Tuesday, February 02, 2010
Over the past two years, I have lost seven loved ones (friends and family members) and have 3 others how are in Stage 4. The sadness and grief tidal waved me and has caused major changes in my personality and life even though I've worked hard to reverse them.
I make my living through my creativity and that was one of the changes. My creative self seems to have left town, as has my motivation. Not a good thing for a solo earner in a high cost of living city.
Since I have always been a fun-loving, laughing kind of gal, I've decided to return to the fun things in life. Maybe at some point, if I have enough fun (along with other therapeutic things I'm doing), the creative, laughing part of me will return.
My b'day is next week and I feel that age is irrelevant. That is, I do not give any power to the negative stereotype of aging that our society loves to do. Have always lived this way, and swore early in life that I would always do what I want regardless of chronology.
With that said, one of my b'day gifts arrived yesterday. The Moon in My Room. It is the moon and lights up to all phases. It's a blast and I'm having fun with it already. Puts my mind on this creative, cosmic track instead of the same old feeling the blues since my heart is broken from so much loss. Honestly, it is wonderful having the moon with me and lighting up my night and early morning.
Tomorrow I will set up the Rainbow in My Room. Yes, there is more to come after these. I am also going to start stargazing and expecting a beginner's telescope any day now.
Have a wonderful day, SPfriends.