bless! Celia Report Inappropriate Comment

SIMPLE_IS_BEST 5/10/2011 9:33AM

You are one tough cookie, to be going to your dance and Zumba classes with a stomach bug! You put me to shame. Hope your stomach gets better. :-) Report Inappropriate Comment

HIPPIECHIC68 5/10/2011 8:27AM

Hope you beat the bug soon...so glad Adam is doing well...and you are a strong lady so I know you will get through the things you need to... Have a wonderful day! Report Inappropriate Comment

BILL60 5/10/2011 7:29AM

Hang tough!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Getting back on track with life!

Monday, May 09, 2011

Yesturday was nice. Although I woke up with a stomache ache. Yuck. Joe and the boys brought me strawberries with Greek yogurt and cashews in bed. :) So nice! I read the paper and got ready for brunch with the moms. Uggggg. Thank God mimosa's make it proper to drink in the morning. All four parents did everything I expecting in the ways that drive me flipping mad. Oh well. Left them and headed to Manchester for some shopping Yeah! Went to our awesome fudge store The Village Peddler in Arlington. So Yum! Headed to the outlets and got an awesome new spring purse at Kate Spade. So stylin! Got some cute things real cheap at Gap outlet. Had our Yum Yum fav Vermont sandwich at Zoey's for dinner and headed home. Ok so food choices of the board bad. Day with Joe and the boys priceless :). So funny.... crossed the Vermont state line and I announced Adam you can get married now! :) He is so awesome he wanted to go to a rally in Albany today for gay marriage. I thought he was a bit young to be downtown missing school today. I do support him wanting to be an activist though. He is awesome! Today is all about getting house kinda back in order from the flood. Feeling positive about that. Will make amazing food choices today! Will go to hip hop class tonight and dance off all that yummy food from yesturday! Have a healthy day my friends!

  

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TABBYARTS 5/11/2011 11:21AM

Great about spending family time and ME time. You are doing great! And I like how supportive you are of Adam! TOBY Report Inappropriate Comment

MRDPOLING 5/9/2011 12:31PM

Here is getting back to normal and making good food choices for us both! Report Inappropriate Comment

KAILYNSTAR 5/9/2011 11:37AM

Nothing better than 'family'. Sounds like you had a great day as it went by. Report Inappropriate Comment

HIPPIECHIC68 5/9/2011 9:34AM

I'm so glad you enjoyed your day...and you have to splurge sometimes...glad you aren't feeling bad about it. Way to go getting through the extended family thing in order to spend the rest of the day with your close loved ones...I'm sure you did great! Have a great week as you get things back in order from the flood! Report Inappropriate Comment

People have left the building!

Saturday, May 07, 2011

Thank God the restoration people are gone. Its quite disconcerting to have strangers in my house every day. Now we have to hire people to come in and put in new flooring but that should be fun. My son Josh and I don't like change much so picking out new stuff is always a challenge. I'm sure it will be good though. Heading to my hip hop class in a few minutes. Happy for that. Food was good yesturday. Plain fat free Greek yogurt with sliced banana for breakfast. Yummy cobb salad for lunch. Activia plain yogurt with sliced apples for snack. Dinner not so great. Chicken wings for dinner with frozen yogurt for dessert. Oh well. It was Friday night. My parents and brothers family are at odds at the moment. Should be an interesting brunch tomorrow :). Oh well. At least its not my stuff this time. The boys will make me a light breakfast in bed tomorrow, then brunch with the moms and then the 4 of us will head to Manchester for the day. I am really looking forward to that. It will be nice to have them to myself and to not have to deal with anyone elses drama :). We are going to our old church today so that we can go with my parents. Haven't been there in a while. Have a great day my friends!

  

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TABBYARTS 5/8/2011 1:14AM

The breakfast in bed thing is appealing ... TOBY BEAR Report Inappropriate Comment

MRDPOLING 5/7/2011 8:03PM

Ooooooooo! Shopping spreeeeee!!! Take me with youuuuuu!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

HARTKITTY 5/7/2011 12:50PM

Great plans hope you have day Report Inappropriate Comment

Yeah for Friday!!!!!

Friday, May 06, 2011

So restoration people are coming this morning but will be gone by 10am. Joe should be home from work by then and we get to spend some time together. We had a great talk yesturday morning about everything I talked with the therapist about. She also said that not only do I have to mourn the death of my plans for Adams future but the death of my relationship with my mom. Uggggg. Mom and I are in such a strange place now. I'm glad she is going to see my therapist in a couple of weeks. Maybe that will be good for us. I pray it will be good for her. Anyway, Joe and I had a great talk. We are in a good place and that is so important to me. He is my best friend and the best man I know. I am blessed. So onward and upward! I had a great Zumba class yesturday. I felt so much better once I got some good dancing in. Food choiceds were awesome until dinner :( We ordered Chinese food and omg definitely partaked in all of it. Will be better today. I feel better about making the healthy choices. I will only get 4 workouts in this week so kinda bummed about that. Next week will be better. I'm looking forward to Mother's Day. We will be going to brunch with the mom's and then have the day to ourselves. We are going to Manchester,Vt. and gonna do some fun outlet shopping. We have a favorite Granny Smith Melt sandwich that we can't wait to get our hands on and an awesome fudge store in Arlington that we hit on the way home. :) Hope all my Spark friends who are moms have a wonderful day! Moms of two legged and or 4 legged children :). We all should celebrate ourselves! Have a piece of fudge and think of me :).

  

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MRDPOLING 5/6/2011 4:01PM

Yes I am finally getting a weekend! So needed too. Report Inappropriate Comment

HIPPIECHIC68 5/6/2011 8:54AM

Sounds like you are doing well...I'm glad you will get to spend some time with your hunny. Enjoy your Mother's Day, too! Report Inappropriate Comment

Thanks Spark friends. Feeling better.

Thursday, May 05, 2011

Sorry about the whining yesturday. I think those fans were blowing my sense away :) So mom brought my gown to a bridal shop who is sending it out for restoration. I feel much better about that. I think going to the therapist brought all of my feelings front and center and I just let it all go on my blog. I did cry alot at the meeting. I haven't done that in a long time. I think I have been in protect and support mode with Adam and our family I haven't been able to move along the process myself. I hate the process. I'm not very good at it. I just want to be ok and I guess that won't be ok untill I just let it happen. She keeps saying that it is a death. I understand, kinda. I guess there is stages of death. So I will work through this and pray alot and blog... alot. Most days are great . Adam is great. Joe is working through stuff now. I am here for him. I guess I just wanted her to give me tools to make it easier or quicker to process. I guess there isn't any. We had such a nice night. We went to DiBella's for subs. Yum. Came home and watched Modern Family in our tiny full size bed. Door shut so can't hear fans! So two teenagers, Joe, me and our dog all hanging out laughing our faces off. That was good. I am so blessed. So skipped the gym for subs and mind numbing TV. Gotta do it sometimes. Going to Zumba this morning with good friend. Have a healthy day friends!

  

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VBPARROTHEAD 5/5/2011 10:19PM

Well, so what that you whined a bit? We all need a place to go to whine sometimes and here is a good place! As for crying, it is healing behavior, except when an onion causes the tears! And your therapist is right about the death part but did she mention the birth that comes as a result of that death. well, there should be a birth of a stronger and confident person! I sort of think of it as the "born again" thing that jesus talked about! Yea, all the evangelicals in our area (and there are many) think that I am headed straight for a visit with Lucifer for thinking like that but I think they will be surprised. Report Inappropriate Comment

MRDPOLING 5/5/2011 2:12PM

There is nothing like a good cry to clean the soul! Report Inappropriate Comment

HARTKITTY 5/5/2011 12:12PM

You go girl! Sometimes one must just let it all hang out. It does the soul good to just put everything down and its also OK to get cross with God sometimes. He can handle it Report Inappropriate Comment

KAILYNSTAR 5/5/2011 11:23AM

I think that you are just like the rest of us...Crying lets out tension, hurt, love, pain, sadness, happiness, shame, resentment, grief... To let it go through crying, is a relief in some ways. One feels a little better after. Report Inappropriate Comment

HIPPIECHIC68 5/5/2011 10:11AM

We all whine sometimes... like you said...it has to get out, so we have to do it...lol and oh, so true... Wishing you the best, my friend... Report Inappropriate Comment