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Patience...someday I will get

Thursday, July 05, 2012

I have done so amazingly well on my new way of eating, that I have started to have those unrealistic expectations start up again. Losing 45 pounds in 3 months gets you to expecting that you will always be doing that thru this process and I will continue to visualize and believe that this can happen....but I got to remembering that when I started this weight loss experience yet again, that I would be patient with myself. That was why I put January of 2014 to reach my goal. That would have given me almost 2 years to lose my weight. I have shrunk so fast, that I have had to buy new clothes. My husband and I just sent off our last payment to our last credit card earlier this week so are now officially credit card debt free and its an amazing feeling. To celebrate, he is taking me to a very expensive fancy restaurant in Dallas in 1 month which will also be to celebrate my birthday at the same time. I don't have any dresses that fit me well so I have started to do a little dress shopping. It hasn't been as exciting as I hoped because I am ready to fit into those smaller sizes now. I am at that in between stage where I am too small for womens sizes and right at size 16 for regular sizes...add in that I am pear shaped and this seasons style of dresses...I haven't had too much luck. Then again, I may lose another 10 pounds prior to our date, and that could affect my size I can't really buy anything right now as it is. Needless to stay, I started to get a little frustrated because I wasn't having any luck.

Don't we all suffer from this where we finally take that plunge and decide to get healthy, but we want it to happen in 1 month time...LOL. I have lost weight before and know how good I can look at smaller sizes and I just want to be there now. This is where I need to have that patience. To not let that frustration enter my life. You ask why? Because the more frustrated we become the more stress we add to our situation...and the more stress we add the more resistant we become to losing that weight we so desperately want to come off. We have to remember that this is a journey...not instant teleportation from one point to another. I feel that its for this reason that many of us give up before the journey is done because we lose sight of why we started this.

Remind yourself always that no matter how long it takes, that we deserve to be patient until the very end. That we are not failures because it didn't happen right can and will happen when the universe is ready for it to be so.

I have so many things to be grateful for. I have never been debt free before and its the most amazing feeling in the be getting healthy on top of that and feeling good about myself is also tremendous. Love yourself everyday and give yourself a pat on the back...don't let that scale determine how you feel for the day. We are more than any number on a machine.

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BUGLET- 7/6/2012 10:42AM

    Did you do Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace? If not, it really helps you stay out of debt.
We haven't had credit card debt since 2007. That kind of debt strangles you and is like trying to climb up a hill but slipping often. BTW: You are doing wonderful... emoticon emoticon

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KALANTHA 7/5/2012 9:06PM

    Congratulations on getting rid of that credit card debt! That's a VERY big deal!

A 45 lb weight loss is very impressive too!

You are doing great! Even if you aren't exactly where you want to be yet, you WILL get there. You know how and you're right on it!

Go, girl!

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Monday, June 18, 2012

I love how people in your life will continue to do the same things they always do and complain that nothing ever changes. How do we expect anything to change if we consistently think and do everything the same way. Sorry, but usually it takes one time for me to beat my head against a wall before I figure out that isn't smart.

I used to be one of those people, but doesn't it seem ridiculous that we always feel like the vicitim or that its someone elses fault or circumstances that have made our lives the way they are.

In learning about the Law of Attraction, I began to realize how I too was one of these people and that it wasn't the world or other people that needed to was me. I was a very negative person who always saw the glass as half empty, not half full. I used to blame my upbringing or other people for this but ultimately, we are responsible for the thoughts that we allow in our heads. I was constantly worried about what other people thought about me, constatnly worried that I wouldn't be appreciated at work, etc. I spent most of my life asking myself why.

Its time for us to start saying different things. This is my challenge. I challenge you to stop yourself once you start this pattern and with belief and feeling say to yourself that everything will work out fine and that you are a great person. I want you do this for a solid week. Everytime you catch yourself saying something negative about another person or to yourself, stop and say, everything is fine and they are good people. 1 week is all I ask, and see how everything goes. Those of you that can do it and believe in what you are saying will see things change in even that period of time. Work will suddenly seem to go better, what will start out as problems will end up being no big deal and people will be nicer to you.

Don't you notice that happy person that enters the room? Doesn't laughter usually make you smile? Why don't we allow ourselves to feel love and happiness all the time?

Its more simple than you really is no matter where you are or what your circumstances are....BE HAPPY and BELIEVE that you life will be wonderful and it will.

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BUGLET- 6/19/2012 5:11PM

    It is amazing how your life can change for the better when you look at things in a positive, loving way. The saying is that it's insanity to do things in the same way every time and expect different results. Life is truly what you make it, and thank God we can make it what we want it to be just by thinking positively.

My sister taught me something when she was here and this is it:

As you check out or pay for something, try telling the clerk to take tomorrow off with pay because she deserves it. You could even say that you will talk to their boss to see if you can get them a raise in pay. It's uplifting to see their faces even if they know it's just a joke. It's a joy to see their faces when they think about it.

You can use that line in a lot of situations and it always brings a big smile on their faces

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    So very true... we are what we think and say and I choose to be positive and grateful for all the wonderful things in my life - including wonderful SP friends like YOU!

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Wednesday, June 13, 2012

I woke up extremely excited today and felt that I needed to put my thoughts down for prosperity. I know that my team will already read some of this on my latest entry but I just need to make my feelings more permanent by creating a blog. I am currently doing Dr. Johnsons Alternate Day Diet and the results have been mind blowing for me. A little about my past...I have dieted off and on probably since I was about 19. Once I decide to lose weight I am usually successful. I have lost 55 pounds doing wt watchers. I lost 75 pounds doing low carb and then for my wedding, using sparkpeople, I lost 108 pounds. However, I never enjoyed dieting and was always resentful that I couldn't eat the foods that I really enjoyed. I always excercised religiously and because I was a cross country runner in high school, loved to run. However, my knees hated it and they would swell up and hurt all the time. I also had severe problems with heel spurs or plantar faschia. If I had to get up at night to go to the bathroom, I would have to hobble there holding back my scream of pain so I wouldn't wake up my husband. This has all changed.

I have been doing the diet just by reading Dr. Johnsons site and following the simple instructions. I finally purchased the book and have read about half of it and being a nurse, I love reading about the science behind the diet. I had already realized early on in the process that this diet (way of eating) was different. Getting control has never been my problem, keeping it was. I hated that on other diets, I was constantly thinking about food and having to plan meals..etc, etc. This time, I couldn't really even think about food for one day and since it was so strict was really limited anyway. The second day, if I needed to eat on the run, then it was OK or if I wanted to eat at my favorite restaurant and get my favorite dish, I could. What I wasn't prepared for was how quickly my wieght has come off. I lost 35 pounds in a little over 2 months...basically 8.5 weeks. I have always experienced success, but not that kind of success. The changes my body has gone thru have also been amazing. People at work cannot believe how well I have been doing. They are constantly complimenting me and are also amazed at the results that I am having. My husband and I pulled up an old picture of when I had dieted before to look up how I looked at a specific weight. We both agree that my body looks better this time.

I believe that its the fat burning properties of this diet. Its causing my body to shape in a way that is very pleasing to me and also more satisfactory because its more visible. OK, enough about the surface changes, lets talk about what really struck me. My plantar faschia or heel spurs stopped bothering me about 2 weeks after I had started the diet. Even though I was ramping up my exercise level all the time. Also, amazingly, my knees are not bothering me near as much as they usually do and they are not swelling up. I still have the occasional twinge and going downstairs bothers them a little, but nothing like I usually experience. There were times I wondered if I would be able to make it off the toilet because they hurt that badly. I also had difficulty with excercise asthma. I only experience on episode in the first week of working out and since then have had absolutely no problems. Now that I have read the book some, I realize that its because of this diet. I personally am experiencing the medical benefits that it is touting.

Hence, the reason why I am excited. I recently came back from vacation where because we were with my husbands brother who is a chef in training, we ate out all the time. I did walk quite a bit but still gained 4 pounds. In two days of coming back and being back on plan, I have lost that 4 pounds plus 1. I admit I did 2 down days in a row in an effort to get back on track, but because of my excitement, they were the easiest I have experienced yet.

I am a firm believer that there is a diet plan out there for everyone. I was lucky enough to stumble across this diet because of sparkpeople and the wonderful people that created the team that follows it. This is a way of eating for me and its the first diet I haven't felt deprived accept for one day because I dont the next.

My advice to others however, and I knew this before when dieting other times, that the eating plan you choose MUST be for life. Every diet has a maintenance level, but if you are constantly resentful during the more aggressive stage of the diet, than you will most likely be like me and end up gaining the weight back. There are reasons behind this but I will blog about this at another time. Its not because you are weak, but because of the addictive properties of food...and trust me, they have proven without a doubt that food is addictive.

I wish everyone luck in this journey and hope that like me, you find that perfect plan that suits you. Diets do work when we do them right, its keeping to them thats hard.

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MAMABUGAZ 6/13/2012 9:34AM

    Awesome results, SIONED40. Although I have never followed the plan "as written", I am a big believer in the calorie cycling concepts of Dr. Johnson's Alternate Day Diet. But, 35 pounds in 2 months? That's incredible.

~ Faith

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MEADSBAY 6/13/2012 8:22AM

I am so happy for you and I WILL be exploring this issue.
Right now I am dipping my toes into IF and loving it for many of the same reasons.
It's shockingly easy (see my blog).

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PAPAMIKIE 6/13/2012 7:56AM


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    emoticon Thank you so much for sharing!!

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WALIDGAZALA 6/13/2012 6:46AM

    I think you know all your theory but you donot stick to them
you are in dangerous waters
few years and you probably will not be able to walk not to run

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Thursday, May 03, 2012

Well, I started doing it again. I have been lucky in that most of the time when I choose to start eating right and excercising again, that I am successful. Being dedicated has never been my problem. My problem has been that I get the ball rolling and then I start going crazy loco! Can't not work out or I will feel guilty even though my body is screaming at me to take a rest day so it can heal a little. Watching my calories so much that even 10 calories over and I have FAILED! It was doubly so this time. I had such great success my first month, that I started wanting unrealistic goals. Hence, I was working out even harder and being so strict with my calories I was making myself physically ill. WHY do I do this to myself? Why do any of it any wonder that we burn out and head back to our old habits??? When I started this again, I told everyone that I didn't care if it took me a couple of years to get the weight off, that I just wanted to be healthier. Also, I wanted this to be a new way of life. Believe me when I say that I do not want to live my life like I have this last week. I had to remind myself that I have to enjoy this journey and not hate it every step of the way. I called my husband and best friend and said, I have to stop this. Its INSANITY!! They agreed and I got the needed support to take that step back and become real again. I slept better and feel even better today. At least I am more aware of what I am doing so that I can stop myself before I hit that wall where I can't take it anymore. So if anyone reads this blog, please be patient with yourself. Find the balance that will ensure your success with no time limit. We set ourselves up to feel like we have failed when we haven't. Even a minimal loss is a fantastic one and even though the scale may not move, if we excersized, it was a victory because our heart and lungs are healthier. I am not doing this so I will look great and find my self esteem. I already know that I am a good person, with a good heart and I have so much I already enjoy about life and am exited about. We always control how we one, no matter how hateful or evil should determine our emotions. We can decide to feel good and be happy EVERYDAY no matter what is going on in our lives. We just have to keep telling ourselves during the hard times that everything will work out fine and that we will survive. Here is to talking control back and to enjoying my travel thru this part of my life.

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TMA1913 5/23/2012 7:21AM

    Love reading this! Take one step, one weight, one lb at a time. I somethimes get that mindset. But I told myself that I would reach my goal by December 31, 2012. Stay motivated my friend! We are here for you! emoticon

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MAMABUGAZ 5/18/2012 11:58PM

    Yes; it IS okay if it takes 2 years to lose the weight. And, you do have to step back and be patient with yourself so that you do not hate the journey. If you are having a "hate the journey" day, it might be time to schedule a "no-excerise, splurge on the food" day.

Not a binge day. I don't ever eat more than 2000 calories. Actually, for me 1700 calories is a splurge. (I eat 2 "enough" days of 1200-1500 calories per week. My other 5 days are lower than that.)

Also, remind yourself that your scale will not move every day, or, even every week. Take a longer-term view. If your weight decreases over a month's time, you are successful. Also, take tape measure measurements. If your size is decreasing and your weight is not, it likely just means that you are exchanging fat for muscle.

But; yes. Be patient with yourself.

~ Faith

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    Very true... patience is NOT one of my virtues and I too often am hard on myself when I don't push hard enough but YES sometimes we need to give ourselves a break and a pat on the back for all we ARE doing.

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My journey

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

The title of this blog is to reinforce that this is my journey and no one elses. I have been relatively quiet about the fact that I am choosing a healthier lifestyle and there are reasons behind this. Too often if someone else is being more successful than you, you become discouraged and more apt to quit. Other times, its almost as if others want to see you fail and start offering you options to not be healthy, almost shoving food in your face or encouraging you to skip exercise. Othertimes, people are just critical of your successes making you feel that what you have achieved is not enough. Every victory, no matter how small deserves to be celebrated. I don't need others approval to feel good about myself. I just need to tell myself everyday that I love who I am and want to be the best that I can be. There are things I want to do that require that I be healthier and none of them involve meeting society's standard of beauty. Heck, during the renaisance period, what we consider to be obese was considered the standard of beauty because if you were poor, it meant you didn't have much food. Its so arbitrary. I remember when so many women were dying their hair blond because that was supposed to be the best color to attract men. We need to stop finding reasons to not be satisfied with who we are and we definitely need to stop tying up our self esteem in how attractive we are to everyone. Abraham Lincoln, Albert Einstein, Bill Gates, and Donald Trump are really not that they care? So this blog is to always remember that you are doing this for YOU. I would also recommend that you keep this journey strictly your own. Because of exercise, I have lost several inches and people are starting to notice my change. That starts them asking, how are you doing it? What have you changed? Not to be cold, but they need to find their own motivation and their own way of eating that works for them. Too many times we give up because we try someone elses plan and then give up on it because it doesn't work as well for us or we just plain hate it. Think of this as an exploratory expedition where you aren't sure what you find will be edible, but eventually, you will find what works for you.

So here is to my journey. No map, no road signs and no GPS. Just me and the open road to a healthy life!

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MAMABUGAZ 5/18/2012 11:51PM

    I agree with much of what you said. When others ask me how I lost my weight, I tell them, but, I also tell them:

"You need to make your own plan. Learn about weight loss and nutrition, and find healthy strategies. Keep the ones you like and are willing to follow, and don't feel bad about throwing out the ones that you don't want to do. We all have our own unique personalities, lifestyles and preferences. Someone else's plan won't work for you if you don't follow it. That's why you have to create a plan that you are willing to follow. What worked for me won't necessarily work for you."

That sounds very much like what you said: " they need to find their own motivation and their own way of eating that works for them." (You just did a better job of stating it succinctly!)

I also agree that you have to do it for YOU! Not for someone else. Until that motivation is internal, and not external, it will be very difficult to maintain your focus and your resolve to succeed.

~ Faith

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    Very good philosophy. I journal/blog for my own sake as well - it's a way to vent, and to acknowledge where I am and what I need to do.

What other people think of me is none of my business! emoticon

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BANDAID1006 4/27/2012 9:59AM

    Congratulations on Making this about you! Keeping the focus on you personally is what many forget. (me included) thanks for the reminder! emoticon

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TMA1913 4/26/2012 1:08PM

    Love it! I am a on the same page. I have friends that are thinner, more successful etc. I am just doing enjoying this journey. This time for me and me only!

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