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Binging while on the emotional highway.

Saturday, May 24, 2014

I have been struggling lately. I was doing really well and in the last two months I had two friendships end and I let myself go because I was depressed. I gained three pounds. I know most people do not think that that is much, but it is because it can quickly turn into 20 pounds. Today I have resolved to get back on track and I have even recruited an accountability buddy. Because of all the binging I have done in the past two weeks, I am starving now because my body got used to having extreme quantities of food. Now I must work toward getting back to healthy eating. It will be hard, but it will be worth it. I must plan out my meals and make a real effort to exercise. I have not exercised much this past month - maybe ten times. Whatever has happened to me in the past two months, I have to let go and move forward or I will find myself back to the way I used to be and will once again be grossly overweight. I just need a little help from my friends.


Now and then - an approach to weight loss.

Thursday, October 03, 2013

I must admit that I am rather disappointed with myself. For the last three months I was on an eating frenzy and not paying attention to how many calories I was consuming. I exercised, but not everyday. And, when I did exercise, I did not put any real effort into it and only did part of my exercises. I even gave up on strength training. Guess what happened! I gained 10 pounds and I am not happy about it. The last time I gained 10 pounds it was hardly noticeable since I was exercising diligently while consuming mass amounts of calories. This time.... well, my clothes do not fit quite so well. My pants are snug and I now have a Dunlap tire! (My belly done lapped over my waist band!) So, I have begun a new regimen. I am consuming about 1550 calories a day (except for yesterday when I binged) and I am exercising diligently. It is hard. My muscles are aching, but this lets me know how out of shape I have gotten. My tummy begs for food. After constant eating all day, my tummy thinks it needs a supply of food every hour. It sends me these "feed me" (think Little Shop of Horrors "feed me Seymour") signals that I have to ignore. It is very difficult to do. I am concentrating on three meals a day plus a snack. I hope that I am successful with my new plan.

I brought this weight gain on myself. I have nothing and no one to blame it on. It was just me not caring about what I was doing to myself. I was into instant gratification mode. Now I must pay the consequences of my lethargy and do something about this weight gain. I even have a personal trainer to help me. I weigh in again at the end of the month. Lets see how much weight I lose between now and then.
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TRYINGTOLOSE64 10/3/2013 8:54PM

    Well you know what you need to do, so time to buckle down and do it!! You can do it!!

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Not losing

Wednesday, August 07, 2013

Well I am a little skeptical about posting. You never know what you will get. Anyways, I am currently not pleased with myself. I began this journey with the hopes of losing weight and getting into shape. The weight loss thing is not going as planned. Last year I lost about 50 pounds. I look better, I feel better. Then the weight loss stopped. This year I set out to lose another 50 pounds. Guess what? I still weigh the same! I did go see my personal trainer today and she has me down three pounds, but I wonder if that was because I had only been up for about an hour and did not eat or drink anything.

The point is that I am getting discouraged. I really want to lose weight, but the scale has not moved in nine months! I exercise regularly and watch what I eat. I do not know what the problem is, but I sure wish it would work itself out so that I can get back to losing. Today I added a new exercise to my routine. I am going to start using the rowing machine at the gym. I hope that will help.

On the bright side.... I am pleased that I have not gained any weight. I have gotten fitter. I still have a BMI of 33 (which categorizes me as obese) and a body fate percentage of 48.... but I don't look obese. Just kind of fat. I am also in good health. I will not give up on my goal, but I do need a little help getting there.

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SOKKERNUT 8/10/2013 10:28AM

    It can be frustrated but on the good side you haven't gained any weight you are ahead of the game then most.

As far as the Warafarin goes like KACAR51 said you can eat whatever you want the dr just needs to know what you are eating and when they check your INR they will adjust, I had a hard time adjusting to it too UNTIL I was told I could eat whatever I wanted but just to keep them posted. I have had blood clots since 2008 believe it or not and to this day even on blood thinners I continue to get NEW blood clots, which they found I have clotting disorder know as sticky blood also known as Hughes Syndrome there is another really long name for it antiphilolipid (I know I butchered the spelling). Good Luck to you doll.

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KACAR51 8/7/2013 8:44PM

    I am Warfarin too and you can eat what ever you want as long as you are getting your INR checked regularly! My doctor just adjust the level often!
Hang in there, maybe a change in your exercise routine will get you going again! emoticon emoticon

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SPARKYTHECAT 8/7/2013 8:18PM

    Don't get discouraged! emoticon You can do it! Just keep moving and keep tracking and try changing your exercise routine. emoticon Keep up the good work emoticon

Keep sparking girl!

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SMANISMELL 8/7/2013 7:27PM

    I spoke with an RD recently because I am now on warfarin for blood clots in my leg. I had to take the vitamin K and cranberries and grapefruit out of my diet. Now I am trying new diet and not really liking it. I miss the green stuff and the grapefruit and cranberries. Need more ideas on what to eat.

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SCHUBERTR1 8/7/2013 7:07PM

  have you considered a visit with a Registered Dietitian?

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Sunday, December 09, 2012

I am not hungry, yet I have a hunger. The emptiness inside me consumes me. I long to fill this emptiness. I over eat because I am trying to satisfy this hunger. It is not food for which I am hungry for. I hunger to fill the emptiness, the loneliness.

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SPARKYTHECAT 6/6/2013 10:57AM

    Some days I feel this way. I just never have the guts to write it out. In some ways it is a comfort knowing that others feel the same way.

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HAPPLYEVERAFTER 12/30/2012 12:50PM

    I hope the New Year brings a new outlook on life. I think the positive note is that you recognize that you are overeating to fill the void. Now the question would be, what else would you be able to fill that void with besides food? Another question would be how to fill the loneliness/emptiness?

I am a 52 year old yo-yo dieter and have been for the past 30 years. I've been on an endless cycle of lose, gain, never maintain. I've been on Dr. Jonny Bowden's " Unleash Your Thin" program since August of this year, and can honestly say that I believe I have just ended that cycle. This is the only program I've ever been on that addresses the need to begin healing your emotions/mind before beginning the actual diet or exercise phase of the program. Phase one was an actual workbook dedicated to getting to the core issues of the who, what, when, why, and where, of eating issues. It has changed my life. I went from eating a 1000-2000 calorie breakfast loaded with sugar and flour, wanting nothing more than to go back to sleep, only to do that all over again for lunch, to today where I no longer live to eat, but eat to live. I wake up happy and with a sense of purpose! It makes me want to put on my sneakers and if I can't make a difference in someone else's life today then I have that much more time to make a difference in my life today. Some days I'm able to do both! You are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you heal your mind, the body and spirit will follow! Peace, lisa

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SMANISMELL 12/9/2012 9:42PM

    Thanks for the insight. I will look for the book. I just had to write what I was feeling, and now that I have gotten it out, I do feel better. I just lost my job and my best friend and I took it a little hard. I feel a little lonely without my co-workers and my friend.

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NESARIAN 12/9/2012 12:53PM

    Feeding the Hungry Heart is a book written in the late 70s early 80s and covers this feeling well. The author's name is not coming to me now but you can look the book up by title. You are not alone.

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WORKOUTWITHPAM 12/9/2012 12:51PM

    It might be time for you to get in to see your doctor, and let him/her know how you are feeling. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.


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PUNKADOO 12/9/2012 12:49PM

    You will find your way.

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HOPERESTORED226 12/9/2012 11:35AM

I totally hear you. There is a hole that nothing that is food, can fill. I think that hole is different for each of us. I wish I could give you an easy, magical answer. I think it takes very hard work to get to the feelings below the hunger, and discover what it will take to feed it properly.

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AZMOMXTWO 12/9/2012 11:27AM

  you may need to seek professional help

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