Sunday, September 20, 2009
Okay, so it's not October 13 yet. But the way this year is evaporating, it'll be here in no time. I used Columbus Day '08 to embark on my new adventure as Columbus did - what has been a year of good (great) eating, more exercise, and learning to not be a piglet. (smiling) I spent the first few months on Nutrisystem, which was the first "diet" of my life. Have to say that it really served me well in doing the learning curve of portion control, proper combos of food, etc. I learned from that, but did not want to depend on any exterior diet for a long period of time. Then in January of this year, I came to this great website.
I'm going to spend now until October 13, reflecting on everything that comes to mind from this year of changes. Honestly, there are so many that I'll have to write a personal list of them to remember. And then I'll still forget something to blog about.
Of all of the learning experiences, I think my August (last month) of "failures" has taught me the most. It was possibly the real turning point when I could have said - easily - "forget this." Due to so many deaths of family members and friends (7, and two more terminally ill at present), as well as personal challenges in my own life, I became tidal waved by all of the sadness and hopelessness of these past two years. I didn't overeat as much as I used to, but was way off plan.
Yes, I gained a few lbs back and am now paying the piper. But the advantages to that month of bad eating were the following:
1. I learned that I still had the tools to return to healthy eating and repair the damage. That the past doesn't equal the future. Yesterday does not have to spill over to today.
2. That I was rebelling with food like a little baby, and that I was making myself suffer needlessly over that which I could/cannot control.
3. That I have to be gentler with myself and forgive myself in order to just move on down the road in the right direction.
4. That eating right helps me handle stress so much better.
5. That learning patience may well be a lifelong goal. (smiling)
6. That there are so many sparkfriends here who so readily give of their hearts and advice to pull me out of the quicksand.
Yesterday, I found a book in the bargain bin about the cognitive therapy approach to eating right. Yes, it really is about changing my thoughts to change my outcomes. I'll include some helpful things I learn as I read the book.
On another note, I read that a university in England found that the scent of vanilla abates hunger. Yesterday, I bought scented vanilla candles and other things to test out the theory. (smiling)
Have a fun day, sparkfriends.