Thursday, January 20, 2011
.......= awesomeness. :)
The class wasn't very big--about 8 people--and EVERYONE wore their socks. :) Phew! The instructor was super awesome, and VERY fit and toned. I liked her. The class was very comfortable--there were a few couples working out together, and a few jokesters in the class, so a lot of smiling and laughing. The pilates itself wasn't that difficult, but it was interesting (for me) to do all these, easy, little moves while focusing on things like 'engaging your stomach muscles' and keep the back neutral, chest facing straight forward and not up, etc. I've always been a 'It should be hard and I should FEEL it' kind of girl, but I'm willing to adjust my point of view. :) I think I'll be signing up for the beginner's pilates after this class as well. My core definitely needs the work! :)
And....my scale finally, FINALLY went below the 150 mark. Yay! Not sure if it will stay there, but at least I've seen it! Adds to the motivation to keep on track.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I'm feeling whiny, and needy, and just....blah. It's been a rough and long week. I'm having some difficulties getting back into gear, I feel like I have no support. Most of the time, I'm actually okay with that...I'm a pretty solitary person, you know? It's just those occasional times.....I think everybody needs the occasional boost, or support, or shoulder. I gotta find me a team or two that fits me, I guess. Can't expect people to just magically find me.
Sooooo.......let's focus on the good stuff.
I went to the gym yesterday.
I'm super sore from it today (weird, but it's a constant reminder that I DID workout, so all good)
I've been on track with food for the last two days (I haven't been horrendously OFF track the last couple weeks, but the last two days have been really spot on, and no struggles)
I'm going to the gym tomorrow.
I'm going to a CLASS tomorrow. WITH my golf club.
My work pants BOTH need a belt to stay up now. :
I've outgrown (outshrunk? undergrown?) a pair of gym pants
My back feels WAY better now--a combination of strengthening the muscles and losing some of my huge belly that was pulling on it.
Arm flappers are less....um...flappy.
There I go. It's a start. :)
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Yesterday, that is.
First, I went to the gym for the first time since who knows when. All's good on that front....and then....I saw a sign for Pilates for Golfers. I knew that the class had started last week, but figured I'd missed it since I was sick. Well, guess what? They're more than happy to add me anyway! So I joined! That's nice, you're thinking. Seriously, though, I don't do group exercise. EVER. So this is a huge leap for me, definitely out of my comfort zone (ESPECIALLY if I need to take my socks off, eeek! I have a huge almost-phobia of exposing my very strange and deformed toes to the general public). So that's TWO things that I'm going to be exposing myself to in one evening. *gulp* I really really really want this to be okay--partly because I'd really like to improve my 'golf' muscles, but partly because I'm so painfully introverted and it's SO hard for me to inch out of my shell and PLEASE let it be okay. I know me. If it freaks me out too much, I won't go back.
Then some kaka hit the fan with DH, but that's a story for another time. Too hard to talk about right now. But it definitely added to my stress level for the day (week? month? ugh) and kind of turned my world on its edge--you know how things that mattered suddenly don't when shlt happens? Priorities got flipped around....BUT but but I'm STILL going to my golfer's pilates tomorrow evening, mark my words.
Eating well on plan today. Heading up for an apple shortly. Love apples.
Oh yeah, and I'm SORE today. I've got to stop with these long lapses in my gym routine--soreness begone. :p
Monday, January 17, 2011
Trying to psych myself up into going to the gym. I've been away for so long, and have started up my crappy poor eating habits/binges again this weekend--so the best way to deal is to just move forward. It's funny, though...how quickly I get complacent. A body in motion tends to stay in motion, a body at rest wants to keep sitting its butt on the couch, surfing channels, eating pizza, and avoiding going outside in the COLD winter weather. Phlbtt.
Completely different topic: I've noticed it's that time of year again. The time when a lot of the new people start to get frustrated, because they didn't lose what they expected to. OMG, the scale didn't budge ALL WEEK!! or It went UP A LB! And I've been WORKING MY BUTT OFF! I'm just going to QUIT if that's the result I'm going to get! There's NO POINT in doing this if the SCALE isn't going to BUDGE! To heck with it!
Okay. STOP. DEEEEEEEP BREATH. Please. Just...listen.
First, and this will be harsh, but first, if your plan is that miserable to follow, that you're willing to--indeed, even looking for an excuse--to dump it at the first opportunity, it's the wrong plan. This is a LIFETIME commitment. If you continue to have the attitude that it's hard and awful but you'll do it because you have to, pretty much guaranteed you won't stay with it for long. Even if you do white knuckle your way through to a lower weight, as soon as you arrive there, your motivation for staying on such a difficult diet will be lessen, and, guess what?? You'll eventually go back to what you did before.
Go back. Find a plan that you LIKE. That sounds good. That you could say--'hey, I could eat like this all the time'. Because you DO need to eat like that all the time. There WILL be days, even weeks, that nothing will happen--you need to know that you'll be able to stick to what you're doing, even when there are no immediate results.
Second--weight loss is NOT LINEAR. Some people lose weight easily, regularly, like clockwork. Most of us don't though. I lose weight every 3rd week--as in, the scale doesn't move for two solid weeks, then it drops a few lbs in a few days. Don't know why. Just does. So expecting to see a drop every week will just set you up for disappointment. Don't expect it. Be happy when you see it; KNOW that your body is busy doing its thing, getting healthy, changing up your insides, even when the scale doesn't show.
Third--MEASURE. Far more accurate than the scale, See Popular Blogs for the entry from the girls who's stayed the same weight and dropped 3 pants sizes for proof.
That's it. I hope it helps someone. I've also gleaned a few other interesting tidbits in this journey as we go along--such as, what you do this week doesn't actually show up on your body until either the next week or even the 2nd week following (see my weight loss above as an example). Or-- There are periods of time when your body is burning interior fat --you know, the fat that's built up around your organs--which shows up less on the scale or tape measure, but is a HUGE step forward in you being healthier. Or--some people may notice that a fatty area will actually soften up, and feel squishier and looser for a few days, before shrinking--did you know that when you first burn the fat in your fat cells as fuel, the body temporarily replaces the fat with water, in the assumption that the fat will come back? When the fat DOESN'T return after a few days, then it will finally empty out the water. Which is why we sometimes drop a bunch of weight after a period of stalling.
So--the next time you're stalling in weight loss, just think--maybe your body is just waiting for YOU, to see if you're going to put that fat back in those freshly emptied cells.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Just a little one, but hey, they all help, yes?
Was reading MEZZOANGEL'S blog and something she wrote clicked for me. Something to the effect of challenges and such not working for her, because they distracted her from figuring out the inner reasons she had for getting overweight in the first place.
Ding ding ding.
I spend...more time than I should....feeling like there's something wrong with me, because I don't participate in the group classes at the gym. I almost joined a running clinic last spring, but then chickened out at the last second. Why? I'm scared. I'm scared that the experience is going to be so negative that it will ruin it for me. My very fledgling running skills are shakey at best. A HUGE reason I chose running was because NO ONE can make me feel like I don't measure up, since the only person I have to compete with is myself. Now, if I join a running club, that could change in a heartbeat. I'm fairly confident that I'd be one of the slowest, if not THE slowest, one there. Which might not be a big deal--but it REALLY depends on how they run the class. If it's a true 'beginner' running class, which focuses on form, stretching, and running basics, cool. If the focus is too much on speed and, especially, comparison to others, I think it would just...wreck it for me.
I like my running, and am going to fiercely protect it from being ruined for me, until I can FIX the stuff going on inside. It sounds like I'm really insecure, which I am, but I've also come a huge, LONG way in overcoming a lot of that. Yes, I have some remaining issues around...certain extra sensitive areas of my life. But I think it's okay for me to be protective of this, and to take care of it my way. Mainly, though, I need to stop feeling like there's anything wrong with me for doing that.
Self . :)
Edit: okay, it's not really like MEZZO's point at all, but that's how it connected in my brain. Eh.
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