Monday, May 17, 2010
Yes, it's a new C & W song I'm writing. It's a sad ballad, but take heart, it ends on a happy note - one of hope. Maybe.
I've been on this lifestyle change journey for a year and a half. I lost the entire 34 lbs in the first 6-7 months and have stayed there for a year. No matter what I did, no matter how I tried, I just remained at the same weight.
Yes, I went down pant sizes, but hey... there's only so much joy that can bring when you know you have more to go because you are just not at that comfortable goal weight.
I didn't think that I was discouraged by this plateau, but I was. I've persisted on SP, despite losing interest. But I stopped blogging, responding to blogs, caring about portions (because I've been exercising a good deal, I threw caution to the wind - somewhat), etc.
Up until recently, I blogged daily and then just ran out of topics. But now I see that blogging is really a reality check. Not for comments from other sparkers, but to see what's really going on in this psyche of mine.
I'm still not sure if I'll get back to blogging or just remain lazy and apathetic about it. Fortunately, I have maintained my weight loss, but I have to light a fire under my butt and get the rest of this yucky yellow matter out of my body.
Wishing all a good evening.