Thursday, March 22, 2012
Today is day 49 of no caffeine, and it's amazing how deep into the subconscious old habits go. Just a brief history.
I didn't start drinking coffee until adulthood. Never drank a lot. But always very caffeine sensitive, I knew that it wasn't doing me any good. At the time I gave it up this last time, I was drinking a small mug a day, sometimes half that amt.
Never really liked the taste, except when I started to meander into flavored coffees (more chemicals added), with added flavored creamers (more calories).
Yesterday, I read a blog response that one of my sparkfriends sent to another. She mentioned how much she loves her coffee and a certain brand that's delish. I remember being struck by the distinct taste of that brand when I was a coffee drinker, and even went to their website to see how much it was. I rationalized (as I have before after a streak of having eliminated it from my life before) that a little bit won't hurt. I also had to counter the childish feeling that everyone else in the world is enjoying it, why can't I?
Well, I didn't order any of it, but then dreamt that I drank a cup of coffee last night. As I drank it, I remember saying "A little bit won't hurt." But even in my dream state, another corner of my mind countered by reason - "You know that's always how trouble starts."
Oh my, it's amazing how old habits die hard. And how deep they go into our psyches. After seeing the price of that terrific brand, I know that I'm saving a ton by staying off the stuff.
Wishing all a good day.