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Troubles

Saturday, January 18, 2014

One step forward, two steps back. I recovered from all my viral sickness from December and got back on the gym wagon for 2 weeks but now my back is injured and I can barely move. I am too young for this. I am bored and stressed and keep over eating to the point of massive stomach aches after each "meal". My calories are exceeded 2000+ each day.
I suppose if I can't get back to my exercising schedule this is a good time to really focus on fixing up my eating compulsions. Healthy living is really an upward battle sometimes.

  
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CICELY360 1/18/2014 10:43PM

  It is not always easy to recover. Hope you get back on track.

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SHOAPIE 1/18/2014 10:31PM

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Happy New Year!

Sunday, January 05, 2014

Happy new year everyone! 2014 here I come. This year I put a lot of effort into exercising and eating well, even though I wasn't always successful. I had a lot of ups and downs and didnt really loose much weight but I did tone up at times, and worked to build healthy habits.
This year I am going to stick to it, change doesnt happen over night after all.

I was off the wagon for a three weeks there, overloaded at work and sick. November and December were very tough months for me. I got my wisdom teeth removed, developed a mystery skin condition (x2), got the flu and a cold, and possibly have mystery allergies to boot. I got back to binging on sugar, which is still very out of control, but I am back to the gym now and getting back on track with my diet.

Today was the first real day back to the gym in the new year and I did a Body Combat class. It was very difficult, honestly 20 minutes in I thought I would never make it to 50 minutes and wanted to leave but I persevered! I must have had 4-5 "second winds" but I finished and I am so proud! Goodlife estimates that that class burns in the 700s for calories, wohoo.

In the new year I would like to attend as many different classes as I can consistently and tone up. I would like to feel that I have control over the food going into my body and not visa vera.

These are life long goals, and as long as I never give up fully I will never fail.

  


Just say NO

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Just saying "no" to anyone including myself is one of the hardest things for me to do in my life. I have been frustrated lately with my coworkers and cannot muster the guts to tell them my opinion or just how I feel in general so I often become the door mat. Always have been.
I hate confrontation and will be passive because it is the easiest way to cope. For example I was on a very full bus yesterday standing with my gym bag and work bag near the front because there was a spot for bags but when the drivers and passengers started getting pushy about " moving back" instead of explains the situation I just got off the bus and walked and waiting for the next bus. I was very angry
I will also take on whatever my boss or inlaws want me to do to make them happy. All this makes me very frustrated and creates anger which I complain about to my partner and binge eat for because it makes me feel better temporarily.
I Also cannot see to say no to myself. I think this is the only real explanation ,other then total addiction, that
I don't stop eating so much junk. I get frustrated with myself because I put a lot of effort into my workouts and planning healthy meals and really want to lose weight for my wedding next year but it is just so much easier to give in to the immediate pleasure of sugar binges.
This is something I really need to work on. I can't lose weight if I don't start wasting in my calorie range. I know I can do it since I have before. It is time to start saying " no more excuses results only results" to both exercise and diet.

  
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BRADMILL2922 9/17/2013 11:44PM

    Sounds like you need to really work on taking care of yourself as much as you do everyone else. You can do it, it just takes some work :)

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SOFT_VAL67 9/17/2013 8:48PM

    i carry around alot of frustration and pent up words i want to get out to the right people.
i keep hoping things will get better, and maybe this has alot to do with me not losing any weight lately.
i have to learn to let it all go and get it out and take the rest and leave it on the ground in the form of sweat and burned calories.
wishing you luck in learning to do the same.

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BAREFOOTGRL 9/17/2013 8:35PM

    I'm sorry you had a bad day. Keep your head up and keep working toward your goals. I also have a hard time saying no, so I understand that totally. Take care.

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PICKIE98 9/17/2013 8:26PM

    Teeny little changes are easier than the whole picture.. more water, walk further..

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Over thinking things?

Friday, August 09, 2013

I read the article on the main page today about making time for exercise, somethings I often think about doing but dont do. I have not exercised for 2 weeks because I have been on vacation. I have my exercise clothes, mat, shoes etc. I could go for a run, do a sit up or even a walk, but I have chosen not to. What's done is done, I am not going to beat myself up about it, I can turn over a new page any time I choose.
Soon I will be back to work again, which will be very good for me since I will be back into a sleep and meal routine.
I read a comment in the article posts that was very inspiring. The commenter said that she always makes time for exercise unless it is absolutely unavoidable to miss it. She does it for herself and family. The article talked about looking at exercise like your job, a doctors apt or meeting, you wouldn't miss those. It is about making a commitment to yourself.
I feel like I often over think things, making a lot of excuses and confusing the crap out of myself about why I havent succeeded. Things would be easier if I just said "yes" to exercise after work each week day. Louis has been gently mentioning going for walks on the days I cannot go to my gym classes. I say it is to hard but I think I will just say yes from now on.

  
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ARTCHICK1957 8/9/2013 9:09PM

    I like this blog, I also find myself procrastinating when it comes to exercise. I always have a lot of excuses. But I am doing better now because another spark member and I have made a commitment to each other. I have trouble with the exercise and she has trouble staying in calorie range, so each day we send a "daily report" to one another. We report on both exercise and calorie range, and it has helped me to become more consistent with my exercise and her to stay in her range. This one on one challenge seems to work much better then just a general challenge on a thread in the message boards. I also like your idea of making it like an appointment that you wouldn't miss. I will incorporate that into my exercising routine. Good luck with just saying yes!

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Do we really want success?

Thursday, August 08, 2013

If a person really wanted to go to bed earlier at night, but continued to stay awake late, do they really want to achieve the original goal?
If a person really wanted to learn french, but never spoke french, do they truly want to learn french?
Same with weight loss. If I truly wanted to lose weight and get fit then I would stop binge eating, right? But I never have.
So I ask myself, is this just laziness, stupidity or a fear of success?

  
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CHERIJ16 8/8/2013 3:12PM

    Sometimes I have been all three! I try to do everything in moderation but it isn't easy. My biggest motivator is that I finally realize that in order to control my diabetes and be healthy I have to do healthy things. I also think about how much better I feel when I eat healthy food and get in some exercise.

When I screw up I don't beat myself up anymore. I just keep on trying to do better at the next meal or snack. I don't wait to get back on track.

You are thinking about your behavior and that is half the battle. emoticon
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SUPERMODEL2BE 8/8/2013 12:34PM

    Good question, I will binge on chocolate if I restrict myself. So I buy a bar of dark chocolate and have a little every day. Everything in moderation. I also have been trying to go to bed earlier + want to get up before 9:00 because my daughter is going back to school soon. I need to get her on the bus early. It will just take time for me to adjust.

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