Thursday, January 14, 2010
Just checking in. Work is the usual stress ball o' fun--though at least I'm not in the dark about some things anymore. I know I asked the universe to send me a challenge--but my goodness!! Ya can stop any time now! Seriously, I wonder if it will ever let up, and I wonder if this is good for me (as in molding my character and forcing me to rise to the challenge), or if it's bad (high stress, emotionally invested hence fraught at times, just plain DRAINING other times). Guess I'll find out sooner rather than later....
I've always made the assumption that a really awesome job for me would be fun, interesting, but also allow me to be kind of lazy at times and get away with it (since I would otherwise be awesome). I think I need to rethink my assumptions. I think I'm learning the hard way that a job is....gee.....a lot of WORK.
Question always comes down to--is it worth it?
So far. Waiting to see the payoff. Hmmm, maybe I should make a list of the payoffs (ie confidence at a job well done, satisfaction at work my tail off on busy days, that kinda thing) as a reminder for those crappy days.
My butt hurts. $#%#@# lunges. Ow.
Saturday, January 09, 2010
Regarding my job: %###!!@@^%&%!!!@$&!
I am VERY angry right now about some things, and am heck bent on proving certain people very very wrong in their assumptions about me. I have one month until I write my exams for my accreditation, and I will lick them if it kills me. Hence the next month is going to be very intense for me. Did I mention I'm going back to the gym again full time? And monitoring my food again? Yep, that's me....if I'm going to be busy and stressed, I'm going to take advantage of the 'mood' of the month and be busy in a good way too. Actually, the gym and eating thing have more to do with giving myself the utmost advantage. Working out makes me feel AWESOME. (most days, anyway). Eating properly keeps my blood sugars level, evens out my sleep patterns, and just generally gets rid of that icky bogged down feeling. And frankly, I need every advantage I can get. I will prove that them wrong if it kills me.
Seriously. I've never worked with anybody who left me feeling so discouraged in my life. Even my yell-y boss of my youth could acknowledge my strengths--this woman seems to think I have none. Or at least none worth mentioning.
Monday, January 04, 2010
Must focus on putting positive intentions out instead of negative ones
I will go into work tomorrow with the intention of having a good day --no strike that. I do that every morning, and my mood is dashed by the mood I'm met with in the morning. Soooo, my intention is to remove that person from that space in my life. The only person I can change is me. If I go in with the expectation of being met with happiness, and it never happens, I need to change my expectation. My new expectation is....to go into work each morning early, to give myself time to set up my desk, get my coffee, and decide which program I'm working on that day. Make a point of saying good morning to the two people who genuinely like me. It may help to go to the gym before I get to work--put me in a different mind frame.
I will focus my day on doing my assigned tasks at work, spend 2 hours reading appres, and 1 hour going over some Cores tradename rules. If I have an extra time after lunch I will go over some more Moves, and wrtie out the steps for a couple of programs that I keep forgetting.
So again--positive intentions--asking the universe to reflect back to me what I give out....
Sunday, January 03, 2010
There is an 8k women's fitness/breast health run in June. It's not huge, and a long ways off--but I think I would like to try it. I think I can train to run that by June? The only thing I don't like is the last half of the run is all uphill--ugh. But it's a start...
Sunday, January 03, 2010
VPA for my job
Wanted: A fulfilling job.
What I want in my job: I want a job where I feel appreciated. I just want to to look forward to going in to work most days, and to feel that my bosses have confidence in me. I want to work in an environment that I very much enjoy being in. My co-workers don't need to be my friends, but we should have a comfortable, easy rapport. I would very much like to feel that my boss appreciates me, and notices when I work hard and put extra effort in. The occasional comment stating the noticing of said effort would be well received.
Ideally I would love to have this happen with my current job--some days I have at work are like this, but more often they're not these days. Barring that, it would be great if someone I knew happened to know someone looking for just that right person. Maybe a business or person that I'm talking to would casually mention needing someone.
What I would give to the right job: my eternal gratefulness, for starters. I would come into work every day excited to be there, and looking forward to seeing my co-workers each day. I would do my job to the best of my ability; though I tend to have a short attention span when I get bored, I would put every effort into keeping my work stimulating. I would bring in treats and special coffees on occasion, and would always be willing to switch my lunch breaks with anyone who needed it, and am always more than happy to stay late if need be. I also have a knack for fixing things-some computer things, but more mechanical stuff such as jammed shredders, wash machines, vacuums, etc. Comes in handy. :)
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