Tuesday, June 29, 2010
so im sitting in my swimsuit on my bed and i am far from happy.. in a couple hours i'll be meeting up with the new boy to go to the pool. and i look horrible!! my stomach is no where near what i wanted it to be like. god since spring break i've been the same weight!! i thought i'd for sure be around 130 by now. god i wish i was..
but i know that just sitting and wishing for it to happen isn't going to make it happen. so i'm finishing my breakfast, then getting to the gym for a good long workout.. basically until he calls me because who cares if i'm sweating and looking gross, we're getting in a pool soon anyways.
last night i also realized something.. in september 09 i bought a 24 hour pass to my gym. i have used it TWICE since then... like seriously?! and also my free gym membership runs out on july 31st. so july HAS to be my month! my bootcamp to kick as much fat away as i can.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
is seeing results. I've been trying to shred as much as I can lately. I keep saying I'm going to start a streak, but then I always skip a day. The most important part though is that I keep doing it when I can instead of looking at it like I failed and now I just shouldn't do it at all.
Tonight when I was blow-drying hair I noticed that my arms looked much more toned. Then I decided to flex and my god there was a definitely line from my shoulder to elbow in both arms and a bump that actually stuck out through all the jiggly fat. I was surprised. And I'm pumped! My nutrition is holding me back. It always does... Why is eating healthy food so hard?
Oh... um maybe because I work 40 hours a week at the fattest, unhealthiest BBQ restaurant in the entire state of Iowa! I've been doing pretty well with avoiding the food and soda but it's still not enough. My weight is right around 144.2. I know it won't take that much time and willpower to drop another 8 pounds before the 4th of July. But I need a plan. And I need to stick to it. I need to stay motivated and obsess over it. I know how to maintain and I know how to lose weight. I'm not one of those slowly lose weight kinda people. I need focus and 150% effort and then I need a break. I like intervals, even when it comes to losing weight. Lose a little kinda fast, maintain and recover, lose a little more, maintain and recover.. You know what they say about intervals?? They blasts more fat, speed up your metabolism for longer after workouts, and improve your speed.
Don't get me wrong, I promote the whole lifestyle change thing whole-heartedly, which I do take seriously but I can't eat sparkling 100% clean ALL of the time, or even 70% of the time. I'm in college, we go to bars and get late night tacos and pizza. I work restaurant hours at weird times without breaks. I've switched a LOT of my habits... like I workout for at least once a week and I only have soda when it's mixed in a drink and even then it's diet. I eat salad all of the time and use ground turkey, brown rice, real fruit, and whole grain breads even when I'm not "dieting."
I love Jamie Eason. I think she and her body are fantastic. But she is disciplined and my god does she work hard! I am just not ready for that yet. There's too much "wildness" I guess you could say that's in my life still. There are tons and tons and tons of temptations everywhere and I'm not going to close myself off from them just to lose some pounds.
I want to reach my goal weight by Thanksgiving. There... I've set a deadline. I need a fixed goal that I need to remember. Something that I need to strive for. I know I can lose weight in school by remembering healthy tips throughout the weeks.
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