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Having a good Wenesday.

Wednesday, April 06, 2011

I'm in a good place today. I'll take it. My clothes are fitting so much better. All these dance classes are really starting to help me with my body as well as my mind. As I'm getting to a better place my food choices are getting back on board. I'm also not searching for a glass or two of wine every night as well. I know there will be many days on the rollercoaster but lately it's felt like one of those kiddy train rides instead of the whopper cork screw coasters emoticon.
I met with my therapist today (if you couldn't tell). She said we are doing everything right. Which is nice to hear but doesn't make things easier. She said I'm handling my mother very well. My mom is going to see her next Wenesday and I think that will be good for her. I hope within the next few sessions we can start working on me. I could use some help myself :). Can't we all.
Adam is home today. He was throwing up all night. So I get to baby him all day :). He feels much better now so we are just watching some old classic Looney tunes :).
I have a Zumba class tonight. Yeah! It's the class where I will get to talk to the girl who thinks I should be an instructor. We will see how that goes. I'll keep you updated. Hope you are all having a good day! Food: I had an egg with tomatoe and bacon on ciabatta bread. Not very healthy but comforting before my session. A cup of cottage cheese. half cup of activia yogurt with a sliced banana. I plan on having salmon salad with some steamed brocolli for dinner.

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MRDPOLING 4/6/2011 12:25PM

    I think I found your gray cloud today. hehe! I'll find a way to shake it eventually, or maybe I will find a whole to toss it in and cover it with a rock!

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Happy Tuesday.

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

Adam came home fine yesturday. He said Shirag had been joking that his watch was gay. He asked why does every watch you wear look gay. Adam brought him away from the crowd and told him. Shirag smiled and Adam said I'm serious i'm gay. He said ok and he'd try to be serious about it. Adam texted him about it at home if he had any questions. Shirag said no but he was just surprised. He was good last night but seemed preoccupied this morning. I had a Cobb salad for lunch and Activia with sliced apple for a snack. I ended up having a carton of lowfat cottage cheese for dinner with a piece of boneless chicken breast. I had a 90 calorie chocolate chip granola bar, and two single weight watchers toffee ice cream popsicles after my hip hop dance class. I felt kinda sick all day yesturday but I knew from the stress I needed to expend some energy. I thought I wouldn't dance my best but anything would be better than no calories burned on the couch. I had a pretty good workout considering. I woke up feeling kinda sick again today. yuck. I'm realizing Easter is only a couple weeks away and I'll be hosting 24 people for a sit down dinner. I have to admit I have been extremely lax on my house. I have a lot to do. So I will be good to myself but work on this house too. I have a Zumba class at 9 30am. Not sure if I'm up to it. I'll rest for a bit and see how I feel. I hope you all have a great day!

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MRDPOLING 4/5/2011 9:17PM

    Cottage Cheese is one of my staples you will always find in my fridge but I always have fruit with it.

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SIMPLE_IS_BEST 4/5/2011 8:31PM

    Just remember, all those people coming to your house for dinner on Easter are there to see and visit with you and your family, they aren't there to inspect your house. They won't notice or care if the house is a bit dusty or cluttered. :-)

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KAILYNSTAR 4/5/2011 1:14PM

    I think that you were very stressed yesterday and that affected you. Hopefully today will be better.

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HIPPIECHIC68 4/5/2011 11:25AM

    Hey there. Sorry you aren't feeling well. Take care of yourself and have a great day!

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ANNESYLVIA 4/5/2011 8:16AM

    Hey, I too have a 9:30am Zumba class. And I am definitely going!!! I even wearing new sneakers that I bought for this class. Maybe we could be virtually workout buddies today.

It sounds like Adam is doing fine with his openness. Good for him. I have not read your blogs of late....not be very supportive huh? I am not sure why they don't show up on my friend feed? I truly try to pick and read several a day.

Please remember I am always a click away!!

{{Hugs}} Anne

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HARTKITTY 4/5/2011 7:14AM

    Hi friend, there you go the world did not implode. Adam survived and his friend understood. Teenagers do see everything as life and death. its only as we age that the grey spreads. I'm sorry that you are not feeling well but just hang in there and remember "you should come first in your life" I think you handled your mother correctly also. The less ammunition you give her the less she can hurt you.
Take care of you.

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I guess three days of peace is better than zero?

Monday, April 04, 2011

Adam woke up and yelled at me when I let him know he was about to miss the bus. Adam never yells at me. He got to school and texted Joe that he was sorry he yelled at me and he hardly slept at all last night. He then texted Joe that he told his friend Shirag that he is gay in first period. Now Shirag is a kid who can't sit still. Who is always making a joke and is basically trouble waiting to happen. Very intelligent though. Shirag said thats ok and that he will try be serious about it. Not sure what that means exactly. By lunch everyone should know now. Ugggggg. I'm actually pretty calm right now. I think I get like that when things get really big and I have no control over them. So here I am at home waiting to see how things pan out. I'm meeting Joe for lunch so that will be comforting. I'm choosing not to confide in my mom about this its just to much. So here I am blogging it out. I had some greek yogurt with sliced banana for breakfast and some decaf coffee. I'm drinking some green tea now.
The party went ok yesturday. I can't stand my sister inlaw. The one who is still with the abusive heroine addict. She makes me physically ill. Making small talk with her is almost as bad as a root canal. I trudged through and did it without even a glass of wine :). The kids had a great time. I had a great Zumba class yesturday but she added a song that does alot of arm work and omg my shoulders and back are killing me. I guess it wil get me ready for tank top season :). I hope my Spark friends had a nice weekend. I'll keep you updated.

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VBPARROTHEAD 4/5/2011 8:52PM

  You have a teenager in the house, there is not a lot of peace when you have a teenager! Teens can be and usually are a bit volatile! Boys are just a year or two behind girls. I raised 2 girls and there was alwaysomething, or so it seemed. You have to roll with thepunches, do what you think is best, and come here to share and get things off your chest!!

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KAILYNSTAR 4/4/2011 11:27AM

    Let it go. I know as a parent that one wants to protect their kid, but he chose to open up to this. Unfortunetly, that means consequences. Times have changed. People react differently in school than in our time. I do hope that things go well for him.

As for you, enjoy your lunch. Try to relax.

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HIPPIECHIC68 4/4/2011 11:16AM

    I know you will handle everything well since that is your track record, so to speak. Part of all this with Adam, for you, may be a little letting go. He is making the choice to tell people because as you've told him before to let it just be a part of him... I don't tell people I'm straight when I meet them or even in general. They will learn as they get to know me...

As a mother of grown children, there comes a time when what they choose(Adam telling everyone his 'secret') is not the same as what you would choose for them (being more discreet) but it is his life, his choice and he will have to deal with whatever comes from it... I know you want to protect him and it is very hard for moms to do, but there comes a time for every little one to fly...


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FREES1 4/4/2011 11:03AM

    sorry about your sister in law - maybe reaching out, trying to see from where she is coming, might help...

may you see your glass as half full, rather than half empty

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MRDPOLING 4/4/2011 11:00AM

    I think we all have one or more relatives that we cannot stand to be on the same planet with. Its sad that to be away from them means to be away from those I do care for, but that is how I cope.

As for Adam... I am praying for him and his continued growing.

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DEDIAZ 4/4/2011 10:50AM

    Well, the day may not be so stressful! Lets be optimistic! emoticon And hey at least you had a great zumba class! My instructor plays the same songs ALWAYS emoticon

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Hi Spark friends!

Sunday, April 03, 2011

Good morning Sparkies. I'm in a good place this morning and am thankful for that. Omg saw a funny movie last night. We went out for Japanese before the movie. I had Sashimi and a glass of wine. Joe, Adam and his friend Jared and his dad had regular chinese food. The movie was Paul and it was a good laugh. Had lunch with my brother, sister inlaw and parents. That went fine. I had an awesome Cobb salad minus the cheese and unsweetened iced tea. Sister inlaw was great but mom was really getting on my nerves. I love her but wow. I went to my hip hop class in the morning which was good but I was distracted. I have a Zumba class at noon todaay and I'm really looking forward to it. I'm definitely feeling a difference in my clothes. Yeah! I'm feeling stronger and clearer. Day by day but two full good days. Thats a streak for me :). So working on a good third day. We are going to my inlaws today for a combined birthday party for 3 of my nephews. I hope that goes smoothly. Adam hasn't been to religion in weeks and is going tonight. He seems fine about it.

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KAILYNSTAR 4/3/2011 5:52PM

    Keeping yourself busy and doing things that you like. Great!

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HIPPIECHIC68 4/3/2011 10:43AM

    So glad you are having some good days...things will get back to the new normal...Paul, huh, I'll have to check it out...I'm always up for a good laugh! emoticon

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HARTKITTY 4/3/2011 8:05AM

    This is so great! you are sounding so much better and even Adam seems to be responding well to your choice to live a healthier happier life.

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MRDPOLING 4/3/2011 7:23AM

    I saw Paul the other day too. Man it was funny!

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Nice Friday...

Saturday, April 02, 2011

Wow didn't just have a date night it actually ended up being a date day yesturday! Joe has Fridays off but usually ends up spending a chunk of it at work anyway. Yesturday he only went in the morning. We went to lunch at one of my favorite places and I had an my usual there....yummy swordfish salad. Omg so good. We went home and watch Black Swan ondemand. My great friend Kate came over to hang out with the boys and we went to a new place for dinner and had a yummy seafood marinara plate. Then met some great friends for drinks and then off to get some frozen yogurt at this new really cool place that I must not frequent to often :). The kids had a great time with Kate (of course) and I really enjoyed myself. Strangely though I woke up in a funk. Not a big day altering funk but a funk no less. I'm really not sure why. I think Im coming down off the expectation that everyday will have some sort of stress or situation to resolve. Not that every day will be peaches but the crisis is calmed and I'm trying to navigate normal life again. Adam had another normal day. Thank God and I'm grateful. Not that things won't be trying but I guess I just have to try and remember how life can just be. I'm happy with just being but have to wrap my brain around it. Thanks for being here!

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MRDPOLING 4/2/2011 8:19PM

    Normal... yeah what's that again? hehe!

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HIPPIECHIC68 4/2/2011 9:03AM

    Enjoy the peace while you have it! emoticon

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