Saturday, June 14, 2008
Rewind to Wednesday.
There I am in the grocery store, shopping for a decent, inexpensive piece of salmon to feed three for lunch. Starving! I am absolutely starving. Hmmm... what can I grab?
I have this thought somewhere around the bakery. (Why can it never happen in produce around the baby carrots??) Then I see them... festively decorated with red, white, and blue sprinkles, all delightful sugary goodness. I could almost taste it.
Somewhere... deeeeeeeeep in the back of my head, there was a voice. STEP AWAY FROM THE DONUTS! Another voice pointed out that in addition to the sprinkle kind, they also had the cream filled one... oh I could get TWO! And save some change.... I can't even do the math at this point. (It would have saved me 19 cents to add an additional 300 calories to my day).
I remember thinking to myself "Do you really want that donut? Are you so hungry that you have to eat something right this minute? Do you really want to see that donut tomorrow on your tracker?" The answers to all of the questions were a very resounding NO.
I haven't been so proud of myself recently as I was at that moment when I grabbed my shopping cart and turned away, forgetting all about the donuts as I went in search of salmon for lunch.
WOOHOO! What did I do to celebrate? A little victory dance. That was it.
NOTE: I do NOT have a psychological disorder. But I do spend quite a bit of time talking to myself... lol
Saturday, May 31, 2008
We finally hired a dog trainer to see if we could get this high strung, super aggressive beast under control. He's mean about 70% of the time, biting, snarling, grumpy... there's a long list of people he's bitten, at least 3 of them under the age of 10. Yeah... that is not good. He hasn't broken skin.... yet. It's only a matter of time.
The other 30% of the time, he's my buddy. He's the guy who listened to all of my rants and let me cry when I was going through my divorce. When he's a good dog, he's an angel, but when he's bad, he's a holy terror.
Last night he showed the trainer first how super angelic he can be. Sit. Stay. Down. Come. All perfect. Then it was my turn and I saw a real glimmer of hope for a few minutes. Then, he showed her the demon that he can really be. Reward with physical affection instead of a treat this time. He prefers food to affection. And when I attempted to show him the affection for his job well done, he snarled and all but attacked my hand. How awful. It got worse from there. He bit my foot, then bit Dave's foot because we were too close to what he has designated "His Area", where we put his food and water down.
The trainer (whose name is Kat... lol) believes that the best course of action for my dog is to give him up to a rescue and rehab center, let them completely retrain him, then find him a home with someone with aggressive breed experience (he's rottweiler, chow chow, lab and shepherd... the chow is particularly dominant in my dog). There are so many reasons this is the best solution for all involved. Still I ask myself why I am fighting so hard to keep "custody" of a dog that is only a good dog about 30% of the time.
That doesn't make the decision to let him go any easier. I'm going to miss him, but I have to do what's best for all of us and now it looks like rehoming him is what to do. This is really hard :(
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
I've been spending a lot more time recently on sparkrecipes, looking for new and interesting things to make with the same old stuff. And I have to ask...
What happened to "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all."??
Comments on some of the recipes are just rude! One I read today? "4tbsp of garlic? Yech". Ok, YOU don't like garlic. Then omit this ingredient!
I thought the point of the comments was for other SP users to make suggestions to modify the recipe. For example, "I made this dish, and instead of doing this, I did that instead, and was quite pleased with the results." If you modified an ingredient, or a cooking time. If you found that 20 minutes to bake wasn't long enough and the dish needed a little longer OR just to say "WOW this dish was fantastic"... not for these random rude comments from users who just need to comment on stuff.
Be nice to each other, people!
Monday, March 24, 2008
Nothing like a good test for the old heart right after reports of a murmur and a subsequent echocardiogram, now is there?? The doctor's office calls on a Friday afternoon to tell me that they want me to have a CT scan of my liver. Oh, and take 1000mg of Omega 3 Fish Oil daily starting ASAP... What?? Why???
According to the ultrasound? Fatty liver. HA! I want to make a joke with the receptionist. Have you seen my backside? OF COURSE I have a fatty liver. The jokes were funny until I had a chance to see what this meant. No good news. OK, I'm getting the scan after I see the doctor on Wednesday for test results.
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Wednesday: Test results are in
Echocardiogram is GOOD! Heart is in good shape. Murmur is a "normal" thing. Don't worry about that.
Ultrasound: GOOD except for that fatty liver thing
HIDA Scan (to check gall bladder function) is GOOD! My gall bladder is functioning at 96%. She says this is the highest result she's ever seen on a HIDA scan.
Blood work (part 2 of physical): sugar is good, thyroid is good, liver function is good.... Which one is good cholesterol? LDL?? HDL??? Either way, my good cholesterol is a little low (only 5 points) and my bad cholesterol is a teeny weenie bit high (by 7 points. She says that at 127, most tests would still put me in the "normal" range with 130 at the high mark). Keep taking the fish oil. She thinks that will help.
Now... about that fatty liver... she's a little confused because despite the ultrasound results, I have a liver that is functioning perfectly, at least according to the blood work results. Do I need the CT scan? She says as long as I'm not in any pain, no CT just yet.
However, she wants me on something like South Beach, even if I start at Phase 2, focusing on high fiber, and healthy protein. Very limited fast burning carbs. So fried foods, cookies, candies, ice cream... and things like pasta either in whole wheat or in limited quantities.
I can do this. I've done it before. And now I have to have the ultrasound repeated in 4 months to see what kind of progress I've made. I can do this! I bought new running shoes (because the old ones were muddy and worn out and hurting my feet) and I charged my iPod. I got a new TV for my new living room that works with my DVD player, and I can start doing my DVDs again. I even asked the doctor to be 100% sure if I am clear to work out again. I am.
I am GOING to do this! Starting today.
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