Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I just got motivated by a sparkies travel blog!
I have a NEW GOAL!
I mean, a new reason to get fit, lose the fat and gain the energy!!
I want to visit the great outback of Australia, my home patch!
More than that I aim to ride camels, camp with horses, canoe down the Katherine Gorge and hike somewhere beautiful. (there are a lot of stunning places for sure!)
This is going to be AWESOME!
This will be a reward for when I reach my goal weight OR run my first half marathon.
Whichever comes first.
"I love a sunburnt country,
A land of sweeping plains,
Of ragged mountain ranges,
Of drought and flooding rains,
I love her far horizons,
I love her jewel sea,
Her beauty and her terror -
The wide brown land for me."
....gotta get the little one from school now,
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Drank mineral water all night.
Didn't smoke any cigarettes.
Didn't really find my groove.
Didn't connect in a fun way with everyone like I usually might.
I love dancing but felt awkward, everyone else seemed at ease.
Didn't hide my awkwardness by stuffing my face with bread or dips.
Waited til I got home and had peanut butter on toasted wholewheat bread and a cup of chamomile tea.
Off to bed. goodnight sparkfriends
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
I have really struggled to shift any fat and continuously gained since I became a mum. I had a rough couple of years adjusting to the demands of domesticity, a knee that was prone to injury was badly damaged when I fell, my dad died, I chose to give up my fulfilling, demanding career to be a stay at home vegetable (woops) mum. My social network shrank. Despite all my effort to keep active, my knee got me down. I got depressed.
I forgot how important serotonin is to keep my life functional!
It has taken me a few years to find a way to strengthen my knee so I can MOVE so I can release the happy chemicals in my brain!
I have struggled and failed and struggled some more.
But all last week and again this week I am noticing a definite pay off.
1- at weight training yesterday, x two people complimented my skin.
2- I am keeping my no alcohol 'til Easter commitment- day 3 .
3- I saw my Osteopath today, 1st time in 3 years, for a wellness check up instead of remedial therapy!
4- I just returned from my couch 25k program- I love that I can run, free of injury & pain!
5- oh and I weighed myself yesterday and am 2.5 kilos closer to where I could be!!
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Just did the Spark people diet profiler to discover I am an "Emo Eater".
Please note, I am not a vampire about to eat sad goth types, although I have styled myself as one in the past...but that is another story about having an artistic soul.
1- My mum always has soooo much food in her home, even now, since my Dad died and she downsized -the pantry overflows, there are cans of food on chairs, baskets of fruit, biscuits, sweets covering tables, freezer full-to-maximum capacity. And she feeds you love, lots of hi calorie, hi fat love.
2- In fact , I now realise as a Teen I intuitively knew how to upset my parents (like all teens) by refusing to eat or being very fussy. My partner upsetts mum because she finds it impossible to feed him- he is vegetarian plus abstains from cheese and just says no thanks to endless plates of cookies, lollies, and cups of tea.
3- I was mildly anorexia in high school- as I recovered from that I thought it was about control issues, aka, growing up within a rigid, very religious, material success focused and up-standing family, that the only choice I could make was what to put in my mouth.
4- My dad was definitely an Emotional Eater, always on a new diet, mum bought, planned, prepared, cooked AND cleaned for her, him and 4 children! OMG!!!
5- Mum never allowed me into the kitchen, plus we did not even have chores and so I never learnt to do the above until I had my little boy, 5 years ago. I realy value that everyone in my family willingly contributes to the home (5 yr old included).
So what is going on now?
When I moved out I ate intuitively, vegetarian, unprocessed food. I was slim, fit, healthy and focussed on my life goals for most of my adult life. Writing this blog has revealed just HOW MUCH I have adopted Emo Eating since I became a mum. I was totally unaware that I have adopted my mums weirdness around domesticity (minus the tidiness). Today I unpacked my groceries- over half of what I purchased are so called healthy snacks, like roasted broadbeans, roasted chickpeas (instead of chips), like creamy organic yogurt (no icecream!). As well as the organic, unprocessed fruit n veg & wolegrain rice.
The positive last paragraph: I have really struggled to lose weight since I became a mum, now that I know about this emo eating stuff, I can apply some Spark suggestions, such as keeping a food journal with time and feelings included.
Yep, that is exactly my aim over the next 2 weeks.
Does anyone else relate to this or am I a little mad? would love to read stories and suggestions...
Friday, January 29, 2010
Yo Sparkies, thanks for reading my blog
Ya know what inspired me to blog in today?
It was reading back on my blogs and reading the supportive responses from you all!
I been offline for a month or so, with wilderness coasts to explore.
Walking, swimming, moving my body.
Resting as needed. Eating when hungry.
Waking early and resting fully at night.
Or walking along wild ocean beaches with the moon huge above. Bleached fallen trees and a trillion stars light the way.
I am so grateful for the opportunity to experience the health of natural living.
It is what I grew up in and to what I must return for renewal.
oh yes...and no mirrors in sight.
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