Thursday, January 20, 2011
Yesterday I blew it, but I am far from giving up. I analyzed what happened and see how I can prevent it again in the future.
Yesterday I had a light breakfast at home before a meeting (I represented our agency) and then at 10:45 I had brunch with some colleagues. When I got to work at 11:45, the boss asked me to go with her to a Chamber of Commerce lunch meeting. I reminded her I'd already eaten, and she said that was okay. So I just had water and watched everyone else eat an elaborate catered meal. I wasn't hungry, so it was not too tortuous. The dessert looked awfully good, though.
The boss and I worked hard all afternoon. Around 3 we took a potty break and a vendor came in selling flats of strawberries. The boss and I split a flat, although we didn't eat any. Around 6pm we wrapped it up. I hadn't had anything to eat since 11am. I foolishly put the 1/2 flat of strawberried in the passenger seat for the 18 mile commute home.
Well, the strawberries didn't make it home. I had eaten 3 pints before I knew it. I just wasn't thinking about strawberries being a problem. Honestly, after about 2 pints it did occur to me that I was eating too many. I could have stopped then. But I didn't. I kept munching until I drove in the driveway.
Next time, even if boss is really pushing me to produce, I'm going to take a snack break and not let myself get so hungry. I could have even had a small serving of strawberries before I left and put the rest in the trunk. Next time I'll remember to consciously praise myself for managing not to eat at the chamber function. Next time I'll remind myself that when I realize I'm overeating and choose to stop I am strengthening my resistence muscle, while when I give in I'm strengthening my giving in muscle!!
This morning I was up on the scale over 3 pounds. I know I didn't eat 10,500 calories of strawberries, so I'll be patient, drink lots of water and see this binge weight disappear on its own. On one hand, I don't want to be too hard on myself, but I do not want to eat this way. I do not want to be a person who overeats anything. I know, progress, not perfection, is my goal. I know I have come a long way. I know I have a ways to go.