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Day two

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Ran walk 3 miles, pushups and core, going to try to hop elliptical for 20 hitting it hard. Went from an intense swimming and cross training regime to very sedentary 9 to 5. Getting back will be hard but I know I can do it. Did it once before can do it again. It helps that I caught myself before I gained it all back. I will succeed. I know I can. It just takes time. Lucky I learned how to make super portions of low calorie food. So stuffed cant even think about eating my normal evening fodder. Well, off to grab some tubage while burning even more.

  


Backtracked but pulling it back together

Monday, August 18, 2014

Started a new job at the beginning of the year and wow has the stress taken its toll. I went from being 45 lbs down to just 6lbs less than this same time last year. I have started to feel some of the same health stresses I was feeling before most notably sugar crashes. It's amazing how in just 8 months I can completely backtrack my initial goals. New goal! Get back on track. If I lose weight.. I have made some progress if I eat healthier I have made some progress. Slowly I'll do it. All of my old habits aren't completely gone. Just need to get rid of the snack drawer at work and the nightly cocktail and I'll do fine. Back to stage one but doing better.

  


Recovery day to the max!

Friday, September 06, 2013

So I noticed something today, while looking at my spark history, every time I take a full recovery day and eat about 2000-2200 calories one day a week I end up dropping 2 to 3lbs and if I don't I stay the same or gain weight. I think my body is trying to tell me something. It wants to lose weight but it need the nutrients to do so. While I do eat very healthy I've noticed that my fat allowances are consistently lower and I get a little low on the protein. So today I will have a fun day of fat and protein. It will end up seeming like a lot of food but I'm going to do it and relax. Tomorrow, I will probably reap the benefits as I always do. It was frustrating going these last two weeks and not losing anything but I realized I haven't been doing my normal pattern. I have been working out like a crazy person, this week I've walked 25 miles, swam 400 laps, did two days of crossfit, and 2 pilates classes. So my body has burned over 8000 calories, the scale says I have gained weight. So today I will ignore the scale, drink lots of water, eat what I want, and take brief walks. Tonight, I'll drink my Friday detox tea and Saturday I'll probably see the scale move in the right direction. I think I will just make myself plan for this and focus on M-Th workout intensity of 5, Fri workout intensity of 0-1, and Sat and sunday workout intensity of 3 to 4. This way I am making sure I give myself a break because it does become difficult. I want so bad to lose weight but if I am not allowing my body to recover appropriately I am just making it harder to do. Never give up and never surrender.

  
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MT-MOONCHASER 9/8/2013 3:47PM

    Hey! -- This may just be your light bulb moment. All the advice I've read by exercise experts says that we need at least one day a week rest. Most say 3 cardio sessions and 3 strength training sessions a week. That leaves 2 days for rest or at least less intense activiity.

I hope this new plan works out well for you!

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Extremism kind of ticks me off.

Monday, August 19, 2013

I had a bad day yesterday and ate a few bites I did not log and while I could have logged them I am glad I didn't. I needed to give myself a break. I had been on a daily 1200 calorie deficit for quite a while and I needed to distress a little. I still ended my day with a deficit but I am not going to beat myself up over not logging a nibble or a bite. Ok, I admit I am a food addict but food addiction is a very difficult addiction. It's not like alcohol or drugs. You can't just stop eating. You can however learn about normal moderation and balance. As a scientist, I am very methodical with my tracking but I will not track a single bite of pudding, especially on a reward day. For one, for the most part it is very difficult to measure that single bite. Yes, you could go into detail that well that was on tablespoon of pudding and there are such and such tablespoons in a cup, but really is that sustainable? Are you going to be a happy and healthy individual logging and entering a tablespoon. Yeah, I know I am overweight and I should log everything and I log for the most part everything. But I feel if I have one bite of pudding on a bad day, I am not going to log it just as I am not going to log my walk to the mailbox. I mean you can and that is totally ok if you do but don't tell me to. My goal is to create a healthy relationship with food and exercise. Not make food the enemy. Food is necessary. I do find my self feeling guilty after that spoonful of pudding but after thinking about it was probably 10-20 calories overall. I have burned that sitting here typing this. So, I have to ask myself what is a healthy relationship with food. Well, for one knowing limits and knowing yourself. I am a single 30 year old woman, am for the most part a vegetarian (not because of beliefs but because my body just has difficulty eating meat), I am semi active, I am a lover of life. I am all these things and I am overweight. Yes, it did not happen overnight but it was because I was extreme with it. I would binge eat. In my journey of weight loss, I have found the reason why I developed this relationship with food was because of my childhood. I was a pageant gal. I constantly had to diet and alter my appearance for the sake of being judged. What did this create? Well.... it has had some benefits like I am a great public speaker, I have a great sense of style, and I can dance and sing and perform at a drop of a hat. But it made me loathe food and in the end myself. It created an unhealthy relationship with food. So now after I have lost 34 lbs, I think to myself once I lose my last pounds how am I going to maintain? Am I going to nitpick everything? I think that will just have me fall back into my old ways. So no, I am going to have that one bite of pudding, not log it, and dance like nobody is watching. Look, wow, now I have burned that spoonful of pudding. Here's to being a healthier you! Let's take the judging out of the picture, either yourself or others, and learn to live! Track your food and exercise but cause it keeps you accountable and that helps you realize how much you eat but do it in a healthy way! Never give up, never surrender!

  


Falling off the wagon hurts!

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Well, I'm feeling very guilty right now. I fell off the old food addict wagon today and consumed way too much food. Right now I'm looking at 1800 calories but its probably more around 2200 given that I had a bite here and there of things. I hate this so much. I do awesome during the week and am able to maintain my goals because I work so hard that I often forget to eat and have to set reminders to make sure I keep my metabolism going but on the weekend. It gets tough. I hate weekends. Its when being a single mom is the hardest for me because I have both my kids constantly needing me and I don't get a break. I have things I need to do and I try to do them but they constantly pester me. This just adds double guilt to me because I love my kids but sometimes I am like "for the love of god can you give me a break." At these moments I want to just scream and cry and instead I eat. I eat on the kids snacks as well as my portioned meals and I feel even worse. Luckily, I am still in the calorie negative but only because I keep jumping on the elliptical because I know what I am doing is wrong. I know you are supposed to have reward days but these days end up feeling more punishing then others. I always end up feeling disgusting and disappointed. Well.... now I am off to go clean the disaster area that formed while I was writing this. I think once the kids go to bed I'll try to do a dream board or similar and hope on the elliptical to try end the day in a positive note. Never give up, never surrender!

  
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STUDLEEJOE 8/19/2013 9:44AM

    track everything even win take a bite and there. Keep working on your goals and will get there. You didn't gain all your weight over night and you are not going to lose overnight.

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TRAZIJANES 8/18/2013 10:41PM

    Never give up, never surrender! Accept what is and press on to the goals you have set. emoticon

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