Thursday, February 25, 2010
I woke up at 4:41 with terrible pains in my stomach and all bloated. I tried to get back to sleep and finally did about 7:am and of course, the alarm rang at 7:30 and I did try to go to work... WE're missing half our teachers right now, so I fel t I had to. But, by the time I was there an hour, I couldn't stay any longer and wrote up a quick plan and gave it to the K teacher and she took my kids over there. I felt weak and shaky and came home and tried to sleep,,, with limited success.
I couldn't drink any water, so I will lose my streak... and I was really worried about losing all my other streaks too, so I am quickly here doing up some easy points... Ate minimal, no exercise and I still feel terrible... don't know if I will go to school tomorrow. I just took a sleeping pill to see if that might help. Hope I can sleep
This is about 5 times now this month I have had an attack like this, so whether it is gallbladder or allergies or ovary problems, I don't know,a but I do know it's time to get it sorted out. If I had lived closer to a hospital today I probably would have gone, but it's almost 2 hrs drive, so I tried to get better here.... anyway, must try to sleep and hope I feel better tomorrow.
This SP thing has really gotten to me, I was even reading labels to try to decided what would be the best things to eat and forced myself to eat something despite How I feel...
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Well, it was bad enough that I worked all day and had a tough kid - but I did manage to get a break from him for an hour. But, I came home late - 5:30 and no supper ready. But of course, dh has the answer for that...... he didn't know what good meal we were going to have... This "lifestyle change" I've made is rubbing off on him - or should I say it the way it really is, he's taking advantage of it - but he waits for me to make a really healthy meal and then he has been enjoying the meals with me too.
But, I was too tired and it got on my nerves. Anyway, I went looking for an emotional fill-up. I checked out that bag of chocolate that is on the chair since the after Christmas sales. I've been having a Hershey's kiss or two lately (at 20 calories each - it's easy to fit them into plan) but tonite I seriously looked at the Toblerone bars too.. I checked out the label and tried every which way I could to work it into my last 150 calories I had left. I was already planning a Smoothie, so that would have already used up everything. But, since I am a couple days away from being a full 2 months on this plan and I have lost (albeit small amounts) every single week - and I have not had one single binge since I've started... I decided that I would give in (a little) because I know from decades of dieting that if you don't have some of what you want, you will begin to feel deprived and then pig-out and say to heck with it all. So, I probably did go over, but I had popcorn 100 cal bag, then the kisses and about 4 dark chocolate sticks (just over 50 cal total) and then when I made my strawberry/blueberry smoothie, I split it and only had half - gave other 1/2 to dh... who said it was just as good as MacD's...
Then, I had dh start the laptop so I could WATP while I watched Idol. I was half finished it before I realized that he had put on the 1 mile rather than the 2 mile I had asked for. Anyway, Idol wasn't over so I decided to go ahead with the 2 mile too.... so that was an added benefit.... 3 miles for the price of 2....
Well, in summary, instead of losing it totally, I allowed myself to have some of the forbidden fruit, but was able to rein in control before I hit the really big time calories.... and therefore, a binge stopped in its tracks. Some of the lifestyle changes that helped me curb it were that I had a smoothie, and I allowed myself to have the chocolate and enjoyed it rather than pigging out and giving over control to the food and the emotions that led me to the loss of control...
Anyway, hopefully the error in WATP videos also contributed to me burning more calories than planned so hopefully the minus will be greater than the plus..... I am exhausted and know I am rambling, so shut up and go to bed. Lila...
Monday, February 22, 2010
Well, as I sat eating supper tonite, I was intrigued by how pretty it was. I had a pork tenderloin with sauteed green peppers and onions. Also, I had steamed broccoli and cauliflower. And some very pretty orange sweet potato fries. (Guess if I had been planning to be color-coordinated, I would have used red peppers and it would have been really pretty!- Not to mention lots of healthy vitamins) I wonder if I did manage to meet all my nutrient requirements today... I was at 99 for my folate and I need 100 minimum... I wonder if there is a way to find out (other than checking every single food item's nutritional value) where I got my magnesium and folate from so then if I know which foods I eat regularly, I can figure out how much of them I need to eat to meet my RDA's.
Well, I just remembered I was going to make a cabbage roll casserole, guess it's getting too late now. That too is a colorful meal. I use the cole slaw mix with the nice purple cabbage and carrots in it. Then I add layers of rice, onion slices, and usually TVP rather than ground beef and lots of diced tomato and tomato sauce.... gotta be healthy, it freezes well and it's so yummy....
Hmmm, should I or shouldn't I make it? Gotta go WATP for 2 miles - but I've given up on going back to work to prep for tomorrow.... decisions, decisions..... or go to sleep or read.... or stay on SP.... life gets more complicated... what should I do?
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Yes, the weight is coming off......s-l-o-w-l-y,s-l-o-w-l-y, s-l-o-w-l-y said the sloth (for elementary teachers out there!) I showed 202 on the scale this a.m. Yesterday I was apprehensive and found other ways to measure success and that was a good thing.. Today the scale showed a success in this dept. as well. And the good thing is this was a success today even though today my b.s. was 11.1 - not good at all... I didn't do anything horrible or anything, but the difference was I took my bs 2 hrs. later than usual today.
For anyone who wants to know the physiology behind it - here's how I understand it.. Because I have the kind of diabetes they define as "leaky Liver" - my body goes a long period of time, ie overnite, then the liver dumps a load of sugar in to increase my sugar if they've gone down. I, personally, have never seen a low blood sugar which I know is the absolute worst feeling in the world according to friends who have experienced it. And the other thing I learned from the diabetes follow-up last month was something called, "Dawn Syndrome". Apparently the body recognized that dawn is coming and we will need more energy for the day, so here comes the sugar... Anyway, that's my science lesson for the day!
So, since early December when I had wakeup call from Dr., I was 218 lbs. and now I am 202... Although it doesn't seem like a lot at once, it is only averaging out at about what..... 1.5 lbs. a week... and we know that is what?//// that's right, exactly what health professionals say is the perfect amount to lose to be healthy and keep it off.....Yes, LIla... listen up here! Stop fretting over this is taking soooooo longgggg.... You're doing it right... You're trying to get healthy foods and a good variety and lots of exercise into your life and you're succeeding!!!
Remember back in early December.. what were you doing? That's right... ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!! This is success, accept it, and it's all your doing..... and of course, with the help of your friends, specifically those at SP. Everytime you start to think this is taking too long and what's the point, you log on and read someone else's experiences and find out you're not the only one.... that really does help..... Hang in there and keep "pounding" it off with healthy food, walking and experiencing your own and others' successes...
I can see One-derland in the near future!!! It will probably take 2 (or even 3 weeks) but it will come and that is another psychological barrier passed.... I know it sounds easy when you say it only takes a lb. a week to lose 50 lbs in a year, but it so seldom happens that exact way, but hopefully this time I have learned that this isn't just a little spurt to change things and be healthy, cuz it takes a lifetime and permanent lifestyle changes, not just a quick fad diet that shows a drop on the scale this week and then it's over..... So, far it's over 50 days and counting.... that's about 1/7 of the year, so only 6/7 left - that doesn't really sound all that long, does it?
I won't balk if it happens next week, but if I set the goal to be further away I won't be disappointed - even though I am learning other ways to deal with my disappointment, why set myself up for failure!
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