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Dreading the Birthday Blues Tomorrow

Monday, February 07, 2011

I was born on my grandmother's birthday and named after her.

I'm bracing myself to NOT be blue tomorrow. Not for the typical reason of passing years. I've lived enough for five people, and don't want to be younger than I am. So that's not the issue.

Having lost my dear cousin (the 9th person in 4 years), who was like a sister to me, last July, I've just begun to get back on my feet. Still have a way to go, but the blanket of sadness that was my constant companion has dissipated.

Each birthday, bright and early in the morning, the phone would ring. My cousin would sing me happy birthday. It was the gift that kept on giving, as I'd replay it and smile. As teens, we had a singing group. She still has (had) a lovely voice.

Tomorrow morning, the phone will not ring. There will be no birthday song. I miss her so very much.

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CHERIRIDDELL 2/12/2011 3:38AM

    Like Floridasun I am so sorry I missed this blog I too would have sung you happy birthday.Floridasun and I could have harmonized (if my voice harmonizes with anything) at least it would have kept you laughing all day!!!! love and hugs,Cheri

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FLORIDASUN 2/10/2011 6:02PM

    Ohhhhh I'm sooo sorry I missed this blog! I would have sang you happy birthday even in my really CRAP~O voice. Just remember you are being sung Happy Birthday from a beautiful place up in heaven, even if the acoustics are of a higher frequency than our human ears can are VERY loved and appreciated dear one! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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1COUNTRY_GAL 2/9/2011 10:36AM

    emoticon emoticonI would call you if I had your phone number.You have a happy Birthday and know I care and offer you support emoticonand emoticonDiana

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NEELIXNKES 2/8/2011 12:07PM

    emoticon Happy Birthday emoticon

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ALEXSGIRL1 2/7/2011 8:42PM

    happy birthday sweetie

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DDHEART 2/7/2011 8:30PM

    How about this? Get up tomorrow morning and you sing to your beloved're going to be thinking about her anyway..turn it into a tribute! Happy Birthday just a tish early!!

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LIBBYFITZ 2/7/2011 6:10PM

    emoticonHappy birthday for tomorrow!

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    I wish I could sing to you....I know it wouldn't be the same....but at least somebody would be singing.

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JLITT62 2/7/2011 5:19PM

    A very bittersweet memory indeed -- I'm sorry.

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JOYATLAST 2/7/2011 9:47AM

    Listen, Jesse. Listen.

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STUDLEEJOE 2/7/2011 9:41AM

    Thank you for your post. My birthday is also tomorrow. I will be 60, and I have lost several family members and friends over the last few years. I have found the best way to remember them is to celebrate you own life.


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DEBBIEOLMOS57 2/7/2011 9:39AM

    Just image your cousin singing to you. I just lost my father in December and I will miss his birthday hug and kiss on the 16th too.

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Other Goals/Landmarks Met

Saturday, January 29, 2011

In a recent blog, I listed some of the benefits of being on SP for two years this week. And thinking of those goals, I also looked at others I've achieved during this month of January, 2011. Of course, not all were done in this month, but cumulatively resulted in finality during January. Some of these are...

-No TV. For the past two months, I've not watched and feel an incredible peace from its absence. Did this once before for 7 years. Hate TV. I think this may be the grand finale.
-Less sugar. So much less that I am amazed that I don't want it or crave it. This is a true landmark for me, for over a month now.
-Grief relief. After four years of deaths of 9 friends/family members, including my dear cousin last July, I'd been in a state of total paralysis from functioning. Not to say that I am productively functioning the way I should, but at least I don't feel the heaviness of constant sadness any longer. That frees so much energy up for other things.
-A Job fiasco. I tried to get what I thought was a little, menial job and started last week. However, it was a totally different job than interviewed for, and one I could not stick with for a variety of reasons. While this looks like a failure on the surface, it actually isn't. I showed myself that I am able to suit up, and show up. It also motivated me toward the next issue.
-Getting more serious about planning the renewal of my own business. While this may take a while longer, I am closer to getting re-started again.
-Done sport shopping. No longer interested in internet or real-time shopping.

Wishing all a wonderful weekend.

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DDHEART 1/30/2011 9:52AM

    You've come a long way baby and this next year will bring even more!

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NANCY- 1/30/2011 8:15AM

    Wow... You an amazing lady and have made some amazing changes.

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ALEXSGIRL1 1/29/2011 7:52PM

    baby your a firework you are doing awesome emoticon

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NATPLUMMER 1/29/2011 5:00PM

    Those are great accomplishments!!!
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SIMPLELIFE4REAL 1/29/2011 1:06PM

    A lot of changes!!!!

I'm guessing that turning off the TV has helped a lot with grief relief too because it has let you feel your feelings more and start to focus on other areas of your life.

It's good to hear that you are starting to feel better. It's been a tough year and you deserve more out of life.

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JLITT62 1/29/2011 1:06PM

    Wow! Those are ALL amazing accomplishemnts & you have really kept the lid on them, too.

I am so glad that you feel that heaviness lifting. You deserve it.

I once took a job and left it after just a few days. It happens.

GREAT job!

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LIBBYFITZ 1/29/2011 12:00PM

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Direction Correction #6 - Overeating Healthy Foods

Friday, January 28, 2011

It is my 2-year Sparkversary, and I've become aware of several things that I've gotten a bit misdirected on. It doesn't feel like I've fallen off the proverbial wagon, but just that my healthy two-year track has begun to start making the beginning of what can easily be a U-turn. Yikes! Rather than let that happen, I thought I'd blog about each issue that I need a direction correction on. Each one will begin with this paragraph and lead into the topic of the day.

There is a SP article on this topic,and each time I read it, I smile. I am "addicted" to some very healthy foods. What's wrong with that, right?

Well, this is where that "all or none" aspect of my personality comes into play, as it does with everything in life. As we've heard over and over - MODERATION is the important aspect in all things.

Okay, I've blogged many times and sung the same song about how I had a lifelong metabolism that allowed me to eat whatever in any quantity with no weight gain. Four years or so ago, that changed. Yes, life changes.

But somewhere along the line, with all of the healthier behaviors I've developed, my brain still can't seem to wrap itself around the concept of eating moderation when it comes to things like zucchini, eggplant, berries, watermelon, avocado, etc.

This blog is to remind myself that this is one of my Year 3 goals - moderation when eating healthy food.

Wishing all a fun day.

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ASLANSCUB 1/31/2011 11:16PM

    Yes, I've been worried about not following the SparkDiet exactly because I am a volume eater as well. I've only really been following it for two weeks, so I hope that later I can eat other things, like family picnics/church potlucks, etc. and not accidentally overeat.

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LEONALIONESS 1/29/2011 1:32PM

    I agree with JLITT, eat all the green leafies, non-starchy veg and fresh, non-starchy fruit you want! They are so bulky that you really won't be able to eat too many of them. Example, I eat a half a pound of asparagus some nights with dinner... for under 50 calories. Half a pound of roasted cauliflower is under 50, broccoli is just a bit over 60. Half a pound (250 grams) is a BIG serving and I'm quite full afterwards.

I have to watch it with the more calorie dense stuff, though, like nuts/seeds, avocados, dried fruit. Still healthy but definitely can pack a punch.

Eat all the whole, nutrient dense, low calorie/fat plants you can. It'll make it so you eat less of the fatty animal stuff or the more calorie dense plant foods. That's how raw foodists lose weight/maintain so effortlessly while still eating some pretty calorie dense (dried fruit and nut) desserts. The rest of their usual intake is super low calorie.

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MARIE625 1/29/2011 7:13AM

    I have the same problem. I tend to over eat on things like nuts & avocados which are high in fats. But then there's my broccoli problem. I love & frequently crave broccoli and occasionally, I get to the end of the day and I'm feeling bloated & miserable and full and realize that I only took in 100 calories all day long because all I ate was broccoli. Moderation is definitely the key. And the hardest thing to learn, it seems.

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JLITT62 1/29/2011 5:20AM

    I don't think you really have to worry about the veggies & fruits, unless you're eating your body weight in them. But there are definitely other healthy foods we can eat too much of -- especially avocados, which I adore (who knew? never had them growing up cause my mom doesn't like them).

Portion sizes are something I still really struggle with.

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DDHEART 1/28/2011 6:14PM

    Oh isn't fair and then we have to moderate even the good stuff?!! I hear you...when I was on WW I became aware that I was a volume eater...I have always liked fruits and most vegetables so really thought that most of the time my diet was really pretty good...but I forgot that even if it's a healthy food, I shouldn't eat the entire container of cherries in one sitting...(really I could just keep eating them till they're gone)Really!! Keep examining and focusing on the key things!

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SIMPLELIFE4REAL 1/28/2011 12:58PM

    You are so smart to realize and blog about the need for moderation in even healthy foods. I have to be careful with nuts and avocados. I love them, but when I track the calories, I realize a little goes a long way.

(I have to admit, that if I go over on calories on an avocado, I don't beat myself up too badly. If I don't eat the whole thing, it will go bad. I guess you could say that avocado's are my vice! emoticon)

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LIBBYFITZ 1/28/2011 12:53PM

    emoticonThat is why I keep the food scale on the kitchen bench permanently! Before anything goes onto my plate it is weighed! emoticon

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CATLADY52 1/28/2011 11:48AM

    Just let the word 'MODERATION' sit in front of you every time you go to the fridge or cabinet. Maybe a PostIt with that written on it? Just a suggestion. emoticon

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NATPLUMMER 1/28/2011 11:40AM

    Moderation is key. Sometimes hard to do, though.
You are lucky to have had a metabolism that let you eat whatever you wanted at all. Never for me.

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2 Years On Spark - Sometimes Success Takes Different Forms

Thursday, January 27, 2011

There's nothing dramatic to write about during this week's historic landmark of two years since starting SP.

However, I've

-Kept the original weight loss off (approx. 30 lbs).
-Lost the 8 that I'd gained from grief eating.
-Maintained good eating habits (despite several falls off the wagon).
-Maintained regular exercise routines.
-Made new precious friends.
-Maintained a healthy consciousness.
-Stuck with the plan by sticking to the daily log-in.
-Forced myself, during hard times of not wanting to, to stay the course.
-Not let this forever plateau get me down permanently.
-Realized that my body thinks it has its own goal weight and that may be a fact.
-Returned to my normal size of 12 on the bottom, although still larger on top.
-Realized I still have about 20 lbs to go, but am not going to kill myself. This is my own race.

Wishing all a great day.

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NANCY- 1/28/2011 7:46AM

It is nice to take a look and see how much has changed. YOU are Awesome!!!
Keep Sparking!!!!

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ALEXSGIRL1 1/27/2011 7:14PM

    you have done well this is one race you will win for sure

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LIBBYFITZ 1/27/2011 6:10PM

    "This is my own race" Well said! emoticon emoticon

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JLITT62 1/27/2011 1:02PM

    Those are all such wonderful things!

Happy sparkaversary!

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SIMPLELIFE4REAL 1/27/2011 12:13PM

    Those are all very profound lessons.

Happy Anniversary. emoticon

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NATPLUMMER 1/27/2011 12:07PM

    Excellent!!! Keep up the great work!

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Goodbye, Jack Lalanne

Monday, January 24, 2011

You will be missed. And thank you for all the great health contributions you have made during your long life.

Wishing all my sparkfriends a great week.

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LIBBYFITZ 1/25/2011 6:04AM


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ALEXSGIRL1 1/24/2011 8:04PM

    i will truly miss jack a lot of us will live longer because of him if we are lucky

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SIMPLELIFE4REAL 1/24/2011 4:37PM

    He has been such an inspiration!

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MTP717 1/24/2011 3:54PM

  I was surprised to hear about it yesterday. I thought he would have lived to at least 100.

Here's a link from Hugo Rivera that posts about him in his blog plus give links about Jack LaLanne.


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DEFIANTVEGAN 1/24/2011 2:36PM

    He will truly be missed.


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JLITT62 1/24/2011 1:03PM

    I hadn't heard yet. Just watched a few minutes of the news this morning. I wonder how many of the youngsters even know who he was? A visionary, that's for sure!

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NATPLUMMER 1/24/2011 12:11PM

    So sad. I will definitely miss him.

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CHERIRIDDELL 1/24/2011 11:57AM

    Sometimes I thought he would go on forever but all things must come to an end .....

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