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OMG! I Bought a Swimsuit!

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Actually, I bought two since they were so cheap at Ross (Speedos for $11). It's the first time in the last few years since these drastic hormonal changes (and yes, overeating) brought on the weight that I've even thought of swimming. I want to find an aquafit class. (Plus, it's a bit ridiculous to live in San Diego and not go to the beach!) I bought my size and it took me another day to muster the courage to try them on. I've never fully come to grips with the "OMG, how did I get this big after being trim all of my life?" I'm just starting to get back looking into the mirror again. (smiling) Okay, so I try on the first one. To my amazement, not as bad as I thought. Yes, a lot more work is needed and yes, it will be a bit horrifying to get out in public with extra pounds on me, but you know, not as awful as I'd imagined. The second suit was a keeper as well. I am still tempted to wear shorts over them. (smiling) But this first step is a big one for me.

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AMYMLE 7/24/2009 1:51PM

    Yea Jesse! Hit the beach for me! From what I've heard, Minnesota actually has more coast line than California (10,000+ lakes and all), but as cool as it's been here lately, I haven't even THOUGHT of swimming! I'm sure you'll look great in those suits!


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HICALGAL 7/23/2009 10:41PM

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BEFIT014 7/23/2009 8:21PM

    Good for you! You've earned those bathing suits! Wear them with pride, woman!!

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PCOOK67 7/23/2009 5:35PM

  Congrats, I recently did the same thing! Its a milestone to be proud of! emoticon

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S_HANSEN 7/23/2009 11:25AM

    I am so happy for you... Good for you for buying a suit... you wear it with pride. emoticonSondra

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VFSELLERS 7/23/2009 11:13AM

I bet you look great :)
I have not been to the beach in years

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KLEE46 7/23/2009 10:16AM

    Great! You are not letting your body size take you out of enjoying life and going out. I lived in Carlsbad and the SD area 1993-2000. Life is a beach.

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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Seems like these monthly sparkiversaries make my mind wander to all of the great changes this terrific website has reinforced. I came to SP six months ago, after three months of really good progress on my own. So, this new lifestyle change has been going on since October '08. Sometimes it feels like such a long time ago and that I should be so much further along in my progress than I am. But, realistically, it is a very short time when compared with an entire lifetime of poor eating habits. This morning, I smiled at the simple - yet SO important - daily breakfast that has made a HUGE difference for me. I always skipped breakfast because I "wasn't hungry in the morning." But hey, did I ever make up for it later in the day as a result! And every time I grocery shop, I am constantly reminded as I read the labels, how much my selection of food has changed. There are countless differences since 9 months ago. What's really funny, okay, not really funny, is that I did not want to continue on SP. I thought it was too confusing with too much information. I thought it an annoyance to track everything and a chore to log on daily to get those silly awards. NOT SO. This site has reinforced my good habits, and the awards are symbols of friendship, progress, and so many things that are smart reminders as well. Happy 6 month SPanniversary to me. And for the millionth time - a HUGE shout-out to all my pals who've been the best. You are appreciated so much. Have a good day.

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DBELLE39 7/23/2009 8:29AM

    Happy 6 month Spark Anniversary! Keep your momentum going, this is only the beginning of your improved wellbeing! Doing splendid! emoticon emoticon

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HICALGAL 7/23/2009 3:52AM

    HAPPY 6 MONTH SPARKVERSARY!!! keep up the great work! emoticon

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CAROL_ 7/23/2009 12:49AM

    emoticon Happy emoticon

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PEDIPOD 7/22/2009 3:43PM

    Thanks for sharing all of this -- I agree with you: it is lucky to have found SP and it has made all the difference. I have a long way to go, but I feel confident that I am making the changes that will keep this from being a familiar yo yo!!

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SKYEFYR 7/22/2009 11:50AM

  Happy Sparkiversary.

Just wanted to know I'm glad to have you as a sparky friend!

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Calorie Counts Vary So Much That It's Confusing to Track

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Yes, I do go by the SP caloric info for food I eat, but I have to say that the product count, SP count, and other website counts are oftentimes sooooo far apart for the same item, that it's confusing. At times, I feel that I've added way to many calories for one food, and too few for another, based on another source of information. Maybe I should just pick the one that gives me the fewest calories so I can eat more! (smiling) Okay, just kidding. Have a good day, everyone. We are having a heatwave this week in SoCal. Plus, send some rain our way to help end our drought.

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CYNDYANNE 7/21/2009 10:56PM

    I too enter all the information myself because even here on SP some of the food in the database has the incorrect information when I compare it to the actual food's packaging.

It's also really hot up here in Central California lately. :(

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BEFIT014 7/21/2009 7:30PM

    I enter the info myself. I've gone into the SP database and I can have the exact product in my hand but the counts are SO different or sometimes there's nothing for sodium, etc.!! By entering the info myself I know it's right.

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S_HANSEN 7/21/2009 4:53PM

    Well, I liked the idea... it is true that there are too many conflicting reports. It is hard to know which is correct. I find that to be true with most things having to do with food, don't you? Hang in there. emoticonSondra

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Putting My Fat Clothes Out Front for Today's Charity Pickup

Monday, July 20, 2009

I've been in the process of weeding out the clothes that no longer fit. A couple of months ago, when I first started doing this, I was elated by the fact that I am now 3 sizes down from what I was last October. I'd immediately given away SOME of the larger sizes, but kept two large bags. This weekend I moved out of denial. I didn't think that I was saving them "just in case," but deep down - I actually was! But no way will I ever allow myself to be so uncomfortable. So, I went and fetched them for today's pickup to a charity I support. It's funny how we humans hold onto things, even when they are not what we need. Just like my body is currently holding onto this last 20 lbs. and doesn't seem to want to give up the extra weight. The adventure continues. And, like so many of you remind me.... okay, okay, I'll enjoy the journey. (smiling)

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BEFIT014 7/20/2009 8:24PM

    emoticon! That is a HUGE step!

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S_HANSEN 7/20/2009 1:07PM

    emoticon Good for you!!! Getting rid of those clothes is huge! I am so happy for you. You will now begin to get rid of that last 20#, I can feel it. Have a great week. emoticonSondra

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CRAZYK8S 7/20/2009 1:04PM

    Go you!! :-) I did this a few weekends ago too and it felt great!

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PATTI24 7/20/2009 11:45AM

    That is good. I k now it feels great to do that. I have been able to the same thing myself. Keep up the good work.

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AMYMLE 7/20/2009 10:32AM

    Yea Jesse! I'm sure you'll feel lighter in more ways than one getting rid of your fat clothes. emoticon

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Coming Up on 6-Month Sparkanniversary-Just Because I'm Discouraged Does not Mean That I'll Quit

Sunday, July 19, 2009

I really do try to be as positive as possible on my blogs, although with the current state of dying friends and relatives, it's been difficult. In 5 days, it'll be my 6th month anniversary on SP. Okay, I'll give myself the benefit of the positives first before I hit myself in the gut with a punch of disappointment. I came to SP having lost about 29 lbs on another program. During this 6 months, I have lost only a few more lbs, gone down to a third pant size, and have maintained keeping the weight off. Additionally, with the help of daily log-ins to the website, I have reinforced healthy eating behaviors and the awareness of when not so good in order to quickly get back on-track. Making new friends who've been wonderful is no small gift, and I've appreciated and blogged about that. However, I am a tough taskmaster and had planned to be much further ahead in my loss than this by this date. Much further. Today I feel discouraged and disappointed in myself for not working harder. Yet, in my heart of hearts, I know that amidst all that's been going on, I've done the best I can.

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CAROL_ 7/23/2009 12:45AM

    You know what, maintaining weightloss through highly stressful times in one's life, is A LEARNED SKILL. In SP it's called Lifestyle Changes.

I think you are forgetting that. You mentioned it, yes, but you're not really getting it.

You can't do EVERYTHING at once if you're human. There was only one perfect man that ever lived, and they crucified him.

So you have been nailing down in your life, the Lifestyle Change of NOT running to overindulgence in food under extreme duress.

PLUS you went down a pant size??!

I think you're doing great. I really mean that; lots of people quit FOR NO GOOD REASON. You had MULTIPLE good reasons, and yet you STILL DIDN'T QUIT.

Actually, you didn't even backslide a pound, which actually is pretty disgusting to those of us who do backslide.

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HICALGAL 7/20/2009 8:11AM

    we all feel like we could've should've done more, lost more, but in the end, what counts is knowing we did the best with what we had.

6 mos from now you'll look back and feel differently. keep up the good and hard work. emoticon

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S_HANSEN 7/20/2009 7:00AM

    I think you should pat yourself on the back for a job well done. You are amazing. You are keeping this up in the face of the life issues you face recently. Be proud of what you have lost and remember that this is a journey and not a destination. We don't know how long this journey will take and where it will take you along the way. Enjoy the journey. Take this one day one step at a time. Don't be to hard on yourself. You are awesome and a great spark friend. Keep up the great work you are doing, and remember you will get there...Have a great week and a happy Spark Versery.... emoticonSondra

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ARTHURTOM 7/19/2009 10:18PM

    Patience grasshopper. Much patience. As you learn about health and nutrition, you learn about your body as well. Have you travel toward your happiness, joy and your goal...enjoy the journey.

On any travel, the joy along the journey makes the destination so much sweeter. I had aspirations when I joined spark people that haven't materialized as of yet, but those things do not depress me.

You, as anyone that has been to my spark page on a semi-regular basis would know, that my original goal was to feel good again. I had reached that goal sometime last summer well before I joined spark people.

My journey is far from over. My journey will be over when I draw my last breath. Until then I will continue to do the things I need to do to maintain and grow that good feeling I have.

When I joined Spark people nearly 8 months ago, the original title of my spark page was what it is today..."Feeling Good Again". Through the ups and downs of the life that I lead, one thing is constant. It is that good feeling that I have from the lifestyle I have chosen to lead.

You can't buy this feeling and have it instantly. As you know, it takes dedication and a great deal of effort to maintain and grow the good feeling that being healthy gives us. There are issues that arise in each persons life, such as the personal losses that we experience whether it be a friend or family member or the material things such as the homes we live in are vandalized when we are away (such as what has most recently happened to me). Our good health, patterns of behavior and habits we establish help us to grow that good feeling and when the things around us don't go exactly as we plan, we can draw on our good feeling we have to help pull us through the hard times to maintain our health and continue to grow the good feeling that being healthy will give us.

As you know and have written, quitting will not afford us any of this. What quitting would do is to eventually lead us down that road where we started out and back to those feelings we had when those feelings motivated us to do what it is we are doing now.

Happy six month anniversary Jessie and keep on sparking!


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PEDIPOD 7/19/2009 8:55PM

    Hang in there -- we have the rest of our lives to get healthy together!!

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GUISBROGAL 7/19/2009 2:27PM

    Keep on fighting those negative thoughts Slimmerjesse! They are sent to try us and drag us down. Do not be beaten!

You have done marvellously well and three clothes sizes is no mean feat. I too wanted to weigh a lot less by now but I know I am losing slowly but surely and I know I am doing the right things for my body.

Keep fighting girl!

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    You have come a long way from where you first started. Yes, you have had some major upsets in your life. Losing a family member and/or friend is devastating. You have always managed to bounce back. Go easy on yourself. You are on the right track and you are going to make that goal. Those are the important things to remember. We will be here for you.


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    You have come a long way from where you first started. Yes, you have had some major upsets in your life. Losing a family member and/or friend is devastating. You have always managed to bounce back. Go easy on yourself. You are on the right track and you are going to make that goal. Those are the important things to remember.

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RICH530 7/19/2009 1:48PM

    You have made great progress!! Don't give up on yourself. You can do this. Take it slow and steady and remember we are all here for you!!!!
emoticon Lee

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DAWNFIRE72 7/19/2009 1:42PM

    emoticon On the progress you've made so far. I think you hit the nail on the head for yourself in recognising that you are a tough taskmaster and perhaps set the bar a little too high. You have gone down another pant size so that means you are dropping inches if not weight and that is something to be proud of, you have done your best and will continue to do your best so don't beat yourself up over it. Keep plugging along and before you know it you will be where you want to be.

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