Sunday, February 21, 2010
After going on a bender yesterday, and rebelling by blog like a smirky teen, I was going to go list my huddles as "I need support." But like any good little recovering food junkie, I've still got that wee bit (okay maybe more than that) of denial. I told myself nope, I didn't need any support.
However, my sparkfriends knew better. When I saw that I had responses to the blog, I thought, "oh no, they're going to yell at me." (smiling) Nope, I know better than that. I've never gotten anything other than kindness, warmth, understanding, and wisdom from the folks here a SP.
After reading the responses, I smiled and realized (once again) how important this support is in my progress. My wish for all of you is that, whenever you have a day that goes sideways, you will remember to be just as kind and understanding with yourself as you were with me.
On another note, today I made guacamole. I got a great deal on avocadoes yesterday. However, I failed to check calories. Wouldn't you know it, the guac had (notice past tense) more calories than yesterday's ton of apple strudel!!!!! Go figure! Looks like I've got lots of working my tush off to do and will proceed accordingly.
Wishing you all a day full of laughs, fun, peace and joy. And thanks again.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Yes, I had a ton of apricot strudel today. And don't feel at all guilty about it. And every bite was delicious.
Why am I rebelling? For one thing, even though I try like mad not to let this plateau get to me - some days it really does. In fact, I've had it.
Also, the more I exercise, the hungrier I am. And honestly? I'm very tired of being good and watching this and that to eat. Wild abandon felt good today.
Hoping that this rant will relieve the pressure to perform well and tomorrow I'll get back to being a good girl.
Wishing everyone a fun weekend.
Friday, February 19, 2010
...to say today. After a year of daily blogging, I find it harder to think of topics. But still wanted sparkpoints so I can give my pals those goodies.
Wishing all a good evening.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Okay, it's been a warm bunch of days here in SoCal and during my walk this morning, I made a new rule for myself. Which I know better than to do as my rebellious self automatically decides to disobey. (smiling)
I'll need new shorts this summer. But I will not buy any until I'm a size smaller. That's the rule. No shrinkage, no new stuff.
Thinking - again - about doing a caffeine detox. I really have to kick this demon that makes me feel yucky even though I do not drink much coffee. Really affects me adversely. But when I eliminated it in October, I truly felt like a zombie for the five weeks I went without. A dillemma, for sure.
Have a good evening, sparkfriends.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Just some random thoughts for the day. Just got in from a sunshine walk and am sweaty and thinking of all the things I should be doing, but haven't been because my internal engine is stalled out. Maybe forever. So, I'm thinking of what my options will be if I continue to flake for much longer - a beachbum in Mexico (I'm near the border, so that's convenient), a white collar crime so that prison will take care of me, etc. I know, I aim high.
Came into a house that's 80 degrees and my fur babies are wilting. As much as I hate to, I had to turn on the dratted A/C that will cost me a fortune on my next bill. It's either turn it on or not breathe and watch my cats die.
It was one of those days when I had all my calories by brunch. That is, I was sooo proud after reading JLITT's blog before I left, to be reminded of licks, bites and tastes. I was like the little train that could. Sure, I can do that I thought, as I picked up a huge organic milk chocolate bar at the grocery store. And how proud I was that en route home, I only had a "bite." Which is relative since the bite was about a third of the bar. As I got home and thought of all my recent accomlishments (like getting through the day), I rewarded myself with another "taste." Oh my... you know the rest of the story. And frankly, Scarlett, I don't give a (bleep).
And as for yesterday's blog and my life being like that movie Ground Hog Day in some ways, I did fine until around noon (no, the behavior isn't eating, although that would be a good guess), and then WHAMO. Day 1 - again. Ask me if I care. Yes, it's one of those attitude days. (smiling)
Wishing all a great evening.
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