Excuse Me

Sunday, February 26, 2012

So I'm supposed to "Write a blog listing all the excuses you tell yourself every day. Then write a counter excuse for every excuse you have written."

But I don't really have any every day excuses. Mine are more like every other day. Nonetheless... Without further ado,

"Inner Child" meets the voice of reason.

"I exercised today, so it won't hurt to eat out tonight."
Yeah, but it sure as heck won't help either!!!

"I forgot to thaw anything to cook for dinner. Gotta go out to eat."
Really? There's a grocery store less than a mile away. Walk your fat a$$ down there and buy some fresh meat to cook. And get some fresh veggies while you're at it.

"I've been exercising 60 minutes every day even though my goal is 30. Taking a day off isn't a big deal."
Last time you took a day off you felt like utter dog poo for the whole day. Get yer a$$ on that balance board!!!

"It doesn't count if I only take a bite or two."
Oh yeah? That 2 bite brownie has like 80 calories in it! I'd say that counts!!!

"I might as well eat these leftovers... Don't want them to go to waste."
So instead they will go to waist. Great decision. *SMACK*

  

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MALIAN1 2/27/2012 9:29AM

Oh my goodness...that was amazing! I love it! I think I will use that too....if you can use the counter excuses on yourself and keep repeating it....I believe it will sink in. Way to go! Report Inappropriate Comment

MDMNINA 2/26/2012 4:23PM

Love it!! Report Inappropriate Comment

YOGAANDBIKE 2/26/2012 2:19PM

You've been reading my mail... Report Inappropriate Comment

AKRONEWITTER1 2/26/2012 12:03PM

I use some of those too. And I try to talk myself out of them but I'm stubborn and don't always listen. Report Inappropriate Comment

MACILINN 2/26/2012 5:18AM

yeah those are mine too! How about adding, that "I will eat just one!" yeah right, like last time I devoured the bag! teehee. Report Inappropriate Comment

LEIAMLOW 2/26/2012 12:49AM

Your blog made me giggle. I use those excuses myself. :) It's a good reminder to knock that crap off. Thanks for posting. Report Inappropriate Comment

Today ended up in the toilet.

Saturday, February 04, 2012

The day started off heading south and ended up in friggin Antarctica.

The mail ran this morning and there was a Valentine's care package from my grandma. Her cookies are like CRACK. Seriously. So I had cookies and coffee for breakfast. I was a little disappointed with myself, but did the numbers and figured out I could still make my goals if I was careful.
So after an early lunch of leftover thin crust pizza I was looking at my numbers and realized I was gonna go over on fat. Okay, I can handle it. I'll just double my afternoon ride.
Got the baby down for his nap and went to get my bike when I realized that 41 degrees is a lot colder than it looks. No ride today. Crap.
3pm. Hmmm... Hungry... Lunch WAS awfully early. So I ate a MASSIVE salad. Not too bad though, a bowl the size of my head and it only had like 375 calories in it.
Finished my salad, got on & logged it... Piddled around the internet... Stopped to clean my glasses... My glasses broke while I was cleaning them. Like, snapped in half on the bridge of the nose broke. Well shiiit. Trouble's third child reared her nasty little head after all. I texted my neighbor to see if she had some superglue... Luckily she was at the store & was able to pick me some up. I got the glasses glued back together, but they were a little crooked. I figured that since it was still tacky I could straighten it... Nope. Came apart. And everyone knows once there is a coating of dried glue on both sides it's a done deal, no fixing it anymore. I tried duct tape but it just wouldn't stick to such a small spot... Despair... So she gave me a Tastykake, and I was bad and ate it. So I went to get dinner started and I remembered there was no meat in the house to cook. I had been planning to go out with my stepsister but she cancelled. And I couldn't exactly go to the store with no glasses. So we ended up going and getting a pizza at Papa Murphy's. I was gonna get the healthy(er) option for me- thin crust with olive oil, chicken, tomatoes, etc... And then something gloriously greasy for the rest of the clan since they don't like thin crust. But the manager was a good saleswoman. She gave me a family size 5 meat stuffed for $10. So I figured no need to add a second pizza, this sucker is HUGE.

Yeah.

And I didn't think to check the serving size before I cut it. I cut 8 slices and split one for the kids. I ate a whole slice. I figured, hey- it's half of what I ate last time we got Papa Murphy's.

Yeah.

Fail.

I went to add it to my nutrition tracker- not there. OK. Google is my friend. Pulled up a PDF of nutrition stats. Oh. Uh-oh. Shizzle. 1 serving is 1/16 of a pizza. So I had TWO servings. At ~360 calories each. Too late to change it unless I wanna stick my finger down my throat, and I'm just not really able to do that.

Tomorrow's a new day I guess... But my glasses will still be broken, and there will still be no meat to cook. Ugh.

I feel like a fecking WHALE.

*cry*

Part of me really wants to just keep the binge going. Braum's thinks I'm pretty right? Sugar makes me happy. Dairy and carbs are love.

I hate this part of me so hard.

I think I'm gonna go put some bananas in the freezer, then in the blender. Make myself think I'm getting ice cream.

  

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MDMNINA 2/9/2012 1:49PM

It is HARD isn't it! What was that spell that Hermione used to fix Harry's glasses in "The Sorcerer's Stone"? Oculus Repairum? Report Inappropriate Comment

DMILLER33 2/6/2012 7:18AM

Thank goodness everyday is a new day. The glasses, ugh, so frustrating. Hang in there! We have all done this but you start over. we have lived like this a long time, it will take awhile to undo it. Report Inappropriate Comment

EUPHRATES 2/5/2012 9:16PM

Three steps forward, two steps back is STILL one step forward! Did you improve from the last time you had Papa Murphy's? YES! Did you track even though you didn't like the numbers? YES! Can you pick yourself up, dust yourself off and have a better day tomorrow? YES! Trust me, we ALL have days like that. Just shake it off and move on. Report Inappropriate Comment

DSBRIDE 2/5/2012 6:13PM

Yep, it was a bad day - BUT- it was only one day! Let this be the start of a new week. You've had your binge foods and now it's time to get on track. Don't throw everything away. You did it, learn from it and now move on. You can do this! Take those baby steps, learn one new thing, make it your own so ingrained that you do it automatically. Then do it again with a different thing, till you got them all down pat. BELIEVE! What your head thinks will be what you become. Don't be negative, be positive! Report Inappropriate Comment

STILLAMARINE 2/5/2012 10:59AM

Trust me I know all those feelings! Being sick the last few days all I wanted was my damn comfort food. Huge order of chicken nuggets and fries. Course I didn't get those because wifey decided to go to taco bell instead. So I got a big order of nacho bell grande and 2 tacos. Ugh. Then I couldn't stop munching all day at the house. I wanted more food all dang day. I'm feeling better today so time to swing back around the right way. You can do it! BTW I love smoothies, they are so sweet and yummy tasting. When you get a chance try this one from the Biggest Loser Cookbook http://recipes.sparkpeople.co m/recipe-detail.asp?recipe=276671 I'm a huge fan of it. The whole cookbook is really awesome. We haven't found a recipe yet that we haven't liked. And I am completely scared of my glasses breaking, especially at work. I have an old pair I keep in my patrol bag. They aren't great and they sure ain't pretty but they will get me through til I can get a new pair. Hope your sunday is much better! Report Inappropriate Comment

Some thoughts for today...

Friday, February 03, 2012

"I'm not training for a 5K. I'm not preparing for a competition. I'm not trying to set a new record. I'm not trying to impress you. I'm saving my life."
( picked up from tightdressesandskinnytights.t
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"We have a saying in Tibet: If a problem can be solved, there is no use worrying about it. If it can't be solved, worrying will do no good."
(From 7 Years in Tibet, via SP user Luann_in_PA)

Gain control, lose weight.
Lose control, gain weight.
(Picked up via tightdressesandskinnytights.t
umblr.com/post/16014041025 )
(This one is SOOOOO uncomfortably true.)

Annnd, last but not least, a link to check out about men's vs women's perceptions on an ideal body size for women. botoblog.com/2009/02/15/body-beautif
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ABETTERSOUL 2/3/2012 2:33PM

My husband has always said that "Men like a little meat on their women"...meaning not super skinny. I like the quotes about control! Report Inappropriate Comment

SUNSET09 2/3/2012 2:11PM

Whoo, hoo! Report Inappropriate Comment

JUDITH316 2/3/2012 2:10PM

Thanks for sharing, keep up the great work, you can do it. Report Inappropriate Comment

Getting back into the swing of things

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Not quite as hard as I expected. But mostly because I have baby carrots in the fridge. Thus when I get the urge to graze, I'm not grazing on sugary stuff.

So far today I'm hitting all of my ranges but calories. Means I can graze a little more before I go to bed. Yay!

  

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MERRYCAKES 1/30/2012 2:21PM

Yum, I love baby carrots :) For a little extra protein - maybe try making dip with Greek yogurt (or even regular nonfat yogurt - Greek is nice because it's creamier and higher in protein). Just add in your favorite spices or one of those Lipton's Onion Soup mix. It's delicious with crudites, anything from celery to jicama :) Some other good snacks: hard boiled eggs, string cheese, pre-sliced cheese (to help with portions). Good luck! Report Inappropriate Comment

ACES4LILAH 1/30/2012 2:21PM

I LOVE LOVE LOVE Cucumbers. I slice them up and eat them like chips. Good luck! I know you can do it! I finally kicked my rear in gear and have lost 6 pounds so far, and if I can do it (and I love to snack also) then I know you can do it too! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

SKITTLESINSOCKS 1/29/2012 10:53PM

Oh, peanut butter is a BAD idea. I always have trouble staying in my fat range. 9 days out of 10 I end up over on fat & carbs and under on protein. I seriously LOVE peanut butter, but it's fairly high in fat so it is strictly rationed. And yeah, apples are great. They are another happy grazer food. Also celery, but it requires dressing... Report Inappropriate Comment

ROOTIHAUSMAN 1/29/2012 10:18PM

Apples fill you up too and you can add a little peanut butter! Keep up the great job! Report Inappropriate Comment

Well then.

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Yeah. Obviously I've been gone for a while. I haven't even looked at a scale since before Thanksgiving.

I gained 20 pounds.

Holy shiiiiiiiit.

*climbs back on the wagon in shame*

  

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MALIAN1 1/29/2012 10:52AM

We are so glad you are back....you CAN do it! We are here for you!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

RSUEBARU 1/28/2012 12:46PM

Welcome back! No lie, that extra 20lbs isn't going to be easy, but the first step is dropping the shame. Get over it and get on with it! YOU CAN DO IT! Report Inappropriate Comment