Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Well, it was bad enough that I worked all day and had a tough kid - but I did manage to get a break from him for an hour. But, I came home late - 5:30 and no supper ready. But of course, dh has the answer for that...... he didn't know what good meal we were going to have... This "lifestyle change" I've made is rubbing off on him - or should I say it the way it really is, he's taking advantage of it - but he waits for me to make a really healthy meal and then he has been enjoying the meals with me too.
But, I was too tired and it got on my nerves. Anyway, I went looking for an emotional fill-up. I checked out that bag of chocolate that is on the chair since the after Christmas sales. I've been having a Hershey's kiss or two lately (at 20 calories each - it's easy to fit them into plan) but tonite I seriously looked at the Toblerone bars too.. I checked out the label and tried every which way I could to work it into my last 150 calories I had left. I was already planning a Smoothie, so that would have already used up everything. But, since I am a couple days away from being a full 2 months on this plan and I have lost (albeit small amounts) every single week - and I have not had one single binge since I've started... I decided that I would give in (a little) because I know from decades of dieting that if you don't have some of what you want, you will begin to feel deprived and then pig-out and say to heck with it all. So, I probably did go over, but I had popcorn 100 cal bag, then the kisses and about 4 dark chocolate sticks (just over 50 cal total) and then when I made my strawberry/blueberry smoothie, I split it and only had half - gave other 1/2 to dh... who said it was just as good as MacD's...
Then, I had dh start the laptop so I could WATP while I watched Idol. I was half finished it before I realized that he had put on the 1 mile rather than the 2 mile I had asked for. Anyway, Idol wasn't over so I decided to go ahead with the 2 mile too.... so that was an added benefit.... 3 miles for the price of 2....
Well, in summary, instead of losing it totally, I allowed myself to have some of the forbidden fruit, but was able to rein in control before I hit the really big time calories.... and therefore, a binge stopped in its tracks. Some of the lifestyle changes that helped me curb it were that I had a smoothie, and I allowed myself to have the chocolate and enjoyed it rather than pigging out and giving over control to the food and the emotions that led me to the loss of control...
Anyway, hopefully the error in WATP videos also contributed to me burning more calories than planned so hopefully the minus will be greater than the plus..... I am exhausted and know I am rambling, so shut up and go to bed. Lila...
Monday, February 22, 2010
Well, as I sat eating supper tonite, I was intrigued by how pretty it was. I had a pork tenderloin with sauteed green peppers and onions. Also, I had steamed broccoli and cauliflower. And some very pretty orange sweet potato fries. (Guess if I had been planning to be color-coordinated, I would have used red peppers and it would have been really pretty!- Not to mention lots of healthy vitamins) I wonder if I did manage to meet all my nutrient requirements today... I was at 99 for my folate and I need 100 minimum... I wonder if there is a way to find out (other than checking every single food item's nutritional value) where I got my magnesium and folate from so then if I know which foods I eat regularly, I can figure out how much of them I need to eat to meet my RDA's.
Well, I just remembered I was going to make a cabbage roll casserole, guess it's getting too late now. That too is a colorful meal. I use the cole slaw mix with the nice purple cabbage and carrots in it. Then I add layers of rice, onion slices, and usually TVP rather than ground beef and lots of diced tomato and tomato sauce.... gotta be healthy, it freezes well and it's so yummy....
Hmmm, should I or shouldn't I make it? Gotta go WATP for 2 miles - but I've given up on going back to work to prep for tomorrow.... decisions, decisions..... or go to sleep or read.... or stay on SP.... life gets more complicated... what should I do?
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Yes, the weight is coming off......s-l-o-w-l-y,s-l-o-w-l-y, s-l-o-w-l-y said the sloth (for elementary teachers out there!) I showed 202 on the scale this a.m. Yesterday I was apprehensive and found other ways to measure success and that was a good thing.. Today the scale showed a success in this dept. as well. And the good thing is this was a success today even though today my b.s. was 11.1 - not good at all... I didn't do anything horrible or anything, but the difference was I took my bs 2 hrs. later than usual today.
For anyone who wants to know the physiology behind it - here's how I understand it.. Because I have the kind of diabetes they define as "leaky Liver" - my body goes a long period of time, ie overnite, then the liver dumps a load of sugar in to increase my sugar if they've gone down. I, personally, have never seen a low blood sugar which I know is the absolute worst feeling in the world according to friends who have experienced it. And the other thing I learned from the diabetes follow-up last month was something called, "Dawn Syndrome". Apparently the body recognized that dawn is coming and we will need more energy for the day, so here comes the sugar... Anyway, that's my science lesson for the day!
So, since early December when I had wakeup call from Dr., I was 218 lbs. and now I am 202... Although it doesn't seem like a lot at once, it is only averaging out at about what..... 1.5 lbs. a week... and we know that is what?//// that's right, exactly what health professionals say is the perfect amount to lose to be healthy and keep it off.....Yes, LIla... listen up here! Stop fretting over this is taking soooooo longgggg.... You're doing it right... You're trying to get healthy foods and a good variety and lots of exercise into your life and you're succeeding!!!
Remember back in early December.. what were you doing? That's right... ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!! This is success, accept it, and it's all your doing..... and of course, with the help of your friends, specifically those at SP. Everytime you start to think this is taking too long and what's the point, you log on and read someone else's experiences and find out you're not the only one.... that really does help..... Hang in there and keep "pounding" it off with healthy food, walking and experiencing your own and others' successes...
I can see One-derland in the near future!!! It will probably take 2 (or even 3 weeks) but it will come and that is another psychological barrier passed.... I know it sounds easy when you say it only takes a lb. a week to lose 50 lbs in a year, but it so seldom happens that exact way, but hopefully this time I have learned that this isn't just a little spurt to change things and be healthy, cuz it takes a lifetime and permanent lifestyle changes, not just a quick fad diet that shows a drop on the scale this week and then it's over..... So, far it's over 50 days and counting.... that's about 1/7 of the year, so only 6/7 left - that doesn't really sound all that long, does it?
I won't balk if it happens next week, but if I set the goal to be further away I won't be disappointed - even though I am learning other ways to deal with my disappointment, why set myself up for failure!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Well, it's been a while since I wrote a blog, just didn't seem like anything I had to say was important enough to write it down. But then I even read some other blogs and couldn't even find something to say back, does that mean I am speechless? Imagine that, I must be really tired.
I've had a good week eating wise and exercise wise, but won't know if that first measurement - the scale says good or bad. But, I did take some other measurements today and realized that they are definitely positive. Before I got my wake-up call from dr. in Dec. about my diabetes, my a.m. bs' were around 12 or 13 - which isn't good... in Canada, you're supposed to be under 7 to be in healthy range... Well, I made the mistake of throwing away that meter which would have been a good reminder of how bad things were getting.. I didn't realize that till a few days after I did it, and of course, by then it was too late.
So, today I took my am bs and found it was 7.8...... , That is great proof that positive results are happening.... And last nite, before supper I checked my bs and it was 5.3..... So, even if tomorrow doesn't show a loss on the scale, I have to keep this in mind and remember that was the prime purpose when I started this whole thing.
And today I even shared a bar with my dh. We split it in half and even with that tracked in my food, I did not go over my calories.... so tomorrow will be the weigh-in check up but the success is already evident...
Monday, February 15, 2010
Well, good morning all. I had a pleasant surprise this am, when I got brave and stepped onto the scale. I was psyched to see a gain since I had been in the city and eating out etc. for the previous 5 days. What a wonderful surprise to see I was down 1.5 lbs. Since I was expecting a gain, this is all the sweeter!
I had been reading some of the SP diet strategies last nite and one of the things I learned from it was that you have to switch your thinking from "diet" to "lifestyle". So, being Day 50 on this program, I seem to have made the switch.... I must have actually changed my lifestyle to be down when I had little opportunity to prepare my own meals. But, obviously I was making some wise choices even at a restaurant. The biggest difference I think is the not eating between meals, and just because it's there.
I could have been discouraged when dh who only made the changes to accept his diabetes and high bp diagnoses, stopped using sugar and salt, and he's down over 10 lbs. in just 2 weeks... or is it 3? But, because he hasn't made dieting a way of life, his metabolism is normal, whereas mine probably doesn't know whether it's coming or going after decades of fad diets etc. I have to just keep feeding it so well now that it realizes I am serious this time and I won't be doing any starving so get out of that mode!
Another thing I read on the diet strategies, something I know but needed reminding off, was that there are no magic pills. I read someone's blog yesterday and she was talking about some "supplement" she was told about at the gym and I wanted to send a note, but figured I didn't need to burst someone else's bubble. But, if I had read the strategy 2 days ago, I could have saved myself $22 because I did buy a PGX meal replacement... It was a vegetable soup supplement thing, but it was 270 calories and I can make real meals with a lot more taste and still not be anywhere near that calorie count just for a drink. I also was looking into buying a new "Wild Rose" cleanse. Interesting that so many of the "fads" out there now (ie. Jillian Michaels and the one my sister is on) are starting out with a de-tox. I've been doing that for almost 10 years. Unfortunately I did the cleanse back in November before I got the wake-up call that my diabetes was in control, so I did put off the new cleanse till later in the spring. I am leery of whether it will give me any results this time though since I am eating so much healthier now anyway... We'll have to see when the time comes.
I also had my daughter watch me do the WATP 2 Mile video cuz I was brave enough to do it right in the front room while we were all watching TV (I did it on the laptop) - who says you can't multi-task and get it all done? Anyway, she informed me that I am not pushing myself and that's why my exercise isn't helping me lose weight... Yeah, she can talk, she' s going to be 29 and I'm not!! But, I will keep that in mind and continue to do what I can, maybe being a little braver. Last nite, I took that thought seriously and I put on the VCR and did the Richard Simmons "Dance Your Pants Off" video. Let me tell you, I sweated to those oldies! I'm sure it wasn't a pretty sight, but I kept moving for 50 minutes. I was a bit leery of some of the moves on my knees, but when I woke up this am., all I could think was that I wanted to get out of bed and WATP.... so I started the day with 2 Miles... Maybe I can do the dance thing a couple times a week instead of my nite-time 2 miles. But interesting as it was, after I finished having fun and dancing last nite, I really wanted to go do the WATP, but it was almost midnite, so I restrained myself.
Also, another positive this past week was on the first day of the conference I was craving bean sprouts on my way home. Yes, I did say bean sprouts!! So, when I got to my daughter's and they wanted us to babysit, I insisted I had to go buy veggies for supper first. I looked long and hard for the beansprouts and was getting disappointed when I didn't see any fresh ones, but finally I did find a bag. So, I also got broccoli and cauliflower and went home and heated meatballs and made a wok-ful of carrots, broccoli and cauliflower and beansprouts. It tasted so good...
And I also found a couple of new foods while in the city. One was Green Giant Essentials some had fibre (broccoli, barley, black beans, etc.) and another was an anti-oxidant one that had peppers etc. and another one was cauliflower and broccoli in cheese sauce. They come in 2 serving packages with from 50 to 100 calories each. Being a bargain hunter, the normal price of these veggies was $2.49, but it was $ Days so I got almost 20 of them for $1 each. So I will be eating healthy for quite a while! Even last nite after driving 5 hours to get home, I through sweet potato fries in the oven, had rotisserie BBQ chicken and nuked the cauliflower and broccoli mixture. UUMMMM!
The other new food I found was Peek Freans - Blueberry and Brown Sugar cookies. I've seen them advertised for a while now but Zellers had them on for 2 for $4 rather than the usual $3.39 each pkg. So, I splurged and am I glad I did. They're very delicious. You get 3 cookies for only 130 calories, made a nice, tasty dessert. You really taste the blueberries.... I determine what is a good dessert by whether you feel satisfied, or whether it just starts a craving for sweet things, and this did the former, it was just enough. So, I already entered them in my food tracker and calculated there are about 8 servings in the pkg...
Well, I've probably made up for all the days I missed blogging since we only had the laptop and typing 85 words a minute just doesn't work for me on the laptop, I have to have a real desktop, so that's another positive to being home. But, the other part of being home is that I have to go to school and get prepped for the week.. So, better get dressed and get to work!
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