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Ten, Nine, Eight, Seven, Six, Five....

Thursday, March 04, 2010

It had escaped my attention, obviously for years. I have donated hundreds of items of clothing to a thrift store that supports great programs(literacy/GED, financial stability, basic needs: food pantry and homeless prevention) I have been associated with. But I don't donate underwear, so it had just eluded me. However, the other day my panties were sticking above the waist band of my jeans and wading up around my waist under my shirt, so I decided I had to buy some new ones. And my new panties would not fit into my already full panty drawer. So as I sat and more or less watched TV, I sorted my panties by size.

There were size 10's. Honestly, I do not remember being that big. That must have been in 1998-9 when I was on those steroids. And there were small pile of 9s. Was that really my size at one time ?? I remember wearing 8's for a lot of years and being proud to fit into 7's. Sixes are okay now, but 5 low rise do best with jeans these days.

I'm at my destination now. The object is to stay in fives, but I'll keep my sixes for now. Sevens and up are gone. There will be no more 7-10's. But it is time for balance. There will never be a 4, 3, 2, 1 or I might just blast off!!

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JHADZHIA 3/4/2010 9:46PM

    Congrats! I must be a dino, I am not familiar with panties in sizes other than small, medium and large and, of course XL lol. I was told some organizations may take underwear. I was sad when I had tossed 15 good bras thinking they wouldn't take them anywhere :(
Keep up the great work!

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SLIMMERJESSE 3/4/2010 9:28PM

    Wow, good for you! Congrats!

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    Love it!!

WTG Marsha!!

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KALIGIRL 3/4/2010 3:35PM

    Here's to the 5s!

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MARIEBART 3/4/2010 3:33PM

    I'm focusing on weeding things from my closets. Between retiring (and having more business attire than I need) and losing weight, I have a lot to donate. AmVets is picking up next week.

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    emoticon Marsha. I did that not so long ago too. I wear size 6, which is also my ring size and my shoe size. Hmm that's an interesting thought. Good for you on cleaning out that drawer,

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WALKINGANNIE 3/4/2010 12:59PM

    Great job Marsha! This made me smile.

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AQUAGIRL08 3/4/2010 12:06PM

    Cleaning out clothes that are too big is good for the soul. Doesn't it make you feel great to know that you're so much smaller? You're doing a great job Marsha!

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PO_PAZZA 3/4/2010 10:48AM

    I amazes me how many of our experiences parallel each other, Marsha. I did the same chore a couple of months ago for the same reason. Yes, let's only buy 5's forevermore, the sexier the better. We've all earned them, whatever the size.


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CGRESS2 3/4/2010 10:25AM

    Yikes I am still wearing 10s will I ever get down there?!
Congrats on the new undergarments!

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BESTSUSIEYET 3/4/2010 10:11AM

    My dear, I can identify!! I have cleaned out the underwear drawer several times over the last year -- and the difference in sizes was staggering! Like a giant next to a child! Recently I wanted a new bra, and since I got fitted for the right size a few months ago, headed off to find something pretty. Didn't stop to try on - bad move! It was WAY too big! Came back and had to try on about 6 (in smaller sizes, not just different brands) before finding one that worked. I honestly was looking at the teen/junior section briefly, wondering if I needed to be there instead of the ladies section!

Loved your title, by the way -- you drew me right in to see what you were writing about! Keep your good sense of humor, and keep on encouraging the rest of us! Happy Maintaining!

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Celebrate Son in Law's New Job! & Listen to Wellness Coach

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Celebrate Son in Law's New Job!! He starts March 15th as a Certified Paraoptometric Assistant, more commonly called Optometric Technician. I'm so proud of him!! He has significantly increased his income and taken a lot of pressure off my dear pregnant daughter. He is a wonderful, caring young man and a wonderful dad. His only flaw was in providing, and now, he is perfect! Well, as perfect as any 28 year old man can be in my eyes.

Report from the Wellness Coach: My Body Mass Index (BMI) is 20.2 (very good) and my body fat percentage (BFP) is 29%. That BFP is not so good. It falls in the "acceptable" range, so it could be worse. I need to go down to 25% to be considered "fit" and there is a lower "athletic" category, but I don't aspire to go that far. The Wellness Coach (Brandon) gave me a program with 10 strength exercises and a cardio warm up. I did it Monday and was not sore. I had never used the elliptical before and have enjoyed it 2 days in a row. It seems like the stationery bicycle, though, actually raised my heart rate better. I also tried pilates last evening and really enjoyed it. I couldn't keep the scoop and imprint my spine into the floor on all moves, but I could do most everything.

All in all, life is good, and I'm truly trying to love myself just as I am!

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WALKINGANNIE 3/4/2010 12:55PM

    Great news about your son in law.

Brandon's report is interesting and you have done so well to get this feedback, especially given your history of weight management. This is a major triumph! You have taken control of yourself so firmly and continue to provide so much inspiration.

Love yourself Marsha. You so deserve it.


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    Marsha, I'm am so happy for your son and for you. I know you are relieved as well as proud.

You are doing well with your workouts. I need to get back to Curves when it's warmer here in the am. I hope to get there tomorrow through Sat. for at least 3 times a week I usually go 5 times and haven't been there this week yet,.
To many other things going on and it's been too cold in the mornings for me to go out with my asthma.

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MONTY68 3/3/2010 11:55PM

    Hi Marsha
Congratulations on your Son in Laws new career.

Marsha, You are beyond words. I just get so motivated when I see what you have done. SparkPeople needs to have a group of member pages that are dedicated to proven success. Your page would have to be first in the group. You are the example that people should follow to meet their own goals.
And just to remind you that only someone who truly loves themself. could accomplish what you have. You are that Love, believe me.

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ONEKIDSMOM 3/3/2010 9:19PM

    Great news, on both counts! Congrats and may things only get better, Marsha! emoticon emoticon

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KALIGIRL 3/3/2010 9:12PM

    emoticon Sounds like a super day!

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WTG! I wish you to be as impressed with you as I am!!

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PO_PAZZA 3/3/2010 2:32PM

    Beautiful BMI. I could only aspire to that, never to achieve it (I'm 23.8) As for the body fat indicator, I wouldn't put too much credence on it unless it was an underwater test. My health assessment put me at 16.5% body fat, and I know, know, know that can't be right. My muffin top will attest to an error there.

So celebrate that you are doing so much so well. And congratulations on having a daughter who can choose a great spouse.


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PERSISTANT123 3/3/2010 12:41PM

    You are fabulous! emoticon I come here when I motivation and even when I don't because you are so positive! Thanks! emoticon

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AQUAGIRL08 3/3/2010 12:06PM

    Wow! You've made really great progress Marsha! What I love is that you are so willing to try new things. That's awesome!

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Must Really Need this Challenge

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

I'm doing the Polk County Team Love Yourself As You Are Right Now Challenge for March. We weighed and measured today and I recorded mine in the Weigh In & Other Measurements. I actually had some small improvement. We looked in the mirror and found positive points. I saw more muscle definition in my arms and even some in my abs, a thinner face, and a body that looks pretty good in clothes.

I have to confess, though, that my eye was not drawn to what I'm please with. Why is it always so much easier to see the flaws than the assets? Guess it just means I really need this challenge this month.

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SJSTOMPER 3/2/2010 8:36PM

    You've lost a substantial amount of weight. Be very happy with yourself, and your accomplishments. Be gentle with what you say to yourself when you look in the mirror (or weigh in). Remember, this is a journey (like life), and everything falls into place in it's own time. You're doing great!!

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WATERMELLEN 3/2/2010 8:28PM

    "My eye was not drawn to what I'm pleased with": Ain't that the truth!!

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AQUAGIRL08 3/2/2010 7:06PM

    I'm right there with you! Together we will learn to love ourselves as we are now!

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KALIGIRL 3/2/2010 4:12PM

    It is amazing isn't it how we're fast to criticize?
Here's to your challenge -it sounds super!

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PEGGYANNSCH 3/2/2010 3:11PM

    We are beautiful in God eyes

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MONTY68 3/2/2010 1:59PM

    Hi Marsha,
First things, That sounds like a great challenge you are in. You looked in the mirror and saw what all the hard work did and how great you look and feel, but then you saw the flaws and questioned why is that that I see the flaws. I am only speaking from my experiences and what it would mean to me. First, even the title Love myself right now. Deep in our subconscious are beliefs and feelings about loving our self. I couldn't look into a mirror and without turning my head to say the words I love you(me). It took a lot of work to do that. Then there is the feeling that I am not good enough and no matter what I do it was never enough. So to see all the good things, I still had to remind me of the things that were not good enough. This for me was the lack of self confidence of who I really am and deny it.
I will remind you of who you are and of all the hard work and effort you have put in. The fantastic goals you have accomplished and at a weight that you now maintain. These are the important things and they showed up in mirror. The thing to remember is that we (you) are a wonderful work in process like a beautiful piece of art as it is being created. The flaws you see are and will blend into yourself in its own perfection.
I know you as a very confident and determined person that is creating your own beautiful painting and you have done a fabulous job. Congratulations, look in the mirror and say it again.


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PO_PAZZA 3/2/2010 1:23PM

    It's too bad you don't look in the mirror with the eyes of those of us here who see you. Then, you'd see only great beauty.

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WALKINGANNIE 3/2/2010 1:04PM

    It's so hard to be objective about our own appearance. I guess we're all drawn to the
areas that we are least content with.

One of the challenges of this process has to be that of making us happier with our bodies. You've certainly invested so much in healthy changes that this is bound to be reflected in your appearance too.

Sometimes, we forget about how important our eyes and facial expressions are in our appearance and how beautiful personalities can shine through, whatever our size and shape,

Hope you had a good session with your wellness coach.

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JOHAL52 3/2/2010 12:53PM

    I like that challenge you are in! My eyes are always drawn to my thighs and butt somehow. And I never like what I see. Your blog has inspired me to change that attitude! THANKS! emoticon

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ANGELBELIEVER 3/2/2010 11:53AM

    Glad you saw the positives of your health journey. It takes hard work to look at ourselves in a positive way. Not sure why we can be so critical of ourselves. I have to remember that God made me and he doesn't make junk! I have also changed for the better and I can see those changes . emoticon

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PERSISTANT123 3/2/2010 10:24AM

    Time to focus on the positive. Tell the critic inside that their day is done. You've done a fabulous job and the rest will come in time! emoticon

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AMBUDMAN 3/2/2010 10:06AM

    If we could see ourselves as others see us we would be fine. emoticon

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Love Yourself as You Are Now Challenge - Polk County SparkTeam

Monday, March 01, 2010

Assignment for today:
1. Write a short summary about what you want to do for yourself in the March Love Yourself as You Are Now Challenge.

I'm at goal weight and I still can't say I feel really good about myself.

Weight - Sometimes I still feel fat. My stomach is pooching out or my floppy triceps continue to wave goodbye long after my hands have quit. You know what I mean. But I know I have a normal BMI. My doctor has told me that I don't need to lose more weight. Weight is not the issue. Feeling good about myself is the issue. For March, I am going to maintain my weight between 127-133 (that is moving my range down 2 pounds, but I weighed 128.8 this morning.)

Fitness - Today I'll see a Wellness Coach at the Lakeland YMCA (Cleveland Heights). I suspect that I am "skinny fat," the right weight but a high percent of body fat. If so, I should get a program to help me build muscle. I think the last 4+ months doing the SparkPeople generated strength training has helped me enough that I will be able to do at least the easiest level at the gym. Fitness Goal for March: find out body fat percentage, get program related to the findings, and do it!! I may have to see the doctor, too, because she has told me no heavy lifting, without defining what heavy is. That could postpone getting started on the program, but I'll start as soon as I can. I will continue to do at least 60 minutes of cardio 6x per week and I'll make sure I get strength training at least 2x per week for core, for upper and for lower body. Currently 10 pound weights are the heaviest I use.

Relationships - I live with a lot of criticism, and much of it I think is undeserved. I simply must be strong enough to decide what is okay, live in accordance with my own values, and discount unfair critics in my life. Goal for March: I'll write down most (or at least many) of the criticisms with my analysis. I'll look for truths in criticisms that I can benefit from, and I will negate those that are unhelpful and unfair. I will develop some positive affirmations to counteract the environment in which I live.

Appearance - I'm going to do something with my hair and try to make it look better. When I am doing lots of cardio, especially when I am doing it several times a day, it makes it difficult, but perhaps not impossible. March: new hair style.

House Order and Cleanliness - I don't feel good about the way I live. It is difficult because my husband enjoys mess, and dirt does not bother him. He regularly does very little to no housework, except for grocery shopping. After meals I often just put the food away when Natalie (3 year old) is with us and then leave the dirty dishes in order to play and have more time with her. For March: I will make my bed at least 5x per week. All dishes will be washed before I go to bed at least 6x per week.

So, for March, I'll do the Love Yourself as You Are Now Challenge daily activities. I'll maintain my weight, start a gym fitness program, get a new hair cut, make my bed, and do better at keeping the kitchen clean. I will reflect on how I feel about myself and look for opportunities to improve my relationship with myself.

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    Great blog Marsha. Thanks for your inspiration coming from your own heart and your own life experience. emoticon

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AQUAGIRL08 3/1/2010 3:22PM

    What a great plan! You've obviously given it a lot of thought and I know that you'll be successful! We can lean on each other for support 'cuz I'm here for you!

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PEGGYANNSCH 3/1/2010 10:52AM

    you look ok to me

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ONTHEGOMO 3/1/2010 10:23AM

    Hey, Old Mom, I think you are OK right now.

How about the thought that you buy into the criticism maybe more than you would have to?? Maybe you are critical of yourself, and/or were exposed to a lot of criticism when you were growing up and internalized it? You can accept what is true and let the rest just go by. I know this because I do it. (most of the time) Finally figured it out. (I just may be older than you??)

Anyway you are doing wonderfully well, and what a sweet granddaughter. Not a bad idea to spend your time with her.



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KALIGIRL 3/1/2010 9:53AM

    This is a very powerful post - written by someone who knows who she is and where she wants to go.
I send applause - especially for your journaling about criticism. What a marvelous thing to do.
Once again, you serve as a role model to the rest of us.

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PERSISTANT123 3/1/2010 9:21AM

    I think that I need to do you Assignment for Today myself.

I can't believe how far I have come since joining SP in January, and it is a good idea to define some things in my life as well.

Thanks for all you do to inspire us Marsha!

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WILD4STARS 3/1/2010 9:09AM

    I love your plan, especially about dealing with criticism. There was a book out several years back called "Your Opinion of Me is None of My Business" and I have on occasion found myself using it as a silent affirmation. I'm betting you'll find that the less you respond to the criticism the less it will show up. Some people feed off of the victim's reaction.

Another great blog, thanks so much!

(`.) and StarDust
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WALKINGANNIE 3/1/2010 6:11AM

    It's so helpful that you share yourself like this Marsha. Reading some friends' blogs is like looking at family photographs - I can see some strong resemblances between each of us but notice the individuality that makes people unique.

I certainly recognise your analysis of weight and being 'skinny fat'. My doctor has also told me that I shouldn't lose more weight and am just right where I am now (woo hoo for that) - but my stomach, upper arms and inner thighs remain as problem areas. What makes you different is your persistence in strength training. It's inspirational and I'm trying to learn from your example.

As for relationships - wherever there are people, there are complications. Your approach is sensible and realistic. It's so good - and typically focused of you - that you're aiming to make any criticism as constructive as possible, whether that was the intention or not. It sometimes helps to remember how the critic feels as they see us make effective decisions, look better and increase in strength and confidence?

As for housework... You know what they say. "Behind every successful woman is... and enormous pile of unironed laundry."

Good luck with your March plans.

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He Meant Well

Sunday, February 28, 2010

My hubby is not big on holidays. Thirty years ago, after we'd been married for one month, I gave him a "Monthiversary" present. He just laughed. He told me he does Christmas and birthdays, but no other celebrations. So, I've accepted that.

But this year on Valentine's Day I said I wanted something I hadn't had for quite some time: chocolate. Specifically, I wanted 70% cacao dark chocolate, since I'd read about its antioxidant properties. So I wanted one serving of indulgence with a redeeming quality. I said I was going to drive to the store. He said I didn't need to, that it would probably be half price the next day. Oh, I let him talk me out of it. Later I looked at Publix and at CVS and couldn't find 70% cacao. I thought I'd check out a health food store later.

Hubby went to DisneyWorld with grandkids the next week and brought me home 3 bars of 60% cacao, each with 4 - 110 calorie portions. Almost. Close. He tried. I shared with guests, thoroughly enjoyed it, and thought that was it.

Those who follow my blog know that hubby is the grocery shopper in the family. He took it over after about three months of my maintenance when he figured out I wasn't going back to shopping like I used to. He said he wasn't getting what he needs. He is diabetic and has had a heart attack. Believe me what I buy is far more what he needs. But that is a digression from this story.

Hubby then came home from Publix with 4 bags -- FOUR bags - of Nestle's Special Dark Mildly Sweetened Chocolate Nuggets with Almonds. They were buy one - get one free. He brought home 36 servings of 180 calories each. Admittedly the bag touts antioxidant properties. BUT the fine print says it is 45% cacao. Darn.

If I have a trigger food left it is chocolate. It would be so easy for me to eat a whole bag or two at one sitting. It is yummy. But I intend to resist. I could throw it away or give it away, but I'm down to my target weight (128.8 this morning) and I am going to try to handle it. Wish me luck. He truly did mean well.

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WATERMELLEN 3/2/2010 8:27PM

    I'm a huge fan of the Lindt 85% cocoa individually wrapped squares of chocolate -- about 30 calories each -- and I keep a bag of them in my locker at the gym: have a square (occasionally two) after a workout! Really really really chocolatey: it's spoiled me for "lesser" chocolate.

In addition: chocolate brownie oatmeal (1/3 cup large flake oatmeal, 1 tbsp unsweetened cocoa powder, 3/4 c boiling water, nuke for 2 minutes, add Splenda and sprinkle of walnuts.

And: fat free sugar free vanilla yogourt (splenda sweetened) with 1 tbsp unsweetened cocoa powder stirred in: very chocolatey.

Unsweetened cocoa powder is teeeming with antioxidants and has 5 tiny little calories per tbsp!!

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KALIGIRL 2/28/2010 4:21PM

    Sorry chocolate is your trigger food -
that makes it tough. emoticon
The Hershey nuggets you mention are actually my treat food. Granted they don't have 70% cacao, but they do have almonds which are good for cholesterol. In addition, it takes 4 nuggets to make a serving, so I treat myself to one @ a time.
(In fact, I'm savoring one now...) emoticon

I'm happy to wish you luck, but have faith you can resist eating the whole bag. (It won't taste good anymore...)

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WILD4STARS 2/28/2010 3:12PM

    Just supports my belief that men should not be allowed in grocery stores unsupervised.

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WALKINGANNIE 2/28/2010 2:47PM

    Is this another dimension of strength training? You're so good at dealing with the physical challenges so I'm sure that you can deal with Temptation Bootcamp?


You'll feel great when you've spaced out your indlugences. Enjoy them when you do decide to eat them though. Savour each mouthful.

Good luck!

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ANNIEONLI 2/28/2010 1:29PM

    Gotta give them cradit when they DO try at least....altho I hear you about it being few & far between - ROFL!!

Thanks for swinging by my blog today...fgiured I'd returna visit & I'm glad I did! WOW and congrats on the target weight! you look wonderful in all your pics too emoticon emoticon

You're an inspiration! emoticon

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PEGGYANNSCH 2/28/2010 1:10PM

    My husband is not for holidays but I buy him something anyway but he doesn't buy me anything but that is ok.

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MONTY68 2/28/2010 12:56PM

    Hi Marsha,
Very interesting blog. Congratulations On the target weight I wish you luck in handling the candy, I know you can. I eat a oz of nuts every day because of the value I get but I have to allow it as part of my daily calories.
Your husband did mean well, but as a man, in my opinion, I felt if that had been me, a sense of guilt would have entered in because I didn't do it on Valentines Day and I would need to make it up big time.
I know that you will handle it in the best way for yourself.


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AQUAGIRL08 2/28/2010 12:35PM

    There is nothing wrong with indulging periodically. You could eat one bar once a week. You'd be set for months! Maybe next time you can go with him and help with the grocery shopping. Show him which chocolate bars you like. Just a thought....

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