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Confessions of a (Former) Sugar Addict

Saturday, December 26, 2009

This is a complicated topic. Not only is sugar something that my body has always craved, but I've had psychological needs for it as well. Having always been sugar-sensitive, I believe that if I hadn't started this healthier lifestyle change in October '08, I would have certainly wound up with diabetes.

I made it from October '08 to September '09 w/o any sugar. Not even missing it. Amazing, but true as I'd balanced my insulin level with healthy eating. However, in September, I started the "just a little bit" syndrome. (thinking that I could teach myself moderation)

My idea of "just a little bit" is the entire pumpkin pie instead of the sliver. It is the entire Dove chocolate bar within 10 minutes of leaving the store (large size). I know that my 2010 list of goals will include continuing to work on this "all or none" approach to life.

It's a very simple, obvious point, but one that I have been reminded of during this holiday season. One reason that I did so well the first 10 months is that I didn't keep anything around. Now, knowing that there are goodies in here (for entertaining, of course), they call my name at very unexpected times.

I've noticed that I don't enjoy the sugar as much as I thought I did. When I have allowed myself to have it, I've made myself commit to no regrets. I figure if I am going to make a decision, I might as well enjoy it. Again, I was pretty surprised to learn that I don't enjoy it that much.

Which then comes back to the psychological pull, the topic that is written about in many books. Even though I consider myself a FORMER sugar queen of the universe, I still have to be very careful of that pull down the slippery slope. The cravings that are based in a number of situations unrelated to taste or satisfaction.

Knowing that I am in charge, and having made (mostly) good choices is very empowering. I can do this. So can you.

Happy New Year! (almost)

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VICIOUS421 12/29/2009 11:45PM

    Happy almost New Year to you too!!! You are the one in control but sugar can be a very strong temptress! You are an awesome warrior and I know you will win this battle!!

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KITETRAINING 12/27/2009 4:41AM

  Thanks for all the thoughts about sugar. I have done the ALL or Nothing sugar thing for years. Once I went two years on "Real Food" nothing processed and no sugar...and then when I started to have sugar or other foods I couldn't stop ...
for me one cookie is a binge when it chooses me ...if I choose it and control it my additions are "in check" Two days with the stuff around for Christmas entertaining and I'm up at 4:30 in the morning thinking about the leftovers in the fridge...trifle, brandy sauce, plum pudding and two days ago it tasted too sweet and I was "over it"

The key word here I think is sugar addiction and knowing that I need to take this seriously and manage it. I too would love to enjoy the taste or a taste and not feel deprived of the sugar world forever. This too is my goal. For me that taste is a slippery slide into trouble.

I have dropped twenty pounds in the last year and have become a runner in the past three months. I am up to 4K four times a week which I never thought I could do. I don't love running, but I do love the way it makes me feel afterwards and when I feel relaxed and good about caring for my health I am much more likely to NOT eat too much sugar. I can have the one bite or one chocolate. I think all or nothing is a recipe for disaster as it does not seem sustainable socially and I love social gatherings, cooking, the tradition of family recipes etc. It would be so very cool to know I could live with all of these traditions and not have them cause my early death.

So I am proud to say I am 20 lighter than I was last year this time. Sorry to say I lost 30 pounds to make the 20 pound loss. (I gained and lost 10 in the middle of the year when I reintroduced sugar) So can I lose the rest of the needed 25 pounds and find a moderate maintenance habit that will keep me from this yoyo? That is my plan. It starts with making some healthy food this morning to replace the Christmas leftovers and doing that run when the sun comes up.

For me one cookie is a binge if it chooses me rather than me choosing it

Thanks for reading. Cheers Heather


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ZUZUBEE 12/26/2009 8:56PM

    Just curious - NO sugar for a year? Like, not even a tsp in the coffee? Or just limited, no sweets, kind of no sugar?

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FLORIDASUN 12/26/2009 4:07PM

    Hi dear one...I'm so glad I read this blog, because I too was sugar tempted to over indulge and I mean in a BIG way. I've found since I've gone RAW that there are absolutely DELECTABLE raw desserts that sometimes taste almost TOO sweet to me...but they surely hit that sugar button square in the face! If you try RAW/CLEAN eating you will be amazed at how you can be satisfied with purely NATURAL foods that won't screw with your mind because of all of the chemicals and additives they add that make you want MORE and MORE...and MORE...well you get the point.

I'm telling you it's the 'diet foods' that are all gonna put us in the doctor's office one meal at a chemical laden time. I'm just sharing cuz I LUV you! emoticon

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GRAYGRANNY 12/26/2009 4:04PM

    Sugar Queen.....hmmm, I thought that was my name.........I know where you are coming from.......been there and ....well, still there.........I"m working on that yet........sugar (diabetes ..I have to get a grip on the eating anything that comes to mind........Congrats to you for how far you have come

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SPARKLOVE 12/26/2009 3:30PM

    I am find your blog very interesting and the comments as well. If all or nothing works for you and you don't break down and binge because of it then that is the way to go. I have not found what works for me but I am searching. When you cut out sugar did you start using diet sugars and if so which one do you like best?

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DANCINGPENGUIN 12/26/2009 2:33PM

    All-or-nothing thinking is a major component of Diet Mentality. I'm actively working on countering this concept. It's hard work, and there will be slip-ups, but I think it's absolutely critical.

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RASCALSMOMMA 12/26/2009 1:26PM

    Jesse seriously. Treat yourself to a taste (one that you can put in your mouth at one time) when you crave it. Then the craving will be satisfied and you can go on with your day without thinking of it. Before I gave up stuff I didnt think I could do it either and I was all or nothing too. NOW. I am in more control. but I do allow a taste. Once you get to the point when you can distinguish between flavors (dont laugh!!! its true!) such as "this one is WAY too sweet" or this one leaves that funny aftertaste in my mouth" or this one isnt really sweet at all, but its good." Then you are ready to "taste test" the waters. I m here to help. And on the team as well. Hugs. Laurie

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JLITT62 12/26/2009 1:22PM

    I used to be like that -- eating whole boxes of cookies or pop tarts (something I won't even touch anymore), but somehow, somewhere along the way, I've managed to mostly find my balance with sweets. Not completely, or I probably wouldn't still have a weight problem.

Now, just a little bit does satisfy me, but I still have a tendency to want sweets at almost every meal. It's something I continue to work on, too!

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JERSEYGIRL1950 12/26/2009 12:51PM

    Oh I'm soooooo with you ..definitely discovered it all or nothing with me also ..learning last year that my body responds and feels better w/o sugar and alot of carbs..having indulged into the sugar/carb binge these last few days but really writing this it was over a few months here and there that was my's amazing how the mind will craved it even though this time I could actually feel that terrible let down that made me feel like crap and constant bloat ..even right in this moment I'm craving that pepsi but dumped it down the drain and back to crystal lite and water...we can do this..we will do this

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Peace and Joy

Friday, December 25, 2009

Wishing all of my friends a healthy, peaceful and joyous Christmas.

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FLORIDASUN 12/26/2009 4:08PM

    You are one of my brightest Christmas gifts...yes you are! emoticon

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ALEXSGIRL1 12/25/2009 7:55PM

    peace and joy to you also emoticon

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JLITT62 12/25/2009 5:49AM

    Right back at you! Have a wonderful day.

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Dickens' A Christmas Carol

Thursday, December 24, 2009

I tuned in to see this movie with George C. Scott and hadn't seen it in many years. What really dawned on me, when it ended, was that I'd been visited- in my own way - by each of these ghosts.

The memories of Christmases past have been making me smile as there are just so many to cherish.

The ghost of Christmas present has shown me some wonderful gifts and blessings, mixed with sorrows over recent losses.

But what struck me most, was the reminder of how I can make the difference in the future by making sound choices today. And that the best gift I've given myself, besides sticking to SP, was to start this healthier lifestyle in October 08. The changes have been many and I foresee many more to come.

Wishing all a merry, healthy Christmas.

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SURENDERISNOTME 12/24/2009 11:29AM

    My DH calls me an old Christmas movie fanatic. I usually watch Miracle on 34th Street the original one, Its a Wonderful Life, one version of Scrooge or the other and last but not least White Christmas. I actually prefer the Mr McGoo Christmas Carol. Though I haven't seen it on tv in years.

Merry Christmas to you and your family.


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AMYMLE 12/24/2009 11:15AM

    Loved your thoughts on the past, present and future. Merry
Christmas, Happy New Year and beyond!

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GRAYGRANNY 12/24/2009 9:46AM

    LOVE those old it me, or what, but can't quite get the message that some of these movies have.....OR, sometimes there is NO message to be

We Wish You a Merry♪♫**.♥ .**♫♪ Christmas♪♫**.b
29; .**♫♪We Wish You a Merry ♪♫**.♥ .**♫♪Christmas ♥ ♥ ♥We Wish You A Merry ♪♫**.♥ .**♫♪Christmas ♪♫**.♥ .**♫♪...And A Happy New Year!♪♫**.♥ .**♫♪... Copy and paste~keep the wave going!
Have a wonderful Christmas

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WANDAC2013 12/24/2009 1:07AM

    I watched it last night with my's always a good reminder...tomorrow night will be "It's a Wonderful Life"! Merry Christmas to you!

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MKPRINCESS007 12/24/2009 12:42AM

    I watched this tonight with my is a great story and a wonderful message that it is never too late to make a fresh start! :) Wishing you all the best in the New Year!

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The Up Side of Having Fallen Off the Wagon

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

I'd slowly started eating a bit more than what is now "normal" for me. It started in October and Thanksgiving was, what I thought to be, a point of no-return. It took me a few weeks to summon the courage to get on the scale. When I did, I found that I did not gain any weight. Of course, I didn't lose either. However, maintaining feels very good as well.

But the positive side of a few months of being slightly sideways is that I realize that I am able to get up, brush myself off, let it go, and get back to where I know I should be. And now I am making progress, having lost a pound this week.

If I hadn't fallen, I wouldn't have tested my new tools of healthier lifestyle that I've reinforced for the past 11 months on this terrific site. I now know that the earth doesn't stop turning if I make blunders, and that I can forgive myself and move forward. Hooray, hooray for me! (smiling)

Have a wonderful day, friends.

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HICALGAL 12/23/2009 8:42PM

    i am so happy for you. emoticon

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AMYMLE 12/23/2009 5:42PM

    Jesse, Congrats on stopping yourself and getting back on the "wagon." You've proven to yourself (and us) that developing the skills for healthy living can see you (and us) through the rough patches. YEAH FOR YOU!
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KIZIDOG 12/23/2009 4:27PM

    Jesse my friend.
, I am so glad that you are back on the wagon the healthy living wagon that is. I'm proud of you that you maintained throught the difficult time and holidays. They are almost over and we can all get back to whatever constitutes for normal for us. Congrats on another pound. Happy holidays,


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ALEXSGIRL1 12/23/2009 2:52PM

    always move forward. you are a winner emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WOLFSPIRITS 12/23/2009 1:30PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon SO PROUD OF YOU. WE ARE ALWAYS LEARNING.

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RASCALSMOMMA 12/23/2009 1:14PM

    Jesse we're just glad youre HERE and LEARNING and Giving yourself time to adjust. Hugs Laurie

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 12/23/2009 12:54PM

    *standing ovation*

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JLITT62 12/23/2009 11:52AM

    Yup, it's good to know that it's really a healthy lifestyle -- one where we can get off track for a little while, and then right back on track.

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THEADMIRAL 12/23/2009 11:03AM

    emoticon emoticon You are making great strides in your health in spite of your circumstances! I'm so proud of you and so inspired by you! emoticon emoticon Vikki

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DANCINGPENGUIN 12/23/2009 10:43AM

    emoticon Maintaining is a victory! emoticon

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Wow, Thanks to My Sparkfriends

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Yesterday, I was beside myself with a major water leak, when JLITT62 wrote and provided a great website. Went there and within seconds after filling out the form, my phone rang with three very, very good contractors. It was actually a tough choice and the guy who came out this morning was fabulous. I'll make sure to provide great feedback on the website.

Part of the stress of dealing with a repair, is doing due diligence in finding someone licensed, reliable, competent and reasonable. This website makes all contractors go through a 10-point checklist so they've already done all the groundwork for me. It really removed a lot of the stress.

Now, since I got such great results on one problem, I came up with an idea... Why don't I post each problem and maybe someone will have a solution! (smiling)

How does this tie into eating and healthier me? I have not done any emotional eating. And, because I've continued to take care of myself, I can handle stress better.

Thanks, JLITT62, and thank you to all of my friends who've left such touching holiday messages on various subjects.

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 12/22/2009 7:03PM

    Fabulous idea!

Great results too!

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KIZIDOG 12/22/2009 6:17PM

    I'll have to keep service magic in mind when I need a repair that my honey can't do (he is a handy man). I'm glad you got such great results. Star emoticon

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JLITT62 12/22/2009 3:26PM

    Glad to be of help. Just passing it forward!

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WOLFSPIRITS 12/22/2009 3:02PM

ALWAYS TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!! emoticon emoticon

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LOSETHEWTIN08 12/22/2009 2:43PM

    Happy to read everything worked out. Happy Holidays.

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