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Trying to move on

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

So I had a very bad few days. omg soooo awful. very close friend in hospital who they found has a huge mass wrapped around his heart. I have been helping with their girls but I feel totally helpless. I had an awful shower that almost everyone there made me feel like a pariah. I had a falling out with my sister-in-law a year ago and we have been estranged since. This was a baby shower for her and all but 3 people gave me dirty looks all day. It was sooooooo bad. I guess the only good thing that came out of the weekend is that I definitely did not use food to cover all my feelings. I felt sick from my feelings. I guess I'm growing. Funny how I can grow in that way but go backwards in how I should act. I can't get over this problem with my sister-in-law. I should move past it but so much has happened. I keep saying its awful but it really is. I think if I keep blogging about it I may find some answers that will help me. Thanks for being there spark community.

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TWINKIEQUEEN 12/29/2010 8:44AM

    i hope things have gotten better for you

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VRLILLIS 8/3/2010 10:27AM

  Writing is good therapy. Hopefully, blogging will help!

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JHADZHIA 8/3/2010 8:39AM

    So sorry you are dealing with all this :(( I hope they can do something for your friend. A real test of a healthy lifestyle is if you can stay on track during times of severe stress and crisis. Looks like you passed with flying colors!
Well done and keep up the great work!!
If there is any way you can think of to make peace with your SIL that you should try. Someone has to make the first step and since she is someone you have to deal with, it would be a lot less stress for you to find a way to get past what ever happened for this animosity. All the best with it.

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Feeling Good!!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Still on track! I actually wore my size 6 jeans the other day!!!! WoW!!!! now is time to stay focused on maintaining. This is where I usually flounder :( . I have to realize this is how I will always eat. I need to keep the right foods in the house every week. I usually begin to forget to get the healthy options in the fridge and then hunger hits. I have to remember that my dr. Prescribed this way of filling my body and like other dr. orders I need to take my medicine and keep refilling it with healthy foods every day. I started running again and feel good about that. I made a pact with a friend that we would run the Friehofers Run for Women in June so I have a new goal! :) So I'll keep blogging. I've never consistently done this before so maybe this will help with maintenance.

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SHELLY-ELLY 3/16/2010 7:41AM

    Great Job! Sounds like you have a great plan! With that attitude you'll be able to reach your goals. I'm very proud of you for what you've accomplished so far and have faith you'll make achieve the rest of your goals. Good Luck to you on your journey!

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back on trackk!!!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

well i'm off sugar. its working really well so. i went to the dr. on dec. 22nd and told him i've been working out 3 to 5 days a week since may and still at my heighest weight ever. he said turning 40 is changing things and i have to stay away from white stuff and sugar. forever!!!! it has worked and i feel really great. i worry cuz this is when i think i can eat what i want cuz i look so much better. but i've never had a dr. tell me this is it. no other options. so i pray with the help of spark i can maintain this healthy weight perminently.


in a bad place with food

Thursday, August 16, 2007

bad bad bad day!!!!! i have been horrible lately!!!! i'm trying to get my parents house ready to sell and my mom is being horrible!! i keep eating to make myself feel better. i know it will make me more miserable later when my clothes don't fit but immediate gratification i s all i want right now. i need to take care of me!!!! my husband was so happy i lost all that weight and i can already tell he knows i've put some back on. it makes me so sad that i am disappointing him. also to add to my stress i've agreed to do some babysitting for a 3 month old next month. i'm very nervous about that. i haven't babysat in9 years and i'm very nervous. well. wish me luck for tomorrow. i have to say i did do okay for breakfast luna bar, lunch salad, dinner salad, then i ate 3 pieces of garlic bread and 3 ice cream sandwiches.


here we go again!!

Friday, May 04, 2007

i've hit a dry spot. i think i've actually gained a pound. i feel pretty sad. i need to stay focused though. joe has today off so maybe that will help me. wish me luck!!


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