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Self-Centered Obsession or Maybe Delusion

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

I woke up feeling really fat and flabby today. Don't really know why. I hadn't weighed since Friday, partly because I thought my weight was up and didn't want to see it. But today I thought I should face it. I weighed 126.2, right in my target range.

I warmed up and ran 6 miles in under an hour and then cooled down for a total of 8.2 miles in 93 minutes. I showered. Still feeling kind of fat. Guess it is all in my head. Man, this is a self-centered obsession. Or is it a delusion? I know I am a healthy weight and I felt fit and healthy running. Grandkids will be here soon, so that will put everything back in perspective.

Some days do you feel really skinny while other days you feel decidedly fat?

  
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BLUESKY_321 6/30/2011 9:22AM

    I definitely use clothes shopping as motivation (I hardly ever buy anything just try stuff on) but there are some days (doesn't matter what the scale says) that it is self-defeating. There are days when I stand in front of the dressing room mirror thinking "Wow! I look great" or just feeling great in a style that I haven't been able to wear before then there are days that I just feel like a BLOB! UGH! I now know that on those days it isn't worth looking for a different style ... it's all my head!
The tricky part is that while the "great" days make it sooooo much easier to eat right and exercise, the "blob" days make me wonder if it's all worth it ... self-defeating!
If it helps to hear it, you definitely LOOK very fit and FABULOUS!

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WATERMELLEN 6/30/2011 8:17AM

    Yes yes yes: that's it exactly.

Unfortunately sometimes when I feel fat and step on the scales . . . get confirmation for that feeling.

But: sometimes not.

And even at last week's "fat" 140.5 -- thinner than I've been for a very long time.

So go figure.

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KALIGIRL 6/29/2011 1:06PM

    Some days we just feel differently about ourselves - part of the journey I guess...

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HAPPYSOUL91 6/29/2011 11:09AM

    Usually I get the reverse...feeling fit and trim and then the scale was up

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MONTY68 6/28/2011 11:48PM

    Hi Marsha
I find this interesting ,but as some of the comments said, I probably wouldn't feel the same thing. I know that you have been so successful on your journey and have reached and maintained a good weight. I have seen and talked to a number of people who have been successful in reaching a healthy weight and at times get a feeling of concern that they might gain weight. I know that was my concern, as I had a history of ups and downs and did get that old feeling. It could be a slight feeling that you get that you are gaining when you really are not.
Thank you for sharing and know that you will continue your successful journey in life.

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TBRANCH2 6/28/2011 9:41PM

    don't worry, you are doing and looking great!
Hugs,
Theresa

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FROSTY99 6/28/2011 5:25PM

    Oh yeah!

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-PAULA 6/28/2011 5:07PM

    Yes.

Great run you had!

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JOYINKY 6/28/2011 3:21PM

    Have to say yes and usually for no logical reason. I have to trust the fit of my clothes. I quit trusting the scale years ago! You are right, focusing on other things helps a lot; expecially grandkids! Have a fun day!

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 6/28/2011 2:35PM

    OMG yes. yes, yes yes.

In some ways I feel fatter NOW, close to goal, than I did 100 lbs heavier when the loss was all new and exciting.

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_LINDA 6/28/2011 2:33PM

    WoW!! That is some workout for a 'fat' person!!
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Men will never get this as they have the wrong hormones!!

With my stomach problems, I am feeling bloated in spite of losing unintentional weight emoticon Got to get this wonky system back on track!

You are just normal like the rest of us!

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IAMWINNING 6/28/2011 2:23PM

    Definitely!

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AQUAGIRL08 6/28/2011 1:35PM

    Sure do and it's all in my mind. It has to do with my self esteem totally. It can be triggered by a comment or by my unrealistic expectations for myself. I sometimes expect perfection from myself - I'm patient with everyone BUT myself. Imagine that!

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SWEETYOUNGTHING 6/28/2011 1:30PM

    Oh yes.................and honestly I try not to figure myself out anymore :-) No wonder we women drive men crazy at times! I don't think I've ever heard my husband say "I feel fat today" but he's heard me say it.

Buy yourself some flowers and give yourself a hug - you're beautiful baby! emoticon emoticon

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 6/28/2011 1:25PM

    yes.

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LEGALLYBLONDE81 6/28/2011 11:58AM

    I know the feeling. Do you feel like there is something that will provide an objective toe-hold? Do you have a pair of "goal jeans" that you could wear on days that you feel fat, or an outfit you love that would remind you that it still fits?

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 6/28/2011 11:54AM

    I absolutely do! emoticon

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SLIMMERJESSE 6/28/2011 11:51AM

    Absolutely! I was just thinking about this yesterday when I'd felt thin after weeks of feeling like a chubster. Have a good day.

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SNOOKUMS19 6/28/2011 11:45AM

    OMG YES! I know I am perimenapousal and my hormones make me bloated at strange times. Since I hit 40 every time I have anything with salt in it omg.... I just keep plugging along. :)

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I'm Helping

Monday, June 27, 2011

My daughter has a stress fracture near her heel and feels it on the bottom of her foot. She is in a cast, but should be able to go back to work in two weeks. Carrying the baby is hard for her. Keeping up with the four year old is also a challenge. So, I'll be helping out extra. This, too, shall pass.

  
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WATERMELLEN 6/27/2011 10:42PM

    Your daughter and grandkids are sooooo lucky to have you! I know you want to help, but it's hard to have your own schedule and commitments to fitness "adjusted"!!

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BESTSUSIEYET 6/27/2011 10:06PM

    We all need help sometimes, and God blesses us by enabling us to help others in need. Praying this will be a time when your relationship grows deeper! Have fun with the kids!

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SLENDERELLA61 6/27/2011 10:03PM

    Yep, the father is really a great guy. But he works two jobs - one as a optometric technician full time and the other at my favorite place to workout, the YMCA. So he is gone a great deal.

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_LINDA 6/27/2011 9:52PM

    You are such a wonderful Mother and Grandmother!! Sorry your daughter injured herself :((
That being said, isn't there a father of these children, and why isn't he stepping up to take care of them?? I really think it should be both parents looking after the children, especially if they are both working..Maybe some day there will be equality in a marriage and the women won't be expected to do all the work..
I hope you can still find the time for your runs and exercising.. All the best with it.
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DONNABRIGHT 6/27/2011 4:42PM

    I broke my foot once - it's tough - I can't imagine being in a cast with two little ones. She must be grateful you are near to help.

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MONTY68 6/27/2011 1:45PM

    Marsha
Thank you for sharing this. Your daughter is fortunate to have you close by to help out. Hopefully the fracture heals quickly, mean while the granddaughters have the best care taker there is.

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AQUAGIRL08 6/27/2011 1:22PM

    I had one of those several years ago. They take time to heal correctly and not re-injure. She is lucky to have you to help her out. It must be very frustrating for her to be unable to do her normal routine. Mom to the rescue!!!

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 6/27/2011 12:52PM

    talk about a calorie burn!

I am sorry that your daughter is suffering though. I hope she mends quickly.

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MEXGAL1 6/27/2011 10:14AM

    You are a good grandmother!
Enjoy.

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 6/27/2011 8:42AM

    I am so glad you are close enough to help her! That would be such a chore and a "pain"! emoticon

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JOYINKY 6/27/2011 8:01AM

    Nice that you are close enough to be there for her. Enjoy the extra time with the girls!

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BEV33815 6/27/2011 2:20AM

    that is soooo like you!! you are such a great mom/grandma!! Way to go!! emoticon

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Watermelon Series 5K, 2nd Race, Finish Photo

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Here's me in my purple running shorts, finishing the race. You can see I'm smiling. I truly enjoyed this race.



I don't have the quad and hamstring tightness I had after the last race. I'm not tired today -- already walked 1 3/4 hours this morning. Maybe next time I should push a little more, but it was fun!!

Hey, I found another one of me almost at the finish:



I definitely looked happier at the end of the race than at the beginning. Let's call that look determined, not stressed:



All in all, I'm glad I'm a runner. I don't think I would have ever tried it if it hadn't been for SparkPeople and the older runners I have met here.

  
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LEGALLYBLONDE81 6/28/2011 8:43AM

    Hey! Thanks for the blog post. I did see this and I AM SUPER IMPRESSED! Great time. :) I'd be over the moon with a time like that!

I do play soccer and it's a lot of fun. We have a number of women in the mid-50's box who are still going strong. A lot of them formed a team with their daughters when the daughters turned 18. I love that we play on a team where we get to have that team bond with women from 19-60. We all go out for a drink after the odd game and it's a fabulous way of staying fit and making friends.

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FITCOFFEEMOM357 6/27/2011 8:01AM

    You are a true inspiration Marsha.

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 6/26/2011 5:21PM

    You are totally awesome!

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MONTY68 6/26/2011 1:53PM

    Marsha
What a awesome blog and your pictures. You certainly are a inspiration for anyone that reads your blogs.

Congratulations and thank you for sharing

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 6/26/2011 1:41PM

    emoticon!!! So proud of you and what you've done! I wish that I could run! That looks like so much fun! emoticon

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JOYINKY 6/26/2011 12:57PM

    Keep it fun! WTG!

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You look great!! So glad you finished with nothing hurting!! You are only getting better!! Well done!!

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WATERMELLEN 6/26/2011 11:43AM

    Nice work!! You are a continuing inspiration!!

And: thanks for your encouraging comments on my middle number 4 blog!!

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BEYONDLIMITS 6/26/2011 11:33AM

    You did it! Good for you. emoticon

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-PAULA 6/26/2011 11:06AM

    Great time! Glad you enjoyed the race. You are doing great!

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AQUAGIRL08 6/26/2011 10:57AM

    Look at you go Marsha! emoticon emoticon

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DONNABRIGHT 6/26/2011 10:08AM

    So glad you enjoyed yourself - that is what makes it worthwhile!

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Results Already

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Well, the 2011 Watermelon 5K Series, race two, is in the book. I felt good the entire race; much better than last race. I started out running to Zip-A-Dee-Do-Dah just because I wanted to. It reminded me to smile, enjoy it, and not let my heart beat hard due to nerves. My MP3 player was acting weird and did not play what I thought I had on my playlist. For a while I was running to Bolero, which is definitely not running music, but it made me smile, too, just because it was so strange to run to it. Then it played some PodRunner music that was very appropriate. Next time I hope to have control over my music!

I didn't run quite as fast, but I'm happy with my gun time of 29:22. The first race my gun time was around 29:06, and my chip time was 28:46. Don't know my chip time yet; pictures and chip times should be posted later this afternoon. Maybe I'll have one for my blog tomorrow. I am in second place for my age group with 2 more races to go in the series. Next one is July 23rd and the final race is August 20th. I plan to run!!

  
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-PAULA 6/26/2011 11:09AM

    Congratulations on a great race and great timing. You are such an inspiration! One day I hope to get sub 30 but first I must get sub 40! Enjoy following you!

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TBRANCH2 6/26/2011 1:50AM

    Marsha--the Polk County Team "mascot"! lol Great job!!!
Hugs,
Theresa

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JOYINKY 6/25/2011 5:34PM

    Congratulations! You are amazing!!

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GATOR12 6/25/2011 2:44PM

    You're an inspiration. Great job and you'll be better prepared on music end but sounds like it ended okay!!

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KEKEIKO 6/25/2011 2:22PM

    Congratulations! Time to select that playlist prior to the run. My mp3 saves the last playlist so all I have to do is press play. That's really funny - Zip-A-Dee-Do-Dah, makes me want to save that one on my mp3. WTG on the run! emoticon

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MIRAGE727 6/25/2011 2:20PM

    Happy that you had a great run and still in the hunt!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 6/25/2011 12:32PM

    Marsha, you sure are doing a FANTASTIC job! Way to go!
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AQUAGIRL08 6/25/2011 10:54AM

    emoticon Marsha! We are so proud of you in the Polk County Team!!!

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MEXGAL1 6/25/2011 10:36AM

    Congrats to you! Way to go! I admire you.
Have a great week end.
Sallie

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MONTY68 6/25/2011 10:19AM

   
Congratulations Marsha, You certainly are awesome. Looking forward to the pictures.

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DONNABRIGHT 6/25/2011 10:06AM

    You are awesome!

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TAICHIDANCER 6/25/2011 9:18AM

    Thanks for inspiring me today.

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Celebrating Fitness

Friday, June 24, 2011

I got an e-mail telling me that the Watermelon Series awards will be based on gun time, not net time (chip time). Evidentally, there was some problem with some of the chips so that not everyone got a time. On the web site only net times are listed for race one, so there may be some changes in position.

That probably won't change the way I run the race. Last time I started out right in the middle and I finished 396 out of about 840 finishers - so I'm starting in about the right place. I'll be glad, though, when they get the chip system working flawlessly because I think it is a better gauge of athletic accomplishment.

I just read on the Lakeland Runner's Club web site that this is the 16th year of the Watermelon Series. It was specifically designed to "celebrate fitness" and encourage running during the hot part of the year when it can be a challenge to keep fit.

If anyone asks why I am running this race I'm going to tell them that I am running to celebrate fitness!

  
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FROSTY99 6/24/2011 6:23PM

    emoticonYou rock!!!!!

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MONTY68 6/24/2011 5:37PM

    Hi Marsha
You are awesome, and we should be celebrating your fitness, You are a awesome example of what a person can do. It is to bad that they can't use the clips, but you will know that you finished and that your time is somewhat less then the registered time.
Enjoy the race and I look forward to seeing your results.

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WATERMELLEN 6/24/2011 5:22PM

    You're #1 in MY (official Watermellen) books no matter what method of measurement the race officials use!!

Yeah!! Celebrating fitness, celebrating an awesomely fit YOU!!

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_LINDA 6/24/2011 4:32PM

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Its a great concept! Good for them for putting it out there and you for embracing it!! I just about melt trying to work out in hot humid, conditions, and I am sure the heat we get is next to nothing compared to yours..
It is really unfair not to have an accurate race measuring method, but I guess chips are like all other electronics and can fail :(( We are getting an electronic scoring system for our bridge club. Not sure yet if I should be dreading it, I am no technician dealing with computer glitches..
All the best with your run, I am sure you will smoke it, especially when you make sure you are well hydrated before, during and after the race!



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JOYINKY 6/24/2011 2:20PM

    Worthy thing to celebrate! You couldn't be a better ambassador for fitness! WTG!

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MNNICE 6/24/2011 1:48PM

    It is something to celebrate that our "Senior Citizen" bodies are indeed fit enough to run! Congratulations and continued success in your accomplishments!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 6/24/2011 12:56PM

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 6/24/2011 12:00PM

    Awesome.

Celebrate You too!

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MIRAGE727 6/24/2011 11:58AM

    Unless I'm wrong and my data mining is off, you humbly failed to state that you were #1 in your age class!! You Stud Muffin! What an inspiration! Good luck in your run. I know you'll do well in celebrating fitness!
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