Thursday, March 04, 2010
It had escaped my attention, obviously for years. I have donated hundreds of items of clothing to a thrift store that supports great programs(literacy/GED, financial stability, basic needs: food pantry and homeless prevention) I have been associated with. But I don't donate underwear, so it had just eluded me. However, the other day my panties were sticking above the waist band of my jeans and wading up around my waist under my shirt, so I decided I had to buy some new ones. And my new panties would not fit into my already full panty drawer. So as I sat and more or less watched TV, I sorted my panties by size.
There were size 10's. Honestly, I do not remember being that big. That must have been in 1998-9 when I was on those steroids. And there were small pile of 9s. Was that really my size at one time ?? I remember wearing 8's for a lot of years and being proud to fit into 7's. Sixes are okay now, but 5 low rise do best with jeans these days.
I'm at my destination now. The object is to stay in fives, but I'll keep my sixes for now. Sevens and up are gone. There will be no more 7-10's. But it is time for balance. There will never be a 4, 3, 2, 1 or I might just blast off!!
Wednesday, March 03, 2010
Celebrate Son in Law's New Job!! He starts March 15th as a Certified Paraoptometric Assistant, more commonly called Optometric Technician. I'm so proud of him!! He has significantly increased his income and taken a lot of pressure off my dear pregnant daughter. He is a wonderful, caring young man and a wonderful dad. His only flaw was in providing, and now, he is perfect! Well, as perfect as any 28 year old man can be in my eyes.
Report from the Wellness Coach: My Body Mass Index (BMI) is 20.2 (very good) and my body fat percentage (BFP) is 29%. That BFP is not so good. It falls in the "acceptable" range, so it could be worse. I need to go down to 25% to be considered "fit" and there is a lower "athletic" category, but I don't aspire to go that far. The Wellness Coach (Brandon) gave me a program with 10 strength exercises and a cardio warm up. I did it Monday and was not sore. I had never used the elliptical before and have enjoyed it 2 days in a row. It seems like the stationery bicycle, though, actually raised my heart rate better. I also tried pilates last evening and really enjoyed it. I couldn't keep the scoop and imprint my spine into the floor on all moves, but I could do most everything.
All in all, life is good, and I'm truly trying to love myself just as I am!
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
I'm doing the Polk County Team Love Yourself As You Are Right Now Challenge for March. We weighed and measured today and I recorded mine in the Weigh In & Other Measurements. I actually had some small improvement. We looked in the mirror and found positive points. I saw more muscle definition in my arms and even some in my abs, a thinner face, and a body that looks pretty good in clothes.
I have to confess, though, that my eye was not drawn to what I'm please with. Why is it always so much easier to see the flaws than the assets? Guess it just means I really need this challenge this month.
Monday, March 01, 2010
Assignment for today:
1. Write a short summary about what you want to do for yourself in the March Love Yourself as You Are Now Challenge.
I'm at goal weight and I still can't say I feel really good about myself.
Weight - Sometimes I still feel fat. My stomach is pooching out or my floppy triceps continue to wave goodbye long after my hands have quit. You know what I mean. But I know I have a normal BMI. My doctor has told me that I don't need to lose more weight. Weight is not the issue. Feeling good about myself is the issue. For March, I am going to maintain my weight between 127-133 (that is moving my range down 2 pounds, but I weighed 128.8 this morning.)
Fitness - Today I'll see a Wellness Coach at the Lakeland YMCA (Cleveland Heights). I suspect that I am "skinny fat," the right weight but a high percent of body fat. If so, I should get a program to help me build muscle. I think the last 4+ months doing the SparkPeople generated strength training has helped me enough that I will be able to do at least the easiest level at the gym. Fitness Goal for March: find out body fat percentage, get program related to the findings, and do it!! I may have to see the doctor, too, because she has told me no heavy lifting, without defining what heavy is. That could postpone getting started on the program, but I'll start as soon as I can. I will continue to do at least 60 minutes of cardio 6x per week and I'll make sure I get strength training at least 2x per week for core, for upper and for lower body. Currently 10 pound weights are the heaviest I use.
Relationships - I live with a lot of criticism, and much of it I think is undeserved. I simply must be strong enough to decide what is okay, live in accordance with my own values, and discount unfair critics in my life. Goal for March: I'll write down most (or at least many) of the criticisms with my analysis. I'll look for truths in criticisms that I can benefit from, and I will negate those that are unhelpful and unfair. I will develop some positive affirmations to counteract the environment in which I live.
Appearance - I'm going to do something with my hair and try to make it look better. When I am doing lots of cardio, especially when I am doing it several times a day, it makes it difficult, but perhaps not impossible. March: new hair style.
House Order and Cleanliness - I don't feel good about the way I live. It is difficult because my husband enjoys mess, and dirt does not bother him. He regularly does very little to no housework, except for grocery shopping. After meals I often just put the food away when Natalie (3 year old) is with us and then leave the dirty dishes in order to play and have more time with her. For March: I will make my bed at least 5x per week. All dishes will be washed before I go to bed at least 6x per week.
So, for March, I'll do the Love Yourself as You Are Now Challenge daily activities. I'll maintain my weight, start a gym fitness program, get a new hair cut, make my bed, and do better at keeping the kitchen clean. I will reflect on how I feel about myself and look for opportunities to improve my relationship with myself.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
My hubby is not big on holidays. Thirty years ago, after we'd been married for one month, I gave him a "Monthiversary" present. He just laughed. He told me he does Christmas and birthdays, but no other celebrations. So, I've accepted that.
But this year on Valentine's Day I said I wanted something I hadn't had for quite some time: chocolate. Specifically, I wanted 70% cacao dark chocolate, since I'd read about its antioxidant properties. So I wanted one serving of indulgence with a redeeming quality. I said I was going to drive to the store. He said I didn't need to, that it would probably be half price the next day. Oh, I let him talk me out of it. Later I looked at Publix and at CVS and couldn't find 70% cacao. I thought I'd check out a health food store later.
Hubby went to DisneyWorld with grandkids the next week and brought me home 3 bars of 60% cacao, each with 4 - 110 calorie portions. Almost. Close. He tried. I shared with guests, thoroughly enjoyed it, and thought that was it.
Those who follow my blog know that hubby is the grocery shopper in the family. He took it over after about three months of my maintenance when he figured out I wasn't going back to shopping like I used to. He said he wasn't getting what he needs. He is diabetic and has had a heart attack. Believe me what I buy is far more what he needs. But that is a digression from this story.
Hubby then came home from Publix with 4 bags -- FOUR bags - of Nestle's Special Dark Mildly Sweetened Chocolate Nuggets with Almonds. They were buy one - get one free. He brought home 36 servings of 180 calories each. Admittedly the bag touts antioxidant properties. BUT the fine print says it is 45% cacao. Darn.
If I have a trigger food left it is chocolate. It would be so easy for me to eat a whole bag or two at one sitting. It is yummy. But I intend to resist. I could throw it away or give it away, but I'm down to my target weight (128.8 this morning) and I am going to try to handle it. Wish me luck. He truly did mean well.
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