Saturday, November 05, 2011
Overall, I'm doing a great job with my fitness program. I've now been a healthy BMI for 33 months. I've reduced my goal weight officially at Weight Watchers twice and I'm well below that weight now, too. BUT I still haven't gotten used to the weight fluctuations on the scale.
This week I had my lowest morning weigh in for more than a month. I just felt victorious all day long!! And then after several days of eating healthy and within my calorie range without a major sodium indulgence I had my heaviest weigh in for months. I had a hard time trying not to feel bad all day long. I was still within my stated goal weight range, and yet it is just hard to see that number go up.
I set my SparkPeople program for another very small weight loss. I set it to lose 2 pounds in six months. I was hoping to fluctuate in the 124-128 range, rather than the 126-130 range for morning unclothed weights. I'd like to try it and see. If I like it, I'll change to the maintenance SparkPeople ticker and change my goal to maintenance. But if it ends up being too hard, I can be perfectly happy at the higher range.
I keep thinking that once I really commit to a maintenance range, and spend several months there, I will give up frequent weighing, and just eat healthy, confident that my weight is fine. Weighing monthly is probably adequate for maintenance. But I have spent every day of my life since I was 9 years old "scale crazy". And although I know that the scale is not my judge and executioner, it feels like it. Changing my thinking so that the scale is a helpful tool is not something that is going to happen overnight.
And whatever happens with my maintenance vs. weight loss goals and efforts, I'm going to stay focused on the positive: overall I'm doing a great job of maintaining an over 80 pounds weight loss. And I'm getting more and more confident that although I might still let the scale make me feel bad, I'll never be fat again!