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Friends were ok...

Saturday, March 05, 2011

We haven't seen these friends in a long time. We went over for dinner with the kids. One of them asked Adam if he was still dating the girl he was in the fall. He said no and they made small talk about it for a little while. I couldn't believe how life changing that was for me. To see Adam have to lie about who he is makes me so sad and upset. I get why he feels he needs to tell everyone. It was one night for me and at least 3 years for him. I feel awful that he has had to keep this to himself all this time. Now that Josh knows I feel it's this big family lie. I'm going to talk to my therapist about all this on Tuesday but I just needed to get it out. I went to my dance class this morning and it was awesome, as usual. emoticon We are going to a dinner for my sister in-laws 40th birthday tonight. There is always drama with that family. I'm hoping to stay out of all of it. Enjoy your Saturday!

  
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BAKERICLISA 3/6/2011 7:16AM

    Just because you know something does not make it a 'big family lie', nor the fact that you need to be the messenger about it. This actually is a small part of what makes up the person and it is best to come out when the person feels most comfortable . . . which at this point, they don't feel completely comfortable nor supported.

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KAILYNSTAR 3/5/2011 7:36PM

    It's amazing how a person feels after they find out a big secret. Then to sit there and realize how long this has been going on for him.

It's good to hear that the dinner went well and that nothing major happened. Hope that your family isn't too dramatic.

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So yesturday was ok...

Friday, March 04, 2011

Adam came home fine. So we will take this day by day. As always. I ate great all day and felt really skinny. I then had Chinese food for dinner. I then woke up today feeling bloated and bad. My big girl jeans feel tight and I just want to cry. It's like one step forward and two steps back. I went to my Zumba class last night and it was awesome! I'm sure the two glasses of wine didn't help either. I'm kinda sick of myself lately. I think I need to mix things up a bit just not sure in what way yet. I'll keep you updated. We are going to friends tonight. Sometimes they are great and sometimes moody. We will see how it goes. I did some yoga this morning and a little strength training. Haven't done that in a while and it felt good. Have a good day Spark friends. Enjoy your weekende.

  
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KAILYNSTAR 3/5/2011 12:39PM

    Just keep moving and not sitting around lots (not that you are) and don't be hard on yourself. Do remember that everybody bloats! :-)

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RUNNER12COM 3/4/2011 4:06PM

    Bless your heart. Relax a bit, would ya? You are doing so many wonderful things, it's okay to not be perfect.

Hang on!

SDJ

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What a night

Thursday, March 03, 2011

Well Adam told a friend at school that he is gay. He texted it to her. I explained to him that it will now be a matter of time before its out through the school. There is only one boy in the freshmanclass who is out. Adam doesn't now anyone elelse in tthe whole school who are boys and are boys. I guess alot of girls are out that the are gay. So here we are. I'm doing much better. Adam and I had a long talk last night and he really opend up to me. I think it was really good for him. He cried alot in my arms. It was amazing that I didn't cry at all. I was there for him which I thought I would never be able to do without me crying. I'm feeling much stronger than I ever thought I could be. My husband is having his moment now. He has been so strong for me while I processed all this. Now he is really feeling everworking on his feelings. .

  
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RUNNER12COM 3/7/2011 1:15PM

    Believe me when I tell you this. Soon... very soon... all three of you will sit together and say, "remember when this was so hard?"

You are doing the right things. Hang on. You will all get through this and things will sort themselves out.

SDJ

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VBPARROTHEAD 3/4/2011 5:21PM

  It is so good that you were so supportive. Adam is still your son and he really isn't any different now than he was last year, just more open. My friend had a very hard time when her son came out but now she is accepting and enjoys the company of his partner also. Dan didn't come out until mid twenties, my friend wanted grandchildren and I think that was the hardest thing for her to accept because Dan and his partner don't want children. Once she realized that was what she was sad about she found friends with babies and young children, including my grandkids.
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KAILYNSTAR 3/3/2011 12:35PM

    I wish that I could reach out and hug all of you.

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SIMPLE_IS_BEST 3/3/2011 11:26AM

    What an ordeal! As if childhood and parenting are both not tough enough, right? It sounds like you guys are doing fine though. Just keep on loving and supporting each other. As long as your son always feels loved, accepted, and supported at home, then he'll be okay.

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HIPPIECHIC68 3/3/2011 9:25AM

    It sounds like you guys are being very supportive which is great!

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-POLEDANCEGIRL- 3/3/2011 8:49AM

    How awesome to be so supportive and open to discussions!!!

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NUTRON3 3/3/2011 8:00AM

    I hope you have a great day

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OMG I have 2 new reasons to get skinny!!!!

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

My husband won 2 amazing trips for this year! He sells BMW's in Upstate New York sold enough new cars to have us invited to Kona, Hawaii for 6 days in October! 3 years ago he won the trip to Kuahi and now Kona!!!! So that trip gives me time to get it together. He also was chosen for professional council which only invites 12 salespeople from the whole country! On this trip they are invited for actual ideas and imput for future production. We will be going to Colorado Springs, Colorado. We have never been there before also. It looks beautiful. That trip is in June during the week of our 19th anniversary. Ok, so thats not alot of time to get it together. Help!

  
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VBPARROTHEAD 3/2/2011 8:46PM

  Congratulations to your hubby for all of the good workespecially during these tough economic times! I know that you can lose aquite a bit of weight between now and June! keep on tracking and working toward those goals! emoticon

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JANRTEACH 3/2/2011 4:32PM

    WOW!!!!! You will look great no matter what happens and you guys deserve a break!!

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KAILYNSTAR 3/2/2011 11:33AM

    How exciting for you! I have only been to British Columbia and Yukon Territory for major trips! You and your husband are so very lucky!

I can just see you vibrating as you wrote this blog! Yippee!

Join a bootcamp. I did the 28 day bootcamp and that helped me lots just to be commited to something. I think that I am going to rejoin it again.

The other thing is to move. Don't ask the kids to get it for you, think of all of the extra calories that you would burn without realizing it.

I am sure that you other friends have really good ideas too. I have a habit NOT to read their comments just so I don't feel swayed in my ideas.

Good Luck! I am so happy for you!


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BEC_232 3/2/2011 11:19AM

  That's awesome!! I'm jealous, Hawaii is one of my favorite places in the world. And you get to go to Colorado too. Nice to know he's hard work really paid off for you both.

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HIPPIECHIC68 3/2/2011 10:34AM

    Yay for you guys! I'm sure you'll do great.

You'll be in my neck of the woods in June. Enjoy the mountains!!

Peace, love and light from a mountain hippie!

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OLDERTWIN1 3/2/2011 10:12AM

    You can do it......that is a whole 4 months away...you can lose all you want in 4 months!! We all will motivate you all the way!!!! start today and keep your trips in your mind at all times to help you stay motivated......even print out or write out your trip on a piece of paper and tack it on your frig...the place the month and the pounds you want to be by then.....so you can see it every time you go to your frig!! Good Luck!
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CHANGINGELAINE 3/2/2011 10:11AM

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Sounds like alot of fun!

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SURLYGIRL 3/2/2011 10:01AM

    Awesome ! I was in Hawaii in Nov. 08 and would LOVE to return - Stunning !

Have a great time in both locations - What Fun !

Oh - And BIG BIG Congrats to your DH ! What a great job he's doing - AWESOME !

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MOMNGUITARMAN 3/2/2011 9:56AM

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BIGDOG18 3/2/2011 9:55AM

  OMG

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Not feeling so hot today

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Josh was home yesturday with a stomache bug. Poor thing. He was sick as a dog. He feels he is up to go to school today. He is such a diligent person. He always amazes me. I woke up with a headache and feel sick to my stomache. I took some ibuprofin so I hope this will pass soon. Still doing great with my eating. I really don't get why its so easy right now but I'm not going to worry about it and just be happy it is. I went to dance again last night. It was a tough class but awesome. I just love it. I feel so much better when I do it. Have a good day Spark friends!

  
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KAILYNSTAR 3/1/2011 1:19PM

    Sharing bugs is never a good idea. They'll get you sick almost every time!! emoticon

Do take it easy.

Great that you are doing so well on the eating part.


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HIPPIECHIC68 3/1/2011 10:11AM

    Get better soon and enjoy the easy days, just be prepared to stay awake for the hard ones, too.

I'm glad you enjoyed your dance class, I love dancing!

Be sure to get some rest today! emoticon

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GRACE612 3/1/2011 8:01AM

    Hope you feel better quick!! There's nothing worse than waking up like that.

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JMAYS831 3/1/2011 7:34AM

    Hope you get to feeling better. Used to take latin dance class, but the new instructor is kinda blah so the class suffered, great fun if done well

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OOLALA53 3/1/2011 7:33AM

    Yes, take the good days when they come. Also know what you mean about dance class! emoticon

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