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Enjoying the Journey

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Well, I've always been a person who enjoyed the "getting there" process almost as much as the destination (sometimes more). And on this website, I get a lot of advice to enjoy the road to the goal. It's a little difficult to truly enjoy it in the midst of stress and life's major challenges. But it's a good reminder for me to keep hearing this advice. It reinforces the idea for me to get back to that journey enjoyment.


The Biggest Loser On Jillian Michaels' Sunday Morning Radio Show

Monday, May 18, 2009

You can catch Jillian Michaels every Sunday morning on kFI 640 radio, or listen on the internet from 9-11 a.m. Yesterday, Jillian had someone phone in and tell her listening audience how she, the caller, won this last Biggest Loser challenge. I don't watch the show, but I've heard the scoop on this lady and how inspirational she is. She told Jillian that her eye was never on winning, but rather, changing her insides. That is, all of the attitudes she held about eating, exercise (she hated running, and now is running all over the place), etc. I felt that was a good point... the inside attitudes toward food are the key to this lifestyle change.

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    It is amazing, how our ideas of what we "hate" and what we "love" change on this journey!

I'm changing ALL of me...outside AND in! emoticon

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JENNSTAR732 5/18/2009 8:13AM

  Hey! This reminded me of someone telling me that it helps to not focus on "when" you lose all the weight, but enjoy the journey getting there.

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Getting A Little Cocky and Complacent

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Yesterday was a rare day of rebellion. I was hungry. I didn't want to deal with calories, weight issues, or whatever. Didn't eat junky stuff, but did ingest more than usual. It was like I needed a vacation day from just thinking about all this stuff constantly. I went back to the store and tried the next lower size pants on - which will be 4 sizes down instead of 3. It fits around me, but cannot zip, so that's very inspiring. That means I have to get off this plateau in order to make it zip cause I still have 17 lbs to go. Some days there's a dangerous thought that creeps into my consciousness - OKAY, I'LL JUST BE HAPPY WHERE I'M AT NOW AND MAINTAIN. THIS AMT. OF LOSS IS GOOD ENOUGH. Yikes, that's not the way to think. Never fear, though, I am back in the saddle today and back from my "vacation" day off. I do NOT want to ever be chubby again.

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CORNPICKER73 5/18/2009 6:37AM

    I can TOTALLY relate to that feeling-- of just wanting to not think about it any more. Hang in there, you are doing so great, you will break this plateau and reach your goals! Thanks for sharing this.

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BEFIT014 5/18/2009 12:44AM

    emoticonGO, JESSE, GO!!!!!!!!

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AMYMLE 5/17/2009 11:08PM

    Jesse, It seems to me that an acknowledged vacation can be a good thing. Even the term "vacation" means you know you'll come back "home." Keeping those 4 size smaller pants in mind might give you more inspiration to keep strong with your original goal weight and up your game to get off that plateau. Good luck!
emoticon (This is for your "vacation.")

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SPARKLESSENCE 5/17/2009 3:45PM

    Jesse, if you keep shining that light of awareness on your priorities, you won't regain that weight. The fact that you were aware of eating more yesterday and that you felt somewhat uncomfortable about it illustrates this. Also, were you more active yesterday than you usually are? I've found - and so have other Sparksters - that increased activity can rev up the appetite. As long as you stayed accountable, you were on the right track. My years (!!) of experience have taught me that as long as we hop right back onto that figurative saddle, we'll continue to do well - not to worry. - Sara emoticon

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How People Treated Me When I was Chubby vs. Thin

Saturday, May 16, 2009

I'd been thin and active all my life - up until a few years ago when a combination of things tidal-waved me and packed on the pounds. These included hormonal changes, lots of stress, less activity due to more time spent working, etc. You get the drift. With the extra weight on, I was invisible to society in every way. No smiles, compliments, and a totally different way of relating to me in both professional and personal situations. Now that I am headed back down, I see the difference even more blatantly. It's night and day. Unreal how so many people are overweight, yet we are treated as though we have two heads. Yikes!

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ANN**08** 5/18/2009 1:19AM

  That is only the tip of the iceburg. If you had been overweight most of your life you would know people think they have the right to critique you whenever and whereever. I have had workers in stores ask me to leave the juniors section because they didn't have anything to fit me. I was buying a dress for my size 4 cousin to wear to my wedding! She not only asked me to leave 3 times but her boss asked me to leave also. Either people ignore you or they are intensely cruel. It is the last bastion for prejudice that no one will address. I have lost weight and everyone is different. Then you gain it and people around you get comfortable again. The fat chick is back in place. It is amazing! They will do anything to make sure you don't change and they are out of their comfort zone. Co-workers used to bring sweets- my weakness- to work when I would be doing really well just to get me to mess up. It happens! It's normal!

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SPARKLESSENCE 5/16/2009 8:55PM

    Ahh,'s so sad - so shallow, too - the way this happens, isn't it? Weight loss can be a real litmus test. Those who ignored us at a higher weight who suddenly become effusive and friendly are often phony and superficial. Those who have treated us well no matter what show real promise as good, sincere friends. I really treasure such people, and I know you do, too. - Sara emoticon

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ISHIIGIRL 5/16/2009 6:24PM

    yup, sounds pretty common. People will look right through you when you are chubby+ but when you are a normal size all of a sudden you become more than just a "customer". It is a sad commentary on our society when we judge people so much on looks.

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ARTHURTOM 5/16/2009 2:25PM

    I too have noticed this pattern of behavior from others, most notably, in my taxi with my fares.

When I was driving my taxi with my belly hitting the steering wheel, not too many of my fares took notice of me. Now that I'm somewhat in a good physical condition, some of my female passengers are throwing themselves at me. Through this I have to maintain a professional attitude and reaffirm that the relationship we have is a business one that will not turn into an interpersonal one.

I don't want to take advantage of anyone, let alone a drunken woman that if I were as I was before wouldn't give me a second thought.

It is a delicate balance dealing with others and my new physical frame because for as different as I look, my emotions are pretty much the same as they were 2 years ago if not longer.

I just want to make sure that I don't fall into that trap myself. Hopefully we will not judge others based on their judgments of us based on our past and current appearances.


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The Power of Sparkfriends (And a Special Thank you)

Friday, May 15, 2009

There have been so many days when I've hit a bump. Not the kind of "I give up" bump, but still dangerous because giving into bad attitude can be a slippery slope for me. The sparkfriends who've taken the time to visit my blogs/page and comment have been invaluable in my path to success so far. Not only for their advice and wisdom, but also for their kindness and understanding. It is really a marvel when I open my page and read something that brings me back to reality. The more I learn about this healthy lifestyle, the more I realize is left to learn. It's truly a lifelong commitment and one that I am so glad I started 7 months ago. And thank you to all of my friends who've helped along the way. You are truly appreciated. That includes the new folks who just happen to drop by, it's so nice to have someone take a few minutes out of their day to share their experience. It's all good.

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BINEMELLES 5/17/2009 11:35AM

    jesse, i have thoroughly enjoyed being a part of your lifestyle change, and i am SO proud of you!

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SPARKLESSENCE 5/15/2009 10:01PM

    Jesse, you've really made some dramatic and deep changes in your life of all kinds in those past 7 months! Most of all, you have an enhanced sense of self-awareness - and that's a surefire asset to help make these healthy changes permanent! You rock!!! emoticon - Sara emoticon

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4ANEWME2DAY 5/15/2009 12:05PM

It is such a great feeling to reach out to others and know they are reaching back with such support that is unconditional. I'm glad you asked for help.
Your SparkFriend,

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2010TRIATHLETE 5/15/2009 11:15AM

    I so agree with you! Although I have support from my husband & family, there is nothing like logging in to SP & chatting with people who are going through the same thing. They can offer advice, support & information that is priceless! Good luck on your journey!

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ARTHURTOM 5/15/2009 9:40AM

    It's not about how fast you get there or what's waiting on the other's the climb!


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