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It's Sinking In

Friday, April 27, 2012

Losing over 80 pounds has been exciting!! I was overweight more than 50 of my 62 years. Now it's been over 3 years since I achieved a healthy BMI and two full years since I got near the weight I've wanted to be since I was a teen. For the past 3 years I have awakened almost every day excited to look in the mirror and see that it really is true. I am keeping off the weight!! I am living life at a normal weight. I'm 5'6" and I wear a small petite/size 4. For a long time it has been hard to believe it is me, but it is beginning to sink in.

That "sinking in" is both good and bad. I want a slender self image, but I can't take being slender for granted. There are times I struggle and I gain a couple pounds. I'm glad that for the last 3 years I have quit quitting. It made all the difference. No matter what, I just keep trying (water, sleeping, exercising, tracking food, freggies, protein, whole grains, fat free dairy). Sure, I'd like to get the same result without struggle. I'd like the eating/exercising I do to support very narrow weight fluctuation. Perhaps I'm not done and I can continue to improve my eating. I'm going to try. And if I wake up and am not surprised, delighted, and thrilled to look at me in the mirror, well, that isn't a negative. It just means I now accept that this is the way I am.







  
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WATERMELLEN 4/30/2012 8:01AM

    I can really relate to this. I keep on expecting to look in the mirror and see that it's all baaaaaaaaack. It was five years after the initial weight loss before I could feel confident enough to give away the size 18s and 20s.

Steve Siebold (in fatloser.com) talks about the excitement phase, the season of pain phase, and the knowing phase as the 3 stages of any program of mental toughness to break old habits.

I do think, however, that he underestimates the discipline which is necessary to sustain the new habits (and in our case, maintain the weight loss).

The season of pain is in some ways never ever over!

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BLUESKY_321 4/28/2012 6:59PM

    I am so happy that you are back blogging! I love your outlook on life!

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MIRAGE727 4/28/2012 8:56AM

    "Losing over 80 pounds has been exciting!! I was overweight more than 50 of my 62 years."
WOW Marsha, those are the exact words that would come out of my mouth!
(I'll be 62 on May 25!)
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I knew we had something in common! AND we can enjoy our grandbabies longer! Much love..
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_LINDA 4/28/2012 1:07AM

    You are looking fabulous! You have had three years of looking awesome! So now you can accept it! Is being the same weight as you wanted as a teen very realistic?
Keep on doing everything right -you are a success and maybe your body has chosen its happy weight..

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JOYINKY 4/27/2012 10:53PM

    Yes, it's you Marsha and you look great!

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ANDI571 4/27/2012 8:27PM

    Good blog. I know right where you are coming from.

Keep up the good work, you have done awesome. emoticon

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FROSTY99 4/27/2012 7:48PM

    Wow, you are doing good and it is wonderful that you are realizing the "fruits of your labor!"

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ONEKIDSMOM 4/27/2012 6:39PM

    Well, you're right on track with adapting to your new body size, if the thing I read about taking a year for each 25 pound change to accept / change your mental image of your size is accurate.

I'm right there with you, quitting the quitting! I have days, but most days... I accept that not only do I have to keep doing what I'm doing... but that I *want* to keep doing it... because I just feel better.

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LANNIEMANUEL 4/27/2012 6:36PM

    so happy for you. keep up the good work

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May Challenge

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

I'm looking for a good challenge for May. I want to take my eating up another notch. I want to exercise smartly as I anticipate half-marathon training starting June 9th. There are undoubtedly other issues in my life that could benefit from a little goal setting, planning, and work, although I'm not sure I can identify them by May 1st. Any suggestions?

  
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TBRANCH2 4/30/2012 11:53PM

    Geez, you certainly threw the gauntlet down my way!!! I will accept your challenge to create a better "challenge for May"! The "team wishes" is what my position is all about!!!

(I hope you have low expectations of me, though) lol

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JOHAL52 4/25/2012 11:13PM

    I am almost halfway through Curves Complete. I haven't done it full-bore but I have lost 3 pounds and 4 inches so that is good. My plan in May is to step it up a notch with the exercising and watch my snacking!

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AQUAGIRL08 4/25/2012 10:14PM

    Remember that small changes add up to large results. Like you, I'm also re-visiting my goal setting. I've fallen into a rut and need to hold myself to a higher standard. I know you can do it Marsh!!!! emoticon emoticon

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MEXGAL1 4/25/2012 8:16PM

    I am sure you will come up with some goals. And for sure if they are goals you set for yourself you will stick to them better. Think of a weakness or two that challenges you and take the opportunity to work on one of them.
Go for it!
Sallie

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MIRAGE727 4/25/2012 8:36AM

    Good to see ya, Martha!
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I've taken on QuickFire Challenges and added them to my routines. They've added to my overall wellness. They've also helped in my fueling when I've been in Half training mode as well. Remember the good calories to burn clean in your body. Stay strong.
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_LINDA 4/25/2012 2:15AM

    I agree with taking the eating up a notch -when you get into this training you really need to be fueling the body properly -so right away I would focus in on losing the artificial sweeteners and diet pop and replacing it with something healthier -fruit smoothies come to mind..
Keep up with the strength training -that is important for running too. Since you have had back issues I would look at getting some running shoes professionally fitted -make sure they are right for your feet from the running store professionals. It wouldn't hurt to attend a clinic to have your running technique analyzed to see if there is anything in there that might cause you any problems or if there is something you can do to improve your stride, foot strike, etc.
Since your major goal is the race, it makes sense that you set up minor goals towards making that big one as much as a success as it can be and have a lesser chance of any injury..
You are amazing taking this on and I look forward to cheering you on!!

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WATERMELLEN 4/24/2012 8:21PM

    I'm not a very good "challenge" type . . . but I'll be cheering for you, whatever challenge you choose!

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SWEETYOUNGTHING 4/24/2012 8:20PM

    I'm in the same "boat" as you are! There's so much emotional upheaval going on right now and I do need a weight challenge - I threw a pity party for myself over the past 3 weeks and 7 pounds came uninvited :-) I'll have to invest some time and search the SP site for May challenges. Best of luck! Pat

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I'm Back - Positive & Healthy!!

Sunday, April 22, 2012

My new computer is all set up and working!!! I intend to Spark much more regularly now. I've missed all my SparkFriends. Thanks for accepting my sporadic contributions during the last couple months.

Clean SWEEP status:
Sleeping - doing better; very few nights of less than 7 hours
Water - drinking enough water consistently, but too much diet soda & artificial sweetener again
Eating - good choices, but occasional portion control issues (2-3 lbs worth)
Exercise - will join Galloway running group on June 9th and work toward a half marathon probably in November -- I'm excited about it!! right now focusing on strength training
Persistence - not giving up; never, never giving up

Overall, feeling positive and healthy!!



  
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DONNABRIGHT 4/25/2012 9:54AM

    I would say you have things well under control. Welcome back!

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_LINDA 4/25/2012 2:04AM

    emoticon back!
Its great to hear from you again! So glad you are doing well!

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REXTINE1 4/24/2012 3:22PM

    Welcome back.

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SEPPIESUSAN 4/23/2012 9:26PM

    Welcome back!

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MEXGAL1 4/23/2012 8:10PM

    Marsha, so good to have you back. We missed you! Even better to hear how great you are doing.
Have a great evening and keep up the great work!
Sallie

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JOYINKY 4/23/2012 5:16PM

    Welcome back Marsha! I'm catching up here; computer has been down all day! Glad to see you're doing so well! Hugs.

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TMW54812 4/23/2012 2:55PM

    Great to have you back and going so strong!

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IAMWINNING 4/23/2012 2:26PM

    Welcome back, Marsha. I hope this computer works out well for you. Looks like you have some great plans in the making. Enjoy!

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SHRINKINGSHERI 4/23/2012 5:25AM

    Glad you are back!!!!

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FROSTY99 4/22/2012 9:32PM

    Glad to have you back!

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BESTSUSIEYET 4/22/2012 9:20PM

    Hooray for new computers and the return of a great Spark friend! Looking forward to cheering you on as you train for that half-marathon!

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MONTY68 4/22/2012 8:54PM

    Hi Marsha
Welcome back and congratulations on your new computer. It is so frustrating when we don't have a computer.
I think you have done quite well. You are always aware and do the best that you can. That is why you continue your journey in a positive way. congratulations on your goal of the half marathon. I truly believe you will do it.
The biggest asset you have is your persistence. You will never give up.
Thank you for sharing

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JOHAL52 4/22/2012 8:35PM

    So, so glad to have you back Marsha!!

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ONEKIDSMOM 4/22/2012 8:26PM

    Welcome back! A HALF in November? Woo-hoo... a fine goal.

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WATERMELLEN 4/22/2012 8:23PM

    Yay!! We are so glad to have you back! Spark is not the same place without your constant support and leadership. You inspire so many of us!!

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Almost Back

Sunday, April 08, 2012

I'm ordering a new laptop this week and plan to be back Sparking regularly soon. I need SP and my SparkFriends.

I weighed more at my Weight Watcher weigh in yesterday than I have in the past 18 months. I'm thinking I'm up about 6 pounds and I've got about 4 pounds of water weight. We'll see.

On the positive side, I am still drinking plenty of water; eating plenty of fruits and veggies, lean protein, whole grains, and fat free dairy. I ran-walked-ran 6 miles yesterday. Been back running 4 times in last 8 days after taking 3 weeks off due to minor injury. Am planning to join a local Galloway group.

On the not so positive side, my portion control has slipped, my food tracking has been sloppy, I've been grabbing an unplanned bite of this and that here and there and even been eating standing up to eat occasionally. Well, all this will change.

I'm ready to tackle it again. I bought the Beck Diet Solution Workbook yesterday. I was at my lowest weight a year ago this time when I did Beck before using the book. I learned and incorporated some of it, but plan to work on incorporating it better into my lifestyle.

Looking forward to even greater success. Looking forward to sharing with my SparkFriends -- the only people in my life who truly understand the struggles and rewards of this healthy lifestyle.

  
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EILEENV3 4/13/2012 9:12PM

    I was so wondering about you. Hope you'll be all the way back soon. emoticon

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AQUAGIRL08 4/11/2012 9:58PM

    I'm so glad that you are back. I've missed you. If anyone can do this, it is you, Marsha. So you will be back at your "happy weight"!

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MEXGAL1 4/10/2012 12:52PM

    Marsha,
Have missed you! Hope you get your new computer up and running and are back onto sparks daily. I too have been slipping. Out of town guests, the holiday...too many excuses. So I am commited to getting back on track as well. So let's keep on keeping on and support each other to get back to eating right and exercising more!
Have a terrific week
Sallie

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JOHAL52 4/9/2012 10:54PM

    It is good to see you back!

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TBRANCH2 4/9/2012 10:54PM

    We are here for you just as you have always been here for us!!! So very glad to have you back active again!!! Enjoyed seeing you at the team dinner this month, too!!!
Hugs,
Me

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DONNABRIGHT 4/9/2012 3:43PM

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HAWKEYERANT 4/9/2012 2:46PM

    Sounds like you have a plan! Keep it up and you'll be back where you need to be in NO TIME!

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_LINDA 4/9/2012 2:03AM

    It will be so nice to have you back Marsha :) Sorry you gained some weight -hard to understand as you are usually so disciplined, but I am sure once you get to track everything regularly, you will say goodbye in a hurry to those pounds!
Enjoy the new laptop!!

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IAMWINNING 4/8/2012 7:12PM

    Hi Marsha, It's good to know you're back with us again - those darn computers! : ) How great it is that you recognized your 'problem' and are taking steps to correct it.

Welcome back!

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FROSTY99 4/8/2012 6:22PM

    Marsha it is good to have you blogging again. Good job of recognizing the problem and not letting things get out of hand.
Hope you have had a Blessed Easter.
Hugs
Pat

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REXTINE1 4/8/2012 6:12PM

    I used a pocked notebook (always in my shirt pocket) and recorded what and how many calories before I ate - every time. I also carried a running total for the daily calories - and still had times when I gained weight. There were also two plateaus several months long where I just didn't lose long term, but I finally did make my goal weight - and have managed to stay there. But every time I quit using the pocket notebook the weight eventually starts to creep up.

Good luck, and I hope you start losing again.

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JOYINKY 4/8/2012 4:43PM

    Glad you're back. I know you'll soon be right on track!

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WATERMELLEN 4/8/2012 1:28PM

    Soooooo great to have you back! I'm stuck with middle 4 also -- probably because my exercise has slipped with a persistent cold.

But: off to the gym now, and recommitting . . . . Beck is always a wonderful place to renew that commitment.

Thanks for your birthday wishes!!

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ONEKIDSMOM 4/8/2012 1:22PM

    Good to see your smiling blog-face again! Hope the new laptop integrates into your life smoothly! Happy Easter, Marsha!

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MIRAGE727 4/8/2012 1:18PM

    Hey Marsha! Good to hear from you. Hang in there and will be happy to have you back regularly on SparkPeople!
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WILD4STARS 4/8/2012 12:46PM

    So good to hear from you! Glad you're doing well and nipping your slips right in the bud!

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Missing SparkFriends

Thursday, February 02, 2012

Sleep: doing well. lots of 8 hour nights.
Water: continuing to do well. when I'm running I don't even have to think about it to achieve the goal. I am thinking about it now.
Exercise: tried to run a couple days ago and immediately had back pain. walking for now and doing it consistently. need to step up strength training.
Eating: after a couple days that weren't too good, doing well again. scale said 128.2 this morning, so didn't make my January goal of losing one pound, but not giving up. feeling pretty good about it.
Persistence: yes!

Sparking: two out of 3 computers down in house. Only computer available is hubby's and he's on it almost all my waking, non-committed hours!! Will do what I can. I really, really, really miss my SparkFriends.

  
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JOHAL52 2/10/2012 12:45PM

    I miss you too Marsha. I am back on plan again and really, really committed this time. Hope you can get your computer issues fixed soon!

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AQUAGIRL08 2/6/2012 9:39PM

    We miss you too, Marsha!

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TBRANCH2 2/3/2012 11:53PM

    And, YES, we are missing YOU!!!!

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2WHEELEDSHARON 2/3/2012 3:25PM

    Your excellent persistence will get that pound off! Sorry to hear about your back, I hope it feels better.
I know what you mean, I live with a major computer hog.

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_LINDA 2/2/2012 10:38PM

    So sorry to hear about your back, have you had it checked out? Why are you having so much trouble with it? Does this mean running is perhaps not the best exercise for you?
Maybe the parents of the children you are spending so much time looking after could give you a new laptop in exchange for all your hard work, or perhaps one they are not using or fix yours for you at the very least.. Its too bad DH can't share more, shame on him!!
Missing you on here..

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MONTY68 2/2/2012 10:06PM

    Hi Marsha
Now we know why we are not seeing you much on Spark. It is frustrating when we don't have a computer. been there , done that and actually went to Fed/ex and paid by the minute to get on Spark.
I believe that you are so focused on your healthy lifestyle and try to do what you feel you need each day. It is to bad that your back continues to bother you. At least walking keeps you moving.
I will watch to see if you are able to use the computer. You always have inspiring ideas.

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FROSTY99 2/2/2012 7:22PM

    Oh no, when my laptop is out of commission I feel so lost. I do have my old one for a backup but it is sooooo slow so I feel for you.
Hope you get up and running again soon.

Pat

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WATERMELLEN 2/2/2012 7:05PM

    Do you suppose your DH would guarantee you a dedicated hour or two?

You are doing very very well. Hope your back pain lets up soonest!

I am revisiting Beck . . . wanting to get back down to middle 3!

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ONEKIDSMOM 2/2/2012 6:56PM

    Glad to see you, even in fits and starts! Hang in there... we're rooting for you, whether you get online or not!

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IAMWINNING 2/2/2012 4:51PM

    Missing you, too, Martha. Hopefully the computer situation will straighten out soon. Know that we're thinking of you.

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JOYINKY 2/2/2012 2:30PM

    Look on it as a good exercise in lifestyle changes whether you can be online or not. I'm spending too much time here and need to set some boundaries for myself! You are missed! Stay the course! I know you will, of course!

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MIRAGE727 2/2/2012 12:28PM

    Always missin' you, Martha! Stay patient but exert energy where needed to get PC time!
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REXTINE1 2/2/2012 11:48AM

    I hope you get the other two computers fixed. It's a pain when they get cranky with you.

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TMW54812 2/2/2012 11:32AM

    Down to only one computer?.....this sounds like a disaster......call FEMA!

Only kidding.....I'd be lost without my ipad2. emoticon

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DONNABRIGHT 2/2/2012 10:08AM

    It would be sooooooooooooo hard to share a computer again. I can sympathize.

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