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Have you noticed your lifestyle changes?

Thursday, September 23, 2010

So I always have the mentality of doing things with an intensity that you can carry on for the rest of your life... because of that I guess I don't really notice a lot of the changes that happen with my body that don't show up on the scale or my jeans. After all changing your lifestyle is what this is all about right?

One of the biggest things that has changed is what I eat. It just amazes me and will probably amaze you too. So this is list of things that I honestly NEVER even tried until 2 years ago.. imagine what i ate on a daily basis without these foods.'

- salad (i would seriously gag...)
- carrots
- strawberries
- apples
- clementines
- ground turkey
- any nuts
- oatmeal
- unmarinated grilled chicken
- any vegetable for that matter.. not even canned corn
- green tea
- coffee

ok.. so the list isn't that big. maybe this list is better. this is what i ONLY ate until 2 years ago:

- mac n' cheese from a box
- tv dinners (SmartOnes)
- lean pockets
- spaghetti
- burgers
- pizza
- chicken nuggets
- canned peaches or canned mandarin oranges
- fast food for 3-5 meals/week..
- a candy bar every day
- bottle of soda every day

i honestly ate like a 5 year old.. the 5 food groups i called them: chicken nuggets, spaghetti, pizza, mac n' cheese, and burgers. that was either lunch or dinner every day. if i added fruit, it was from a can. veggies were non-existent. and i wouldn't dare try something out of those familiars. i try new things at least once a month now. it doesn't really phase me anymore. i guess that's a lifestyle change... i need to take this approach to water. i still can't drink more than 4 glasses of water a day. it's something i have to consciously think about.

i'm glad i didn't gain any weight in boston but it's also frustrating because i haven't lost anything being home and training every day, keeping track of everything i eat and constantly scrutinizing and planning meals. i almost want to just not care anymore.

i'm starting to become complacent in my weight.. really questioning if its even possible for my body to get below 140.

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AMOREME4EVA 9/25/2010 10:31PM

    I'm definitely where you're at right now. I've been able to maintain and have thought about "just not caring" since my lifestyle has changed in the couple years i've been on spark... However, I did that before (just like JULIANAM said) and I gained back 10 lbs. Keep working at healthy eating, don't beat yourself up, and whatever u do enjoy your life!! Think about you and what's best for you emoticon

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JULIANAM 9/23/2010 3:32PM

    you can definitely do it, I know you can!! persistence is all that it will take, you may not have gained since you were only gone for a few days and you were doing so well before but if you stop caring you know you will gain (I have the same problem where if I don't gain from cheating then I think it's ok and keep cheating and that's how I gained these last 15 lbs :( I know it sucks to not see the scale go down after hard work but you are doing awesome and it will eventually show!! keep up the great work!

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NINJAGIRL2008 9/23/2010 2:57PM

    Don't give up! I know it's really hard when you hit a plateau. Cut yourself some slack, but don't give up. It sounds like you've already developed some healthy eating habits, so if you keep up with that you won't backslide. I don't know what your healthy weight range is, but if 140 is in it, you will get there eventually. Hang in there! emoticon

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I had to break up with J...

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

and it sucks. This past weekend I was in Boston for a school trip and it was a blast but I didn't hear from him all weekend. Not a single phone call or text message for 3 days. It also happened to be his birthday on Sunday so I knew he'd be out partying. And apparently never thought of me once. On Monday flying back I knew I had to end things with him. And it's crushing me right now.

He doesn't want a serious relationship. I've heard that before. That means I'm not the one. I'm not important enough to him to want to keep me around and in your thoughts. Since classes have started I've barely seen him. We haven't been talking about anything really at all, just more me trying to figure out his schedule and fit my life into his. But he wasn't budging at all to make his fit into mine. I talked to him about this stuff a couple of weeks ago and told myself I had until Boston to decide if he's ready to move on. 3.5 months of dating.. it's time to make it something more than just casual dates. I wanted it. He's a great guy. I am so attracted to him and I have a blast hanging out with him but our journey has just run its course. It needed to end before I got stuck putting all of my effort into something to not get the same in return and then resent him for it.

I've never broken up with someone. Especially someone that I still want to see and talk to and be with every single day. I've always just let it run its course and wait for the guy to break up with me. But this is seriously just as hard. Maybe even harder because I did it. I made the choice. Sometimes I want to take it back. When I think about how I'll never kiss him again or that I shouldn't talk to him to get over it or that when we do hang out again it won't be anything familiar. I feel like this all of this is still hitting me harder than it will for him because he kept me so distant. So this sucks. I needed just to write it out.. Thanks for 'listening.'

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DAISY7777 9/29/2010 1:16PM

    Focus on your workouts and keep on going and as someone else before me said...never settle for less!!!!

Have a great day:)

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MELSY82 9/21/2010 12:25PM

    Never never settle. I know you must be going through hell right now, and I am so sorry. You made the right decision, because you made it based on YOURSELF. You will get through this, and you will be stronger. You are stronger each day, even if you feel weaker, for each day teaches you something new about yourself, something that you can build upon for the rest of your life.

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COURTNEYLEA08 9/21/2010 10:19AM

    Ditto on all previous comments! I think it was probably for the said it yourself, he's not ready for anything serious. You deserve better and when you find "the one" he will always have you in his mind and his heart. That's what you deserve.
I dated a guy for 3 1/2 years in high school and we broke up shortly after going to college. I broke it off with him, but it took us a long time to get over the drama. There were frequent phone calls and arguments over whose fault it was (it was his by the way :0) ) and it took us close to 6 months after our initial breakup to finally cut ties and be done. Its so much harder when it drags on and on. Try to leave it as amicably as possible, eventually you may be friends again. Good luck :)

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CHEWIEKIKI 9/21/2010 10:05AM

    I'd been dating a guy for about 9 months that pushed back all the time that he wasn't "ready" for a serious relationship. But to me, he was the one I'd been looking for for a long time. I figured out, as you did, that maybe I just wasn't the one for him.

I broke up with him. He was actually shocked. But I determined NEVER to speak to him again. I closed the book. He didn't call me, and I didn't call him. It was over. Very low drama. I just decided I deserved to be treated better. I moved on. I dated a few other guys, one a very successful doctor.

Then I had a death in the family. The phone rang the next day, and it was him. He had some of my stuff and wanted to give it to me. It had been 3-4 months of no contact. I said it was a bad time, and I didn't call him back for a few weeks. (Remember, I was DONE with him. I wasn't at all happy about hearing from him. He'd broken my heart, as far as I was concerned.)

When we made arrangements for him to bring me my stuff (which turned out to be a small bag of crap he could have thrown away), he begged to take me to dinner. I said okay, but I wasn't particularly nice. For a couple of months, he pursued. I basically tortured him. Finally, I agreed to stop dating the other guy.

As far as the rest of the story, we were together every day after that (although I made him keep his own place for a year that he never slept in because we basically cohabitated). A year or two later he declared he planned to propose. A year later he did, and a year after that we got married. It's been 3 wonderful years.

So. Whatever happens is for the best. NEVER settle for a guy who doesn't treat you like "the one." When I broke up with him, it wasn't reverse psychology. It wasn't a game. I really moved on. But I guess it was meant to be.

One way or another, you will find the one that you're MEANT to be with. Just concentrate on YOU and YOUR needs. Put yourself first, and the rest will work itself out.

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DSHRUBS3 9/21/2010 9:49AM

    emoticon I'm sorry that you had to end things with him. I commend you for thinking about what you need and realizing that you deserve better!

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All I can say is that it's better to end it earlier, rather than later. And you should never be the one giving all of yourself when your partner is barely giving 1/2 of himself. When you do find the right person - you BOTH will give all of yourselves and neither will be left feeling alone, or discouraged, or resentful because of a lack of returned efforts. You know? When you find the right person - you BOTH will give 100% and it will be magical. Don't settle. Your Mr. Right is out there...but it will likely take some time before you meet him. Until then, enjoy life...enjoy your friends...make memories...and become the best person you can be!!

Best of luck to you!

- Michelle

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SPARKVAMPY2012 9/21/2010 9:24AM

    Sorry to hear about the breakup. But you dont need to be in a relationship that is just a one way street. You will find someone better and someone who will appreciate you and put you first. emoticon stay strong.

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I think my butt is getting bigger!!

Monday, September 13, 2010

Omg... so i just put on my fair of "fat" jeans from last year and they barely fit around my butt. They are fine in the waist, i've got atleast an inch there but holy crap the butt is tight.

during all of my training i've been noticing my stomach get smaller but my jeans were all still too small. now i know what happened.. way too many squats and lunges made my butt grow. it's not a bad thing, i guess i don't mind. but grrhh now i'm just that much farther away from a size 4 which is seeming like ages away!

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LFLFLPLP 9/15/2010 9:27AM

    I'd rather be a 6 with a nice rounded (muscular) rump than a 4 with a flat one. emoticon

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BENJAMINSBABY 9/15/2010 7:56AM

    Haha wow! Good for you though Sara! It's always nice to have a NICE booty, and clearly you've got one! Congrats about the waist being smaller, too! ;)

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WOLFKITTY 9/13/2010 11:44AM

    Likely it didn't grow, it just got rounder!!
That's pretty cool. Hey, though, besides having a more muscular and hot butt, I'm sure that things will even out soon.

Take care,

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Be the best you

Sunday, September 12, 2010

I am in such a good mood right now. The weather is amazing! it's 83 and no humidity. it's just beautiful. unfortunately i have to go to work but thats ok because i have next weekend off.

i didn't lose the weight that i wanted to this week. no idea what happened but the scale didn't budge from monday to friday. so i have to keep on trying. i'm channeling what happened to me when i first personal trained 2 summers ago. i didn't lose any weight for about 6 weeks and then boom it started falling off. 3 weeks later i was down 7 pounds. and after 4 months i lost 20 pounds. so i need to have patience.

all of my tv shows start up next week and i go to boston on thursday. it's J's birthday on sunday and i'll have to miss it but he'll survive. i'll get him some really cool souvenir from boston or harvard or MIT. i dunno.. i'll think of something. Biggest Loser starts this week!! woohoo!!

i'm going to do my BL workouts again.. get to the gym and watch the show on a treadmill or elliptical for the entire 2 hours. burns like 1100-1500 calories! that's enough to kick an extra 1/2 lb of fat to the curb!

i have 4 weeks left of my training and i am gonna make the most of it! aiming for 10 pounds. i need to put a little something extra into my training. i'm gonna start 30 day shred. power through it after my training when i get back to my apartment. then find some time to go on a 20-30 minute run each day also. i know i can do it! like go on a quick run before class at 1 or before dinner at 6. gotta keep my nutrition in check. i have to be the best me.

these next 4 weeks are gonna be a good month. cross your fingers (again) that i finally make it through this 140 wall!

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BENJAMINSBABY 9/12/2010 8:09PM

    You always have such a great attitude and I love it! Ohmygosh I am sooooo excited for BL!!!! YAY! Hope Boston is a blast!

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Can't wait for BL to start!

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

I am so excited that it's almost fall premiere time! Yay for biggest loser back and Thintervention. And today I watched a new show: Hellcats.. I like the cheerleader-y type shows.. I was one so don't judge. Anyways.. um hello skinny little bare bellies all over the place!

Nothing like motivation than seeing lots of skinny people. I am all "fired up" (haha cheerleader phrase) to get serious about my nutrition and kick 12 pounds butt to the curb by the end of my classes. I made chicken and veggies for dinner tonight. Stuck to yogurt and string cheese after lunch. Trying to swear off carbs after lunch, especially since so much of my day happens early now. By 2 in the afternoon, i've already put 9 hours in! wow!

2 whole days until weigh-in.. trying to make them count!

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CHRISTIE_UIOWA 9/8/2010 11:40PM

    I am SO excited for BL!! I saw the preview for hellcats when I was watching top model tonight, but didn't watch it (had to watch america's got talent instead...hehe). Way to go with the healthy food choices--keep up the great work and good luck with your weigh-in! emoticon

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JULIANAM 9/8/2010 11:25PM

    ahh when does biggest loser start?? and I totally want to watch hellcats too haha, I might start Americas Next Top Model too, I watched the beginning of it at the gym and I like the girls this season.
Keep up the good work!!

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