Monday, June 21, 2010
I read the Daily Spark, "Conquering Eating and Other Impulses the Easy Way", a couple days ago. I read a lot of Spark articles, sometimes because I'm just racking up SparkPoints and sometimes to kill time so I'm not eating and sometimes because I really want the information. In this case I started reading just to get the points, but I found myself not just skimming it, but going back to reread it slowly.
Yet I didn't think of it when I gave into an impulse to eat the day before yesterday. But I did think about it when I was trying to digest my impulse eating, learn the lesson, and improve my eating behavior. I went back and reread it.
Here is the core of it:
"...we do have two selves, or at least two different voices in our heads. One is the normal, everyday stream of thinking and impulses that drives our actions. The second, which is much more powerful and stable, allows us to observe those thoughts and impulses. In the phrase, "I like myself,"......"myself" is the Observed; the "I" is the Observer that does the liking.
Unfortunately, our Observers are usually dormant, and the Observed becomes the Unobserved. We then become slaves to our impulses and our often-dysfunctional thoughts, worries, fears, etc. When the Observer kicks in, you realize that you're much more than the sum total of your thoughts and impulses. Then you can rule them, not vice versa.
Read more: http://www.dailyspark.com/blog.asp?post=co
So the writer is saying that when we have an impulse we can use our Observer to recognize it as an impulse, and then decide whether to act on that impulse or not. So simple.
Yesterday I found it surprisingly effective. Last eve I wanted something to eat. I was envisioning the refrigerator and cabinet and what my choices were at the time. When I suddenly thought, "This desire to eat is an impulse." I'm not really hungry. I don't have to act on this impulse. And the impulse left!!
I have a strong feeling that this technique is just what I need to overcome my remaining eating behavior problem. Time will tell whether this is THE technique or one tool in the tool box. I'm observing that I'm getting stronger in my ability to analyze my behaviors and change them to become the person I want to be. Thanks, SparkPeople, for a new tool to help me!!
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Yesterday I was feeling too blah to blog. But I'm back on it today. The scale is up, but only .8 pounds. I'll live. I'll even stay a healthy weight. And I'm trying to give up the "yelling" at myself when I slip.
I wish I could be perfect. I mean perfect when it comes to eating, but I think I best accept that isn't going to happen. After 60 years of struggling with eating, I am not changing into a different person. I need to take it just one day at a time. I need to celebrate all my healthy eating and activity successes. And I need the slips to just slip away without much acknowledgement.
My slips have become smaller and less frequent. I don't know why I felt so discouraged yesterday. It was way out of proportion to the situation. Oh, well. Yesterday is gone and I'm committed to healthy eating, healthy activity and healthy thinking about food today! -Marsha
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Last eve after pilates, my concern was confirmed. The callous on my left foot, running about 2.5 inches from my second toe toward my heel, produced a few drops of blood from a crack about 1/4 inch long. It had been sore for a couple days. The callous has been there for years.
Earlier I had been looking at the callous and I told Natalie it was a boo-boo. She looked at it and dismissed it, saying it was dirt not a boo-boo, with all the certainty a three year old nurse could muster. But after I really got it scrubbed, I'm sorry to admit, it still looks dirty. The rest of the foot gets pinky white, but the callous stays dark. But now I know it is not just dirt.
Well, I've got Neosporin and a Band-Aid on it, so I'm going to Zumba. I hope I can get it healed up without a doctor visit. Anyone have a home remedy for callouses on the foot?
Monday, June 14, 2010
I couldn't sleep last eve. Maybe got three hours. Gave up about 3:30am and got up. I walked for an hour, maybe 3 mph, slower than I usually walk. Thought I might as well put what energy I had to good use. Then did some laundry and house cleaning. My hubby also needed my help with the repair of the porch. I felt like I'd done strength training after holding clamps over my head while he tightened them up. Hope the repair works. We had wind damage last week. It is unclear whether it was a tornado or not, but it was wind for sure.
But, anyway, I'm at significant risk for overeating on days I haven't slept. I am committed to do the best I can, track everything, and accept the tired feeling today. When Natalie naps about 2pm, I will try to lay down, too.
Days like today are one of the reasons I'm not crazy about going back to work. When I have to go to work tired, I am no good. When I ran a grant writing business out of my home, I often would sleep at odd times and work when I felt good. I never missed a deadline. When you have an office job, you have to be there whether you can keep your eyes open or not. But I'm afraid I do need to work a few more years. I'm scheduled to go back to work 20 hours a week on August 2. At least it isn't full time. I'll probably be working long days Monday and Wednesday and keeping grandkids (#2 is due Sept 6) Tues, Thurs, Fri, and Sat. So I'll be quite busy.
It will all work out. I will continue to eat smart and be active. And nowdays my insomnia is usually only bad maybe once a month. Maybe I can continue to improve my sleeping, too. -Marsha
Sunday, June 13, 2010
I rode with PINKSAINT 14.2 miles according to the SparkPeople fitness tracker mapping tool. It was definitely much more fun with a friend. The time went so fast --- almost 100 minutes gone in no time. Although the day will be hot, and this morning was not cool, 7:30am was a good time to start. The trail was mostly shady. All in all, it was a great way to start the day. I hope to ride with PINKSAINT again.
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