Saturday, September 12, 2009
I've never had to worry about weight until about four years ago. I was the person who could eat any quantity of food at any time of the day and not gain a pound. Then, tons of things happened... hormonal changes, mega-stress, less activity as I spent more time working, and yes, continuing to eat as I had throughout my life. In other words, being a piglet. Amazing that I wasn't twice the size when I started this lifestyle change in October '08!
Okay, sure, I've understood the concepts that this is a lifestyle change, enjoy the journey, and all the similar ways of looking at eating better. But being an "all or none" type of gal, I have recently realized that if I just call it a lifestyle change, my psyche doesn't take it all that seriously.
Yes, I have to now call it a diet as well. There are things I simply cannot eat in moderation, no matter how I try to engender a new approach. I have to do the tough love thing with myself so that I can really buckle down and get these final 20 lbs. off.
I read articles advising not to deprive ourselves. To just eat a small portion of this and that yummy stuff. Oh how I've tried. There is no "little bit" with me. There's either none - or the entire box. Sad, but true.
Perhaps when I am further along than this 11-month period of changes in eating behaviors, I may someday be able to eat some of "those" things in moderation. I may actually learn that as a goal. But at this moment, the only way is to make this a diet - as well as a lifestyle change. I have to be kind of a drill sergeant with myself. (smiling)
Have a fun weekend, Spfriends.