Tuesday, September 20, 2011
I hereby declare that I am a ninja warrior woman.
I dodge, I duck, I weave.
Most of all I move into action!
Creating, moving, a human BE ing
...got a bit side-tracked with a twisted ankle just after my 8 km, Mother's Day 8 May, race.
New 10km race date is November 27th and I am feeling confident!
...Am taking on the challenges declared from my last blog and I incorporate into the Pimp my (P)ride challenges...
Love you guys! Love that it is spring here too!
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
DIY Challenge Entry Card
My Challenge Name: Calm Focus
My Starting Weight: 158.7 pounds or 72 kilo
Four Other things I will be measuring during this challenge & their current stats:
1. weight training consistency : current streak 2 days a week. My aim is 3 x a week for the entire challenge, even when I am on holiday from 8th -18th July. How: YMCA, on hols: spark videos on my iphone (range permitting) or 30 mins yoga.
2. waist 41.5 & abdomen 37 - Healthy is waist 32.5 and lower. I want to lose 2 inches for this challenge.
3. distance on my training runs - Currently run 5 - 8 km x3 per week. Aim to run 8 - 10 km x3 per week. Register for a 10 km race.
4. progress with HIIT (high intensity interval training) on stationary bike. Starting today with 10 mins and building up to 45 mins per session.
If I am going to be 100% honest with myself, the reason I am doing this challenge is because: I am clinging to the fragment of hope that somehow, this challenge will see me get consistent body shrinkage results. 2 years on spark has seen me gain fitness, confidence & skills but not lose much weight. A year long plateau? Grrr! I am determined to see the results I want!
I feel like the reason that I have not been progressing as well as I hoped I would be is because: my metabolism is not kicking up, my body has a little fat factory happening. I am strong willed and I am committed to the idea that "fat is a feminist issue". I do not want to be size 0, I want to be visible, strong, powerful. I need to re-frame this from "therefore I do not diet" to "therefore I choose to eat really healthy, small, unprocessed, organic meals."
This time, I commit to finishing my challenge because I know that:
I am the possibility of fit, fabulous, forty, because my career is gearing up alongside motherhood!
If I choose to cut out chips and restrict alcohol and potatoes to 2x week I will see results.
I'm scared of: not seeing measurable results by the end of the challenge, even though I achieve my food & fitness goals.
I want to compete in a 10km race by the end of the challenge.
I want to be confident in swimmers by spring. (it is mid-winter here)
I want to look as beautiful in photos as I do inside.
I want to build on the foundation I've laid for my active, healthy life.
But I have faith in: science and art.
And THIS TIME, I will NOT quit, because THIS TIME:
I have a team to cheer me on, to keep me accountable and to support back.
I have been practicing consistency for a while now. (not smoking, running x 3 a week) so I can build on that track record.
My top five non-health related motivations right now are:
1. to inspire my family and friends by example
2. to prove to myself that I can achieve what I set out to do
3. to look fabulous out and about
4. to fall in love with myself and my life
5. to be an aesthetic object to myself
The best way to motivate me is to: notice my progress, praise me for consistency, acknowledge my self-responsibility.
The best way I can motivate myself is to track my progress & reward myself:
making time for body pleasure, haircuts, beauty stuff, buying fitness clothes.
My name is sm-artgirl and I will be a calm and focused energy bolt.
Monday, March 14, 2011
My reason to be a shiny, shiny star of human possibility:
One of my fitness goals this year is: run a 10k race - I am in week 7 of training. Yesterday I ran for 45 minutes along the river, so beautiful, lush, green.
I caught myself asking myself if I could really run that long, so I gently encouraged myself with a "give it a go, just run 15 minutes, you can do it!"
I ran 15, walked 1 minute & ran 15 more, and then another 15!
At the end, I caught up with partner & child, I felt so
Today I am grateful for my health. I have not always looked after myself.
I have denigrated, starved, ignored and abused my body in the past.
I was a perfectionist workaholic, on an unachievable quest to gain approval from my parents with my career.
Today I am grateful that all that IS in the past for me.
Tomorrow I will travel interstate to stay with my mother post her hospital stay. I have boundaries and strategies in place. I will continue my running & I have other activities planned for me. I am looking forward to hanging out with mum and seeing that her support system is working for her.
I plan to catch up on some art ideas with drawing & writing.
At least 15 minutes a day but would like to stretch it to 30.
Oh I have been really working on turning off electronic equipment by 11pm.
I am tracking it, I am doing the Spark Sleep Challenge.
I am still establishing this habit.
"DO IT mindlessly and with conviction or you’ll second guess yourself and talk your way out of going. Save the thinking for when you get there."
Saturday, March 05, 2011
"The fire inside me is there because I keep giving it oxygen.
Every time the world tries to slap me down I keep fighting.
Yes, it is hard but it is worth it. I am worth it." by ASHLEY1977T
To tell the truth I have been fairly consistent in achieving my Feb goals:
Track every lovin' mouthful that passes my lips - missed 1 day of the month.
Training for 10k race by running x3 per week - missed x2 runs - am on week 6.
Alcohol Free February - drank 7 drinks.
Drinking my water - heaps.
Blogs aiming for 1 a week - 3 out of 4
Getting over my fear of gym culture - (baby steps)-I have joined the YMCA, have a program written for me, have run through it once!
So why do I want to beat myself up?!! Why am I saying mean things to myself late at night? Why do I feel tired, flat, sad?
I am not sleeping in a normal, healthy way. I have been tracking for patterns and the one, huge, overwhelming factor is my discipline with computer time late at night! It sucks. And I have known this since January, when I began the Spark Sleep Challenge. So why am I self sabotaging?
I have taken 3 months to complete this challenge, the solution to getting my 8 hours zzzz is simple: turn off the electronics.
I am currently in another cycle of willful, self-induced insomnia.
I am doing this instead of feeding my artist soul! I want to organise my studio for some major exhibition production, but I am am not.
So, I need to ramp up my life purpose and take action on my goals to cease this late night, self- sabotage!
NO more computer games. I am an addict.
I do this late night thing when I have not engaged with my passions during the day.
I am wasting my precious life. I am beating myself up instead of loving me.
I declare I am the possibility of self love in action!
NEW GOALS to track in MARCH:
Computer time and off by 11pm
Studio time EVERY day - 15 min de-clutter, 15 min plan, 15 min do, Repeat.
Continue 10 k training
Gym x3 per week - make dates with myself
What is going in my mouth? calories 1200 -1500
"Measuring, by its nature, requires me to pay attention to every portion. Measuring forms a container for my longings and boundaries for my lust. Without boundaries, I cannot find balance. Without limits, I cannot hope to be free."
- Dayna Macy
My mum & son. My mother has been in hospital for most of Feb, I will travel to her & stay a while when she gets out. I wish she could live with us. She loves her home.
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