Friday, April 27, 2012
Losing over 80 pounds has been exciting!! I was overweight more than 50 of my 62 years. Now it's been over 3 years since I achieved a healthy BMI and two full years since I got near the weight I've wanted to be since I was a teen. For the past 3 years I have awakened almost every day excited to look in the mirror and see that it really is true. I am keeping off the weight!! I am living life at a normal weight. I'm 5'6" and I wear a small petite/size 4. For a long time it has been hard to believe it is me, but it is beginning to sink in.
That "sinking in" is both good and bad. I want a slender self image, but I can't take being slender for granted. There are times I struggle and I gain a couple pounds. I'm glad that for the last 3 years I have quit quitting. It made all the difference. No matter what, I just keep trying (water, sleeping, exercising, tracking food, freggies, protein, whole grains, fat free dairy). Sure, I'd like to get the same result without struggle. I'd like the eating/exercising I do to support very narrow weight fluctuation. Perhaps I'm not done and I can continue to improve my eating. I'm going to try. And if I wake up and am not surprised, delighted, and thrilled to look at me in the mirror, well, that isn't a negative. It just means I now accept that this is the way I am.