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Monday, March 07, 2011

Joe had a conversation with Josh about how he is feeling about Adam coming out. He said he is fine. Joe told him Adam was worried how Josh's friends would be when they find out. He said he thinks they will be fine and if they aren't he would beat the shit out of them. Which is not like Josh but a testiment to how much he cares about his brother. He also said that he could beat the shit out of a couple of Adam's friends if they give him any problems :). He probably could because he is a wrestler. Joe told Adam about this.

  
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HIPPIECHIC68 3/7/2011 12:21PM

    Sounds like you guys are covering all the bases. Josh is being a good brother, too!

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We are iced and snowed in...

Monday, March 07, 2011

How awesome!!! Another snow day! Josh slep until 10 30am. Adam still hasn't come down yet. I'm glad he had the time to rest. He went to bed kinda down. I know he is sad because swim is over and he won't be seeing Mike on a regular basis. I told him before bed that I thought Mike was someone I'm happy he would be interested in. He seems smart, nice and I like his family. I told him there will be someone more his age for him when the time is right. Of course, he is a teenager and crushes are heartbreaking no matter who you are. I did feel much better this morning. Thanks for being here Spark friends. I know I'm such a downer right now. Trying to read more motivational blogs. They seem to help. Have a great day!

  
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HIPPIECHIC68 3/7/2011 12:19PM

    Snow days, yay! You are such a supportive mom!! emoticon

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Needed an added blog today.

Sunday, March 06, 2011

We went to Adams swim banquet and it went well. Omg this country club was so houity touity! I felt like they were going to stop me at the door and tell me I must be at the wrong party. :) We sat by ourselves in the beginning because the other tables were full. People came to sit with us and they were friendly. Thank God. I have to admit, because this is basically my diary (for all my friends to see) that I realized this banquet was difficult for me more than just the rich people. This is where I would actually meet Adams crush for the first time. Because he was a senior the coach talked alot about him and the other seniors on the team. She said such great things about him. He is very handsome and his parents are very nice people that I think I know from baseball. It was more difficult for me than anything so far. It made it so real. I love my son so much and this process is so confusing. I can't imagine how difficult it all is for him. I pray everyday, many times a day to help us all handle this well. Its amazing how crazy this rollercoaster is. Adam seems to be doing really well this quarter in school and wants to keep swimming in the off season. So I'm grateful for that. Thank you Spark people for being here for me.

  
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HIPPIECHIC68 3/7/2011 12:23PM

    You guys are strong and will come out even stronger in the end. Kudos to you!! emoticon

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KAILYNSTAR 3/7/2011 11:16AM

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JANRTEACH 3/7/2011 9:52AM

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Dinner went fine

Sunday, March 06, 2011

So kept my cool at dinner. My messed up sister in-law showed up 1 anda half hours late. My father in-law tried not to be to grumpy and brother and his wife I know wished they weren't there. Oh well, all couldv'e been much worse. Honestly it couldv'e been way worse. So thats over. Tonight is Adams swim team banquet. It's at the most snobby country club in the area. Alot of rich people who I'm not friends with. So I will go for Adam and take lots of pictures. I will sit and smile and get through like last nights family dinner. Have a great Sunday.

  
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KAILYNSTAR 3/6/2011 2:11PM

    Scan the crowd. Sometimes there is another Mom there that is uncomfortable too. Find her and sit with her. Be the warm, welcoming person that everyone wants to know.
Money is not everything. Personality is. Have fun!

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WENDYSPARKS 3/6/2011 1:22PM

    Enjoy dinner!!

Wendy

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LILABE11 3/6/2011 1:19PM

    Two nights in a row of spending time with people who have you on edge...no wonder you're feeling a little off. I also had a lot of events when I was younger where I felt kind of left out of the community. I know your son will learn from your example of just getting out there and doing what he enjoys with his family without worrying about what others think of him. I hope you have fun and I hope you get some time to do things in a healthier environment in the coming week!

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JANRTEACH 3/6/2011 10:35AM

    Tonight is Adams swim team banquet. It's at the most snobby country club in the area. Alot of rich people who I'm not friends with. So I will go for Adam and take lots of pictures. I will sit and smile and get through like last nights family dinner.

You will wear something wonderful that shows off the work you have been doing for yourself and you will smile because you are celebrating your son's accomplishments. People will wonder why you look so fabulous. You are supposed to be there, regardless of the others. Wear something great, be happy for your son and be surprised. You might have a better time than you expect! Attitude is EVERYTHING!! emoticon

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HIPPIECHIC68 3/6/2011 9:21AM

    I hate those times when you don't want to be there but have to. Thank god for my camera at those times too. I like having it to hide behind, lol.

Peace to you my friend. emoticon

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Friends were ok...

Saturday, March 05, 2011

We haven't seen these friends in a long time. We went over for dinner with the kids. One of them asked Adam if he was still dating the girl he was in the fall. He said no and they made small talk about it for a little while. I couldn't believe how life changing that was for me. To see Adam have to lie about who he is makes me so sad and upset. I get why he feels he needs to tell everyone. It was one night for me and at least 3 years for him. I feel awful that he has had to keep this to himself all this time. Now that Josh knows I feel it's this big family lie. I'm going to talk to my therapist about all this on Tuesday but I just needed to get it out. I went to my dance class this morning and it was awesome, as usual. emoticon We are going to a dinner for my sister in-laws 40th birthday tonight. There is always drama with that family. I'm hoping to stay out of all of it. Enjoy your Saturday!

  
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BAKERICLISA 3/6/2011 7:16AM

    Just because you know something does not make it a 'big family lie', nor the fact that you need to be the messenger about it. This actually is a small part of what makes up the person and it is best to come out when the person feels most comfortable . . . which at this point, they don't feel completely comfortable nor supported.

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KAILYNSTAR 3/5/2011 7:36PM

    It's amazing how a person feels after they find out a big secret. Then to sit there and realize how long this has been going on for him.

It's good to hear that the dinner went well and that nothing major happened. Hope that your family isn't too dramatic.

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