Thursday, January 06, 2011
Yesterday I bought the slimmer size jeans, thinking I could fit back into them after losing the 8 lbs I've earned back from recent grief eating.
This morning, I tried them on to see approximately how long there'd be until that time. I'm sitting here wearing them as I write this - they fit! Hooray, hooray.
Also, at what point did size 12 become a plus size? I mean, I have never been a tiny female, and I don't aspire to at this point in life. So, hey, I'm happy. Yes, I have a lot of work left to do. But I also have to give myself credit where/when credit is due.
Wishing all a wonderful day.
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
That's the title of a book I passed this morning while shopping with my Christmas gift card. I stopped to thumb through it and smiled as the title really sums up the entire healthy lifestyle enchilada. It's all about the changes your brain makes and how you think and the new patterns you create. I agree that losing weight is all in my head, and will remind myself of that when my heart/emotions drive me toward the sugary stuff.
Wishing all a great day.
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
In the wake of my imminent 2-year Sparkversary at the end of this month, I've become aware of several things that I've gotten a bit misdirected on. It doesn't feel like I've fallen off the proverbial wagon, but just that my healthy two-year track has begun to start making the beginning of what can easily be a U-turn. Yikes! Rather than let that happen, I thought I'd blog about each issue that I need a direction correction on. Each one will begin with this paragraph and lead into the topic of the day.
The Sparkpeople Site. I have appreciated it from Day 1, and supported it by buying products, buying from advertisers, referring the site to friends, etc. HOWEVER,
From the very first week, I resisted joining. I'm not a joiner, I reminded myself. Can't really explain all that entails, but I don't like joining anything. And I realized that I often resist doing what is best for me.
Well, every few months or so during these two years, I was going to quit SP. I found one reason or another that I didn't want to do this daily grind (what I perceived it to be during my immature times of ranting to myself). In fact, the last time I almost did quit for good, I was saved by a wonderful team leader (thanks, EJ) who did not prod me to stay, but gently came after me in a kind and helpful way. Okay, I'll stay.
Now I look back on those times and smile. My resistance to Spark was symptomatic of my life in general. With so much loss these past few years (deaths of loved ones), as well as my own life's bumpy road challenges, I was very ready to throw out the baby with the bathwater. The "who cares" attitude too over.
Not that I've been a tremendous example of weight loss success over these past couple of years (32 lbs before I got here, and then maintained, but have gained about 8 back over past year during grief eating), but I see that if I hadn't come here daily to track food and exercise (as well as connect with friends), I would have been in much bigger trouble by now. Much.
So, this direction correction is my attitude. Just the other day, I was perusing similar sites and they all cost a fortune (relative to free). For the first time, it really dawned on me how I would have never been able to do SP had it had fees, and what a huge gift this has been.
Being the rebel I am, I may still go through some "I quit" times in the future. But I have to do tough love with myself during those times and know that it is due to SP that I've maintained the lbs lost. And look forward to getting the rest of this hideous stuff out of my gut. Yes, I'm spoiled by lifelong slimness and a harsh unacceptance of how horrible this extra weight feels. (and knowing all the factors that contributed to it helps - mega stress, overwork, less exercise, hormonal stuff, and yes, eating like I always had since I never gained weight.)
Wishing all a great day.
Monday, January 03, 2011
In the wake of my imminent 2-year Sparkversary at the end of this month, I've become aware of several things that I've gotten a bit misdirected on. It doesn't feel like I've fallen off the proverbial wagon, but just that my healthy two-year track has begun to start making the beginning of what can easily be a U-turn. Yikes! Rather than let that happen, I thought I'd blog about each issue that I need a direction correction on. Each one will begin with this paragraph and lead into the topic of the day. FYI, B=before two years ago and healthy lifestyle change, D-during these past two years of healthy eating, and N=now and changes that have to be made to correct returning bad habits. Not all blogs will use these abbreviations, but just in case, it'll save me the explanation.
What better topic to start with than blogging? Wow, for the better part of the two years, I was a daily blogger. At some point, I thought it didn't really matter whether I blogged or not. Why bother? I can tell the difference when I blog and when I don't.
It holds me more accountible and keeps me grounded and in-touch with what's going on with food and fitness, rather than just staying inside my head. I also have to remember that, although it's nice to get comments, these are meant for our own benefit. Which means that I have to let go of the part of me that knows there will be a public eye and might influence me to edit accordingly.
Part of stopping the blog writing, like everything else, is a bit of laziness creeping in and not wanting to always come up with topics. Will try my best to stay connected.
Wishing all a wonderful 2011.
Saturday, January 01, 2011
Here's to health, happiness, joy and peace for all in this new year.
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