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Forget 6 Weeks -- Finalizing Can Take Time

Monday, October 07, 2013

The current challenge I have set for myself is to nail down and finalize a goal weight during this year, 2013. I made my initial goal weight in March of 2009 at Weight Watchers. Fifty six free monthly weigh-ins after that achievement, I'm still playing around with what is the best weight for me that I can maintain. I laugh when I think that the WW program has 6 weeks built into it to accomplish this task, and here I am, 4.66 years later still working it.

Perhaps I need a remedial goal weight setting class, BUT here I am, 4.66 years later at a healthy BMI, living life healthier and happier than I ever thought I could. So I've struggled a bit to set the goal, and I've struggled to define and live the habits that support that goal. OK. Is it really any wonder after 5 decades of living life overweight or obese that establishing that lifestyle would take some work and some time?

Right now I am testing whether 126 is a maintainable weight for me. This morning it was 126.2, very close. But silly me, yesterday I didn't weigh because I felt bloated and didn't want to see what the scale said. Why am I afraid after all these years that I will get discouraged after one bad weigh? I had eaten a few bites more than my generous post-run calorie range, that was one reason. And two days before when I had stuck to my plan completely I weighed 127 the next day, which is probably the second reason -- I figured it was worse. If I want to do an accurate weight averaging I need to weigh each day. And if I want to weigh 126, I don't have to be perfect, but pretty near. And, yes, I know weight fluctuates. But I want to fluctuate below 126 as often as I fluctuate above.

So I accept that there is a certain silliness (insanity?) to this finalizing my weight. My husband hasn't noticed any weight change in me the last 4.66 years. Nobody else cares or notices. Yet I can see and feel the difference. So I don't know yet whether 126 will be my final goal weight. But it might. And my intention is to pursue sanity on this issue after I have accomplished this challenge!

  
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    I know you've referred to 126 as your "happy weight"; time will tell! Take all the time you need. emoticon

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WATERMELLEN 10/7/2013 7:45PM

    That "lowest achievable/lowest sustainable" debate is an interesting one -- you might want to reread what Judith Beck has to say on the topic as you explore your "goal setting". Whatever you settle on: you are to be congratulated for your hard work and self-discipline.

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_LINDA 10/7/2013 7:16PM

    Having followed your angst over this magic number for quite some time, I can only hope you will find a result that you can be at peace with and accept as the normal fluctuating weight. Just keep in mind if it becomes too stressful to maintain the lower number, is it really worth it? The whole idea is just to live the healthiest lifestyle you can and then the weight should take care of itself. Your body will know where it wants to be in the end.
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    You'll find where you want to be and can comfortably maintain. Good for you for caring about it and fiddling with it for so long. You're doing very well.

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KLMEIRING 10/7/2013 1:49PM

    It sounds to me as though you already have a goal weight.

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Come Too Far

Saturday, October 05, 2013

Yesterday I was at 127.0 on the scale and had to talk to myself about not being disappointed. I'm hoping to go more than 6 days this time of weighing less than 127, but I accept that what I have direct control over is my eating. Weight fluctuates. This morning I was at 126.8, which isn't much different, but feels a whole lot better.

Enjoyed my speed work this morning, which included 10 half-mile repeats. I was disappointed, though, when I asked about the 4:40am workout on Monday morning with the two hour and 30 minute pace group leader for the Lakeland Half Marathon. The pace leader for the 2:37 group told me not to come. She thinks I need to slow down because I'm not totally healed. Oh, well. I'll enjoy my sleep. I just might make the 2:30 time on November 9th anyway. (Part of me wants to trash talk: that would show her!! But my better self just wants to run well.)

I'm not going to let minor disappointments get me down. I've come too far and accomplished too much.

  
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    You are doing well! You are healthy and fit. You'll run your best in November, and maybe you WILL show her, but you're too classy to really do the trash talk thing. (Besides, it's terribly embarrassing if you do it and then can't live up to the boast.)

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TAICHIDANCER 10/6/2013 5:57AM

    Yes you have. Good advice for yourself and for me too.

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SEAJESS 10/6/2013 1:24AM

    Oh, so close! Maybe your body just feels happiest at 127. (127! That sounds like runway model weight to me!)

Glad your pace leader held you back. I always think I've healed faster than I really have; most people seem to be that way and you are in it for your big race. Don't be one of those thoroughbreds who gets scratched at the post!

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    I'm glad for you.

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_LINDA 10/5/2013 11:40PM

    I think I remember you saying you still felt something in the glute. Perhaps you do need the break just in case. This isn't a set back for you, its merely a speedbump. You are still a going concern and will accomplish your goals in fine fashion!
Even though I am an insomniac, I simply couldn't imagine exercising at 4am!!!
Maybe you need to look at the average weight around your ideal weight over time. As you weigh daily, you should be able to graph your progress. It would be very illustrative to see where your body might be trying to fix a set point..
Keep up the great work!

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SLIMLILA 10/5/2013 8:25PM

    YES YOU HAVE --- come too far to not be celebrating!!!! emoticon emoticon

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    emoticon It is best to make sure you are totally healed and then on race day - run your race and no one else's!

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GABY1948 10/5/2013 7:06PM

    You are doing GREAT...don't let something small like this get to you...though I do understand...but that is why I have to stay AWAY from the scale...don't know what I will actually do when I finally DO reach maintenance!

Hang tight, Marsha, you are a WOMAN after all...so I am thinking you will reach a pattern to it all over time...regardless, you are maintaining...and to my knowledge, no one stays the same weight all the time! emoticon

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    emoticon No need to have a setback now!

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MJREIMERS 10/5/2013 5:44PM

    Hang in there! Let you body heal so you can continue running. Otherwise, you may not be able to run at all. (That's what I faced.) emoticon

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    Way to learn from the mind traps that are easy to get us down, you smart lady!

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    Good pep talk, Marsha!!

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    Good luck, and train SMART, Marsha. I want you well, happy AND active! emoticon

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Maybe I Can

Thursday, October 03, 2013

126.2 this morning, that's down .4 from yesterday after a high sodium day. I'm excited about maintaining in the 126 range. That is now 6 days. Maybe I can do this!! We'll see. Too early to really get excited about it.

Ran-walked-ran a little over 5 miles this morning in a little over one hour. Enjoyed the easy run thoroughly.

Have not yet successfully gotten back into the strength training routine. Trying to do core exercises without stressing my sore left hand - sit ups, back extensions, ab machine (without holding on) but no planks and no pull downs. Not sure if I need to go to the doctor or not, but I know I can't do push ups even modified nor any of the arm machines at the gym. All would stress my hand. Guess working the arms will just have to wait. Still have just a whisper of something not right in the left glute, too. I really do have a lot of health I'm grateful for, but I've got some limits, too. So glad I can run!!! Will try to get the exercise I need around the limitations.

  
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_LINDA 10/4/2013 12:57AM

    So glad you have some form of exercise you can fully enjoy -that is so precious to have that ability! Trying is not an option for core exercises -there are so many effective ones that do not use your hands -in fact the bicycle crunch is considered one of the most effective -laying on back, put legs in table top position, the crunch to one leg at a time while scissoring the legs -Sparkpeople has a demo of this and others. Another effective one is lying on your back put both legs straight up in the air at an 90 degree angle, then lift bum up while not rocking the legs back and forth -so lift straight up and down. As I cannot use my hands and can never do planks and push ups, I have to find alternatives and there are always some out there -no excuses!
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SEAJESS 10/3/2013 10:00PM

    You ARE doing it, Marsha! Way to roll!!!
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    No maybe about it. You CAN! emoticon emoticon

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SMITTY4RL 10/3/2013 9:08PM

    Great job on the run this morning! And way to go with your weight--126 is a nice range. Sorry to hear about your hand injury, hope it heals fast so you can get back to ST ;-).

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    You are doing well. Keep resting your sore hand. Hope it heals quickly.

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WATERMELLEN 10/3/2013 7:40PM

    You are doing amazing DESPITE the little challenges . . . I'm so impressed and inspired.

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    emoticon You know your body, so don't push things too far, too fast.... Celebrate what you can do, when you can do it, and the time will come.

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FITFRIT 10/3/2013 5:07PM

    If the hand keeps bothering you get it checked out so you don't really injure it.

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    6 days in the 126 range. emoticon

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NATPLUMMER 10/3/2013 2:17PM

    Yay for a fun easy run :-)
You could always do planks resting on your elbows instead....just a thought.

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Good Day Highlights

Wednesday, October 02, 2013

Highlights of today:

* 126.6 today; up .6 from yesterday; good eating day yesterday, so it's a fluctuation

* wonderful team dinner this eve; great supportive company. 11 people, if I counted right

* healthy (except for too much sodium) and satisfying food tonight. I had enough calories and nutrients left to eat the whole thing, but was full after half, so brought it home (do I recognize this person?? is this me???); low sodium tomorrow!

* did my Flylady morning routine (make beds, swish and swipe bathrooms, put away clean dishes, feed fish, get dressed to shoes, etc.) and then home blessing (dust, sweep/mop, vacuum, change sheets, take out trash, straighten, etc.) today plus laundry plus washing good china and crystal; dust china cabinet; some de-cluttering. spent 5+ active hours

* printed out pictures and mailed cute ones of Gwen and older grandkids to mom

* mailed birthday card to sister with small gift and good picture I took of her 2 kids

* son-in-law called to ask me about a healthy crockpot recipe I'd made and he wanted to replicate! (I'll take a bow here.)

* tried to repair air compressor to fill my bike tires, but hubby and I decided it won't repair and we are going to buy a new one

* especially good day because I didn't sleep well last night but did good anyway

  
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    Wow! You did have a good day! You definitely got a lot done!

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    From reading the blog, I'd say #1 on this list should be: had fun and am starting to really believe in myself.

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    Wow, I guess! Great day! WTG!

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    Great blog!! You are inspiring!! Keep on keeping on...

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Ticker Games

Tuesday, October 01, 2013

Background: I've lost about 86 pounds and kept it off a little over 4.5 years after more than 5 decades of being overweight or obese. Thanks to Weight Watchers, SparkPeople, Curves, the YMCA, Galloway Run-Walk-Run that showed me what to do, and a lot of failed diets over years and years that taught me what not to do, I'm living at the weight I've wanted to be since I was in junior high school!! I'm training for my second and third half marathons. I believe I could maintain even without the running, but I have come to love the running!!
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OK now. I weighed 125.8 Sunday morning, 126.6 on Monday morning, and 126.0 today. I entered my weight into SP today and it now shows me as 3 pounds under goal. Even though my favorite weight is 126, I changed my goal to 129 several months ago because I was just tired of seeing my ticker showing me over goal. I found it de-motivating, so I changed it. I know this is just playing games, but it helped me for my ticker not to be telling me I was over goal. After months of trying to get to 126, with my ticker listing 129 as my goal, I made it to 126. Go figure.

For a while I had my ticker set on number of weeks of maintenance, and in my own mind I considered myself maintaining as long as I was under 135. But that felt a little too loosey-goosey. I could look at other options or even - would you believe - eliminate the ticker from my page and postings. I could, but I like that visual. Powerful snapshot of success. I deserve it.

You know, I know that when it comes to weight, I'm not totally sane. Perhaps sanity is overrated, or maybe I really shouldn't write blogs like today that demonstrate my obsession, or at least lack of balance, on this issue. I could write them and not post them, but what fun is that? I'm retired now so I'm no longer concerned that things online are going to curtail my professional options.

So, should I change my ticker goal weight back to 126? I'm thinking not yet. Being under is not a negative. Let's see if I'm going to maintain 126. Three days is not a test. And yesterday I was .6 over. I get it. Weight fluctuates. I don't like it, but I get it.

I'm laughing at myself now. Maybe really someday in the not too distant future I will find the strength to give up my scale obsession. I gave up the mindless eating. I gave up sitting most of the time. I gave up not caring about my health and appearance. But this may be the hardest one to give up yet!!

  
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MEADSBAY 10/3/2013 9:20AM

    okokok- I'll get up off my arse and get busy!
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AQUAGIRL08 10/2/2013 4:30PM

    If you are considered obsessed, then so am I! I would prefer to say that we are hyper-vigilant about meeting our goals (and maintaining the ones we meet). Just reading your blogs makes me feel better because I now know that there are others out there who are going through the same thing.

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COCK-ROBIN 10/2/2013 12:25AM

    Wonderful!

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WILD4STARS 10/1/2013 10:43PM

    The scale is just a way to keep score and in the field of weight maintenance it's the best score keeper we have. It's a tool to use to your benefit! I'm just a couple pounds from goal and my thoughts are that when I get to goal I'm going to turn my ticker into a maintenance range. I want to maintain between 102 - 106, so I'm going to set my ticker up to show that. I haven't figured out exactly how yet, but that's what I want to do.

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SEAJESS 10/1/2013 9:52PM

    You know, I think WHATEVER WORKS! emoticon

I found it was just too too much to put all the weight I need to lose on my ticker. I put 10% of my body weight ala WW and then five pound increments. I like lots of reinforcement. Reinforcement good! This is a lifestyle change and happy is part of it.

(...but then, you ARE talking to the woman who uses a Pokeman slogan to keep from going off her food plan. Again, WHATEVER WORKS.)

Bottom line, I agree with all the others who remind you of your MAGNIFICENT SUCCESSES of which maintenance may be the greatest. Dunno. Never been there. Never done that. I'm watching YOU for tips to see how it's done.

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JOYINKY 10/1/2013 8:07PM

    Our obsession with numbers is funny. I consider myself "at goal" if I'm within 5 pounds under or over. But, that was allowing me to be OK at 14o and I'm not. Silly as it is 140 is a nemesis number for me; I get stuck there! Then, too easily creep up. Old fears die hard. Sooooo, I changed my ticker and reset my goal at 133 from 135. It's just more comfortable. A "stopper" if you will at a maximum of 138. Alas the price I pay is being "over goal" at 134. Worth the price. I would wait and change my ticker with the new year if I were still comfortably maintaining under goal. We always have choices. emoticon

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GABY1948 10/1/2013 7:42PM

    emoticon Marsha! You can do ANYTHING! The scale is an obsession to me for sure. And I am not even at maintenance, though, I know I will get there after reading so much on your blogs and Barb's blogs and others...I BELIEVE I can do it. But as for the scale? When I really have a doubt, I have dh weigh me and not tell me but just let me know and then I go from there...usually it is my mind telling me that I feel "fatter" so he weighs me and so far it has been a lie.

So, all that said, I KNOW YOU CAN GIVE it up if you truly want to. You can do ANYTHING! You are a HERO emoticon

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ONEKIDSMOM 10/1/2013 7:24PM

    Marsha, Marsha, Marsha! Would it help you to know you're not alone in "rethinking" what that number on the ticker should say? I was reading MJREIMERS blog the other week, and she was having a similar conversation with herself. While I haven't blogged about it, I have had the internal conversation about whether I should "accept the sustainable reality" and bump mine up from the 122... but nawwww...

It really is all about the games we play to keep ourselves motivated in maintenance! Whatever works, right? All I know is I look at you, and I see HEALTHY! Good job, fellow maintainer!

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WATERMELLEN 10/1/2013 6:34PM

    Yay obsession: it's working for you!! (And: there's a healthy dose of self-mocking irony infused into your obsession anyhow!)

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UNSWEETMAMA 10/1/2013 5:36PM

    I say leave the ticker. Heck, change your ticker goal weight to 130 :)

It's ALL a game. My goal weight is 140, but I know that I won't really feel like I've met that goal until I am under 140. I totally get the crazy.

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LAILATN 10/1/2013 5:28PM

    I think you're awesome no matter what the ticker says! Do what you have to do to feel good!

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TRAVELGRRL 10/1/2013 5:12PM

    I understand the obsession with the scale, but now it is a fun game for you to play and not a weapon to beat yourself up with! YES, you deserve it!

For years I never posted my picture on Spark, and even resisted meeting fellow Sparkers in my town. But now that I am no longer teaching I'm letting it all hang out. It's really liberating, isn't it?

I think working toward a lower weight weight is just another way you are keeping yourself motivated and keeping things fresh. You go, girl! One day soon I hope to be in the same place you are!



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MSLZZY 10/1/2013 4:57PM

    From one mildly insane person to another, whatever makes you feel good is what you should be doing-ticker included! HUGS!

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MEADSBAY 10/1/2013 4:32PM

    Gadzooks, woman- you are an amazing success story and you can put whatever you want on your ticker- it obviously is working for you!
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2WHEELEDSHARON 10/1/2013 4:22PM

    I understand (not from experience yet) that maintenance is no easier than any weight loss, so I'll support your "obsession" if it's what's keeping you motivated and focused to maintain your magnificent success.
And when you're ready to be more loosey goosey, I'll support you then too! It's YOUR journey. I appreciate you sharing it with us.

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    emoticon You accomplished much harder goals and you can do this too!

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    I have no advice on what you should do with your ticker, but I'm tremendously impressed and inspired both by your weight loss and how long you've kept it off.

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