Lazy Saturday

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Didn't even leave the house today, even though I could have..

Sorry, forgot I did walk the dog 6000 steps this morning.... not as many mosquitoes. Then I lazed around, had a nice bubble bath. I didn't read today. I did lots of laundry for dd. I cleaned out one section of her cupboards so I could find stuff!! Made a nice stir fry for us all supper... nice to have the veggies I am used to - and they enjoyed it to.

Got to hold the baby lots.. she was up a lot today.

Lazy Saturday - still agonizing over how I am going to break the news to the principal...I wish I had thought to ask that when I spoke with the union person, guess I was too upset to think of everything...

  

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JIBBIE49 5/25/2011 2:19AM

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Got the drug today!

Saturday, May 21, 2011

WEll, went toeye dr. today and after doing some comparison shopping, found I saved a few hundred dollars at Walmart, so I will have a new prescription and also anti-glare. everyone raves about it and hopefully that will make a big difference in my reading.. around here, there is no place with good enough lighting so there won't be any nightime reading. I didn't take a sleeping pill last nite and what a miserable sleep I had. So, they've been a big help lately, and I didn't even know it.

When I filled meds today, got a long talk from pharmacist about starting at 1/2 a pill and working up to a pill a day after a week, and not to just stop them abruptly or without dr. advice...and of course, you also get the talk about how it takes a couple weeks before you start to feel effect. is it any wonder I am leery!!

Well, I bought a new Leslie Sansone disk with 5 workouts, all seem to be different from the ones I have, and it includes a resistance and too... since I didn't bring anything with me, I think it was worth the $10. I may go have a talk with the lady at Curves too, I don't know if I will try to get started on the regular program now or just see if I can do the Zumba till after I get things figured out and moved! That is still leaving me stumped. I have a freezer full, a fridge full and cupboards full of food up there. I at least have some hope again. Just wait till I get on my drugs!!!

I took Lucy dog for a long walk this am, fighting off the mosquitoes!! Then we walked around lots of stores, so I will have to remember to wear my pedometer. I brought much less clothes with me than I thought, and I thought I brought the pedometer too, so maybe I better check..

I should try to get my partial denture made while I am in the city, I so hate having that front tooth missing. My medical coverage won't last long, so I better see what I can get before that runs out.

There I go again, trying to take care of too man y things at once again...Is it any wonder I get overwhelmed and depressed?

  

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JIBBIE49 5/25/2011 2:21AM

I took Prozac for 14 yrs and it just made me feel normal and not like I was trying to walk through a field full of MUD. Report Inappropriate Comment

TERRI289 5/22/2011 11:01PM

Lila, you are sounding more positive. First step in the right direction...Glad that you are out of school for a bit, now send dh to get that food and those clothes. xoxoxoxoxoTerri Report Inappropriate Comment

IZZYBEBOP 5/22/2011 11:55AM

Anti-depressants can be scary, and she's right about not abruptly stopping them. I've been there, trying to wean off, and so you don't want to do this without knowing what could happen. I hope that the new medication helps, and you will be glad you got the anti-glare on your glasses. I finally got them a long time ago, and they make a huge difference. Report Inappropriate Comment

diagnosed with depression

Saturday, May 21, 2011

found a dr. who can empathize with what is happening to me and signed me off work til June 20, hopefully I can work out how to resolve issues by then. Also, am meeting with union on Tuesday to address the letter I rec'd... Have a prescription for Celex.. am leery of trying it, but when I challenged dr. she said it will help me stronger so I can fight back, and that depressed people wouldn't react the way I am

Being in the city, I also have an eye dr. appt. tomorrow, find out why things are so fuzzy!!

The baby sure has grown and is so bright and curious, I hope toget some new pics soon. a bright spot in my blue days!

  

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TERRI289 5/22/2011 10:55PM

I am with you-wish I could be there with you!!! HOpe you are feeling a bit better... Report Inappropriate Comment

MONTY68 5/21/2011 4:45PM

Hi Lila I am so glad that you found a good doctor. That is the first step in the process of healing. From all that I have read the best method for treating depression is with counseling ( eyeball to eyeball) and a prescription. From conversations with people here, a prescription can actually make you feel better although that doesn't mean a healing is complete. You Are under the right care and if i read your blog correctly, you are done with school. If that is correct that will certainly allow a much needed improvement. With the eye doctor, you might be able to correct the fuzzy condition. WOW!!!!! You are going to be a new lady. Baby's do grow so fast. look forward to some new pictures. Thank you for sharing, take care of you and we will talk later. Monty Report Inappropriate Comment

PETITFLOUR 5/21/2011 7:12AM

hello! congradualtion to your new born. I am sure it gives you a lot of joy to overcome the sadness. Deppresion is no fun. But do you understand what your doctor means with depressed people would react differently? have a good one. Report Inappropriate Comment

really hurting

Friday, May 20, 2011

I'm in the city, cried much of the way here due to another letter I rec'd from principal - this one written by the Ass. Superintendent... about taking the 2 personal days a month ago...
I don't know what to do, I seem to be biting my lip to keep from crying all the time.. No one understands, and if you're not or have never been bullied or intimidated you can't possibly know how bad it hurts or how hopeless and helpless you feel. I DON"T EVER want to go back there! I hugged some of my kids good bye today and that might be the last of them .. I am not even able to help myself let alone the kids right now - hard as I try

  

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LINDAGRAVEL 5/22/2011 10:59PM

Will keep you in my prayers.Hugs my friend. Report Inappropriate Comment

TERRI289 5/22/2011 10:52PM

Oh Lila, I am sorry that I missed your blogs...That is terrible. I am reading them in order... Report Inappropriate Comment

RUNNER12COM 5/22/2011 11:29AM

What a tough time for you. Know that you are a great person struggling right now, but this is NOT going to last. You are stronger than anything you are having to face. Hang in there! Report Inappropriate Comment

SCOOTER4263 5/20/2011 5:11AM

God be with you, sweetheart. Such difficult times for you - I'm sorry. Report Inappropriate Comment

RORYLYONS 5/20/2011 3:36AM

Will keep you in my prayers... Report Inappropriate Comment

LHACKING13 5/20/2011 2:29AM

Since I haven't been following your blog I'm not understanding what is hurting you so much, but I'm sorry. It's hard when you feel that way. I hope that whatever you need you can get, that you can find peace and joy soon. Report Inappropriate Comment

Thursday is the end of my week.... yeah, tomorrow, and I'm off to the city

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Well, today, I had all my Learning Thru the Arts stuff from 1:30 till 3:10, so kids were much better behaved and we actually got some work done... Of course, we did get outside and do photography today. She told them to take a few pics and each child had over 50!!! Recital tomorrow to see what everyone has learned, parents and family invited... Maybe it was the cafe latte that started my day, that kept me going. I talked to whole class about inappropriate and bathing suit covers private areas and you only hug family and special people you know, not someone you just met.... I shared story with a few at work and they agreed with me too....

Mosquitoes have arrived, so guess spring is officially here...

  

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MONTY68 5/18/2011 11:00PM

Hi Lila Looks like a great day. I am glad that you had conversation about appropriate behaviour. Enjoy your Thursday, sounds like a fun day. Enjoy your trip to the city. Monty Report Inappropriate Comment

TERRI289 5/18/2011 10:18PM

Why do I have this feeling that the mosquitoes there are huge!!!?? Glad your day was good-hopetomorrow is even better!! Report Inappropriate Comment