SLIMMERJESSE   263,112
SparkPoints
100,000 or more SparkPoints
 
 
SLIMMERJESSE's Recent Blog Entries

AVOIDED A HEAD-ON COLLISION WITH GIRL SCOUT COOKIES

Sunday, March 07, 2010

There I was, waiting for a friend to come out of a store today. Ducking out of the rain, I was under an awning. Turning to my left, what did my eyes behold? Stacks and stacks of cookies at a table with sweet little Girl Scouts politely asking passersby to buy some.

Now, for all of you evolved souls (and I respectfully and seriously say that, as I DO believe there are those of you who are at advanced stages of self-discipline), it is with a bit of embarrassment that I admit that I cannot do what I've read on SP when it comes to sweet goodies - lick, taste, bite. Nope, for me, sugar is a gateway drug.

From October 08 until approxmately one year later, I was completely off sugar. I marvelled and I was in awe of myself since I'd always been the sugar queen of the universe (even blogged about my success). Didn't even crave anything sweet. Amazing. But, I remember it clearly, before the Lion Kingperformance; it was at a great dinner when I decided to have "just a little dessert." Honestly? I didn't even want it. But I thought I could handle the "taste, lick, bite" thing.

Nope. I won't dazzle you with the dreary details, but suffice it to say that since October '09 (until last week), sugar has been a gradual tidal wave of all things terrible for me. Mood swings, blue moods, dramatic spikes, etc. It's now been a week since I've been off the stuff and I feel better already.

But I digress. I stood near the mint Girl Scout cookies (my nemesis) and rationalized that I would make a deal with myself. I'd buy a box, okay two or three, freeze them and only eat a few cookies every day. My good angel and bad angel did an amazing tug of war and then I had to be honest with myself. There are some foods that will disappear at one sitting and these cookies are one of them.

So, I walked away without making a purchase, and realized after all that agonizing that I didn't even care about not having them. A lot of this is conditioning and habit. Until I progress in this healthier lifestyle, I will have to stay away from things that instantly plummet me physically and mentally. Sugar is a big one for me. "Away with thee, evil sugar!"

Wishing all a wonderful day.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

JLITT62 3/8/2010 2:20PM

    That is a wonderful NSV!

What often turns the tide for me is considering if it's something that's going to satisfy me. Since I can't eat as much as I truly want to, it's got to have a lot of bang for hte buck. Even my sweets. GS cookies don't do it for me -- DH bought your nemesis from our niece, but he's under strict orders to keep it away from me.

I, did, however have him buy me some PB chocolate bars. Haven't touched them. Yet. Someday the time will be right.

Report Inappropriate Comment
BLUE97HARBOR 3/8/2010 10:28AM

    Thanks for sharing....

Report Inappropriate Comment
ANGLEGIRLSANDY 3/8/2010 9:46AM

    I'm really glad that you were able to think it through and then walk away from it. It's really hard for me too. Keep on keeping on. You can do it. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FLMOMX2 3/8/2010 9:30AM

    At least I'm not the only one who has to avoid "trigger foods" Thanks fo sharing.

Report Inappropriate Comment
NJDIETZ 3/8/2010 8:13AM

    I know the feeling. I'm the same way. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
AUGUSTAGLOOP 3/8/2010 7:43AM

    Congratulations! I'm the same way with sugar.

Report Inappropriate Comment
VICIOUS421 3/8/2010 4:30AM

    Way to go Jesse!!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
AMIESIM 3/8/2010 2:58AM

    They're like little freakin' Ninjas, aren't they? They sneak up on you, when you least expect it! Good fight, Grasshopper!!!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FLAMINGOLESLIE 3/8/2010 12:37AM

    Way to go!!!! I am so proud of you!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
CAROLFAITHWALKR 3/7/2010 11:22PM

    Congratulations on getting back off the sugar for a week!

I am going more and more natural, whole foods, nuts, whole fruits, etc. I already do not eat any packaged or processed foods. That means no cookies, regardless of brand. So as far as sugar, I still eat whole fruit. But not maple syrup, honey, molasses, agave, etc. I do eat homemade baked goods for special occasions only.

Report Inappropriate Comment
CHERIRIDDELL 3/7/2010 11:00PM

    Yes the evil mint girl scout cookie also my nemesis!All I have to comment on this which I could have written myself as I found myself nodding in agreement with every word you wrote is a few song lyrics "you know it don't come easy!" Congratulations on winning the battle!

Report Inappropriate Comment
HICALGAL 3/7/2010 9:00PM

    lol...not at you but because i could've easily written this blog. the tug of war with the good and bad angel....tthe rationalizing (i'm so big on that!!) the lick, taste, bite thing (i haven't evolved to that level and don't ever want to.) and after all that...walking away. if i didn't know better, i'd think you've been reading my private journals...lol

congrats on avoiding your nemesis!!


emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FREELADY 3/7/2010 8:52PM

    I can identify so keenly with this. I definitely know exactly how you feel. Three cheers for being honest with yourself, and for WALKING AWAY.

A week off sugar is pretty great. I have to stay away from it myself. Good for you making hard choices to be healthier and to feel better!

Report Inappropriate Comment
RICH530 3/7/2010 8:24PM

    Good for you!!! I am sure that was not an easy accomplishment!!! I wish you great success in all you do!!!!
emoticon
emoticon Lee

Report Inappropriate Comment
GOODSTUFFKID 3/7/2010 8:23PM

    Way to go! I know what you mean when temptation knocks. It's pretty hard to say no, but once you do, You knew you didn't need it anyway, and you really don't miss eating it. For me, I am learning to avoid anything I choose to. I have two battles to fight...one for my weight loss, and another battle with diabetes. Congratulations on avoiding your temptations. As I often say, You need to control what you eat. Don't let your brain control you to eat what you don't want to. Keep up the good work!

Report Inappropriate Comment
TOMSBABE321 3/7/2010 8:01PM

    Great job saying "no" to the cookies, But there is away you can support your local girl scouts. Give them the $3.50 and tell them to keep the box. Your donation is just as much appreciated. Have a great day! April, Assistant girl scout leader.

Report Inappropriate Comment
JUDYSGOINGDOWN 3/7/2010 8:01PM

    Good for you! Having been in similiar circumstances, that was a huge step in the right direction!

emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ABASSLER 3/7/2010 8:00PM

    Fantastic! Good for you. I've taken myself off of sugar (again) and I feel much better also.

Report Inappropriate Comment
ABASSLER 3/7/2010 8:00PM

    Fantastic! Good for you. I've taken myself off of sugar (again) and I feel much better also.

Report Inappropriate Comment
ABASSLER 3/7/2010 8:00PM

    Fantastic! Good for you. I've taken myself off of sugar (again) and I feel much better also.

Report Inappropriate Comment
ABASSLER 3/7/2010 8:00PM

    Fantastic! Good for you. I've taken myself off of sugar (again) and I feel much better also.

Report Inappropriate Comment
KALATHIA 3/7/2010 7:53PM

    Congratulations on knowing yourself so well and for not giving in to temptation. The Thin Mints get me, too. I could care less about any other Girl Scout cookie. But those mints . . . ugh!

Way to go!

Kath

Report Inappropriate Comment
MELANCHOLYKTTEN 3/7/2010 7:53PM

    Good job with the cookies! I did buy some but I'm happy to say of the four boxes I purchased, three are in the freezer and one is missing less than 10 cookies and I've had them nearly a week.

Report Inappropriate Comment


A Lifestyle Change? Yes! A Diet? Yes!

Saturday, March 06, 2010

Well, folks, here's the scoop. About 1.5 years ago, I began my journey to lose weight. I entered the first diet of my life. Up until hormones, overwork, overeating, and stress packed on extra pounds, I'd been spoiled with being able to eat whatever, whenever with no consequences.

For the first few months of this year and a half (Oct-Dec '08), I tried NutriSystem. I'm not going to get into the pros and cons of any brand or product, but I used it to learn good eating habits and as a tool to start the process. I lost most of my current 34 pounds before finding SP in Jan. 09. For those few months, I understood it was a lifestyle change, but also knew it was a diet. There was a mental discipline involved.

Then I found this great website and we all know the many benefits here. However, my psyche doesn't process discipline in eating right calling it a lifestyle change. I know this may not make sense to anyone but me, but unless I find myself putting the label of diet on it, I meander. Even doing the right things with the nutrition tracker, I am not doing well in getting off this plateau.

So, I've put myself on a 3-month new eating plan that I personally call a diet. This is day three. It is kinda like tough love with myself. I'll get into specifics when I see what my first weekly weigh-in next Thursday shows. It's nothing shocking or earth-shaking, but my body is really surprised that I am getting tough with it. I was going to accept my plateau wgt as my goal wgt. I was going to settle. This is my revolt against just settling.

I've made a deal with my body. Even though I wanted to shed another 16 lbs., I will be happy with 10 more. That means that I have compromised with it. So, we shall see what the scale and measurements say in these next three months. You just come to a point where enough is enough.

So, yes, I am doing this healthy lifestyle change/adventure. But I am also on a diet for the next three months. Whatever works, right?

Wishing all a great day.

(If I achieve my goal in these three months, I'll have learned enough to just call it a lifestyle change. As Shakespeare wrote, "A rose by any other name would smell as sweet." )

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MSLZZY 3/8/2010 10:08PM

    Keep on Sparking! You can do it!

Report Inappropriate Comment
FLMOMX2 3/7/2010 2:31PM

    Do what works for you!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
VICIOUS421 3/7/2010 1:11AM

    If it works for you that is what is important!!!! Compromises are a good thing sometimes!

Report Inappropriate Comment
CHERIRIDDELL 3/6/2010 10:33PM

    Whatever works .I have to be strict with myself I am the world's best meanderer .I am the original turtle sunning myself on a rock LOL! Like you I was thin before my accident played nasty tricks on my metabolism (well the medications did that but all the same it turned my food system upside down) when I joined the sirforce I had to put 15 pounds on , can you imagine I had to supplement meals with milkshakes but that was a lifetime ago! Well 30 years but it feels like a lifetime ! So just reasonable food consumption fels like a diet ! LOL! But I can do it .Onward and outwards !

Report Inappropriate Comment
FREELADY 3/6/2010 10:12PM

    This is terrific. I'm also very happy that you sound like you have a lot more peace of mind with this plan. Keep us posted!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MARTY19 3/6/2010 8:10PM

    I am a firm believer that we do what works for each of us. I may have to take a page oiut of your book and create my own diet. But I'll wait until my health improves. I wish you the most success.

Marty

Report Inappropriate Comment
DDHEART 3/6/2010 2:23PM

    emoticon I don't care what you call it or even that you have decided to compromise....I do care that you worked through some frustration and lethargy to come up with a plan that seems right for you. you broke through a mental plateau even if the weight plateau is still in force! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
JLITT62 3/6/2010 2:08PM

    Different things work for different people. It would be really boring if we were all the same, wouldn't it?

Good luck, & can't wait to see the results!

Report Inappropriate Comment
12SPOOKY 3/6/2010 1:50PM

    Good luck! Whatever works for you is what you should do (how profound is that - lol). Our eating habits are not a "1 size fits all" deal - sometimes we just need to jumpstart our bodies to move forward. If a diet is what it takes, go for it!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ALEXSGIRL1 3/6/2010 1:25PM

    emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
HICALGAL 3/6/2010 12:30PM

    i always say..do what works for you. all the best!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
WATERMELLEN 3/6/2010 10:56AM

    Best of luck with your new approach! You are the expert in what will work for you!

Report Inappropriate Comment


A HUGE NEW PUSH AND THREE MONTHS TO DO IT

Friday, March 05, 2010

I've put away the fiddle and have FINALLY stopped fiddling around with this stuff. I've got a new three-month plan and I'm taking a bite into it one week at a time. Thursdays will be my weigh-in day and next week will be the first.

A few blogs ago, I wrote that I'd decided to accept my plateau weight as my goal weight. But after writing that, I got annoyed that I am letting my body tell me it doesn't want to lose more, but I know I am still not where I want to be to feel the best I can. (that was a very awkward sentence!) So, I put together my new plan and will share specifics when I see what the scale says at the end of the next six days. All I know is, it's time to get out of the kitchen because I was complaining so much about the heat. So why continue to stand in it?

I'm also taking Dr. Beck's book down from the shelf this weekend and rereading all the good advice in it. Thanks to a SPfriend's blog, I remembered that I'm part of that team and that book has been chock full of good info.

Wishing everyone a fun weekend.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

VICIOUS421 3/7/2010 1:09AM

    Best of luck my friend!!!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
JLITT62 3/6/2010 7:51AM

    So nice to hear the excitement in your blog! Can't wait to hear about the new plans. Plans are good!

Report Inappropriate Comment
CHERIRIDDELL 3/6/2010 1:42AM

    I know you can do it that plateau is history!

Report Inappropriate Comment
FREELADY 3/5/2010 10:26PM

    I love hearing your determination and direction! This is going to be an exciting three months!

You have a wonderful weekend also. Try to put your feet up a bit!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
KALATHIA 3/5/2010 10:06PM

    Glad to hear that fire in you voice! If you stick to what you know works, you should make that scale finally move in the right direction. Just don't give up!

Kath

Report Inappropriate Comment
HICALGAL 3/5/2010 7:35PM

    all the best on your 3 mo plan...and looking forward to your progress. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
JCORYCMA 3/5/2010 5:43PM

    Good for you! You can budge off a plateau, it takes detective work to figure out why status quo isn't working but you'll uncover it. I'll be anxious to hear how you did!
Joanne emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment


Impossible Dream? Or Someday? Walking Coast to Coast.

Thursday, March 04, 2010

About a year ago, I started to think about walking from CA to the East Coast (destination undetermined). Have begun talking to people who did it. One guy emailed me that his was an adventure filled with injury and discomfort. He was not encouraging.

Maybe I can visit SParkfriends en route and also make it a fundraiser for one of my fave causes. Who knows?

Wishing all a great day.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

VICIOUS421 3/7/2010 1:05AM

    Concieve, Believe, Achieve!!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ALEXSGIRL1 3/5/2010 1:46PM

    sounds like a lot of fun and doable i walk around 13 miles a day at my job and i am not in too much pain emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FLMOMX2 3/5/2010 9:37AM

    emoticon The idea of visiting SP friends is great in that they will be your cheerleaders along the way.

Report Inappropriate Comment
JLITT62 3/5/2010 7:59AM

    I heard an inspiring story about a guy who walked from Austin to Boston with his 2 dogs to raise awareness (and money) about cancer in dogs.

Dream big!

Report Inappropriate Comment
JCORYCMA 3/5/2010 7:50AM

    Read "A Walk Across America" by Peter Jenkins if you haven't already. It's a great book. I've often had the secret desire to one day walk the Appalachian Trail. Bill Bryson's book discouraged me a little but I think it's great to dream and even greater to see those dreams through to reality!
Joanne

Report Inappropriate Comment
CHERIRIDDELL 3/5/2010 12:07AM

    We know some soldiers who have walked from coat to coast .It can be done and it does not necessarily have to be full of injury and pain or discomfort as long as it is well planned.Most of the soldiers I have known who did it did it for cancer fundraising .You can do anything you set your mind to.I never let the naysayers discourage me.

Report Inappropriate Comment
FREELADY 3/4/2010 11:04PM

    This is an exciting ambition!
You have already begun a key element: research and careful planning.
Sounds like the kind of adventure that would appeal to me . . . at least in my dreams!

Report Inappropriate Comment
DDHEART 3/4/2010 6:08PM

    Wow! seems like you're getting your spark back big time! In the meantime if you couldn't do the real thing yet, have you thought of doing a cyber journey....count your steps and map them on a route you choose....maybe do some blogging of the progress you make and a little info about the "stops" along the way....things you could find on line...It would be fun to see your progress!

Report Inappropriate Comment


Weigh In Was Encouraging, As Were/Are My Sparkfriends. Thanks!

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

I've been going through a huge sadness time and taking the immature road of rebelling by eating Subway subs. I was afraid to get on the scale after the past few weeks of wild abandon. Fortunately, I have kept moving, so that's probably why the scale indicated no gain.

Frankly, this forever plateau I've been on was part of the reason I figured, "why not?" I mean, if I was busting butt to do everything right with no loss, why not do subs? Well, we all know why.

Thank you for all of the support. Wishing all a great day.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SKYEFYR 3/4/2010 11:40AM

  As far as splurges go, you could have done a whole lot worse than subway subs.

And I'll always support your choices honey. Sometimes we just need a break from the "battle of the bulge" and when we need it we should take it. I knew you weren't "done" but you can only be successful if it's your choice to keep trying. Just like the only thing I can really do is be a friend and support your choices.

We're in this together, and in the end, we're BOTH going to be successful!

Report Inappropriate Comment
FLMOMX2 3/4/2010 9:04AM

    Glad to see you turning it around.

Report Inappropriate Comment
JCORYCMA 3/3/2010 10:09PM

    You are an awesome lady, who has figured out that eating doesn't ultimately solve the issue that's making you sad in the first place. Kudos to you for lessons learned and a BIG thank you for sharing with us because we ARE your friends and can help ease that sadness much better than a sandwich! Hang in there Sweet Jesse!
Joanne emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FREELADY 3/3/2010 7:15PM

    So great that you kept moving. Also you kept in touch on Spark. These are critical and commendable!!

Grief needs its time. Please give yourself credit for holding steady during this distress. That is a big accomplishment. It would have been easy to gain significantly, since you've had so much sadness to process. I am very sorry you are in so much pain.
emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ONCEMOREAGAIN 3/3/2010 1:04PM

    Sorry you are on a plateau. I stayed there for 2 months, but finally have started losing again. It is so easy to sabotage ourselves, but glad that you are moving more and keeping the weight off.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MEGANC1988 3/3/2010 12:09PM

    Hope things brighten up soon.

Report Inappropriate Comment
CHERIRIDDELL 3/3/2010 12:06PM

    We rebels excell at self sabotage sometimes LOL! We also have the right spirit to keep moving forward though so onwards and outwards we go ! Nothing is going to stop us now! The detours we take are what makes us interesting !

Report Inappropriate Comment


First Page  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 92 93 94 95 96 97 98 99 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 107 108 109 110 111 112 113 114 115 116 117 118 119 120 121 122 123 124 125 126 127 128 129 130 131 132 133 134 135 136 137 138 139 140 141 142 143 144 145 146 147 148 149 150 151 152 153 154 155 156 157 158 159 160 161 162 163 164 165 166 167 168 169 170 171 172 173 174 175 176 177 178 179 180 181 182 183 184 185 186 187 188 189 190 191 192 193 194 195 196 197 198 199 200 201 202 203 204 205 206 207 208 209 210 211 212 213 214 215 216 217 218 219 220 221 222 223 224 225 226 227 228 229 230 231 232 Last Page