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My Daughter Said This Would Make A Good Blog

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Last weekend I weighed 6 pounds more than my happy weight, did not fit into all my clothes, and felt fat, bloated, and a little bit scared. I cut my calories back, lost water weight, feel good that now I'm less than a pound over, and determined to make that golden number.

My daughter, (who has had success managing her own weight, works part time for a weight management company you have heard of, and will get a chance to show her skill at weight loss again after birth of grandchild #2 in approximately 3 weeks), witnessed a discussion between hubby and me. Hubby is the grocery shopper in the family and he usually does a pretty good job looking out for the things he wants and the things I need to succeed. But for the past couple shopping trips he bought no skim milk, no powdered milk, no fat free yogurt, no fat free cottage cheese. All the cheese was full fat and all the milk products had too much fat. I try to hit 1200 mcg of dairy calcium every day, so just ignoring them was not an option. I could have gone back to the grocery store, I suppose, but I didn't.

Okay. So my daughter witnessed the discussion last weekend in which I blamed my hubby and his dairy purchases for my weight gain. She snickered. I think she mentally calculated the points/calorie difference between my fat free options and what I had been eating. She suggested perhaps there was something else I had been eating as well.

Coach Dean's SparkPeople article popped into my head. I need to use "I" statements. Blaming the hubby is not helpful. Blaming the dairy products is not helpful. I did it. I ate too much. I take responsibility. And I'm now undoing it. I will succeed.

I suspect that had my daughter written this blog, it might have had a little different perspective. However, it is my blog.

I don't know if maintenance will ever be easy for me, but I know I can do it. One of my favorite sayings that I don't know if I created or repeated is, "it isn't always easy, but it is definitely worth it." I am committed to using SparkPeople principles to eat healthy, stay active, and maintain my healthy weight. I will do it! -Marsha

  
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VTORIA3 8/18/2010 4:36PM

    Accountability, I like it! (although I admit it is more fun to blame our DHs!....especially when they do the shopping and then force feed us!) Oh, not the case? I guess then, it is the one in the mirror... emoticon

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MNNICE 8/16/2010 10:23PM

    I can relate to being up a bit. The problem (well, one of them) with maintenance is that you learn you can have the "extras" or "treats" now and then without it hurting.. then you start getting a little braver and having them more often. But the main thing is -- we get back on track. We know what we need to do and we'll do it!!!

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LINDA25427 8/16/2010 12:30AM

    Good blog thanks for sharing it . I gained back this last time and am getting it back off now .It isn't easy but it is worth it . emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
Hope you have a great week . God bless. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FRAN0426 8/16/2010 12:12AM

    What a great blog, enjoyed reading and taking mental note to self for that day when I can and will be on maintenance. Each step still goes back to the knowledge we learn when we firat start on our Spark journey and that it really is taking it one day at a time regardless of where we are on our journey---beginere thru maintenance. It definately has everything to do with taking responsibility for our own actions.

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MONTY68 8/15/2010 10:31PM

    Hi Marsha
Congratulations on a great blog. You have done a fantastic job getting to where you are at today. You did take the action necessary to get back on track and you are!!!!!
And, After "coach" daughter explained something to you, You took action which was taking responsibility and releasing blame. I think there are times that we get comments about "I" and with a negative use of it. BUT this is one of those times when "I" is the only statements that can be said.
Maintenance, in my opinion does get easier, because more of the things we have learned automatically seem to kick in. That doesn't mean we don't have to have an awareness of what we are doing.
Spark is the thing that helps keep us focused and of course still giving us new ideas with healthy living. you said "I will do it" and I say YES YOU WILL continue to do it.
You are a lifetime member of the living healthy club.
Thank you for sharing this great blog.

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KALIGIRL 8/15/2010 5:12PM

    emoticon for taking responsibility for yourself.
Wonderful way to continue your healthy journey!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 8/15/2010 5:05PM

    Marsha, a person who isn't afraid to learn from things and move on in a better direction is a person I have the highest respect for! Way to GO! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WALKINGANNIE 8/15/2010 1:42PM

    Wow - only 3 weeks to go! That time seems to have flown by.

I don't know if maintenance will ever be easy for any of us either. We all face our own challenges and come up with our own solutions. You're right in that we have to do it for ourselves - but we are not alone in this. You are a strong and determined woman Marsha and you keep others going as well as yourself but those same people are there with you when you need support too.

Perhaps maintenance is strength training for our confidence and attitudes!

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DONNABRIGHT 8/15/2010 1:13PM

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PO_PAZZA 8/15/2010 12:38PM

    Yes, your daughter is correct. It's a good blog.

Having just gone through the same scenario as you (only mine was 3 lbs. up), I can identify. Since I adhered to my Points this past week, I've lost 2 of the 3 already. Every blasted little bite DOES count. Drat.

Well, now we know for sure we have to keep at it. But we all agree, it's more than worth it.

Mary

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JOYINKY 8/15/2010 12:15PM

    Yep, right there with you; maintenance is a challenge! I still have to work at it, always will. I used to blame the people I lived with and having their temptations to deal with; but no one ever force fed me! I do own my actions today and I'm glad you do to. I know my weaknesses and they are mine to deal with. It's my responsibility to have healthy choices available; even if that means keeping something in my purse or packing a few things when I travel. Thank you for sharing, so many think because we've reached goal, or when they reach goal, that the struggle is behind us. Not so, but the rewards are worth having a plan and sticking to it! emoticon

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JHADZHIA 8/15/2010 12:08PM

    Lucky you have that smart daughter to give you a wake up call! We are, in the end, responsible for what we put into our mouths. When you fully take on that responsibility, then you will see and maintain success. All the best getting back on track! You are headed in the right direction!

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AQUAGIRL08 8/15/2010 11:22AM

    What is great is that you saw what was happening and you corrected it. You have to step in and say, "Gary, I need fat free or low fat yogurt, milk and cottage cheese." You have to step up to the plate and tell him what you need in an assertive not aggressive way. I love the fact that you are taking ownership for you. Many people try to blame others. You are growing Marsha and that growth is what will prevent you from slipping back into the old self. Congratulations on all of your progress. You've come a long way baby!

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HAPPYSOUL91 8/15/2010 11:16AM

    Boy your daughter is one smart cookie (pardon the pun). Glad you took responsibility for your actions, this is ALWAYS a good thing. Since losing the weight is not easy, maintenance needs to be always monitored also.

My quote is "simple not easy"

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 8/15/2010 11:13AM

    Marsha - this is a "rest of our lives" change and we are going to have days like this.

You succeed because you never give up!

Within days of reaching my newest goal weight, I have eaten my "weigh" up by 3 pounds! It happens. I call it temporary weight gain.

What matters? Getting back on track.

You and I will be here as long as there is a Spark between us!

Great blog. I voted for it!

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GARDENCHRIS 8/15/2010 11:00AM

    sounds like your daughter is pretty smart! she got it from her momma! emoticon

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SLUGGER17 8/15/2010 10:59AM

    What an opportunity for growth! Your daughter is wise, and so are you.
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ONEKIDSMOM 8/15/2010 10:56AM

    Maintaining is hard, but you've got the right attitude: "I can do it. I will do it. I AM DOING IT!"

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Team Walk and Progress

Saturday, August 14, 2010

I really enjoyed our Polk County SparkTeam walk this morning at the old Lakeland mall. It was wonderfully air conditioned and very comfortable. I had Natalie in the stroller and out of the stroller.

Cyndi, our leader, set a comfortable pace and kept it up like a metronome. I experienced more of an interval training with getting Natalie in and out of the stroller and adapting to her pace, which was either much slower than mine or running! Amanda and her boys added laughter and energy and the hour went by in no time.

I missed the SparkRally for the state of Florida that was held in Largo today. Maybe next time our SparkTeam can attend the state event. It is wonderful to get to meet SparkPeople face to face. (MONTY, thanks for all the encouragement you have given me, including to attend the rally. Maybe next time.)

I know, though, that most of my SparkFriends live far away. Although they have helped me very much and been very significant to me, I will probably never meet them. (For example, WALKINGANNIE, a wise and consistent friend, lives in the UK.) I feel ambivalent -- I am so grateful to have all my SparkFriends in my life, but sad that some I'll never know outside the virtual world.

To you who have been following my recent struggle, I am as of this morning, more than 5 pounds below what I was a week ago and just .6 pounds from my "happy weight". Couldn't have done it without you!! -Marsha

  
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AQUAGIRL08 8/15/2010 11:14AM

    My hero! If anyone could get those pounds off, it would be you. A more energetic person, I've never met! I enjoyed the walk too. You always add something special to every team event. We are blessed to be able call you friend.
Hugs,
Cyndi

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WALKINGANNIE 8/15/2010 6:49AM

    Firstly, congratulations on your positive action to get back to how you want to be. Weightwise, you know just what you want and how to get it now. You are in control of your body. That is an amazing achievement.

Your face-to-face local meetings sound very enjoyable and it's great that you have Polk County mini-SP-rallies. It's sad that you didn't see Monty - who is such a great friend to many of us - but good that you can meet with people who are geographically closer to you.

I was very touched to be mentioned in your blog. Even before we became friends, I read your early blogs with interest and saw someone who shared many of the same challenges and who was dealing with them with determination, commitment and openness. It is unlikely that we will meet in person in the future, but you are certainly a real friend to me and I thank you for your friendship.

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MONTY68 8/14/2010 10:53PM

    Hi Marsha
Glad you had a great time with your team today. Thank you for your comments , and would have loved to see you there. There are plans to have another, I am not sure where. It is true , are friends come from all over the world and all with the same great idea, Learning to live healthy.
The great work that you have put in your life is showing up with releasing that weight. Congratulations now as it will be gone very soon.

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ONEKIDSMOM 8/14/2010 6:56PM

    See, we told you you could do it! And you KNEW you could even before your spark friends chimed in.

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And I'm so happy for your seeing Spark friends in person for that team walk.

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JHADZHIA 8/14/2010 6:04PM

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Well done getting those pounds off!!
I would have to travel pretty far to meet any of my Spark friends, even the Canadian ones. Distances in Canada are farther apart then most Americans realize. I have had more than one say well Toronto is just across the way from New York, wouldn't it be a fast trip, only that it takes 2 1/2 hours by air to get to Toronto from here lol. If I ever happen to vacation in someone's neighborhood, I wouldn't mind meeting them at a restaurant or coffee shop for peace of mind of both parties. Runs and rallies are the best places to meet I think.


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JUST_TRI_IT 8/14/2010 5:27PM

    I too am ambivalent about the exact same thing... It is a great mix of internet and real friends who support us and inspire us. So glad you got a chance to meet a few and also have that great connection here on SP.

Happy weekend!
D

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KALIGIRL 8/14/2010 4:58PM

    Glad you are nearing your happy weight and you have the chance to engage with some of your SparkFriends - it's a wonderful mix of 3D and internet friends that keep us going.

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 8/14/2010 3:46PM

    Hi Marsha... I have weird thoughts about local sparkers... I'd almost rather not have any local ones. I have gone to a rally, and it was a nice walk in the mall... but I reveal so much about my family and life that having local sparkfriends causes me to be very careful about what I say... from what my kids are doing, to what I do in the privacy of my own home, to avoiding things being repeated accidentally to the wrong person.

SparkPeople is such a safe, private place for me, and I love it very much! emoticon

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JOYINKY 8/14/2010 2:19PM

    emoticonMarsha! A familiar struggle that is, been there, done that! And yes, it does feel so great to get moving back in the other direction. My goal weight is 135 and I had been flirting with 140, my nemesis, all winter! Seems like if I hit 140, if I'm lucky enough not to continue up; at the very least it takes a Herculean effort to get back down! Actually, that's what brought me to SP and the support and tools I've found here have helped tremendously. Was just getting ready to blog on one, stay tuned. In the meantime: emoticon, Contratulations on your successes, again and again. That's how it is in maintenance land! Joy emoticon

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Advice for New Members and for Myself, Too

Friday, August 13, 2010

I was contacted by a new member (ARIANABLUE) and asked how I lost weight. She liked my response, so I thought I'd share it as part of a blog:

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You asked how I lost my weight. I lost 50 with Weight Watchers, eating mostly what they call "filling foods". The last 30 I lost using SparkPeople. I discovered that I had been eating too much fiber, too little fat, too much sodium, and not enough of quite a few nutrients. I incorporated strength training for the first time and increased my cardio a lot.

The real key for me was deciding that quitting is not an option. Never, never give up. No matter what, do the best you can. So many times I quit when I wasn't perfect. You don't have to be perfect, just determined. If you have cravings, find the least caloric thing to satisfy them. If you are really, really hungry -- eat. Just make it healthy food, not too many carbs, especially processed flour/sugar/salt. Focus on eating enough fruits and veggies, on getting your cardio and strength accomplished, drinking enough water, sleeping enough. Focus on all those positive things you do. When (not if) you slip up, learn the lesson, but let it go. Don't feel bad; don't beat yourself up. Recommit. It is all part of it. Won't be long until you'll see it is working!
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This may sound funny, but I actually found it motivating to read again myself! Maybe that is because it is specific to me. (Am I shallow or what?? Is that ego???) One thing I might add is to eat slowly and enjoy every bite. What would you add or change as advice for new members?

PS For those who know I've been struggling a bit recently, I'm doing fine, slowly getting back to my happy weight. Still on reduced exercise due to minor injury, too.

  
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AQUAGIRL08 8/14/2010 11:51AM

    I think your advice is sound. The only thing I'd add is to be patient. We didn't get this way over night and it isn't going to come off over night. It's a lifestyle not a diet. Just change the mindset and away we go. (Not really that easy but you know what I mean.) What is it that Nike says? Just do it!

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EILEENV3 8/13/2010 7:54PM

    Great advice!

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PARKERB2 8/13/2010 2:51PM

    emoticonYou look fantastic in your picture so you show that you practiced what you preached. Have a good weekend.

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JHADZHIA 8/13/2010 2:39PM

    Its motivating to you because it is what worked for you! Every person is a little bit different in their approach. Keep up the great work!!

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JOHAL52 8/13/2010 2:28PM

    Bravo!!

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WALKINGANNIE 8/13/2010 2:11PM

    emoticon advice!

And, no you are not shallow! Here's to your happy weight!

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TBRANCH2 8/13/2010 1:51PM

    My hero!

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UUCEEJAY 8/13/2010 12:38PM

    What you wrote is certainly what has been working for me. emoticon

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HAPPYSOUL91 8/13/2010 11:34AM

    Boy I sure hope you have an ego, it is that which gets us through the troubled times.

Like what you wrote and yes it is a motivation piece.

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AMBUDMAN 8/13/2010 10:35AM

    You are not shallow and I agree with you.

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 8/13/2010 10:12AM

    Marsha, it isn't an ego thing at all! We are FINALLY learning this priceless information about a thing called HEALTHY LIVING, and our bodies and minds are thriving on it! You have taken what you've learned and put it down into your own words (which are fantastic, btw), and you like what you see! So do I! You are a great motivator, SparkFriend, and you are doing wonderful things for your life! You go, girl! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RHONDA_11 8/13/2010 10:11AM

    Thank you! emoticon Rhonda

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MONTY68 8/13/2010 10:08AM

    Hi Marsha
Great blog, you were asked how you released your weight and you explained how with suggestions. That is not shallow, it is what you did to succeed. You are a success and a great example of what to do that others can follow. Sharing your success gives others a knowing that they also can succeed. Well written and a good reminder to all that read your blogs.
Your recent struggle is an example of what successful people do.
I am glad you are taking it easy on your exercise, it will only be a couple of days till it feels better.
Thank you for sharing.

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BESTSUSIEYET 8/13/2010 9:59AM

    Right on all counts -- thanks for sharing great tips/ reminders!

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ALYFITN 8/13/2010 9:28AM

    This is great advise. I'll reread it for motivation. Thanks. emoticon

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GATOR12 8/13/2010 9:23AM

    I hear you girl. Keep on, keepin' on!!

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JOYINKY 8/13/2010 9:22AM

    No, it's not shallow; always good to remember where we came from and how we got here. I blogged my journey and it is a good reminder for me to re-read it occasionally. This time I made changes that I knew I could live with forever, no fads, no extremes. Basically went on a maintenance eating plan, stepped up my activity and lost very slowly until I reached goal weight a little over 4 years ago. It still requires vigilance. I do track my food/calories everyday in my own simplified way and SP has helped me increase my activity. Life is great! emoticon

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GREEKGAL1 8/13/2010 9:12AM

  I agree with you. You don't have to be perfect just determined. Great blog. Thank you.

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WILD4STARS 8/13/2010 8:49AM

    emoticonAs always, you are an inspiration. emoticon

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LOVESLIFE48 8/13/2010 8:48AM

    Great advice!! Thanks!

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LAGREBE 8/13/2010 8:46AM

    Wonderful! Says it all! I hope you will make it to "Popular Blogs"

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ANNIEB0714 8/13/2010 8:41AM

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ONEKIDSMOM 8/13/2010 8:38AM

    Nope, it really helps to review! Good for you for that most important bit: "Never give up!"

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Thank You, SparkFriends!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Yesterday 22 SparkFriends stopped by with kind words and support. Thank you, thank you. It means so much to me. There is so much wisdom and understanding here! In my real life there are many wonderful people, but not one who understands as well as you do.

I want you to know that yesterday was a good healthy eating day and the scale was down another .2 pounds. I've done great today and am determined not to let this evening trip me up.

I think I overdid the exercise yesterday, though. I pulled something in the abdomen and then my neck and upper back muscles tightened up in response, too. Hot bath helped, but I still don't feel quite right today. So I did a 75 minute walk, not as fast as usual, and that seemed to help. But I'm skipping strength training today. Perhaps tomorrow I'll feel up to it. I plan to listen to my body, because you have told me that is the thing to do and I believe you.

Thanks for your wisdom. Thanks for your support. Thanks for really understanding. -Marsha

  
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AQUAGIRL08 8/14/2010 11:46AM

    We aim to please! Take care!

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JHADZHIA 8/13/2010 2:36PM

    Do listen to your body and take care of yourself!
Take care!

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WALKINGANNIE 8/13/2010 2:08PM

    Hope you are recovering from your injury and taking things steadily Marsha.

You deserve all the support that you have been getting because you give so much encouragement to others and also provide such a great role model. Your success is all the more special because it hasn't been - and still isn't - easy, but you get on and do what you have to do.

We love you because of your indomitable spirit and can-do attitude - even when you might not feel like doing it - and for the fact that you are willing to share your ups and downs so openly!

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TBRANCH2 8/13/2010 1:50PM

    that's what spark "friends" are for!! emoticon

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DONNABRIGHT 8/13/2010 9:28AM

    Good thoughts for taking care of yourself!

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JOYINKY 8/13/2010 9:00AM

    Absolutely, listen to your body and trust yourself! I too appreciate the support and understanding I get here. It's sad to me how many people in my life think the answer to any discomfort is a pill and that they have no control over what is going on with their body. It's getting harder and harder to find "active" friends. Nice to have friends here that cheer action! Yoga has been a blessing to me for stretching through some of those little "aches and pains"; sometimes giving me immediate relief. Walking is always good. When we listen to our bodies we learn what will work for us. Be well, Joy emoticon

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KALIGIRL 8/13/2010 8:35AM

    Glad you're listening to your body. I've been amazed @ how much more I 'hear' it since starting this journey...

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 8/12/2010 11:18PM

    emoticonto you Marsha! emoticon

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MONTY68 8/12/2010 10:05PM

    Hi Marsha
I am sorry you hurt yourself, trust your body and listen to it. There is no need to do anything serious, walking will give you exercise without any strain.
You are in control, the weight will come and soon, so the important thing is you.

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MARYMAC45 8/12/2010 9:55PM

    So sorry to hear you injured yourself while exercising. I did too. You have to listen to your body to know when to take it easy. Br careful and have a great weekend.

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GATOR12 8/12/2010 9:31PM

    I'm so glad you have received the help and support you have. I feel the same way. I have lots of acquaintances and church friends who would help how they could but this SP group are so compassionate and caring. Ready to come to your aid!!!

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FRAN0426 8/12/2010 8:16PM

    Sorry you have endured and injury from exercising yesterday. Glad to hear that you refrained from doing strength exercises today, no need to add any more injury than your are dealing with. I know that if you are still having pain again tomorrow, you will once again keep the exercise to a lighter variety--give yourself time to heal before going full force.

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FRAN0426 8/12/2010 8:16PM

    Sorry you have endured and injury from exercising yesterday. Glad to hear that you refrained from doing strength exercises today, no need to add any more injury than your are dealing with. I know that if you are still having pain again tomorrow, you will once again keep the exercise to a lighter variety--give yourself time to heal before going full force.

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Familiar Awful Feelings

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Saturday morning I woke up and grabbed something to wear out of my closet, not thinking. I could hardly button it and it didn't feel comfortable at all. Old familiar feelings came rushing back to me, as I took it off and looked for something a little less snug.

For years and years I'd wake up and carefully choose something out of my closet that fit that day. My closet had many sizes. How I felt about myself that day was heavily influenced by what I fit into. (Not that I think it should be that way, but it was.... )

When what I expected to wear didn't fit, I got this awful feeling in my stomach -- a sick feeling, a guilty feeling. I had not felt those emotions in more than a year and a half, as I went from a size 2X to a size 4.

Saturday I had those awful feelings, plus a certain feeling of surprise and disbelief. It was all too familiar.

But this time was different. I knew that less than a week before everything had fit. I knew just a few days of being a little more committed to eating healthy (I was still working out on schedule) would get me back where I want to be.

And I'm glad to report, I'm almost there.

  
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MARYMAC45 8/12/2010 9:51PM

    Been there, done that. You are a role model for me. You should be so proud of what you have accomplished. I wish I could be more like you. Love your blogs.
Mary

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DAMOTIVATION 8/12/2010 7:43PM

    Similar times for me. I have allowed piles of work and stress to take a toll.

I do believe that my weight gain is a relapse, but does not represent a defeat. The fear I have is actually a good tool to remind me to never return to that awful place of self-neglect. It is a constant struggle, but the knowledge of having triumphed and come so far is powerful. It gives me a huge "WTF" shot in the arm when things get too out of hand.

I may have pushed the size 4s to the back of the closet, but they will see the light of day again. It helps to see others are walking a similar path...we are too strong in spirit to let it spiral out of control. Those days are over!

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PARKERB2 8/12/2010 10:34AM

    emoticon on jumping back on and getting back to your goal.

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JOYINKY 8/12/2010 5:58AM

    Good Morning Marsha, I've enjoyed your blogs and posts for some time now; we have so much in common! I know that feeling well, we have so much in common; our journey and maintenance. For me, vigilance is a lifetime commitment. I don't even own a scale anymore, the fit of my clothes is a better measure. Thanks for all you share here on SP, you are an inspiration!

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SLIMLILA 8/12/2010 2:11AM

    I know those feelings from years and years... and I too haven't been feeling them in the 8 months I have been on SP, but tonite, I notice things are tight, blame it on today's stress, but I'm with you.... I've got to get in control of this and not go back to those awful feelings....

I've heard it said there's a 2-3 lb. weight watch and I know as a young woman I used a 5 lb. weight watch.... when I was up 5 lbs., I cut back on food til the weight fell back, so for a few decades I didn't let that rule control me, but I think I really seriously need to.

You go girl, you've come so far, I know that ...this too shall pass! emoticon emoticon Lila

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TEXASG-MA 8/11/2010 11:47PM

  Glad you are getting back to where you need to be. Isn't SP a wonder place to be when you feel like you have trouble. I know that feeling you are talking about and hate it. Wishing you all the best on your goals to get back where you want to be.
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MONTY68 8/11/2010 11:44PM

    Hi Marsha
Sometimes I think it is good to get that old feeling as a reminder that is not who we are, You had made plans, the adjustment came and it's coming off. Your blogs reinforced the thought I had when I wrote my blog on eat to live. I had thoughts reminding me before I ate something.
When someone has developed new good habits as you have, the new awareness comes much quicker to remind us we need to do something now.
You have done a fantastic job getting to this point and those lessons learned will be with you forever.
Thank you for sharing this.

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 8/11/2010 10:47PM

    Hey, it works now! My computer (not your blog) wouldn't let me comment from work today! You are going to MAKE it, and I know it! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PO_PAZZA 8/11/2010 10:14PM

    Remember when we used to cave in to those familiar feelings? We'd eat to compensate. Now we merely feel the feeling and get back to work on our healthy selves. This incident was an important test of how attitudes truly have changed. We know we COULD slide back, but we WON'T.

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TBRANCH2 8/11/2010 10:05PM

    I am proud of you and all that you have accomplished!! You are my role model!! I certainly wish I had your will power and stamina!!! I am going through a lot of stress this summer and it has really taken its toll. Hopefull, this fall, maybe when the temps drop some, I will be able to get some self control back!!??!!! I am not giving up and am pushing, pushing, pushing but, sometimes...... That is when I think of you and keep going! Thanks!!

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EILEENV3 8/11/2010 8:24PM

    Isn't it great that you don't have to add mental weight back on when the scale is temporatily not your friend.
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KALIGIRL 8/11/2010 1:28PM

    Glad to hear you're back on track. As you've said before - you are not going back there!

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WALKINGANNIE 8/11/2010 1:19PM

    Once again, congratulations on your control Marsha. That old familiar feeling could well have signalled disaster. You have really got this sorted now.

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AQUAGIRL08 8/11/2010 12:51PM

    I'm so glad that you are right on top of it. It's so scary that it could happen that fast! Wow! I guess when your schedule is changing and you are working, you have to change the timing on your workouts. I'll have to keep that in mind! Thanks for sharing.

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HAPPYSOUL91 8/11/2010 12:09PM

    Glad this time was different and you jumped back on the wagon

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SHIRLEYSAUL 8/11/2010 10:37AM

    Keep up the good work. emoticon

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PARKERB2 8/11/2010 10:33AM

    Sounds like you have picked yourself back up after a brief fall. Hang in there. emoticon

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DONNABRIGHT 8/11/2010 9:55AM

    Awesome blog! That is a critical lesson to learn - to pay attention to the little things before they turn in to big things!

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JUST_TRI_IT 8/11/2010 9:52AM

    What a good feeling to have when you know you are in control of the next step!!! Congrats on being almost there :)

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JHADZHIA 8/11/2010 8:04AM

    This time it is different because you have accepted a healthy lifestyle. You just have to get used to the changes in your life and find a way to adapt, which you are doing. Wonderful to hear you are finding a way! Never giving up is what makes you so successful!!
Well done Marsha!!

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ONEKIDSMOM 8/11/2010 7:04AM

    Susie has some wise words there! Yes, schedule changes and stress can be a factor. Sounds like you have a great handle on it, though! Get right on it, don't let it slide.

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BESTSUSIEYET 8/11/2010 6:43AM

    Those old feelings can flood over us - like they were just waiting for us to be vulnerable! As you transition back to working more days, you'll soon find the way to maintain healthy habits. Life is about change, and we have to learn to adjust as the changes come. I have no doubts that you will manage just fine. God Bless You today!!

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NUTRON3 8/11/2010 6:41AM

    Great job in not giving up!

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