Friday, August 09, 2013
I read the article on the main page today about making time for exercise, somethings I often think about doing but dont do. I have not exercised for 2 weeks because I have been on vacation. I have my exercise clothes, mat, shoes etc. I could go for a run, do a sit up or even a walk, but I have chosen not to. What's done is done, I am not going to beat myself up about it, I can turn over a new page any time I choose.
Soon I will be back to work again, which will be very good for me since I will be back into a sleep and meal routine.
I read a comment in the article posts that was very inspiring. The commenter said that she always makes time for exercise unless it is absolutely unavoidable to miss it. She does it for herself and family. The article talked about looking at exercise like your job, a doctors apt or meeting, you wouldn't miss those. It is about making a commitment to yourself.
I feel like I often over think things, making a lot of excuses and confusing the crap out of myself about why I havent succeeded. Things would be easier if I just said "yes" to exercise after work each week day. Louis has been gently mentioning going for walks on the days I cannot go to my gym classes. I say it is to hard but I think I will just say yes from now on.
Thursday, August 08, 2013
If a person really wanted to go to bed earlier at night, but continued to stay awake late, do they really want to achieve the original goal?
If a person really wanted to learn french, but never spoke french, do they truly want to learn french?
Same with weight loss. If I truly wanted to lose weight and get fit then I would stop binge eating, right? But I never have.
So I ask myself, is this just laziness, stupidity or a fear of success?
Friday, July 26, 2013
Hi everyone, I am on a two week vacation from work, and for the first week I am back home at my dads house. Which is so great! Except the house is full of so many temptations, my family has ice cream, cookies, a candy jar, chocolate, chips, and they cook deep fried foods for dinner. Tonight I made a big salad and ate that with just a just 6 or so deep fried scallops and about 20 fries.. that still worked out to be about 600 calories. Then after that I had a sugar craving and ate a fun sized Oh Henry bar, followed by a binge of 3 cookies, and some more chocolate. I also had a large breakfast at a diner this morning with a friend.
I will continue to try to eat as healthy as possible this week, because I feel so heavy, and sluggish and negative when I eat this way. I also have a wedding to go to when I get home in a week.
Tomorrow I plan to go to the farmers market to pick up some veggies and fruit. I plan to eat those with each meal and opt for healthy alternatives. This is a bit of a test for me in deciding when the calories are worth it and when they are not. Often I only eat junk food because others around me are eating it. I will eat some treats while I am home but in sensible portions.
I also brought all my fitness things I need; sneakers, mat, exercise clothes etc.
As I am writing this my dad continues to offer me ice cream bars, although I have mentioned healthy eating many times in the last few hours since I arrived.. sigh. It feels like he doesnt support me in healthy eating.
It is up to me to take control of my eating, I cannot blame food pushers for my weight.
Anyone have tips on staying well on vacations and dealing with food pushers? It can be so hard not to feel deprived when everyone else is indulging and pushing it on you as well.
Wednesday, July 03, 2013
I am only 23, and I have been trying to get control of my weight since I have been 10. I have never been far off from my ideal weight, even when I wasnt overweight all I think I wanted was to feel in control of my eating. That's 13 years! My eating is more out of control then ever! The harder I try and the more I think about it, the worse I do.
I must restart my efforts at least 3 times a year, since I give up every time. I have been on this site for 6 years! Every time I restart i think that this is the time, and that I wont give up, but I always do.
Even though I am still trying to exercise and track my calories I still screw up (binge big) every 2 days at most. After I tell myself that I will do better (it seems to easy in hindsight) I write down tangible tips to help me achieve my goal. But I don't follow them, I give in to the same old pitfalls day in and day out. Then I cry to my fiance, and promise myself that I will start doing better but then when I get the urge to overeat, I just go ahead and do it. WHY? I am so angry at myself that I have bad dreams where people tease me. I feel like a massive failure, a lazy, worthless person with no willpower. What am I stupid! I have been trying to stay positive but I can't help it right now... I just believe in myself less and less everyday.
I know that I am the only one standing in my way of success.. so why don't I just move out of my own way??
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