Thursday, December 16, 2010
Ouch! Yikes! Holy guacamole! The other day I had a meeting, and it's been awhile (maybe 6 months) since I had to don my "interview suit." You know, that one that you go to for the ultimate professional look?
I was astonished (not in a good way) to feel the jacket too tight to button properly. In fact, at first I didn't get it and thought something was catching. Then realized all of the things that this tight fit was telling me about my recent behavior.
I've recently blogged that I'm making progress. Well, sure, in some ways I am. However, I realized that I have lapsed back into some "stinkin thinkin." For example, I've always been able to eat anything and not gain. Now that I have been on a plateau forever, I took that to mean that my body would revert to not gaining any more. (yes, I know - very dumb thinking!)
And I realized that I'd been rationalizing my "little extra" eating (read - lots more than I'd admitted to myself) with the fact that I've been do a lot of exercising.
So, what my interview suit told me (btw, it was too late to change and I had to wear it and keep the jacket unbuttoned) was to be very careful. That two years of a healthy lifestyle change can still be sabotaged by a lifetime of bad habits and erroneous rationalizing. And that I still have to be careful about denial.
Haven't been on the scale lately, but soon I'll have to face the music and name that tune. I guess I owe a lot to the reality-basing I received the other day. But I still had the nerve to say to myself that the suit fabric size was "cut small." Can you believe the nerve of me! (smiling)
Wishing all a happy day.