Thursday, December 09, 2010
12/8/2010 - 145
That was my weigh in. Horrible! Yes, i know it could be worse. but here's the thing, i'm 5'3 with a small frame and 28. I've gained 25 pounds in the last 5 years... and did i mention I'm 28. I'm too young for this!!! In all my life i've never gone over 139, 140 was my line. If i got any where near that line i dieted and exercised and got back to where i needed to be. Not this time... this time i got on the scale and that line is 5 pounds behind me. I'm discouraged, a little depressed, but most of all, and most importantly I'm PISSED! (at least i'm not complacent right?)
Why didn't anyone tell me?!?! I know you can see an extra 25 pounds on a person, you can usually see an extra 10, so why didn't anyone say anything? "Hey Stacy, maybe you shouldn't have that extra piece of pie" "Those jeans are a little tighter than they used to be" "Hey, maybe we should work out together" etc etc... or just cut to the chase and say "You're getting fat! Don't eat so damn much and hop on a treadmill once in a while."
Sure, it's a little harsh and my feelings would be a little hurt. But when you get on the scale and you're 25 pounds overweight, that's worse, much much worse.
In conclusion, friends, romans, countrymen... when I put on a few take the pie out of my mouth and shove in a celery stick.
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
I went back to doing yoga a couple months ago, and that was a good start, but the truth is, I've done quite a bit of damage since february and yoga a couple times a week just isn't going to cut it. I need change, a change in diet, exercise, time management etc etc. This is my cry for help... I need accountability, I just can't go up ANOTHER size. witty, humorous, sarcastic blogs will be posted in weeks to come... today i just need to get back on track
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
i know my friend isn't the first person to do this, but the fact that she did made it a little bit more of an accessible idea. She has decided to forgo the desk chair and instead use a yoga ball. Again, i know she's not the first person to do this, i've seen it suggested before... but it just seemed so silly. Now that i can picture her doing it at her desk, i don't feel so ridiculous using one at my own. Technically it's only a half day since i forgot to bring it this morning and only picked it up when i ran home for lunch, BUT! i did deflate it before i left the house (didn't want to be seen walking in with a giant inflatable ball) and so when i arrived back at my desk i had to pump it up. That counts for some kind of strength exercise right? i actually placed the pump between my knees and and did some inner thigh work, yea me!
anyway, i'm very excited about engaging my core all day long, but there's a problem, it's too short! i mean noticeably short, as in i can't see over the halfwall/partition thing. and i'm looking up at my computer screen. any suggestions?
this is day one, i'll keep you updated as to how many times i fall, forget i can't swivel etc etc.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
I want to like it, i want to be a runner, but the cold hard truth is I'm not. Today I got on the treadmill and walked a mile before running my .4mi (all part of my plan) then I took it back down to a walk for about 15 minutes and tried to do .4mi again. It didn't happen the second time. My feet and legs are fine... they could go for days, my lungs/heart on the other hand NO WAY. Not to mention I just don't like it. This is not fun. And before you say "try running outside, it's so much better", not uh! no it isn't. At least indoors i have an ac and when i'm done i'm done i don't have to still walk back to the building. Yes, there's scenery but it takes SO long to change that i get bored almost instantly.
I'm just not a runner.
I'll keep going and try to work my way up to that mile, but this really isn't for me. I prefer swimming, and biking and dancing and things that entertaining while simultaneously being good exercise. I can't wait for volleyball season to start. My company has a league sand volley ball team. We usually only play 2 games on sundays but it's SO much fun. and great exercise when you're really playing all out. And then there will be softball and we actually hold practices in addition to the games. I'd try tennis... but something about cutting on concrete just seems bad for the knees. Maybe i'll try it anyway.
I enjoy yoga. It's challenging and constantly changing. No boredom there, and I almost always work up a really good sweat.
Even my stationary bike is more fun... I really wanted to be a runner, but I'm just not.
Monday, February 01, 2010
The truth is, I don't know what God has in store for me. I assume I'll continue to be involved in children's ministry but aside from that it's quite a mystery.
A couple weeks ago while I was up drilling around inside my own head (I do NOT recommend this) God impressed upon me that I need to start praying for healing. I won't go into the details of why I need healing but the conversation went a little like this.
God: you need to pray for healing
Me: No, I don't want to
God: You need to pray for healing
Me: I'm not ready
God: If you weren't ready I would not tell you to - You need to pray for healing
Me: Ok, then I just don't want to
I struggle with obedience, bending to God's will. I know we all go through pruning seasons, but I've heard testimonies from women whose pruning season was 3 years! God knows what's best for us, but, but ....
As if that wasn't enough, the leader of the Thursday bible study group I attend has decided we're going to do Beth Moore's 'Breaking Free'. We started last Thursday (1/28). In this study we have a group video/discussion and workbooks that go home with us. There are 5 days of individual study. Now, considering my affection for procrastination any other weekend I probably would have neglected my self study and just went on with life. But! This weekend was our Wilcrest Women's Weekend Away. (Womens' church retreat) So I brought along my study and during my free time (there was lots of it) did day 1, had some devotional time, and some time for prayer.
It's funny how God works. His timing is impeccable - even if it's rather inconvenient for those of us who are hard headed and hard hearted. We had some amazing testimonies this weekend some about the healing seasons they went through. I was being approached from all angles, but there was love at every turn. My prayer warrior, and our Sunday school teacher were both on this retreat. Lydia has 3 boys whom she home schools and is very active in our church body so it's not often we find time to sit and talk. Likewise Ellen just had a baby in Nov and has a 2 1/2 year old princess at home. Throw in my own hectic schedule and there just isn't always time for much needed heart to hearts. But this weekend myself, Lydia and Ellen were all at the Wilcrest Womens' Weekend Away. They listened and prayed over me and filled me up. My cup runneth over!
I'm still worried about what this season will bring, but God is in control, and He is perfect, and I am His!
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