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A great night ahead!

Saturday, February 12, 2011

I've been in a very good place lately. I'm taking in day by day and enjoying the relaxed peaceful days I have had. My older son seems very at peace with himself and that is so comforting to me. I guess we are doing something right over here :). We have all come to the decision that its time for our younger son to know what is going on. We will tell him during winter break so he has some time to wrap his brain around this before dealing with classes. Also my parents will be away for 2 weeks so he won't be dealing with them either. So I am taking this week and enjoying the peace before tackling the next rollercoaster ride. My husband and I are going to dinner tonight with some wonderful friends. A couple who just enjoy getting together. No drama or trash talk that we have seen recently from other friends. So looking forward to some grown up time with hubby and just enjoying the night! Have a great day Sparkfriends and as always thanks for being here!

  


Wenesday was a good day...

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Spent the afternoon with my mom which was nice. We had some lunch together, did some shopping and went to my younger sons wrestling match. Boy I am so on board with my eating but it has been a struggle to get back to my maintenance weight. Since I've been on the prednisone in November I just can't get that extra weight off. I'm being consistent and totally been on the healthy lifestyle but it's just amazing how hard it has been to get it off. So I persevere and stay devoted to my healthy lifestyle. I guess I should be grateful through this stressful time I haven't binged to comfort myself. That is a huge deal to me. I have binged through many other situations in my life that were no where near as stressful as this. So here I am with two teenagers ready to stay in the trenches with them and get them through these trying years. I'm happy to know that I have found ways to cope through them without turning to food. Thanks Sparkfriends for being here.

  
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KAKIPOPUP 2/12/2011 3:39AM

    Prednisone will really do it to your weight - I think many of the steroids do, but maybe your doctor could help with this? It can be so frustrating to work so hard and see the opposite results from what you want - emoticon

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NWLIFESRC 2/10/2011 7:06AM

    keep up the great work

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Under the weather today...

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

Ugggg, I have a stomache issue today. Haven't gotten out of my pj's. I have gotten some laundry done but haven't gotten the house back in order since my grumpy father in-laws birthday party. The party went extremely well. The weather didn't cooperate at all though. We actually had to have some of the guys shuttle people to there cars down the street because our street was a sheet of ice. It actually sleeted the entire day. Also our roof was leaking into our house an hour before guest were arriving! My husband was on the roof shoveling snow off for fourty minutes! So glad he didn't kill himself! So not a great start :). Once everyone got here though it went so well. Everyone had a great time catching up with relatives they haven't seen in a long time. I kept busy which is always a good thing. So even though I begrudgingly got a thank you from grumpy father in-law, I know my husband was very grateful I made it happen and that really is who I did It for. Sunday I woke up very sick with this stomache bug and now recovering. I hope all my Sparkfriends are having a good Monday.

  


A great start to my day...

Monday, February 07, 2011

I went to see my therapist this morning and just love her. She is my mom's age and so completely different. So awesome to have her to bounce ideas and healthy solutions off of. Adam came home after his therapist appt. and said he doesn't want to tell our younger son he is gay until closer to summer because he is worried how his friends would handle it. My therapist seems to believe its important for our younger son to know because he will feel that he was betrayed if he hears it from someone else. Our older son has told our family friend who is his age. She has been wonderful about it but I'm concerned about getting together as families now and having Josh overhear their conversation. My therapist is also concerned. We decided that I should tell my son that we won't be getting together as families until he feels comfortable about telling Josh because it could be very toxic to keep this from him and have him find out from someone else. Thanks for letting me vent and let me know if you have any words of wisdom to pass on. Thanks again Sparkfriends and I hope everyone had a great weekend! Hopefully not to much binging on Super Bowl goodies.

  


Just a short blog today

Friday, February 04, 2011

Short but upseting to me. Our older son told me last night he doesn't believe there is a God. He believes when we die we do come back but maybe on other planets! Now to some this may be just a growing process but I'm a very spiritual person and have gotten through alot in life by relying on God to get me through. With prayer and knowing a higher power is there for me has gotten me through alot. It has been a rough month and just need a break. Thanks for listening Spark friends.

  
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RUNNER12COM 2/5/2011 9:50AM

    Hey, I saw your note on my Spark Page and thought I would reply here.

Don't assume your son isn't using his spirituality to get himself through this point in his life. Right now, if he is anything like I was at his age, he needs to separate spirituality from religion.

All my life, I grew up with one clear message from society. If I was gay, my Church and my God would not approve. The hateful and judgmental voices seemed so much louder than the welcoming and supportive ones. Ultimately, I felt chased away from God, because it's hard to embrace something that doesn't embrace you.

But somewhere, deep down, I knew that I wasn't the problem. And while my external connection to all things religious fell apart, my internal spirituality strengthened. I found validation in my own daily life, learning to love others as I hoped to one day be loved and to give of myself without expectation of gifts in return.

I began to feel that religion was something people preached AT me, while spirituality was something people shared WITH with me.

So what if your son believes in aliens or karma or Buddha or the Flying Spaghetti Monster? The important thing is that, right now, he believe that there IS something greater in this world than just himself. He needs to know that there is meaning to life, that there is a reason to love and give, and that he matters to you and to those around him.

In other words, support him as he finds his spirituality. For now, that may be all that he can trust.

SDJ

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RUNNER12COM 2/4/2011 4:32PM

    If you truly are a spiritual person.. and I believe sincerely that you are... than you already know that you cannot "learn" spirituality. Sure, someone can teach you the basics of a religion, but true spirituality is something that a person comes to in his or her own time, in their own way, and only when they are ready.

It must be very frustrating, and even a bit scary, to hear your son say such things. But remember, the part about "a phase" is really true. He is trying to wrap his young mind around beliefs that wise scholars and religious leaders debate to this day, so it's not unexpected that there may be false starts and wrong turns.

Love him. Pray for him. And believe that he will find his way.

SDJ

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