swimsuit..

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

so im sitting in my swimsuit on my bed and i am far from happy.. in a couple hours i'll be meeting up with the new boy to go to the pool. and i look horrible!! my stomach is no where near what i wanted it to be like. god since spring break i've been the same weight!! i thought i'd for sure be around 130 by now. god i wish i was..

but i know that just sitting and wishing for it to happen isn't going to make it happen. so i'm finishing my breakfast, then getting to the gym for a good long workout.. basically until he calls me because who cares if i'm sweating and looking gross, we're getting in a pool soon anyways.

last night i also realized something.. in september 09 i bought a 24 hour pass to my gym. i have used it TWICE since then... like seriously?! and also my free gym membership runs out on july 31st. so july HAS to be my month! my bootcamp to kick as much fat away as i can.

  

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JULIANAM 6/30/2010 10:19AM

you can do it!! i can't wait to catch up with you soon!! Report Inappropriate Comment

NEVIKROSE 6/30/2010 5:54AM

Good for you for taking ownership! Sometimes it's hard to be objective, but remember all the good you've done so far and keep up the momentum. Try creating a gym plan you feel you can stick to as well, twice a week maybe? Report Inappropriate Comment

MELSY82 6/29/2010 4:57PM

I'm sure you are looking so much better than you give yourself credit for!! Think of how far you have come, and where you want to get...you're almost there!! Be proud of yourself girl! Report Inappropriate Comment

CHRISTIE_UIOWA 6/29/2010 3:22PM

dont be too hard on yourself, Im sure you still look great (and your guy, Im sure, thinks so, too). way to go with heading to the gym before the pool. You are going to OWN july, I just know it! Have a great day with your boy and enjoy the pool! Report Inappropriate Comment

MARIMAE2 6/29/2010 2:24PM

You look awesome! I wish I had your hoots! Even when I'm 15lbs heavier I still have none! Plus men fall for confidence more than anything. Last summer at my biggest (160) I met more guys than ever! Report Inappropriate Comment

CLIMBERCHICK14 6/29/2010 12:49PM

You can do it! Kick booty in July and flaunt it in August. Wahoo! Report Inappropriate Comment

SPARKSFLY715 6/29/2010 12:37PM

I bet you're being too hard on yourself and you look Fabulous! make July your month girl! Report Inappropriate Comment

142.0

Monday, June 28, 2010

that's what the scale said this morning.. i went to update my tracker today and it made me think... how many other times have i weighed less than 142.. did i even get that low when i was in italy? so i went back looking through my history of weigh-ins and i'm am real close to never before seen numbers!

i weighed 140.6 once, i got to 141.8 in italy. and i've seen 139.8 on my scale 3 times now after going out and partying and waking up super dehydrated but it's never been real weight loss. i truly feel like i am going to fly through 140 in july. my motivation is building and my control with food is getting much better. last night was the first time i ordered food from work in my god.. like 2 weeks! i've been drinking only water there too.

last week, eating normal portioned meals for lunch and high protein dinners plus 3 - 45 minute workouts in the gym helped me lose 1 real pound. i already did shred today and i'm going to get the gym soon for 10k workout. i'm thinking roasted garlic and herb grilled chicken, brown rice, and stir-fry veggies for dinner tonight cus i'm having a chinese craving. i think all of the walking at my job is helping shed some calories too.

oh! and another thing.. i went out on saturday with all of my friends.. met up with my boys (the crew i hung out with all last fall before i left for italy) and my friend sarah and then my guy and our friend paul showed up a little later. it was really fun night! and all my guy friends got to meet my guy and they got along great! they're from the same hometown and had a lot of similar friends and they're the same age. but cory, one of the guys, said that i'm looking really good. as compared to the fall when he saw me last. woohoo!! all that 30 day shredding is helping me tone up even if i don't feel like i'm smaller or weigh less atleast someone is noticing!

  

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EOLIVIAC 6/30/2010 3:36PM

Good job! You have a lot to be proud of! Report Inappropriate Comment

MELSY82 6/29/2010 4:56PM

Good stuff!! keep yourself motivated & you'll be in 130-land in August!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

SPARKSFLY715 6/28/2010 4:14PM

great job girl.....keep this going and you're going to be where you want in no time! Let's kick the 140's to the curb and bring on those 130's!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

CHRISTIE_UIOWA 6/28/2010 4:09PM

you rock! keep up the great work, and like you said, you will fly through 140 in july! Report Inappropriate Comment

week in review

Friday, June 25, 2010

this week i took control of my weight-loss again after getting back from minnesota. but i also needed to find a balance with life. mon, tues, and thurs i got to the gym for a good 45 minute solid workout. on those days i also did shred at the gym by memory but i need to start doing it at home again too. i go to the gym and get my cardio in and then i come home to do shred and i talk myself out of it because i'm too tired from just going to the gym. but that needs to end. no more excuses.

i did not track my calories like i said i would.. and i'm not sure how i feel about that. i know what to eat when and i feel like that matters more than calories because i know i'm keeping my portions in control. having eggs and fruit for breakfast, pasta and fruit for lunch, and meat and veggies for dinner works really well for body. it loves the balance and i wake up in the morning without the bloat and down a couple a ounces from the previous day.

last wednesday when i went out (i always go out on wednesday for $1 drinks and thursdays off) i met a boy and he is great so far. he asked one of his friends for my number and then called to ask me if that was ok (yay! for the initiative) and wanted to go out friday or saturday. i went to minneapolis for the weekend so he was going to have to wait. instead we texted each other from like 3pm-midnight every day until i got back. i went out with him monday night when i got back and got kinda drunk especially since i had tuesday off. and i shared way too much about myself and was so nervous all day tuesday that i'd messed everything up. but i didn't. and we met up again this wednesday when i went out and he met some of my friends and we had our first kiss, followed by more. amazing. ah, my stomach like twitches when i think about it.

he walked me home that wednesday cus i walked to the bars and slept in an extra bedroom at my apartment. he woke me up at 9:30am crawling into my bed to talk and cuddle and just be lazy until Noon! what boy likes to cuddle and talk in the morning for 3 hours??!! i dunno but it was the best start to my day. i'm sure it's pretty obvious where this is going but i'm trying to take a step back and not just dive in. i'm definitely not fighting it either but i have to move slow.. i've seen him 3 times in 1 week and talked everyday but no real date yet. unfortunately i have to work friday and saturday night this weekend. meeting up at the bars is fine but its hard to talk and super hard to resist drinking. i don't want to go out to them tonight or this weekend.. i just want a movie night. i wish my dvd player was working..

but i need to make breakfast and hit the gym! working tonight.. i hope it goes better than yesterday.. i only made $40. pathetic.

  

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JOYINRUNNING08 6/25/2010 2:12PM

Sounds like you've got a good handle on what is going on. You know how I get myself to shred? Only 20 minutes, only 20 minutes, only 20 minutes---and great rewards. Also, WOOHOO on the boy. Sounds promising, for sure! Report Inappropriate Comment

KAILIIA 6/25/2010 12:31PM

You're back on track, keep working with it and the other details will fall into place. Report Inappropriate Comment

Starting Over

Monday, June 21, 2010

I just came back from an awesome trip to Minneapolis this weekend shopping and going to the beach and now that I am back I am freaking ready. School starts up in 2 months and I am seriously SO darn motivated to see 130 before it starts.

I am sick of being fat.. Seriously sick of it. I'm done drinking away my nights and shoving my face full of cheeseburgers. I can go out and not drink and I can go to restaurants with friends and not eat. I can do this because I want this. I KNOW it's not that hard when I am motivated and I don't let anything get in my way.

I'm going to put my daily checklist on the fridge, make a motivational poster and get my butt in the gym for at least 45 minutes plus do shred. The hardest part is going to be my nutrition but god so help me I swear I will stay in my range every single day. I've been contemplating getting medifast or buying personal training sessions for motivation but that's like $300! I can work that hard if I keep reminding myself of all of the things that I can buy $300 dollars with. Like 2 pairs of size 26 seven jeans so that I never ever get fat again!

Time for breakfast, fruit and egg whites, then off to the gym and some grocery shopping.

Starting Weight: 143
August 20th Goal: 128


.....later in the day. did 8 intervals of 3 min run/2 min walk at the gym - 499 calories.. got my grocery shopping finished, ate lunch, and now i gotta dye my hair before work and shower..

  

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VERONICAMY 6/24/2010 12:03PM

I paid for personal training and it's totally worth the money. The trainer kicks my butt and also gives me motivation to stay on course since I invested a good chunk of money. Buying jeans is also great motivation. Whatever works for you! You can do thiss!! I think a motivation checklist is a great idea, I might make one too. I'm also around 143 right now and want to hit 130 (at least 135) but August so maybe we can motivate eachother :) GOod luck!! You can do it!! Report Inappropriate Comment

BENJAMINSBABY 6/24/2010 11:28AM

You are stellar. And you are going to kick butt! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

JOYINRUNNING08 6/21/2010 2:22PM

DO IT! Report Inappropriate Comment

MELSY82 6/21/2010 2:05PM

Glad to have you fired up!! Start the week off right with the gym tonight, I'll be there right along with you (in spirit..I'll be at my CT gym) Report Inappropriate Comment

JENNY888 6/21/2010 2:01PM

Way to go. Report Inappropriate Comment

PIP103 6/21/2010 1:17PM

Go for it! Report Inappropriate Comment

The best motivation...

Saturday, June 12, 2010

is seeing results. I've been trying to shred as much as I can lately. I keep saying I'm going to start a streak, but then I always skip a day. The most important part though is that I keep doing it when I can instead of looking at it like I failed and now I just shouldn't do it at all.

Tonight when I was blow-drying hair I noticed that my arms looked much more toned. Then I decided to flex and my god there was a definitely line from my shoulder to elbow in both arms and a bump that actually stuck out through all the jiggly fat. I was surprised. And I'm pumped! My nutrition is holding me back. It always does... Why is eating healthy food so hard?

Oh... um maybe because I work 40 hours a week at the fattest, unhealthiest BBQ restaurant in the entire state of Iowa! I've been doing pretty well with avoiding the food and soda but it's still not enough. My weight is right around 144.2. I know it won't take that much time and willpower to drop another 8 pounds before the 4th of July. But I need a plan. And I need to stick to it. I need to stay motivated and obsess over it. I know how to maintain and I know how to lose weight. I'm not one of those slowly lose weight kinda people. I need focus and 150% effort and then I need a break. I like intervals, even when it comes to losing weight. Lose a little kinda fast, maintain and recover, lose a little more, maintain and recover.. You know what they say about intervals?? They blasts more fat, speed up your metabolism for longer after workouts, and improve your speed.

Don't get me wrong, I promote the whole lifestyle change thing whole-heartedly, which I do take seriously but I can't eat sparkling 100% clean ALL of the time, or even 70% of the time. I'm in college, we go to bars and get late night tacos and pizza. I work restaurant hours at weird times without breaks. I've switched a LOT of my habits... like I workout for at least once a week and I only have soda when it's mixed in a drink and even then it's diet. I eat salad all of the time and use ground turkey, brown rice, real fruit, and whole grain breads even when I'm not "dieting."

I love Jamie Eason. I think she and her body are fantastic. But she is disciplined and my god does she work hard! I am just not ready for that yet. There's too much "wildness" I guess you could say that's in my life still. There are tons and tons and tons of temptations everywhere and I'm not going to close myself off from them just to lose some pounds.

I want to reach my goal weight by Thanksgiving. There... I've set a deadline. I need a fixed goal that I need to remember. Something that I need to strive for. I know I can lose weight in school by remembering healthy tips throughout the weeks.

  

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MELSY82 6/19/2010 7:26PM

You WILL hit your goal!! Great job keeping up with the shred too, clealy its working by your muscles Report Inappropriate Comment

BENJAMINSBABY 6/12/2010 12:10PM

Love love love your goal! Wanna know something super cool? After I read this, I went to my start page to recalculate my date by which I want to reach my gw, and I entered in that I want to lose 2lbs a week from my current weight and guess what it suggested as my goal date??? Nov 24th; the day before Thanksgiving!!!! Soooo what I'm getting at here is that I want to reach my gw by Thanksgiving with you!!!!!!! We can totally push each other, yeah? I mean, I DEF have more to lose than you, but to be honest, I think in the end my gw will be more like 115-120 than 110, but who knows! The point is, as always, I am in this with you! I'm going to message you my phone number so we can text motivation to each other! Teehee. Aaaaaand BIG CONGRATS to seeing those arm muscles! Way to go missy!!! You rock! Report Inappropriate Comment