Tuesday, November 09, 2010
After a two year adventure into this healthier lifestyle change, I THINK I'VE GOT IT! (Finally!)
Usually loving absurdity, fun, and frolic, I'm a person who has been steeped in loss, sadness, and grief for the past few years.
As such, the only thing that has maintained what little sanity that remains is exercise, eating healthier, and sparkfriends.
Now, in the past three months, I did a TON of grief eating. To the point of satiation. And I gained back 8 lbs. I felt each and every one hanging on my bones. Something snapped and said, ENOUGH OF THIS HORSEPUCKY STUFF. (politely phrased)
I've now lost 4 of those regained. But yesterday, spontaneously, I looked at myself in the mirror and smiled. And waved goodbye to the remaining 20 lbs (they WILL be gone soon) that have made me a chubster for the first time in my life. Something in me finally got it - I will conquer the rest of this weight and that's that.
I have to say that I have kicked and screamed and rebelled my way throughout my two years. I'm not a joiner, and this SP adventure was not an easy one for me. But it really has been the main reinforcer for good stuff when everything else around me has crumbled.
As I write this, I am looking at my little desk mirror and giving another friendly goodbye wave. I will do this.
Wishing all a wonderful day.