Friday, January 29, 2010
On the first page of The Spark, in the first paragraph of the introduction are the words "reaping great benefits, such as higher levels of happiness....." It says that people who discover "a new way of living and thinking about their weight, their health, and their lives" build confidence and grow personally.
Have I gained happiness by losing 45 pounds in the last 13 months? (80 less than my 1998 high) Funny, I don't think about it that way. Perhaps I should. I remember being unhappy with my weight. I remember being disgusted at my weight and with my eating behavior. I'm more or less content with my weight the way it is now. Most days I'm pleased with the healthy way I am eating. But, I'm still concerned (I almost wrote scared) that I'll gain. Need to still work on that confidence.
Achieving a healthy weight doesn't mean you have more meaningful relationships, succeed at work, avoid all health challenges, or have financial security. Yet, life at goal weight is better. It isn't easy, but it is worth it. A healthy weight might not mean automatic unqualified happiness, but for me it got rid of a source of unhappiness. You know, I think SparkGuy is right. And I need to look at this achievement more positively. I have truly achieved a "higher level of happiness." I'll work on that confidence and personal growth thing, too.