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Working that sexy red dress!!!!

Sunday, October 07, 2012

Well my friends, a few weeks ago I posted about 2 dresses that I bought for my 20th high school reunion. Then after I got them I went into a slump where I gained some weight due to water retention in my legs. I was depressed then had self-doubt about those two dresses. Both were the same style, one black that was the larger of the two and the other was red and smaller than the black one. I wanted to wear the red one for two reasons. 1.) Obviously because it was the smaller of the two and 2.) For once I wanted to be noticed. I didn't want to be the typical black dress. I wanted to be bold and daring. Well I thought after my slumpy weeks that I would have to wear the black dress but when I tried it on the day before the reunion to my surprise the black one was frumpy looking. IT WAS TOO BIG!!! I felt like I was wearing a curtain!

The red one was a touch too revealing on the imprefections but hey that's what Spanx is for right?? So I wore that sexy little dress, emoticon I looked good, and felt good!! I walked with confidence because I had achieved my goal of fitting into that sexy little number!!! emoticon

Even though the struggles I have had the past few weeks. I was ready to quit out of frustration but I stuck to it because I knew if I gave up and gave in I would definitely not be meeting any of my goals. So I had my pity party got up brushed myself off and hammered down the work outs changing up my routine a bit. I ended up dropping the last 2 pounds that I had gained but I guess I had accomplished some toning because the dress didn't fit before at my current weight but now it does. It is all about persistance. So if you are reading this and struggling. Hammer down and do it!! Don't look back, keep looking forward and work it. Just make little changes even when you don't feel up to it. Keep working out, keeping tracking what you are eating. If you had a rough day, FORGET ABOUT IT!!! Tomorrow or heck even your next meal is a better day! emoticon

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PENNYSAVER2 10/7/2012 4:07PM

    Alright, Way to Go!! emoticon emoticon

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Stalled out...

Saturday, September 29, 2012

I'm trying not to focus on the numbers. I know I need to focus on doing what I need to do. It happens every time, I eat right I exercise and my body will not release the weight. Last week I gained 3#'s due to fluid retention in my legs that I discovered was attributed to my sodium intake. I fixed that and kept trucking. I'm at a loss. Of the 3#'s of fluid I gained, I only lost 1 # of it this week, but whereas the pounds went up the inches came down last week. Now the pounds went down but the inches went up. emoticon

I'm honestly struggling right now. Wondering am I going to be defeated again? I had a goal I just wanted to be out of the 280#'s by the time my 20th high school reunion came around. That date is now a week away and at 287....I know that goal is not possible. The failure voices are creeping inside my head. Yet another goal I failed to meet. The good and evil voices in my head are battling. You can do this vs. your going to fail again..because you always do.

I'm not a two faced person. I'm not going to "pretend" everything is good because it is not. I look at my husband who is doing this juice diet and has been since I started SP again. He has lost 20#'s. I eat healthy and exercising my butt off and I've been bouncing between 15#'s only at 13#'s. I try to focus on me because I know what he is doing will not last, and it is not healthy. At the same time, who am I to tell him that, when what he is doing is working. It's not fair. I'm sorry but it is not! I know men lose weight faster than women. I know he is losing because of calorie restriction and he is losing muscle b/c the only protein he gets is in the chia seeds he puts in his juice. I know not to put all my eggs into the basket of the emoticon

I KNOW to stay focus on other factors: how I feel, how I look, what I'm accomplishing, where I'm going, how it makes me feel when I make better choices. This week those factors themselves are a struggle. I hit my targets and yet since Wednesday I'm running out of steam, I feel blah, I don't have that WOW factor when I look in the mirror, my confidence is dwindling this week, and I don't know why. I'm struggling to eat enough calories to keep up with my calorie burn but I make sure I hit in the middle. Even if it is just eating a tablespoon of almond butter to get me to that range. I hit my targets, food, excercise, water, fruits and veggies...check check check check. I keep telling myself hang in there, its a plateau, or it is just this or that. I can't help but wonder am I doing something wrong?

So, once again, I'm going to brush myself off. I'm not giving up. I'm not going to veg out. I'm going to keep on pressing, keep moving forward. Because I know if I stop, I'll go back to where I was and the cycle will begin again. I know I must continue on this track I have laid before me, because it is the path to my future, to my goals.

(slow and steady wins the race) emoticon emoticon

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EMMACORY 9/29/2012 11:47AM

    I feel your frustration! I too struggle with much of what you say. Like you, I am trusting the process/program to deliver in the long run. You are making good choices each day. You are creating a healthy life-style.

Instead of focusing on the weight you had wished for your high school reunion, what else can you focus on? Will you be glad to re-connect? Talk about children, jobs, travels? Maybe if you think about some conversations you want to have you will lift your spirits and those whom you will be encountering.

Let us enjoy life at every moment. You are worth it. emoticon

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How I've changed....

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

This last month I have adopted new healthier eating habits, starting excercising regularly. How has my body changed when the scale has had it's less friendly days?


1.) I'm working out regulary and I am determined to walk further or walk quicker than the day before.
2.) I make time for me! I make time to eat healthy foods, I make time for me to excercise, I make time to do SP everyday. I have daily goals, track, track and track! Track my food, track my excercise, track my fruit/veggies and water.
3.) I feel empowered that I'm making a difference with my body, even on days that the scale doesn't say so. I know I'm eating healthier and my body is getting stronger b/c of the hard work and sacrifices I'm making daily.

Bad (Yes there are some):

1.) I'm tired!!!! By the evening, I'm exhausted and would LOVE to go to bed at 7:00 but I have a family to take care of. In order to have my me time around my family, I have to stay up late to finish up my SP tracking! By the time, my family goes to bed and I clean house and track SP, I'm heading for bed at 11:00pm or later! UGH! I have logged during the day my breakfast and lunch but I don't get around to doing spark coach and logging dinner until night time after everyone has gone to bed.

This is to remind myself. Think of how far you have come? From getting out of breath just talking to people to now you are walking 2 miles almost everyday!! One step at a time you are getting stronger! Your clothes are feeling better and look better on your body. Your nails are growing stronger and faster! Overall you have more energy. You long to go walking on days you plan to rest! You are awesome!!! Now keep pushing!!! You can do this! One step at a time!

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TRYINGTOLOSE64 9/26/2012 9:29PM

    Baby steps are the way to go.. Try and stay away from weighing daily, that will only add unneeded stress. Afterall one has to burn 3,500 more calories then they intake to lose a pound.

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The scale was not my friend but the tape measure was...

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Today was weigh in day. emoticon I knew what to expect. I have had swelling legs and feet this week due to fluid collecting in my legs. I think it is sodium triggered. I don't eat alot of salt, but discovered there is a lot of sodium in healthy foods from pita breads, to turkey meat, and don't even get me started on the cottage cheese!!! Oh my!!! So now I'm monitoring that nutrient.

Well sure enough, the scale was 3#'S up today, emoticon ......even though I walked over 7 miles this week emoticon , even though I burned over 2000 calories emoticon . I wasn't depressed though...I have been here before. It sucks but it is what it is. So I broke out the tape measure and every measurement went down expect my hips and it stayed the same. Yeah Buddy!!! Not too shabby!!! Fat cells enjoy it while you can because existence is coming to an end in this body!! emoticon


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PLATINUM755 9/22/2012 11:36PM

    That's the attitude...rotate the way you measure your they say, there's more than one way to skin a cat. emoticon

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NANCYRUBIO 9/22/2012 11:33PM

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Looked at myself today in the mirror and said OH WOW!! :)

Friday, September 21, 2012

I have only lost 15 #'s but I feel amazing. For the first time ever, I'm drinking water regularly. My fitness and water goals daily are met. I do not go to bed until I meet them. I guess maybe I have a little OCD when it comes to these goals because I struggle with them so many times. I can't let theses goals go unmet/unfinished any one day.

Yesterday, I got my first compliment. God must have known I needed it because I've been so down b/c my legs are swelling with fluid. I'm not sure why, but it has happened before and I was diagnosed with serum sickness due to antiobiotics I was taking. I gained 20#'s of fluid in about 5 days time. It took MONTHS for that weight to go away. So when my legs started swelling my fear set it. I immediately drew myself to spark coach only to find lesson on the little things we can focus on when the scale isn't our friend. Well after my compliment I got a pep in my step. Then the high school reunion dress I ordered came in and i put it on and looked at myself and said OH WOW!!!

I had fears of this dress looking horrific on my fat ladden body but when I put it on.....all the sweat and hard work, revealed a slightly more slender body and my booty is smaller too!! emoticon Then today I'm getting dressed and my shirt feels a little bigger but my pants don't, but when I looked in the mriror I say myself and so OH WOW!!! My belly isn't as big either!!!

Then when I changed clothes this evening to head to a class I teach at my church I looked in the mirror and said OH WOW!!! My 'muffin' top is so much smaller!!!! The scale isn't moving, as a matter of fact tomorrow morning is weigh day and I'm sure my weight will go up b/c of the fluid collecting in my legs....but it is ok because I'M AMAZING!!! I feel amazing, I'm looking amazing, and I'm going to keep on pushing!!


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GOLFGMA 9/22/2012 7:23AM

    You have the right attitude and you are going to look so good at that reunion! Happy that you are doing well in spite of the fluid in your legs. Hope you get to the cause of that and emoticon

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