Monday, August 16, 2010
A brief history...I only started drinking coffee as an adult. In recent years, even a half of a small mug daily makes me feel yucky. So, about four months ago, I did a great detox for 95 days until I realized that the green tea I'd been drinking for the past month (and thought had no caffeine) had caffeine.
Even though it was a small amount and probably not bad compared to the benefits of the antioxidants, my psyche took this to mean failure. End of detox. Coffee cravings set in. Not that I enjoy the taste. I don't.
I went a bought a new little (4 cup) Mr. Coffee, hazel nut coffee, etc. I've been drinking a small mug of it for about five days now and feel totally awful. Troubled sleep, mega-jittery, and my body feels like I have mud flowing through it.
Isn't it said in lab experiments that human beings are the only ones who will continue to do a behavior despite negative consequences?
Have to tell ya, when I'm completely off caffeine, I have absolutely no energy. None. Zip. Yet, even with a small amount, I feel yucky.
So, where do I win in this battle? I don't know. I'd like to stop completely before I have too many days back into this behavior because my detox side effects are brutal and go on a long time. If I can cut that short, I'd like to do that.
Wonder why I have such a strong tie to coffee without even liking it? I've tried substituting herbal teas also. It must have a strong psychological reinforcement going on.
Wishing all a wonderful day.