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It's All About the Choices

Monday, August 15, 2011

Last Summer I gained--a lot. Like 20 pounds a lot. Oh, I had my excuses--I got a new scale (yeah, okay, that *might* have accounted for 3? of it?), my daughter was starting kindergarten in the Fall, so I wanted to spend as much time with her as possible...etc. But when it came right down to it, I COULD have found time to exercise, I COULD have said no to the homemade ice cream...but I didn't.

This Summer, I decided, was going to be different. This Summer, I realized that taking time to exercise didn't mean I was a bad mom. Quite the opposite, actually. It meant that I care enough about my kids to want to be healthy and a good example for them. I have also been diligent about tracking every single calorie I consume. Because you know what? I'm eligible to be on the BLC's maintenance team now. And I LIKE that idea. I want to STAY there.

So, here's the thing, I have gained this summer because I haven't been as strict on my gym time as I am when school is in session, but THIS summer, I'm up 4 pounds, not 20. The difference? The difference is in the choices I make. When my husband suggested the other day that we go to a local ice cream shop after dinner, I countered with, "How about TCBY?" They've got a sugar free White Chocolate Macadamia Nut frozen yogurt that is so good that I don't WANT to top it with anything else. I can have my 4 oz serving for 80 calories. :) Hubby's happy, kids are happy, I'm happy.

It's all about the choices. Today I was feeling stressed. We've got some things going on at home that, while not awful (don't worry friends. :D), are stressful nonetheless. I even dreamed about the situation last night and unfortunately, my subconscious gave me the worst possible outcome. So this morning, I was playing with my kids and I swear, I could HEAR the bag of chips CALLING me from the pantry (okay, why I still have chips after nearly 4 years on Spark is another blog for another day. ;D). I REALLY wanted to answer their call. Instead, I said, that's it kids, we gotta get out of here. I threw on my workout clothes and went to the gym to take a Pilates/Yoga class instead. Man, did I ever feel better when I was done! And really, when was the last time I ever emotionally ate and said I felt better when I was done? NEVER.

It's all about the choices.

  
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CONTENTCHRIS 9/2/2011 12:57AM

    Good job on the change of plans to avoid the bad snacks!

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FITNHEALTHYKAL 8/17/2011 8:14AM

    :::guiltyface::: I wish I'd read this blog the other day when I stewed over a facebook post and ate an entire can of salt and vinegar potato chips Jeni. Maybe it would have helped me. Although I don't suppose bolting out of the car on a freeway driving somewhere would have been as effective as going to a yoga/pilates class on the other hand! ;) You rock!

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AUNTIE65 8/16/2011 9:59AM

    Yah... the chips called to me on vacation and I ate them... I enjoyed them and now I'm up again - so proud of you for not answering the call!

Hope your stress is short lived!

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IAMSOCUTE 8/16/2011 7:54AM

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HOPE2011 8/15/2011 10:08PM

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EGRAMMY 8/15/2011 8:18PM

    Beautiful that you can think and do correctly. emoticon

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NURSESARAH03 8/15/2011 6:44PM

    Jeni- I absolutely LOVE where your head is!! Sounds like you've found your groove emoticon

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ARRIVINGUFO 8/15/2011 5:35PM

    Knowing that it is a conscious choice every day is half the battle. You have to choose you, and your health. The chips are a lot easier choice! LOL!

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EUGENERUGOSA 8/15/2011 5:34PM

    you rock! & you are so right. Chips call to me too - I need to let you inspire me to chose better! Done ok today so far...

Here's to continued good choices for us both!

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3_GIANTS_4_ME 8/15/2011 3:06PM

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PATCHESOK 8/15/2011 2:58PM

    Way to go!! And you are exactly right. We have to make these choices daily, It is work, but the outcome is so sweet when the scale goes in the right direction, when you have more energy, and when you don't spend all day fighting your cravings. Keep up the good work!!!

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MMINITEACH 8/15/2011 2:21PM

    Amazing! It's so true. Good for you. the more you can make those choices the easier others will be. Congrats!

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Oh! THAT's what I was thinking!

Saturday, July 09, 2011

Before I get into the recap of today's race, I just want to take a second to thank all of you for your encouraging words of support. They really helped me today!

Okay, so in my last blog I ended with DLF>DNF>>DNS. Well, I did better than the ones who didn't finish. Oh, and one other person. lol. This race was the toughest one I've ever done. We had a huge storm last night that dumped an inch and a half of rain on the course. It was a muddy, slick mess.

The race started at 8:30. What possessed them to start so late, I'll never know, but the temperature was already a "balmy" 82 degrees with 93% humidity at start time. They didn't have us go in waves, which is what I'm used to doing at the White Water Center so there was a bottle neck getting over the start line and again when we entered the trail. First water stop was at 2.6 miles and Mel, I thought of you. They had Gatorade and water. I opted for the water, which I was glad about because I slopped it all over me. He he he. Right after the water stop, the 3.5 milers and the 8.25 milers split up. Would you believe I was STILL tempted to go with the 3.5 milers? Not to worry, I didn't. ;)

Once the 3.5 milers went their own way, it got very quiet and peaceful. There were 4 times as many 3.5 mile runners as there were 8.25. Just before the 4 mile mark, I was coming down a steep hill. So steep, in fact, that I slowed way down because it looked really slippery. A sharp curve was approaching so I put my hand on a tree to steady myself. Unfortunately, I lost my footing and that WET tree did diddly squat to prevent the face plant. DOH! I was covered in mud. However, I did a quick check to make sure nothing was hurt (and that no one saw my moment of grace, lol) and continued on.

Up and down and up and up and down...twisting, turning, slipping, sliding...it was crazy. About 6 miles in I had to start walking. There was a hill that I actually thought I was going to have to use my hands to help me climb. I couldn't find my running legs after that. And, truth be told, I wanted to stop. I didn't think I had it in me to go on. But I just kept repeating to myself, "Don't stop. No matter what. Don't stop. Walking is okay, but DON'T STOP!" And so I pushed on. It helps that I told so many people that I was doing this race and I didn't want to have to admit that I didn't finish.

I was running solo for most of the race, but at mile 7, I PASSED someone! WHOO HOO! Small victory, but it was just what I needed to help me find the strength to push on and run to the end.

I am happy to say that I crossed the finish line at a SPRINT--well, let me rephrase that, it was probably the slowest run you can do and have it considered a run, but it FELT like a sprint. He he he.

I don't have an official time yet, but unofficially, I finished in just under 2 hours. I had a secret goal to finish in under 100 minutes and when I realized out on the course that it was no longer mathematically possible for me to do that, I felt so defeated. That was about the time that I wanted to give up. However, I decided NOT to let that set back keep me from making it to the finish line. And I could still finish in under 2 hours! So I made that my new goal. I'm glad to say that I met it...just barely, but it's a big ol' GOAL MET! And just think, when I go to do this next year--because OH HECK YEAH I'm doing it again--I'll have a baseline to work to beat. All in all, I enjoyed it. I know what adjustments I need to make in my training (like running in the heat and humidity instead of just on the treadmill in the A/C!!!) so that I CAN beat that baseline next year!

Now, if you know me, you know that I see connections in everything so if you'll indulge me for just a bit more, I'd like to share with you the connections I've made between this race experience and my weight loss journey.

A) Don't look for the easy way out. Sure you might have short term success, but the hard work is worth it in the end.

B) You've heard it before, but I'm going to say it again...fall down 7 times, get up 8.

C) Don't be afraid to fail because even if you do, you're still further along than you would be if you hadn't tried at all.

D) Surround yourself with support. I think that at one point in my race, and at MANY points on my weight loss journey, I would've packed it in if I hadn't known that I had people cheering for me and encouraging me.

E) Don't let set backs stop you from reaching your ultimate goal. It's like the Itsy Bitsy Spider...she got washed out of the spout, but did she stop? NO! Because she knew that the sun would be coming up and drying all the rain, so she started back up that spout again. We can do that in our own lives with our own goals.

F) If something didn't work out quite like you'd hoped, rather than being disappointed, USE that experience to make yourself better.

G) It's OKAY to readjust your goals.

H) HAVE FUN! After all, if you're not, then you're missing out!

  
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EGRAMMY 7/15/2011 10:06PM

    emoticon I shall think of the itsy bitsy spider. Thanks. Great blog

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HEATHERJOYRIDER 7/14/2011 8:48PM

    Great Blog!

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MAMACHAMBS 7/14/2011 8:33AM

    Didn't realize you'd signed on for a mud run, did you? LOL!! YOu have alot to be proud of. Great job!!


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NURSESARAH03 7/13/2011 10:51PM

    Great Job, Jeni!! You are a Goddess!! I knew you could do it! Congrats on not giving up. You may have just convinced me to run that 10k,

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MJK0430 7/13/2011 12:15PM

    Holy Moly! Where do I sign up? Your race report was great. Sorry about the face plant!

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AUNTIE65 7/11/2011 9:04PM

    Way to go Jeni!!!! What an accomplishment.... those trail runs are HARD and you saw it through to the end!

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-SEVEN- 7/11/2011 6:55PM

    emoticonon your success, and I love the "connections" you listed at the end of your blog- they are very meaningful to me. emoticon

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FINDINGMEIN2012 7/11/2011 5:12PM

    Way to go, Jeni!!! I would say you did an AMAZING and AWESOME job!! Your determination and perseverance are really an inspiration!!

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FRISKY120276 7/10/2011 10:28PM

    Impressive!!!! I am SO proud of you!!!! I KNEW you could do it!!!! Way to go!!!! :)

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YO~YOLANDA 7/10/2011 5:12PM

    I KNEW you would Rock this out Miss Jeni!!! You ARE an Inspiration!!! Weigh to make the tough choices and just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Now you know what you are made of. ALOT of Detrmination!

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JEM0622 7/10/2011 4:53PM

    Excellent! High five! Awesome race and awesome timing! And you survived mud. Good stuff! emoticon

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FITAT50 7/10/2011 4:21PM

    Way to go Jeni! Woot, I'm proud of you for not giving up under those nasty conditions!

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HOPE2011 7/10/2011 2:17PM

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DEE797 7/10/2011 12:39PM

    emoticon on not giving up and finishing the race! emoticon

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TERJEGOLD 7/10/2011 10:17AM

    Fantastic. Races uch as this one are the ones you will remember always. The tough ones are also the ones that garner the deepest pride. You earned your pride today!

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NOELLIEMAE 7/9/2011 6:37PM

    Sweet! Way to go! Sounds like it was a great run!

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OSUBUCKI101 7/9/2011 5:40PM

    Sometimes you do need to adjust your goals based on conditions. I would say you did spectacular based on the wet, slippery, muddy conditions. It's all relative at the end of the day and you should still be very proud of finishing no matter what the time was!

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MGJARVI 7/9/2011 5:22PM

    Jeni, omg girl, my eyes teared up reading this! You are amazing!! And LOL about the gatorade, good choice! Hehehe! I love reading the connections and every one of them make sense. I especially love (G) about being OKAY to readjust goals, that's right! And the itsy bitsy spider connection, I've NEVER realized how poignant that simple lil song is!! I'm proud of you!!! emoticon

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FITLIKENIC 7/9/2011 4:53PM

    WooHoo! I knew you were doing the 8.25 miles but who knew it would be a Mud Bath run?! Jeni you insprire me!

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What was I thinking?

Friday, July 08, 2011

I enjoy running, but I'm not very fast and I am not willing to take the time away from my family that long distance road running (training) requires. So last year, when I found an 8K TRAIL race, I thought hey, why not. Well, I LOVE it! It's very peaceful running on trails and even if you run the same trail over and over, you never have the same trail twice...Oh look! A fallen tree branch that wasn't there last time!

I ran the 8K trail race again this year and shaved off 5 minutes from my time. This isn't because I'm in better shape (last year's race came only a few weeks after a half marathon) but because I understand trail runs a little bit better.

Coming off of that race, I was feeling on top of the world, so I signed up for an 8.25 MILE trail race that is tomorrow. Yesterday I got my email with the race map and last minute instructions and all of the sudden I was gripped by an almost paralyzing fear. WHAT was I thinking? The longest distance I've done in the last year is 7 miles. That was two weeks ago. Granted, I felt pretty good and could've gone on (if time had allowed), but that was two weeks ago. So there I sat, with a nauseous feeling in my stomach. Wondering how in the heck I got myself into this mess. I started thinking, hey, I can just go do the 3.5 miler. Yeah, that's what I'll do. I'll go for the shorter distance. It's supposed to be crazy hot and humid tomorrow (race starts at 8:30 EST) so I'm completely justified in doing that. And hey, that still beats not doing anything, right?

I got as far as the race website to look up how to change races. And then something caught my eye. There's a time limit on the race, but all you have to do is average a 16 minute mile. 3.75 mph. Oh my gosh! I CAN DO THAT! Even if I have to walk the whole stinkin' thing, my walking pace is 4.2. What was I thinking even CONSIDERING going down to the shorter race?? I will NOT let fear cripple me and keep me from succeeding! So what if I come in last place? It's not really last place is it? All of the people who considered signing up but didn't are not going to finish in as good a time as I will. And if I'm unable to finish? So what? Does that make me less of a person? Does it make my effort not count? I don't think so!

I discussed this with a good friend at my gym later on in the morning yesterday. And he was saying he's experienced the same thing when it comes to our gym's boot camp. It's a ridiculously tough class. He said that he has to really psych himself up to go and even when he's IN the class he'll think to himself, "You're 54 years old. What are you doing here?" But when he finishes, he's ALWAYS glad he did it.

We cannot let FEAR or fear of failure keep us from reaching our goals. When I started my weight loss journey nearly 4 years ago, I was faced with being very nearly morbidly obese. I had so far to go that it seemed an almost insurmountable task. I was afraid of failing, but I was more afraid of not trying. But here I am, 4 years later a mere pound away from a healthy BMI. It IS possible!

Keeping these things in mind, I AM going to run AND finish that 8.25 miles!

DLF>DNF>>DNS

Dead Last Finish is greater than Did Not Finish, which GREATLY trumps Did Not Start!

  
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TERJEGOLD 7/10/2011 10:20AM

    I love your last line. I think it may become one of my mantras.

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FITAT50 7/9/2011 12:48PM

    Oh you sooo can do it! Can't wait for the report! Good Luck!

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MK_MONKEYTOES 7/9/2011 9:56AM

    You can do this!!! and remember that when training for a marathon you would never run the 26.2 miles...so in training for the 8.25 miles you wouldn't have ran it.....or at least keep thinking that....

Good luck chica!!

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FITNESSFOODIE 7/9/2011 7:51AM

    Have a great time! Loved your post! emoticon

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FRISKY120276 7/9/2011 12:09AM

    YOU CAN DO IT!!!! :)

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HOPE2011 7/8/2011 11:42PM

    Enjoy tomorrow - you'll do great!!

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DANE02 7/8/2011 10:28PM

    Wish you all the best and much success...you can do it!!!!

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HOTRODSANDY 7/8/2011 10:16PM

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Can't wait to here the outcome of the race!

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BUCKEYEBRIE 7/8/2011 9:58PM

    Very inspiring, thanks! Hope the race goes great emoticon

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NURSESARAH03 7/8/2011 4:19PM

    I believe in you!! YOU CAN DO IT!!! You hit the nail on the head with everything! If you don't try because you're afraid you'll never say you've done anything. You can't let fear and "what if" get in the way of accomplishing something! Go for it, girlie! emoticon

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FITNHEALTHYKAL 7/8/2011 4:00PM

    You've got this! GREAT blog!!!!

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FINDINGMEIN2012 7/8/2011 1:56PM

    Very inspiring - thanks!! If you have run 7 miles, you definitely can run 8.25. No doubt about it!! Have FUN!

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PAG2809 7/8/2011 1:48PM

    Great job on talking yourself out of talking yourself out of a challenge... and thanks for the inspiration!

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RUNSWITHDEER 7/8/2011 1:37PM

    Do the whole 8 miles. Relax, 8 is not that far from 7. Sounds as though you are ready. Relax, if things get really painful, use some sort of montra, but not what was I thinking, what was I thinking, lol. since you are on a trail, how about Lions and Tigers and Bears, oh my!

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SEYSARAH 7/8/2011 1:37PM

    You are absolutely right...the trail races can be done (for the most part) any way you choose and I'm glad you opted for that attitude.

I don't have the time to train like I did back in my marathon competition days and looking back, that time took a lot out of my other activities and away from family time..BUT I actually do the trail races around my area..I just don't talk about them and never train for them..just what I do for fitness...and LOVE them..I do them for sheer enjoyment and that's it...

Beating yourself up over times and the like takes away from the sheer joy of being with others and having a wonderful time...so I'm glad you are doing this with a great attitude...

I hope you continue to bring to light the fact that fear should not hold you back..or participating in a way which makes family life lopsided..you have a great balance...and a sustainable one...have fun!

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MGJARVI 7/8/2011 1:08PM

    You know that I'm a big fan of DLF..DNF...DNS. I would have KICKED your butt if you had changed races b/c I *KNOW* you can do it and you WILL do it! I can't wait to hear the recap :-)

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ARQUETTEZ 7/8/2011 11:44AM

    whoo hooo!!!


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4BOYZ4ME 7/8/2011 10:57AM

    Good for you not letting fear keep you from trying! Fear is the true enemy and you have conquered that and that makes you a winner!



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CHEMKATT 7/8/2011 10:55AM

    You are going to ROCK this race!!!! You can totally do it!

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AUNTIE65 7/8/2011 10:38AM

    Yah! And you CAN do this!! If you did 7 miles 2 weeks ago, you can do 8 this week.... and I would bet money (something I don't do, btw) that you will NOT be last. It's not about the time anyway, it's about challenging yourself!

Can't wait to hear all about the race - I did one trail run and thought I would die! They are hard and take way more concentration.... YOU ROCK!!!

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KRISTA-GIRL 7/8/2011 9:59AM

    AWESOME!! This blog is so encouraging! Thank you very much for taking the time to share with us - I really needed it :-)

Have a TERRIFIC time!!

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1TRULYBLESSED 7/8/2011 9:18AM

    You GO, Girl!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MRKTGCHICK 7/8/2011 9:09AM

    Sometimes I think our greatest obstacle in life is our own fear of failure. And ironically enough, we often assume that our bodies can't do something before we even let ourselves try.

Good for you for not letting that fear keep you from competing. And I'm sure when you finish the race, you'll find this one of your finest accomplishments!!!

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Stars and Stripes Challenge

Friday, July 01, 2011

We're focusing on declaring freedom from a from a couple more pounds as we create the stars and stripes that make up Old Glory!
Stars: Perform a minimum 50 reps of ST daily to earn a star! (Reps must be the same exercise!)
Stripes: Consume 7 glasses water daily AND 6 freggies consisting of AT LEAST 1 each Red, White and Blue to earn stripes!
Earn both a emoticon and emoticon and celebrate the day with emoticon !

F~Star: emoticon, Stripes: emoticon, Fireworks: emoticon
S~Star, Stripes, Fireworks
S~Star, Stripes, Fireworks
M~Star, Stripes, Fireworks
T~Star, Stripes, Fireworks

Minutes toward climbing the Statue of Liberty: 30

Total: Stars, Stripes, Fireworks

  
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RISENABOVE 7/1/2011 8:40PM

    emoticon Happy to see you blogging this! emoticon

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SEYSARAH 7/1/2011 6:16PM

    Clever challenge! Here's to participants doing great and shedding a pound, maintaining, or whatever the goal is!

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Tracking for the Pixie Challenge

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

50m length ~~ Complete 50 Reps ST daily 1 pt...ea set of 50
25m width ~~ Complete 25 Mins planned Cardio daily 1 pt...ea 25 mins
8 race lanes ~~ 8 full servings freggies daily 1 pt...all or nothing
2 open lanes ~~ 2 quart (8 glasses) water daily 1 pt...all or nothing

F: ST~5, C~4, F~1, W~1
S: ST~20 (gotta love Group Power!), C~2, F~0, W~1
S: ST~2, C~1, F~1, W~1
M: ST~2, C~2, F~0, W~1
T: ST~3, C~3, F~1, W~1
Total Points: 54

  
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RISENABOVE 6/15/2011 10:05PM

    WOW...look at that string of FABulous days! So glad you joined the Forest for this challenge! emoticon

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2BLEAN_N_FIT_AZ 6/14/2011 11:46AM

    emoticon I can see those muscles bulging from here! emoticon Does this mean, we will see you in the forest for the next challenge?

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WINKERDINK 6/14/2011 11:21AM

    emoticonlook at those points add up! Your muscles must have muscles! emoticon

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NEVADAPP 6/14/2011 11:08AM

    Atta girl! You can join us in all our challenges!


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