Sunday, April 25, 2010
Two days ago, perhaps you read my blog, I tried on a formal just for fun and felt like a princess. Well, a grey-haired princess, but regal and slender just the same. Yesterday I bought a new pair of pants (another size 4 - hard to believe) and several cute blouses on sale. I enjoy clothes shopping now and feeling good in my new clothes. When I was a size 2x if I could get an item of clothing on and it looked half way good, I got it. Choices were limited. Now, there are so many things that look fine, there are almost too many choices.
Okay, and then I had a real reality check. Yesterday I decided to buy a new bathing suit. I would enjoy going swimming at the Y, both laps for exercise and for fun with my granddaughter, if only I had a suit that fit. Well, I had hoped to have that same proud feeling, to find many suits that looked okay, and to have a lot of choices. Well, I tried on a couple hundred suits. Nothing really looked like I had hoped. The shape is there, but the skin is so saggy. Most suits in my size have no support. And, of course, nothing hides the inner thigh sag. (Oh, well. Just accept that one.)
As I tried on suits it brought back a memory from my high school. My dad's oldest sister was put on a drastic sleep diet in the 1960's. She stayed in bed for weeks and only ate 600 calories a day. I was there on the day she was allowed to get up for the first time. She knew she had lost a lot of weight, but was horrified as she looked in the mirror at the wrinkled skin hanging from her posterior half the way down the back of her thigh. I thought "elephant butt." Fortunately I didn't say it.
Although my skin doesn't hang down that far, I have my own version of wrinkled elephant butt, I'm afraid. I really wanted a suit that hid the sag below my glutes. That limited my choice to very few suits.
But I finally found a suit that I thought was okay. I look slender, but very conservative. It comes up high on the chest and down low on the leg. It is black with a blue flower pattern. I bought a really cute black terry cloth cover up, matching flip flops, visor, and beach towel. I can see myself swimming laps for exercise, then walking down the corridor to the child care area and getting Natalie for a swim together. I can see me in it at the beach even. It will do just fine.
Maybe my skin will tighten up a little as I adjust to this new body. Maybe building muscle will help. Maybe not. Maybe I'll get better at bathing suit shopping. Maybe not. Maybe I'll even find a bikini that looks acceptable. Maybe not.
You know, that is okay. I'm happy in my clothes. And truth of the matter is I'm happy in my skin, too, even though I wish I could purchase the skin in the next smaller size.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Today I did something I hadn't done for a long time, grocery shopping. My hubby likes to grocery shop because he likes to choose things to eat. But today he was content to let me go do the chore. I took the opportunity to pick up things he would never buy: boca burgers, tofu, unsalted nuts, grape tomatoes, frozen veggies (he likes canned), no salt added canned vegetables, unsweetened applesauce, string cheese, etc. I bought things we both like and use, too: fresh spinach, asparagus, corn on cob, bell peppers, pork loin, chicken, skim milk, paper products, etc. I bought wax paper to help Natalie slide on a park slide that sticks.
I also found something I'd never tried before, but had read about over and over on SparkPeople -- greek yogurt. I just tried it. It deserves the raves. The one I tried was Chobani strawberry (fruit on the bottom) non fat. It is positively delicious. What a great find!
Friday, April 23, 2010
One of my favorite things while I was losing weight was to try on stacks of my clothes. It was just thrilling to find old favorites that fit again! I'd divide clothes into piles -1. give away - too big, 2. put in the center of the closet to wear now, and 3. put in the corners of the closet for later. It was very motivating to see the size numbers keep going down.
Well, I'm now considerably below the smallest clothes I had in my closet. I am smaller than I've been in over 35 years. BUT yesterday I did something I did not ever expect to do. I went into the room where my dear granddaughter now naps. It was my daughter's room until she moved out in 1999, when she left for college. However, she didn't take all her clothing. Actually, I was looking for a bathing suit because I don't have one that fits now. I didn't find one. But I saw an ornate white and gold clothing bag. I unzipped it. There was a beautiful old formal just hanging there. I started to zip it back up, but I couldn't. The subtle country blue two piece called to me. I just had to. I knew it was silly, but I just had to. It fit. It fit beautifully. Guiltily, I hung it back up fast and didn't show anyone.
I smiled all evening!
(PS - for those who've been following my blogs. My hip is much better. I can cross my legs now - both ways. I can put my socks on. I haven't screamed in pain for more than 24 hours. And I'm doing fine eating less to balance reduced exercise.)
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
I came to SparkPeople after I'd been on Weight Watchers for many months. I regularly ate more than 5 fruits and veggies. I was eating lean protein and dairy. I was drinking more water than before I was on WW. ( added more since coming to SP.) All in all I took my fairly healthy Weight Watcher eating habits and took them to a new level with SP. Particularly, counting my sodium has changed the way I eat for the better.
One thing I really miss from my old eating habits is deli luncheon meat. I used to add it to omlettes, my salads, and sandwiches almost every day. I'd even grab some deli meat for a snack, or wrap it around a dill pickle or fat free cheese slice. It was very convenient, low fat, and good protein. However, it is difficult to stay within the sodium limits when you include much deli meat. Add bread and condiments, or salad dressing for that matter, and you compound the problem.
I'm looking for a substitute for deli meats. For the most part I have rice (preferably brown rice) and beans and a veggie for lunch instead of omlette, chef salad, or sandwich. I find the new menu satisfying, but I often go over the limit for 35 gram fiber recommendation. Some days I want something different.
Perhaps you have a suggestion for easy, tasty, healthy lunches. Right now, I usually eat lunch at home, but sometimes have to pack a lunch for work. Ideas, please. Thanks, SparkFriends!!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Well, the hip is a little better today. I was able to do all my strength training machines. I entered them gingerly and made sure none strained the sore spot. I did 1/2 hour on the stationery bike and it felt good, kind of tingly in the injured area. Really the only part of my workout that hurt was putting on my left sock.
I went into my SparkPeople fitness plan and changed from 6 day of 60 minutes to 6 days of 30 minutes cardio with a plan to burn 720 calories. So that is a reduction of minutes and intensity. My calories range went down from 1500-1850 to 1340-1690. And honestly in the last six months I often have gone over my calorie range, but over my cardio minutes, too. So we'll see how I do with eating less in order to maintain. I plan to succeed, but know it may be a challenge.
On the positive side, when I succeed at this challenge, I will be building confidence in my ability to maintain. -Marsha
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