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Day of Wreckening (sic) - Tomorrow's Weigh-In

Sunday, September 13, 2009

I may even delay it until Tuesday, that's how much I'm dreading facing reality. To make a long story short, I've not weighed for a few weeks due to a very bad month of August. After 11 months eating healthier, I backslid more than I'd thought possible. Explained it to myself (nice way of saying rationalized - smiling) that it still wasn't "like the old days" of being a piglet. And that it was the one year anniversary of three deaths of relatives (three friends passed about 1.5 years ago, with another two close to me being terminally ill). Maybe I subconsciously ate my way out of the sadness? I don't know. I'm learning to deal with that better, and have gotten back on the right track with my eating. However, I've delayed the scale in order not to get blown away by the hard evidence of my transgressions. Yikes! Yes, I know it's not the only measure of success (or lack thereof), but still an important one. I'll just have to be brave and get it done to see where I stand. Wishing all of my Spfriends a fun day.

  
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MSLZZY 9/14/2009 3:18PM

    Take a deep breath, smile, and know that this is a journey of many steps. Sometimes we go backward but sometimes we surprise ourselves. Onward and downward!

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VICIOUS421 9/13/2009 8:10PM

    I have had a couple of weeks of backsliding myself so I join you in dreading the scales tomorrow. But what I have done is to myself is something I can fix so starting tomorrow I will repair the damage I have done to myself by posting my eating and starting to work on reaching my work out goals again.
We all mess up on occasion but this is a mess up we can fix!


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AMYMLE 9/13/2009 3:55PM

    Jesse,
You've made so much progress, don't beat yourself up on the slip-ups, even if they last for a stretch of time. You know what you need to do, you're determined to get back on track (something you probably didn't even think about awhile back), and I know you will make better choices this month...this week...for the rest of the day, however small of a step you need to take right now. Just jump back in where you are, and be proud of yourself for getting back on track.
I'm proud of you and hoping for all the best for you.
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KIZIDOG 9/13/2009 3:35PM

    Just get on the scale and face what it is, then you will know what you have to do to get back on track. We all know that the scale is not the total of our journey, but it is what we get fixated on. My prayers and blessings are with you as you remember your dear friends and honor them by being healthy. Star emoticon

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SCOTTIEGIRL57 9/13/2009 2:58PM

    I like what KLEE46 said. It's impersonal and really, really doesn't measure your true worth, this scale thing. The most important thing is to be truly good to yourself by just taking care of your health. This body that you inhabit needs you to love and cherish it. By doing this your whole world will brighten up. Just take one day at a time OK - you're going to be just fine.

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KLEE46 9/13/2009 2:44PM

    it is what it is when you step on the scale. It is impersonal and cannot measure your true worth. Sometimes there is no other way to cope, or we would have used it. Now you can take the steps to stay on program. May you receive the spiritual comfort that assists you in coming to peace with the death energy and know that who you are makes a difference in so many lives.

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A Lifestyle Change, But Also a Diet for Me

Saturday, September 12, 2009

I've never had to worry about weight until about four years ago. I was the person who could eat any quantity of food at any time of the day and not gain a pound. Then, tons of things happened... hormonal changes, mega-stress, less activity as I spent more time working, and yes, continuing to eat as I had throughout my life. In other words, being a piglet. Amazing that I wasn't twice the size when I started this lifestyle change in October '08!

Okay, sure, I've understood the concepts that this is a lifestyle change, enjoy the journey, and all the similar ways of looking at eating better. But being an "all or none" type of gal, I have recently realized that if I just call it a lifestyle change, my psyche doesn't take it all that seriously.

Yes, I have to now call it a diet as well. There are things I simply cannot eat in moderation, no matter how I try to engender a new approach. I have to do the tough love thing with myself so that I can really buckle down and get these final 20 lbs. off.

I read articles advising not to deprive ourselves. To just eat a small portion of this and that yummy stuff. Oh how I've tried. There is no "little bit" with me. There's either none - or the entire box. Sad, but true.

Perhaps when I am further along than this 11-month period of changes in eating behaviors, I may someday be able to eat some of "those" things in moderation. I may actually learn that as a goal. But at this moment, the only way is to make this a diet - as well as a lifestyle change. I have to be kind of a drill sergeant with myself. (smiling)

Have a fun weekend, Spfriends.

  
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FLMOMX2 9/13/2009 7:54AM

    Knowing yourself is a very important success strategy. You do what works for you in this area. You rock.

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SHARK59 9/12/2009 11:36AM

    Hey Slim - derive away - but it can still be part of your lifestyle - you are only modifying the diet portion of your overall approach to life.

Lots of different beliefs on depriving (or just not eating certain foods) - I think we all respond differently and have different means of properly controlling ourselves.

I too deprive but have found that over time some foods can be moderated, some can't and some foods I just don't need anymore.

Examples - I avoided pizza for three months and then used it as a reward - in moderation for every good three month period of my lifestyle - now maybe monthly.

Nuts of any type - danger food - mass consumption will occur if I have any - I keep away.

Sweets - always loved my sweets - they are history - replaced my fresh fruit consumption - I really don't miss candy cookies or cake and that is a shocker for someone who used to "tax" the kids halloween collections - if they ever stop growing blueberries I will be in trouble.

Now if I could just control the late night carb attack I'd be at goal weight.

Do what works for you -= make it happen.

Shark

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ARTHURTOM 9/12/2009 9:25AM

    Part of the change is learning who you are and what you are capable of.

For the longest time I avoided some of the very things that I love. Pizza and beer. My thinking was that no matter how hard I would try, I would end up spilling over and blow everything that I've achieved if I partook in either one or both of those. Recently, I have had a few bud lights and on a couple of occasions I have had a few pieces of pizza. This was not on top of my meal plan, but I changed some things to allow for the introduction of these and it has worked for now. I am not planning on going full bore on those things, but it was nice to have a few bud lights and 3 slices of pizza (just the way I like it-double cheese with pepperoni) and not have to worry about it blowing my plan or sending me into a non recoverable descending spiral.

Jessie, sooner or later you will be comfortable with who you are and know your limitations according to the good things that you like and you WILL be able to take them in moderation without going overboard on them.

Just continue to change and learn who you are.

Tim

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KIZIDOG 9/12/2009 9:25AM

    Whatever works for you, I know for me I can't deprive myself but I can eat a bite or two and be satisfied that I had a taste. I know that a lot of people can't do this and there are trigger foods out there. Mine is chocolate and I have had to really psyche myself up on it, (only eat a small piece of dark chocolate, no cake, etc.) Other things chips, pie etc. don't bother me. But I keep all that out of the house also. Especially the chocolate except for little bars in my diabetic emergency can. I know that is only for emergencies and a craving is not an emergency. (lol) My attitude towards food has changed over the past several months and I am slowly changing also. I haven't lost much weight, but I have toned up and I am changing the way I look at myself and a healthy lifestyle. Good luck to you. Star emoticon

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WATERMELLEN 9/12/2009 8:53AM

    Some food are "trigger foods" for me and I can't eat them in moderation. If I bring them into the house, I've already "decided" to pig out on them. Sad but true: I can resist anything but temptation!! The trick is to avoid the temptation . . .

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BUDANGELO7 9/12/2009 1:19AM

    Whatever helps to keep you having proper nutrition seems to be a way to go. I enjoy your blogs. I think you can succeed. Bud

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RENA1965 9/12/2009 1:04AM

    I understand how you feel, but when i cottoned on to it is not how much we eat but what we eat that kills I changed my attitude.
I had a thin husband die from diabetes type 1 and a trim dad drop dead from cronic heart disease..
Having a doctor show me with visual x rays what our eating habit does sure sobered me up. Now I am a resthome helper my youngest clients are in their "20's", I am not so full of my mindsets..
I appreciate going to the toilet in private, taking a bath when I please and moving around under own steam.. When people eat selfishly lose on stuff they are limiting their own lifes..
Seen alot of people not used to having my help at close hand crumble and have their AHA moments with realities of lost freedom..
I want to live to be old, and close my eyes being worn out not ridicled with lifestyle illnesses that can be prevented.. If this is a diet, I can live with it but I can't live with other people helping me to the toilet or washing me below the belt. Also limited movement the body deteriorates faster.
I used to 306lbs, I now have a totally different life. I have lived this lifestyle change since 2004, when I learned how to be satisified from my food, missing junkfood was not a issue. I was making it through the day without huge blowouts, I learned over time moderation, and coming to terms with realities that eating is down there in maslows needs pyramid with sleep, sex, warmth, social contact..

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Eat Right, Exercise Regularly, Die Anyway

Friday, September 11, 2009

The other day, I read this quote and it reminded me of my favorite uncle who smoked all of his life. He said that we're going to die of something, so why not pick your poison - his rationalization for continuing to smoke.

I smiled to read the headlined quote because I understand the existential fact. But I also realize that it IS so much better to feel good until the point when we check out.

Have a good day, SPfriends.

  
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HICALGAL 9/11/2009 3:37PM

    i agree with you. emoticon

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S_HANSEN 9/11/2009 3:03PM

    You know that people have always said to me... why are you so strict with your eating and exercising? You could be hit by a bus! I have never understood that way of thinking. I want to feel great and look great and be great until the day I die! Great blog and thanks for sharing... have a fantastic Friday and a Wonderful weekend.
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SHARK59 9/11/2009 2:31PM

    Lost my best friend to cancer at 49 - he fit the bill of this blog's title - he was in great shape. But his gutsy battle against an impossible demon had a major impact on my decision to change my unhealthy lifestyle and get off my butt and start moving forward.
I will live longer and I will live better and my departure from this planet will not be caused by things that I can control.

Good blog - do well and make it happen.

Shark

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ARTHURTOM 9/11/2009 1:25PM

    My nextdoor neighbor used to say that a lot and he also said...

"if I knew I was going to live this long, I would have taken better care of myself!"

...given the two, I believe the one that I just referenced would probably be the one that most would say after living a life of the one you referenced!

Keep on Sparkin' Jesse!

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HOKU-ALOHI 9/11/2009 1:06PM

  emoticon Jesse, I especially Love your blog today!!!
I love it when we kick those rationalizations to the curb emoticon
and continue to live in our healthy fitness processes right up to the last day.
Yes, once we are born we will one day pass away...but I am fighting the good fight to live a full healthy life!
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You totally Rock my friend!!!
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KIZIDOG 9/11/2009 12:27PM

    Yes we are all going to die anyway, but what about the quality of our lives. I prefer mine to be healthy. I have so much more energy. Star emoticon

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BUDANGELO7 9/11/2009 11:10AM

    Great Blog. Bud

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Look 16 years Older? Yet feel 13 years younger?

Thursday, September 10, 2009

A recent article on SP talked about how extra weight ages us by about 16 years. Wow! Then I read in the latest issues of Women's World, that most people feel 13 years younger than their actual age. Whew, that's quite a fractured self-image to accept - 16 years older from extra weight, but feeling 13 years younger than actual chronology. No wonder, when I gained weight over this past few years, I had lost a realistic grip between how I appeared to the world, and how I felt.

Today's renewed weight loss vows have put my head in a very different place - out of the impending bad habits I'd started and the backslide I was exhibiting in many ways. Time to get with the program and step it up a couple of notches.

  
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KIZIDOG 9/10/2009 3:43PM

    Well with the help of each other we can all look and feel younger by being healthy, eating right and moving more. Star emoticon

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TERIE93 9/10/2009 3:32PM

    That formula would work for young people. Wonder what their median age was? Hopefully by the time we are 90 the gap will widen and we will only feel 60! : ) teri emoticon

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FLMOMX2 9/10/2009 10:13AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonLook at you go girl.

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RICH530 9/10/2009 8:15AM

    emoticon Listen to all the positive attitude coming from you!!! That is great to hear and it will get you far!!! Good luck with your new goals!!
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HICALGAL 9/10/2009 4:07AM

    woohoo to looking and feeling younger! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ARTHURTOM 9/10/2009 12:56AM

    Step it up! People routinely tell me that I look like I'm 35...imagine their surprise when I tell them I'm 48!

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RENEWING MY VOWS ON 9/9/09 AT 9:09 AM & PM (WEIGHT LOSS VOWS, THAT IS!)

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

It's time to renew my weight loss vows and recommit to my health and progress. What better time to do so than on a day that is a unique blend of "9's?" (smiling) I've slid pretty far down this past month, in many ways, but I am ready to kick my own butt and get this last 20 off - no matter how long it takes. Best wishes to all for a momentous and wonderful day.

  
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FLMOMX2 9/9/2009 7:14PM

    Best wishes for your goals. Have a great day.

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SMOKEYSMOM 9/9/2009 3:58PM

    Good luck to us both. The last time I was on SparkPages was 9-15-2008 and I chose today to start for the same reason. The good news is, I am only one pound over where I was then, BUT, still not at goal! So...here's to us! Let's ROCK!!!!

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PEDIPOD 9/9/2009 10:31AM

    What a great idea and great way to celebrate the numbers!! Happy Vow renewal and BE well!!!

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SO_ROSE 9/9/2009 9:08AM

    Good luck! I am picking up where I left off a couple of months ago as well.
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GEMSTONE1952 9/9/2009 8:41AM

    9-9-09....Love it, welcome to the wacky walkers. Good luck with your goals, you'll get that last 20!

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